DS,

I don't want to seem too obsessed... well... actually I don't care. I really, really need another chapter. I tried to be patient, but my hands are shaking and I'm starting to sweat, if I don't get another hit soon I'll just scream... Fox xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Re: Chapter 27.

Oh, you bastard.  You magnificent bastard.^_^

Whoa...stop the bus and hold the phone. Are we experiencing a tumbleweed moment here? I know I've read this chapter twice and the second time was from behind the sofa a la Dr Who or Sheerluck! What a sick little puppy these Northern lads can be!!!!  Hmmmmm...hard to forgive, though not impossible given his crappy upbringing/life etc. But to want to impose this punishment on St Lily? And really how careless was he in "losing" his book. Unless of course it was DD who found it. See I've still got it in for him. OK...I trust you........ to a point. Heehee....still loving it and in for the very bumpy ride. Best wishes, Love Ali xxxxx.......from white and snowy Lancashire.

Wow, just wow. 

First off, thank you for your incredibly quick updates. I have no idea how you have a life and are able to update so consistently. But how can you do this to us! The cliff hangers and emotions. I love/hate it :) I check at least twice a day for your updates, I'm not a very patient person lol. 

DS!

What have you done! 

It is so bloody sad. I feel sorry for the both of them. 

I fully understand where she's coming from. As a person so full of compassion, willing to sacrifice herself for others, working hard to see those around her protected, safe and happy... I'm sure she can't understand how someone can even think such a thought. Accepting, that someone is different is not the same as understanding. I am similar to this Hermione, but I have more control over my responses... I had a situation with my friend, who's reaction to an argument with someone else shocked me so much, I was numb for days. It seriously made me question our friendship, my safety and her mental state. I really understand Hermione fully and on a top of that she gave away ber body, heart and soul to him, it makes it so much worse. I can tell she feels cheated and used.

On the other hand, my heart just shattered seeing his tears. He was an angry young man, with his life being so miserable and difficult, then having someone betray him... I don't like Lily, I never did. I know, you can't order your heart around, but the way she "dumped" Severus and turned her back on him is telling. I believe she used him, knowing very well how he felt about her. Out of all the psychological debates on nature and nurture... I think it's a combination of both to a different degree with different people and with a different result. He had a horrible upbringing and cultivated his hurt and anger for too long, that, iced with his fascination in darkness and there we have it... a monster. But even a fractured soul can reach the light and he has changed and he is trying to pay for his mistakes with tears, blood and pain. He doesn't deserve to be alone.

I hope Hermione can find it in her heart to forgive him soon, otherwise it will crush her soul too, not mentioning the heart.

I have to congratulate you on your writing. Sometimes there are fireworks and explosions, fits of giggles and tears of mirth, today my heart caved in, but I have a faith in you. I know you can fix it, so please do. I am on my bed, writing this review, outside snow is falling, the view is so serene it soothes my aching heart. You know what to do ;)

Ohh and when I asked why Hermione didn't suffer the punishment with Severus, I meant the first time when she "collapsed" and he suffered alone. So why she suffered together with Lucius and didn't with Severus back then? 

Thank you for the chapter.

Fox xx

Please resolve this! Don't leave them (or us) like this for long!!  

Wow. :-( I am really glad you said not to lose hope, because that was heartbreaking all around. I feel horrible for her, especially as it did all play out as planned. UGH! But, I also feel terribly for him, since this time he is being punished horribly (mentally and emotionally) for something he didn't ever think would see the light of day. I must admit though, that was a DARK and HORRIBLE and EVIL punishment that came out of that teen version of him. Again, I say, WOW! HG4eva

 Holy fuck! That's so messed up and sad. I feel bad for both of them (once again). And what a horribly perfect time to admit you love someone.

But I guess this could be partially chalked up to their age difference. Severus is old enough to know life is full of mistakes and rarely goes the way you'd like; while Hermione is still young enough that she hasn't seen what the world's really like. I don't blame her for being disgusted--the idea was despicable--but there's something to be said for leaving the past in the past. People change. It's great to have unflinching principles, but forgiveness can be handy too. (Not that I'm a purveyor of graciousness; lord knows I like to hold a grudge.) So now you've trapped me in a purgatory of feels. I see both sides all too well. Of course I hope something happens so that Severus can prove his devotion to her.

Self-sacrifice is so final though, isn't it?

And I promise to read the rest as soon as I finish my madness - I'm giving advantage to your madness anytime ;D

always, and yes, cookie jar is always full :) - hmmmmmmmm, yum ;)

Slytherin green perhaps? - and silver, place of the bow...I'll leave that to your imagination...I'm certain you won't disappoint ;)

she arrived, and now I’m a mess :/ - sorry to say, but this time, I'm not feeling guilty, I needed to know! Tho, now I'm feeling like I was hit with "be careful what you wish for..."

“I was . . . angry.” - ok this explained mostly everything about enchantments creation, reason behind it...

“It wasn’t intended to be seen at all. It was a . . . a fantasy written by a jealous and enraged young man. A fictional punishment. I’m equally disgusted by it now. But . . . at the time I was trying to reconcile . . . pain and betrayal. I just . . .” - just so you know, you made me cry

That eventually, over time, she would fall in love with you. Just like . . .” / Her hand flew to her mouth in an attempt to stifle the sob. He was there, arms around her but she pushed him away, lunging up from the chair.  - does she have problem with him creating the enchantment or with jealousy? 

She opened her eyes to see the tears in his. - you are killing me :'(

“You deserve to be alone,” she ground out bitterly. - ok, have you any idea how I hate her in this moment? 

“And yet for the first time in my life, I’d let myself believe that it wasn’t the case. I never thought I’d be able to escape it . . . my abhorrent past. But these months . . . with you . . . admittedly of deception, of delusion . . . have been the best of my life. I’m undeserving of it . . . as you now know but I am . . . grateful. I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I’m sorry that you feel this was all a set up—a lie. But know . . . my feelings are real. Hermione, I love you.” / His tears were falling freely. - I know I'm bit hormonal today, but...my hun is convinced someone died, I am, literally, reading and re-reading this chapter with a pack of tissues :'''''(

 “I’m leaving . . . And please don’t follow me,” she rasped. “I don’t want to see you again.” - can we end the enchantment? I'm volunteering her as sacrifice.... I know everything but...just....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... What the fuck is her problem? He argued for her to be even included, in front of her, at the beginning. He never forced her to do anything. He was, ready to die to protect her. And he is a fucking Death Eater, what is she...blind or dumb? It is expected that he is not goody-two-shoes! Well, I do hope he won't follow, and I do hope she runs in to Draco... (I know I'm mean and petty, and I don't care - she is just cruel to him...)....

Ok, rant is over. And I'm sorry for ranting but...I....just... :'(

I'm waiting for next chapter, let it be soon....

Hi DS,

I've checked for the update about 6 times from yesterday... :( it was my day off... can you tell?

I (don't) hate to be a pain in the back side, as I have no shame. Hurry!

Fox xx

Chapter 26.

I think it’s that surly but quite deliciously sarcastic beast haunting the dungeons -that is an amazing description, honestly bullseye!

throbbing like a nuclear reactor -that sounds great

Only then did he fully unleash himself on her -shivers run through me... he sounds like my kind of man! Can't breath...

Gods! Sex was so hot, totally my cup of tea!

Yes . . . it was quite a severe . . . punishment -hahahaha, oh Harry if you only knew...

And then: I devised the enchantment . . . for myself -what?! I mean...what?! What the fuck does that mean? Am I missing something? Were there any hints of such a thing? This one phrase left me so agitated...how am I suppose to sleep now? It's 00:49 AM... your fault. 

I don't know what to think. You better hurry up with the next chapter...I'll be checking every 2 hours.

Thank you for the excitement.

Fox xx

Chapter 25.

This chapter is absolutely briliant. A perfect mixture of sweet, sexy and funny:

This is the happiest I’ve been in my life -definitely sweet, shockingly honest, ok not so shockingly -after everything, well... maybe a little shockingly -it's still Snape after all...

She wanted to eat him up, right there, lips first -that goes to 'sexy' basket and I know how she feels.

You . . . are one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever met -I mean, what is it if not sweet? I can imagine he didn't hear words like that very often -if ever.

I was going to say ‘nose’ actually -hahahaha this must be the funniest phrase of the chapter!

She decided to throw in a couple of breast poses to assist him -so funny! I can really see it, Hermione and her breast photoshoot poses!

Also I like your take on Parvati very much ;-)

Fox xx

OK...so now Sev (and you ) have a bit of explaining to do. I'm thick so I'm unable to fathom why he made/designed the enchantment...for himself. I understand he is a great spell maker/designer as was evident from his potions text book and that others went on to use his spells. I think I recall from an earlier chapter that Hermione may have already enquired this of him and he answered that she was way off the mark, which made me suspicious that DD was somehow behind it. You know...maybe to weaken the Death-Eaters after the initial euphoria of having carte blanche to rape and pillage as many Muggles as possible. Hmm...much to ponder over and conjugate. BTW.....I have the lurgy and am high on Night Nurse which probably accounts for my havering. I do agree with you though a vanilla slice is more magical than a cauldron cake or a pumpkin pasty. They sound disgusting. Best wishes, Love...a soon to be snowbound.... Ali xxxxx.

Dear DS,

To answer your question: To have someone watch me masturbate would make it better in most cases -especially if that someone is trying not to be seen... 

Now Chapter 24 (I hate being behind!)

It's nice Albus and Minerva see budding love, I believe, they realised Hermione HAD to try to save him. On the other hand they didn't seem all that worried how she's going to do that...? It seems that it was entirely her plan and her preparations.

How is it, that she suffered punishment of the enchantment? She didn't with Severus. Of course the story is more interesting this way... 

I can't imagine the state of mind of the person preparing for painful and violent death, because the alternative of asking for help seems worse... my brain cannot contain it.  The phrase her final words had slain him I don't know exactly what is so special about it, but I love it.

Sing -hahaha so funny and sweet, the whole scene is absolutely cute! I hope cute is ok with you.

It felt tenuous and potentially transient but also like a gift—one that he’d never expected to receive again in his life -and another depressive thought, beautifully written, but sad.

The caring, the healing, the lovemaking -lovely chapter and again you didn't disappoint, I got my wish and Severus got a little happiness :-)  

Of course. You’re mine -Is. Of course. The best.

Fox xx

Don don DON!!

was your Severus ever in love with lily?