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Vow of Silence	By : JojiSada Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Threesomes/Moresomes Views: 4385 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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**Song is in italics and is called Waiting for the Darkness by Ozzy Osbourne. It is incorporated into the story so if a line in normal script doesn’t make sense, read the song lyric prior to it and it will.
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I took a vow of silence.
My beloved books have taken residence upon the floor, the dust collecting on their bindings. My once brilliant mind is blank with nothing more darkness.
The world has become grey. I no longer see the difference in colors. I do not differentiate based on something so trivial anymore.
I am color blind.
And I only wished it had happened much sooner than this.
Waiting for darkness

Why doesn't anybody see, now

Deafened by silence

Why doesn't anybody hear
No one seems to notice me anymore. My brilliance is forgotten and my heart has faded with time. They walk past me each day but I never attract attention.
I don’t call out to them like I once had. I don’t berate them for their actions or offer advice and a shoulder to cry on. I do nothing but watch.
Why?
Because it is not mine to give.
They do not ask of it and I do not offer it.
Why?
Because I have no voice.
I’m waiting for darkness
The silence makes time pass by slowly; or, what sense of time I have left.
The loneliness has left me wavering between insanity and contentment.
Playing with fire

But they're screaming when they're burned, yeah

Out of the sunlight

Hasn't anybody learned
I never paid attention to much beyond the pages of my books. I believed, quite naively, that the world was built on knowledge only gleaned from the pages of the library.
I never realized how much I had missed.
I never watched to see the sun rise nor the rain fall. I used to scoff when my best friend did. I never understood, until know, what was so exhilarating about the wind, the sky, and life.

I no longer question him about such things. And again, I never will. Because I am silent.
That will never change.
I know what they'll find

It's in their mind
They try to block me out, but they can’t. They know they are not guilt free in anything and for once, I feel no pity for my friends. Let them lose themselves in their own mind and I lose myself in their silence—my silence—our silence.
It's what they want to see

Spare me from the light
I lurk in the shadows; watching. There is nothing I do not see. I’ve learned well. Years of war have conditioned me to see everything.
And even in scales of grey, I know my surroundings better than I know my own reflection.
Better than I know myself.
Here in the darkness.
Here comes the night

And here I'll stay
I will never give them anything. My voice will never sound again. Never to ask a question because there are none left. I know all I will ever need to know.
And I learned none of it from my books.
I'm waiting for darkness
No, I am waiting for peace.
Promise me rebirth
But I may not take it.
And then you tear me from the womb
I will never be forced into anything again.
Give me my freedom
I am demanding but I know it will never truly be within my reach again.
And then you lock me in a tomb
You have.
In a tomb of silence.

I know what they'll find

It’s in their mind
I haunt their dreams. My mind and my name may be forgotten by the world, pushed beneath the proverbial rug, but they will never be rid of me.
I will never make it so easy.
It's what they want to see

Spare me from the light
They look in the mirror and there I am. I am hidden in their eyes, their hands, their life.
Haunting.
Taunting.
Silently.
Here comes the night

And here I'll stay
Try again and I will help them. Try again and they will fail. I will not lose control again.
Waiting for darkness
You are scoffing me. You are sitting there, reading this, rightly confused at my state and you are mocking me.
You cannot believe I feel such anger—such hate.
Surely no Gryffindor can ever feel it so passionately.
You’re wrong.
Because I am out for revenge.
And, I am no Gryffindor.
You gotta believe it's true
I really do not care if you believe me.   If you don’t, you will soon enough.
I'm waiting for darkness

I just can't conceive
The world has taught me a great many things. Many things, excluding this.
Why darkness is overdue
It is overdue because I have not beckoned it. I am waiting for it, but I am not ready to leave yet.
Who knows the answers
The Boy-Who-Lived-Again and his Weasel Whore. Both men hold one secret from the world.
Is it friend or is it foe
I cannot call them friends.
I cannot call them men.
I cannot call them anything.
Don't ask me questions
I will not answer your questions.
I took a vow of silence.
There are things you should not know
I took a vow of silence….
The night they murdered me.
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A/N: This came out of nowhere while I was cleaning house. So, I sat down and wrote it….I think I even scared myself. Funny how the oddest things hit you at the oddest times. Anyway, please leave a little note.
O0o, and a huge thanks to MV for all her great ideas. Thanks Hun.
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