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Chapter 10: The Cause of Their Pain

"It's all over," I sobbed into Harry's chest. His shirt was all wet from my tears and I felt really bad for ruining it.

"It's over? Did you two break up?" Ginny asked me, softly.

I nodded my head. "He told me that I must have shagged half the guys in school which is why I'm so good in bed and that I was just a...a mudblood whore!" I yelled, and then cried some more.

"The nerve! He never deserved you, Hermione," Harry said angrily. "Wait till I get my hands on him," he began, his body shaking with fury.

I wiped my tears. "No Harry. You won't do anything. Just leave it. Forget all about it," I told him. I didn't want Draco to get hurt. I was angry that he wasn't listening to me, but I still loved him. I wouldn't bear to see him hurt, because of me anymore than he already is.

"Ha! I told you Draco would break your heart and now he did," I heard Ron say behind me. I was trembling with fury again. Pushing Harry away I stood up, my brown eyes must be red and I felt as though steam was coming out of my ears.

How dare he? How dare he say that Draco would break my heart when it was me who broke both his and mine? It was Ron. He cursed my relationship with Draco. It's his entire fault.

I pointed a finger at Ron. "You!" I cried out. "It was you! You never accepted the fact that Draco could love me. You were just jealous that I was with Draco and not you, so you made it a plan to separate me from him. Well, are you happy now? Are you happy to see me like this? It's over between Draco and me. So go and do a victorious dance. I'm sure you're head over heals in happiness," I said, bitterly and then turned around to stop anymore tears from flowing. I didn't want to show Ron I was weak. Showing Harry, Ginny, Blaise, and Draco my tears were enough, no one else needed to see them.

I turned to Ginny and told her, "I'm going now. I'll see you in dinner." With that I pushed passed Ron and walked out the portrait and headed to my sanctuary, the library. The library was the only place I could go where I could let go of everything and just relax. It was the only place still untainted by anyone, including Draco. Yeah, it was a shelter from the outside world and in it, I could get free from my own too.

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In the library, I submerged myself in books. I didn't have homework, having done it all yesterday before the party, so I just began to read trivial things. When I got bored, I just reread my favorite, worn out and very old book, Hogwarts: A History. I didn't know when my eyelids dropped, but I guess I fell asleep pretty soon, with my head buried in my book. Not sleeping a wink last night must have pretty much worn me out, and my eyes were tired, and just wanted to rest.
I woke up soon after, because of a hand gently shaking my shoulder. "Hermione?" the voice sounded familiar. It was a male voice, nervous and timid, nervous... that could only mean one person. When I opened my eyes and lifted my head from my books, I came face to face with Neville. The last person I wanted to see right now.

When I didn't greet him in anyway, he just began to talk or stutter is more like it. "I'm...sorry Hermione. I didn't know I had to...to kiss you. I don't know...know if there's something between you and... and Malfoy...but, I'm sorry if I ruined it. I really...really like you, but I never meant you any harm," he told me.

I just blinked and stared at him not knowing what to say. Here was the person because of whom Draco and I, now, not together anymore, but I knew as much as he did that it wasn't his fault. It was mine for actually going along with the dare. I shouldn't have agreed. If I said no what would've happened? The most that would happen is the lot would ridicule me, but they'd forget the next day, But by agreeing to the dare, I ruined it all.

"It's okay, Neville," I heard myself say. "Could you just leave me alone for now?" He looked relieved that I forgave him and quickly left me there to bury myself in my sorrow.

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At Dinner, I didn't see Draco again at his table. It kind of got me worried, but there was a kitchen in the Headrooms so at least I didn't have to worry that he wasn't eating anything. Still, the fact that he wasn't there was nagging my mind. Maybe I should go there and talk to him again. Maybe he cooled down now, and perhaps he'll listen.

I couldn't face him. My guilt for actually agreeing to the dare got to the better of me plus the fact that I told him that maybe he doesn't deserve my love. I shouldn't have said that. For all I knew it was me that didn't deserve him. He did everything he could to always keep me happy, even when we were just in that physical relationship, he never went out with another girl after that Ravenclaw I caught in his bed. He never called me a mudblood and the only time he did was this morning, but I brought that upon myself.

I sighed and continued eating. Half the students in the Great Hall were sneaking glances at me, wondering what made the Head Girl so glum. I knew they must be starting up tons of nasty rumors, but it didn't matter anymore. Nothing did.
Ginny smiled at me across the table and Harry squeezed my hand, for he was sitting next to me. I forced a smile at them. They were so supportive. If it weren't for them I didn't know how I'd move on. Ron was glaring at me from all the way at the end of the table, but I ignored him.

A minute later, Parvati and Lavender approached me. "Hermione, we were wondering if you'd like to sleep over in our dorm tonight. It would be like old times," Lavender said.

"I'll consider the offer," I told her sincerely. And I really was. I don't think I'm ready yet to go back to my room. There were just too many memories and what if I came across Draco? I couldn't stand another fight or worse...his silence.

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As I was patrolling the halls that night, I came across Blaise Zabini. He was standing in a dark alcove and it seemed to me that he was waiting for me. When I approached him, I told him, "Shouldn't you be back in your common room? It's almost curfew."

He stared at me, and this time it wasn't with loathing or disgust. He was just looking at me, his dark eyes void of any emotion. "I wanted to speak to you," he said, his voice as empty of feelings as his eyes. I nodded my head for him to continue. "You see Hermione..." he began and I kept myself from smiling. He said Hermione, like old times. That must mean he's not that mad at me. "...I know you love Draco. I could see it in your eyes, and Draco really cares about you. Maybe he even loves you. It's quite possible, but the main thing is, you hurt him."

He took a small breath, paused and then continued. "When I saw you two back in the summer, I knew that there would be something going on between you two greater than just lust. I knew that you would fall in love and it happened, but now you broke Draco's heart. I know it was a dare, and that you didn't want to really kiss, Longbottom, but it's the fact that you still did and that hurt Draco. He's not jealous. He's not mad. He's just sad. He trusted you and you did something that he'd never expected you could do."

He took another pause, looked at me in the eye and this time I saw sadness in his eyes. "Draco never was loved in his life. He's father doesn't love him and Draco's only there because Lucius needs an heir to the Malfoy name. Narcissa is just a being that's supposedly his mother. She's exactly what her name means, self-loving. Draco never felt maternal love or paternal love from any of them. As sad as it may seem, it's true. He never had someone who cares for him, who loved him, but you. He actually found someone that loves him and he expects you to be his and only his. He won't take the fact that someone kissed you; the fact that someone would take you away from him. You're his and when he sees you with someone else, he just looses it. Draco's really sensitive no matter how mean and cold his exterior may be. When he lets someone in his heart, you have to be there for good, or not be there at all."

Before I could say anything back, he disappeared in the shadows and I stood there alone in the dark and smiled.

"'Draco's a sensitive boy'," I repeated. "Wow I never thought I hear that in my life."

But deep down I knew he was.

I pictured Draco's face in my mind, sighed and thought,

I'm the cause of your pain...and mine.

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