Adult-FanFiction.org : Harry Potter

A Traitors Heart	By : inuren Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Slash - Male/Male Views: 28282 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 2
Disclaimer: Disclaimer: Harry Potter and all its characters are the property of J.K.Rowlings and all the affiliates. I am simply borrowing them for this story and make no profit whatso ever, although there will be a few OC’S that are my property and creation.wh

Chapter List
- 11
- 12
- 13
Disclaimer: Harry Potter and all its characters are the property of J.K.Rowlings and all the affiliates. I am simply borrowing them for this story although there will be a few, OC’S that are my property and creation. I make no profit off of any portion being borrowed or created.

Chapter Twelve

“Hogwarts”

“Well my boy I’m sure that you want to settle in your chambers then we can all have a good meal in the great hall and we can all welcome you back, before the students return from holiday break. I’m sure your anxious to return and get back to some kind of routine. I believe that all your professors as well as myself can help you complete whatever schooling you missed.”

Keeping my eyes on the ground we traveled I agreed nor disagreed but I did have “are you on muggle drugs old man moment?” Was he serious, go back to school, as if . What was worse was that he kept babbling on, as if I hadn’t just been released from hell, like I had gone on Christmas vacation or something.

“Headmaster, I believe Mr. Potter may want to settle himself, then perhaps learn what has brought about this turn of events.”

Not showing that I was shocked or even paying attention to either man I wondered why would the greasy git care what I wanted , as far as I knew he hated everything Potter so his jumping in to curb the rabid yammering and plan making of the old fool took me back, then I realized why he was rushing to my defense when I felt the strong probe to my mind, so he was trying to use Legimency to read my thoughts and defending me was a tactic to have me drop my guards. Hiding within the hood of the cloak I put up a seascape all he saw was sand, water, and of course I threw in a few seagulls flying and calling. I wanted him to have a startling experience but I also wanted him to realize that the young mind he could enter and torment no longer existed, the child that he tormented while I was in Hogwarts was gone, I had grown beyond those petty rivalries. I had outgrown all of them, but to be a good sport and have a bit of fun I enhanced the scene and placed a centaur running over the dunes with Snape riding him barebacked. The immediate stutter and stumble was something I would never forget. We had to stop while he pushed himself off of the cobblestone and dusted himself off.

I kept silent but inside I was howling with glee. Of course believing that he would learn from his stupidity was to much to hope for because a few minutes later I felt another touch at my mind. It was more sneak attack. Ignoring it I recreated the scene only this time I put Snape in a highly inappropriate position under the centaur. Sure enough I was left in peace and the rest of the trip to Hogsmead was accomplished in some sort of strange surreal peace.

Once we made it to Hogsmead, I pulled the cloak tighter around myself and fought not to cover my ears at the noise or cover my nose, everything was too much, just too overwhelming it was all making me sick.

“We have to stop.”

“When you complete your schooling and finally defeat the dark lord you can take up a position as a professor.”

“We have to stop I’m going to be sick!”

“What is that my boy?”

A second later both of them had to jump back as projectile vomit splattered their robes. I didn’t have to make it projectile, but as gross as it was it was funny.

“I did tell you I was going to be sick.”

Bending at the waist I continued throwing up.

“Severus, do something.”

“You mean besides cleaning charms then immediate burning of these robes!”

“Professor please! we are still in public and I don’t want a scene. Perform the cleaning spells on us all then help Mr. Potter settle his stomach.”

Wiping my mouth and frowning at the nasty taste left behind I shook my head, they were arguably the strongest we had to offer and yet they had no idea that taking me from a restrictive, limited environment, where I had no exposure to all the regular things, things that everyday people witches and wizards took for granted was creating a problem in my system, was essentially sending me into a culture shock. How did a person go from years of depravation to immediate exposure, it was like a bludger to the head not once but several times. No wonder why we were losing.

“What would you have me do headmaster, obviously the boy is deficient, I mean he was in prison who knows what all he has contracted.”

“Severus about not causing a scene, you are woefully failing.”

“I did not ask to accompany you on this ill fated trip. You told me I was coming along and now you expect me to fix the problems that have become inconvenient, he is your toy Albus, you should know how to fix an upset stomach, after all you have many centuries dealing with those monsters loosely called children.”

Performing my own cleaning and freshening charms I stood up and as was typical for my life before Azkaban the sight of the potions master and headmaster behaving like two year old bickering children had drawn a crowd as people were beginning to pay attention. Some much for not causing a scene and being able to get to Hogwarts unnoticed. Walking towards the two I stepped in between the argument.

“I’m sure that the Daily Prophet would love to get pictures of you bickering in the middle of the town and what’s worse it’s as if your both fighting over the same bone. You both have drawn a crowd, I suggest apparition, one of you will have to side along with me otherwise prepare for my release to go public.”

“What?”

Rolling my eyes I wondered why was Voldomort toying with the wizarding world, really these bumbling idiots couldn’t take out a cold.

“Oh dear, yes, yes we must go. Severus I expect you back at Hogwarts shortly with Harry, I will be in my office.”

“What! Why am I the one that has to take the brat.”

“You will do as I say, I will see you shortly.”

With that he was gone in a crack and the immediate silence was a welcome state of affairs. Grabbing the elbow before Severus could apparate without me, I shook my head, this was my chance I could let the git go all alone and let him deal with telling Albus that he had lost me.

“Well as much as this pains me, hold tight.”

With a crack we were gone and before I could blink I found myself on the floor of Hogwarts School of witchcraft and wizardry. Turning over and pushing to my knees I began vomiting again.

“Of course you would be unable to control something as simple as remaining upright or your stomach, why anyone calls you the savior of our world and outs faith in you if beyond me, honestly your pathetic!”

Performing the cleaning charms again, I pushed up and glared at the potions master. As much as I wanted to keep to my silent, broken waif act I had had enough and I wanted this man to realize I was not a child, nor was I afraid to defend myself from attack.

“Of course you would be unable to figure out something as simple as being human and showing compassion to someone who has never apparated and is not use to it or the fact that I have spent seven years of my life locked away making all of this extremely overwhelming, but your own stay at Azkaban was relatively short wasn’t it. I mean not all of us could be fortunate enough to have the man who defeated Grindwald and became supreme mugwump and so on rush to defend them and attain there release. How long did you stay in Azkaban Severus, how long before you felt your sanity just snap like a thin twig, how long before you were crying and begging to lick Albus’s boots just to escape prison. How long before you became his bitch and followed orders, how long before you betrayed one master to kiss another’s ass!”

“Why you insolent little bastard! I will have you writhing on this floor screaming in agony.”

Seeing the wand appear I threw the hood back so that he could see all the anger, rage and hate I held in my eyes as I stared him down.

“I am no longer a child or your student I will not allow you to malign my parentage, or threaten me. I mean after all I may not have known my father but at least he wasn’t some alcoholic muggle with nothing better to do then kick his kid around.”

“You son of bitch! I will make sure that your death will look as an accident! But before I kill you I will torture you till your very mind snaps!”

“Severus!”

“Oh look your master has sent another lackey to come fetch you.”

“Mr. Potter I insist that you refrain from antagonizing Professor Snape, he is after all your better.”

“Really, my better, then I would rather be the poorest most revolting wretch if he is what is considered a better.”

Walking passed the man I stopped and leaned toward his ear. Whispering to him I knew I meant every word I intended to say.

“The next time you pull your wand against me or even towards me I truly hope you follow through and kill me because I will not let it go and I will ensure that whatever I do to you will look as an accident and unlike you I have had nothing but time on my hands. Then again you have always had problems with following through, you know they actually have drugs in the muggle world that helps out with that problem.”

Leaving him behind I began following the elder Malfoy, how dare he call Severus my better, another person who wouldn’t know what hit them. As I told Severus I had nothing but time on my hands and I had done nothing but plan how to destroy each and everyone of them.

“The headmaster had quarters prepared for you. You may have been proven innocent but as far as I am concerned I do not want you anywhere near my family.”

“Good because I have no reason to seek any of you out.”

“Very well Mr. Potter here we are, the password is lemon drop.”

The portrait had to go, and that retarded password, not likely. Nodding my head I entered my rooms. Watching till the portrait closed after Lucius Malfoy, I looked around. Touring the whole area I nearly cried at seeing the shower, a real shower with hot water. Stripping off the clothes I wore I immediately turned on the hot water and must have stood there for an hour sniffing the soap and shampoo, the scent of the forest came to me, something I had not smelled in too long.

Pulling myself out of the joyous haze of smelling soap I decided to drop my glamour’s but first I scanned the bathroom to ensure no one would be sneaking a look or even being nosy. Finding that even here in the shower I was not given anything resembling privacy I kept up my covering glamour and mourned the fact that I would have to wait till I found some place without any spies to be myself. The joy of my first hot shower with actual shampoo was lost, quickly washing and cleaning myself repeatedly, I turned off the water and reached for the towels. Finding a small closet I found a wardrobe with slacks, shirts and everything necessary. Looking at it all I hated it instantly, I swear whoever picked the clothes out was color deficient I mean when had they ever seen me wear purple, or light blue. Deciding that the dark blue shirt and black slacks would do for now, till I could get my own clothes, I dressed and left the bathroom.

Finding the headmaster sitting in my den I acted as if one I had no idea he was there, when I knew the very moment he approached the door and came in, and two I also knew that he was the one that had set the spying charms.

“Ah Harry, I hope you enjoyed your shower, I see that you look better for having clean clothing.”

Inclining my head I wanted him to say whatever he had to say then be gone, because frankly the fact the he even mentioned me in the shower was just creepy.

“I want you to feel as if you are at home in Hogwarts because it is and has always been that.”

“Thank you sir, but I would rather hear what you have to say before I truly settle in.”

“Much has happened and I intend to tell you all, I ask that you accompany me to my office, so that we can get this distasteful business handled and you can go on with your life here and return to your schooling. Much time has passed but I’m sure the other professors will make the necessary allowances so that you can complete your education.”

“Sir I have my own plans.”

“Plans? Yes I’m sure but you must see that you need to complete your education, it is quiet necessary.”

“And Voldomort, do you really think he is going to wait while I study for my Newts?. Sir you must realize finishing school is not a priority.”

“No such thing as schooling is not a priority, you will complete your education Mr. Potter.”

“And what will you tell the students about a grown man sitting in on classes with them, or have you forgotten who I am after all, do you really believe putting me into classes with other students will be conducive to anyone learning anything?”

“Indeed I may have to rethink a bit, but I am sure the answer will come to me, ah here we are.”

Following behind Dumbledore I was left stunned, did he honestly believe the drivel he was spouting. Walking into the office, I nearly turned and ran when I heard and saw everyone waiting.

“Harry mate! Welcome home!”

“Oh yes, I may have forgotten to mention that there was a welcome home get together planned for you.”

“Sir really as much as I appreciate the welcome back it is too much, I am no longer to being in spaces with so many people and so much noise. I will return to my rooms and when you are ready to talk I will be there.”

“Harry mate, where are you off too.”

“I believe the joy from returning and seeing such friendly faces has overwhelmed Harry. It may be better if we each approach Mr. Potter on a one to one basis as not to overwhelm him. I say we give him time to reacclimatize himself to us all.”

Walking through the halls I knew what I needed to do and replacing that portrait was the first. Detouring to one of the lesser known passages of the castle, I searched for the perfect portrait. Finding one of Salazar Slytherin surrounded by several types of poisonous snakes and vipers I began speaking in Parsel tounge waking them and asking if they would be my chamber guardians. Explaining where my rooms were I turned back down the hall and made my way to my rooms. Finding several snakes as well as Salazar in the frame I thanked him and created a new password. I used the word betrayal in Parsel mouth and entered my rooms. Of course finding Draco Malfoy on my couch made me wish and had not returned to my rooms.

“Mister Malfoy, please leave, I have no desire to speak to anyone at this time.”

“Mister Malfoy? Since when have I ever been a mister Harry.”

“Please leave.”

“Harry it’s been so long I want to express my deepest apologies, we were wrong, all of us we should have…”

“Enough! I asked you to leave, I do not wish to interact with anyone at the moment least of all you. As I am not a student nor an employee here I am not required to provide entertainment nor listen to anything anyone has to say. Next time I won’t ask you to leave, I’m sure my new portrait would like nothing better then to eject you from these rooms.”

“Harry?”

“Leave!”

“Very well Harry. Just, don’t shut me out please; all I want is an opportunity to fix what was destroyed. I want to make everything up to you.”

“Goodbye Mr. Malfoy.”

Watching him leave I kept myself together just barely. Being confronted with the others I could deal with I was expecting them, they had always been fair weather friends, fawning when I was getting all the praise and accolades, just eating up all the attention like destitute homeless beggars but the second I needed them to stand up for me or even maintain our friendships, I was thrown out to the cold, called traitor and murderer. Not one of them stood up none of them even uttered a word in my defense. I could deal with losing and paying my vengeance, but what I wasn’t ready for was finding Malfoy here in my chambers it was just something I couldn’t face. Going into the small kitchenette in my room I looked through the cabinets seeing what they had thought I was going to sustain myself with. At least someone took into consideration the fact that I was coming from a prison environment and stocked the cabinets with broths and soups. I even had the makings for a sandwich. Warming up some soup and making a sandwich I took my small meal to the little alcove that held a window. Actually seeing the grounds and the snow that had fallen, it was quiet, peaceful. Belly pleasantly full and body warm for the first time in a very long time I pulled my knees up, of course years of being placed in a cupboard at the Durselys had made me wiry and able to bend myself in half and soon I was sleeping leaning against the window.

Waking up when I felt someone or something pop into my room and stand right next to me I kept my body still and my eyes closed. So many years I would wake to find a guard hovering over me and knew that I wouldn’t be sleeping any time soon. Keeping as still as possible I waited for the touch the pawing at my ragged clothes to begin, forgetting that I wasn’t there anymore. When no touch came but the sounds of whimpering and signing, I decided I would chance it and see which of the guards was here now. Opening my eyes I was confronted by large bulbous eyes and flopping ears as the elf jumped in place. A house elf that’s what was hovering by me. It took a second for my brain to catch up to what my eyes were seeing, but a minute later I realized that I was in Hogwarts and I would not be hurt or used sexually. Looking at the still jumping elf I recalled this one I had nearly been killed by this one several times as a child.

“Dobby?”

“Oh the great Harry Potter, sir remembers elf Dobby!”

“You’re still at Hogwarts then?”

“Yes, yes Dobby wanted to wait till the great Potter sir came home. Now you homes sir and dumbly sent Dobby to bring you to breakfast in big halls sir.”

“Breakfast, you mean I slept all night?”

“Dobby not here at night, so can’t say but bench is not bed sir, great Harry Potter should be in beds not hard benches.”

“Believe me Dobby that bench is more comfortable then any bed I could have slept in, besides years of a flat hard mattress or just the plane hard concrete floor of a cell couldn’t compare to this bench, although a few cushions might help.”

Pushing up I stretched out kinks and popped my out of place and still sleeping body.

“Cushions, yes Harry Potter sir Dobby finds!”

Just like that the over excited elf was gone having popped out on what I assumed was the mission to find me a cushion. Stretching again I took the bowl to the little sink washed it and went to take a shower and change. I had no intention of going to any great hall, I was going to make another soup and maybe another sandwich and stay right here in this room for awhile yet. The hot shower took care of the lingering cobwebs and finding the makings off coffee in the kitchen I smiled for the first time in a very, very long time. An actual cup of coffee and honest to Merlin cup of coffee I wanted to weep at the joy of having a cup. I decided to cut out the soup and just have a sandwich and a very weak, watered down cup of coffee. I could taste the coffee a bit and it had a smile on my face while I ate looking out at the grounds again. Hearing knocking on the portrait that blocked my door, I heard people talking calling my name, so they were going to brave coming here were they. Putting my dishes in the sink, I went and opened the door.

“My dear boy didn’t Dobby tell you we expected you in the great hall?”

“Yes he did but I chose to remain here and have a light breakfast, but thank you for the invitation.”

Closing the door I was stopped by the Headmaster.

“Harry we waited for you. Everyone wants to see and talk to you, they have hardly given me peace asking questions and waiting to see you, I made the proper excuses last night but you can’t avoid us forever. Your friends deserve a bit of your time and to speak with you. I am sure they all want to express there deepest apologies and want to rekindle your friendships.”

“That maybe but what about what I want?”

“Harry?”

“You want me to play nice with everyone, then I want you to remove every spy and invasion spell and charm on my rooms, I want to be able to take a shower without thinking your watching what soap I use.”

“I don’t have any charms or spells on your rooms Harry.”

“Really Albus I’m not a first year, remove the spells or I will remain right in this room I have enough staples to do so.”

“Harry! Very well, I will see you for lunch in the great hall, oh by the way I noticed you changed the portrait, where ever did you find this one?”

“In one of the halls and Sal has no problem guarding my rooms.”

“It’s not the one I placed.”

“Exactly, I don’t want to keep coming here and finding random people sitting or snooping through my rooms. I may be in your custody for now but I don’t have to let you place me on display like some exotic beast you found in the zoo! I will be in the hall for lunch, good day sir.”

Watching him leave I felt a spark of satisfaction knowing that I had one upped the senile old bastard, and that he wouldn’t be able to gain access to my rooms, even though I had little faith that he would remove the spells on my rooms, but again that would play to my benefit. Deciding a walk across the grounds would be a wonderful way to retain my exercise routine I went to gather a warm cloak and left Hogwarts. For now let them think they had me under control, I would let them keep going blindly all the while I would do what I needed to and then take my leave of them for all time.

The snow crunched underfoot and the smell’s and air on my face felt so good, it was the most wonderful it even topped the alcove bench. Walking to the edge of the forest, I could feel the connection with the earth and even the magical and non-magical animals that made the forest home. Bending down I touched the snow, then I wiped it off a patch of ground. Calling to mother earth I asked for a safe, private stream, something already there that I could bathe in and spend time at. Receiving the images, I thanked the creatures who gave me the information and earth for allowing me to share in its gift. Heading to the small hot spring, I was hit with the beauty and silence. I mean of course nature itself had its own song and hearing and seeing the energy and magic in everything sometimes became overwhelming, but this was simply amazing. Communication with the animals around me I asked that they alert me to danger or of anyone coming near the spring. Shedding more then my clothes I could feel the glamour’s dropping, my hair growing, my body shifting to become taller, well not that tall, the strength I had built up in my time in prison, my ears grew and became pointed and sliding my tongue over my teeth I could feel the points on my teeth, sharp enough that I tasted blood from pricking my tongue. Taking deep breaths of the cool air I went and got into the warm water of the spring enjoying the opposite temperatures, it was cold yet the water was hot, leaving goosbumps all over my body. Going under the water I swam the whole spring only coming up when the need for air became urgent, and then going back under. I did this a few times before I found an outcropped ledge and just went and laid on it enjoying my peace, enough so that I began nodding off. The light noise from the small creatures hidden in their burrows woke me and I cast a Tempus to see how long I had slept. Sliding back into the water I accoied the soap and shampoo I had shrunk and packed in my clothes and began washing and enjoying the exhilaration of being free enough to let myself truly relax without spells or glamour’s.

Again noise from the forest caught my attention and this time it told me of another walking in the forest. Whoever it was hadn’t breached my solitude so I went back to washing my ankle length bi-colored hair, pulling it apart to soak it I often wondered why it had changed but then it was hair, at least it wasn’t sticking up as it usually did when I was younger. Dunking myself below the water to rinse out the shampoo potion, I surfaced and began swimming to the other side of the spring focusing on the nature around me.

Realizing that time grew short and I was expected back inside Hogwarts for lunch I gathered myself, stood and left the water. Quickly dressing so that I didn’t catch chill I cast a warming charm, and began ringing out my hair. Of course I could magically dry it but having done that before and seen the tangled mess it became I just resigned myself to letting it dry naturally. Walking with my head tilted while I gathered chucks at a time and twisted it to rope like so that the water was squeezed out Humming to myself it was a peaceful time, and I had begun collecting them to keep close when I needed reminders that I was a free man, well as free as one can when the weight of a world rests on their shoulders.

Walking through the outskirts of the forbidden forests, I wanted to find something anything to offer some kind of solace, something to take my mind off of the rampant thought of Harry, of Harry being in the same place as me after so long, of actually living in the same castle, but after he basically threw me out of his quarters the other day I didn’t know how I was going to connect with him, how to make him understand that I made a mistake and that I still loved him. I really had no idea except for keep going to him and apologizing, how did I fix this now after so long. Hearing humming, I stopped, humming? Yes the creatures that resided in the forests had their own calls and various hoots and howls but humming wasn’t something they did. Following the humming I found a lanky individual with long, black and highlighted green hair. Looking around I wanted to ask did anyone else notice this creature, did the headmaster know he had someone living in the forest. Watching as another hunk of hair was pulled to the front then twisted, I saw water being wrung from the hair then the next piece was treated the same. As I followed the creature I noticed that we were heading towards the castle, was this visitor to Hogwarts, someone new that would assist in the war effort? Assuming that they would head straight to the headmasters office I decided to introduce myself and offer to guide them. Picking up my step I was maybe seven, eight feet away when the creature froze and became stiff as if it knew I was approaching, a second later they were gone, no crack of apparition no nothing just gone. Standing there in total shock I closed my mouth Malfoy’s hid there emotions and did not show something as petty as absolute and utter amazement at someone or thing being able to just vanish as if they were never there in the first place. .

****Note Okay don’t hurt me I know I rambled here and went on and on but it is longer and I did give juicy tidbits is everyone getting a picture of the new Harry. I also want to thank all my supporters and new reviewers who continue to enjoy this story as much as I am in writing it.
- 11
- 12
- 13
You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.
Report Story

A Traitors Heart