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a not so golden life	By : eleonora_kleopatra Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Slash - Male/Male Views: 19777 -:- Recommendations : 3 -:- Currently Reading : 10
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Chapter List
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A/N: Hey guys~
I'm sorry for the long wait... I kinda had problems to write the part with Moony... but here is now the next chapter of "a no so golden life"~
A biig thank you once more to my beta sakuralilian for her work:3And now, enjoy~
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CHAPTER 14
The day after both meetings the first at the ministry and the second the 'Four Seasons' Harry and Severus spent the day talking and getting to know each other. They also found out, after Harry mentioned, how excited he used to be about potions before his first lesson, that Harry lacked the basic knowledge about prior preparation needed for potions. As he wasn't told by anyone and didn't get the prep-course that muggle borns and muggle raised do, he had no idea why the way you chopped or sliced an ingredient and the way how you stirred a potion in the making influences the way a potion turns out.
After this discovery, they agreed, that Severus would tutor his godson in potions, starting with the material of the very first lesson and go from there... This way, Harry might perhaps be able to retake his potions O.W.L.s at the ministry and score better than ...
While they were talking about potions, they also started talking about all the subjects at school, they also talked about Harry's electives and why he choose those. When Severus got to know that they were only chosen those because he had no idea what to do after school and just took what Ron did, he wanted to know from his godson, how his electives were going to be of use to him later in his life. For the next day it seemed like nothing was planned so both Harry and Severus took it easy and got to know another.
It was better than the day before which turned out more hectic due to the two meetings the first at the ministry and the second the 'Four Seasons'. The main topics that they discussed during their day off were the classes within Hogwarts.
Once Harry mentioned his excitement over the first potions lesson and then described his disappoints due to lack of basic knowledge not aviable for Harry specifically. When Severus asked for clarification since he wanted to correct that for any future students, Harry explained the lack of material provided since instead of a professor giving a curtsey visit with muggle born and muggle raised, it was Hagrid with no real school information except for the acceptance letter.
Since Harry didn't know what prepare he was absence of the prep-course he had no idea why the way you chopped or sliced an ingredient made different since while cooking as his prior experience it honestly never mattered how the ingredients are sliced just if they are about the size that it is need. Similarly he was clueless regarding the stiring methods involved in potions. Once getting the clear view Severus asked Harry if he wanted to get extra lessons this summer as to improve his potion's knowledge as well as the possibility of retaking his potion's owl in the ministry. Harry was ecstatic and readily agreed.
This lead to another slots of questions like why did he specific picked some courses as his electives especially courses like divination when he clearly hates anything to do with prophecies or fate. Harry's answer was rudimentary; he did it because Ron did and asked. Similar questions were posed when asked how these specific electives helped him futher in life, and Severus main question what would his godson would like to be once he graduated from Hogwarts.
Confronted with this question, Harry finally started thinking about his future even more about his past, what would he like to do after graduation. He started to realize, that the only thing he was sure about was that he really didn't want to be an auror. And he started wondering why up until now he almost felt obliged to be become an auror like it was his duty or way of life. When he voiced this realization to Severus, his godfather seemed to got angry. He summoned parchment, quill and ink and wrote it down.
When Harry asked why he did that and why he was he so mad in the first place, he answered: "I got angry, because your realization showed another of the old fool's manipulations, as he must have put you under a compulsion to want to become an auror. And why I wrote it down, was simple, it was so we can inform Bardook about this. It will only help him further for the trials.
"So, what you're saying, is, that he made me do things?"
"Yes, sadly, that exactly what it looks like. Is there anything else, that you can think of where you felt strongly towards, or also anyone, that you don't anymore and that you also can't explain to yourself, how you could ever feel like that before going into the situation?"
"Well, for one there are my friends Hermione and Ron, but that started already during the last few days at Hogwarts. And the thought of even touching Ginny Weasley is revolting, though it used to be one of my dreams. Otherwise there isn't anything so far. Except, maybe, my complete disregard of learning at Hogwarts, when before even as a elementary student I never spent a day without reading for at least an hour, that wasn't connected to doing homework. But that's it."
"That sounds about the things I expected. And what is about your other friends? Longbottom and the Lovegood girl? Are there also any revolting feelings or the like?"
"No, there aren't. And I would really like to know, if they are with me or not. Because I don't want to loose them, they actually wanted to side with me of their own free will. On another note, Draco is arranging for me to meet with the members of Slytherin house. It will be after the trials, and I'd like to have it after my meeting with Voldemort. Because then I'll hopefully have decided what I'll do in this war. Did you already contact him or not yet?"
"Yes, I wrote to him yesterday and explained a few things, like you discovering the betrayal of Dumbledore and the upcoming trials, so he knows your reason for seeking him out. Now all we can do is wait for his answer."
"Okay, thank you for doing that."
They were interrupted by a tapping on the window, where they saw Hedwig with a letter. Harry went to open the window, letting his owl onside and taking the letter from her. He opened the letter and read it.
"It's from Remus. He asking if he could come over today or tomorrow, he would like to know the full story with both of us present. When would be convenient for you?"
"Today will be fine, sometimes in the afternoon."
"Thank you. I'll tell him to come over around three. Does he know your address?"
"I'm actually not sure. Why don't you tell him that? And please inform him, that he'll have to take an oath to not reveal anything he gets told to anyone who isn't informed already."
"Sure thing."
When he finished the short letter to Remus, he sent it off with Hedwig. Since it was nearly noon by then, they went into the kitchen to prepare lunch. While eating, they discussed, how much they would reveal to Remus in the beginning, before they could see his reactions to their story, which then would influence, how much more they'd reveal to him.
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At five to three, they heard a knock, Severus when to answer it, since it could always be a surprise guest, and they wouldn't want to risk Dumbledore to find out about Harry being here.
"Hello, Lupin. Please, come in. Harry is in the living room."
"Good day to you, too, Severus. And I'm sorry for practically inviting myself into your home."
"That's okay. We probably would have invited you here anyway sometime this summer, unless you decide to oppose us, which we don't expect you to do."
"Moony!", greeted Harry the werewolf happily. "How are you? Come, take a seat."
They all sat back down on the couch and on an armchair.
"I'm okay, cub. And how are you? How do you cope with this whole situation?"
"So far, I'm okay. True, it was a shock. But, since I already started questioning some things that just didn't add up when I looked at them now, I wasn't as surprised as I would have been otherwise. But what do you think about the stuff I wrote you?"
"I was shocked as well. And you only sent me a letter to tell me that you're now living with Severus, and that a letter from Gringotts will explain everything a bit better. But what I don't get, is, why you were so willing to live with Severus and what else happened? And why didn't you write anything more?"
"Well, I didn't write you anymore, because I honestly didn't know, which side you're on. And I found out about too much betrayal in the last few days, than that I could just trust you, because it felt like it was the right thing to do. Sure, you were a close friend of my parents and my godfather, and the last link I have to them, besides money and properties and material stuff, I'm also your last link to them as well, but I just couldn't risk it. And before we tell you anything else, you'll have to swear an oath on your magic, that you won't tell anyone, who isn't in everything, anything we will tell you here and now. Otherwise you won't know anything else but what will be published and you won't see me anymore but a few times. And the oath isn't only for our safety, but also to protect you. Because it will be one that even a Legilimens can't gain this knowledge from your brain. What do you choose?"
Remus sat there thinking. He didn't need long to make a decision.
"You are my cub, Harry. I'll be on your side, no matter what you'll do. ALWAYS. What is the oath you want me to take?"
Severus showed him the parchment where they had written down the oath for Remus to take. Remus took Harry's right hand in his and swore: "I, Remus John Lupin, swear on my magic, to never reveal anything I hear from Harry James Potter and Severus Tobias Snape to anyone else, unless they have prior knowledge of it, or I get the permission of both, Harry James Potter and Severus Tobias Snape, be it through words, spoken or written, gestures or thoughts. This oath will also protect said knowledge from prying eyes in my mind. I also swear, that I, should I never talk with someone else, who's not in the knowledge of said things, to always make sure that there isn't any possibility for a third party to hear anything, be it by spell, physical nearness or other in any other way. This oath cannot be broken by myself but if all involved parties, being of sound mind and body, want it to be broken. So I swear, so mote it be." A royal blue light circled both Harry's and Remus' joined hands and disappeared into their hands.
"So, I took the oath. Could you please tell me now what exactly is going on?"
"Sure thing. Well here goes, it all started at the Ministry of Magic, when Voldemort possessed me when he tried to kill Dumbledore through me. But it wasn't the possession that really started anything, but I it came to me that everything that happened in my life so far, it was, what Voldemort asked me. He asked me, if I was sure, that Dumbledore was everything he seemed to be.
Ever since, I started over thinking everything Dumbledore said or did to me, because I couldn't get rid of the feeling, that there was some truth in what Voldemort asked me. Because normally, if I trust my feelings, I'm right. The only time that I didn't do what my feelings told me, was, when I went to the Ministry to save Sirius. And that was, because he was too important to me than to risk losing him by listening to my feelings. Especially when Kreacher told me on the floo, that Sirius wasn't home. I only remembered the mirror; he got me for Christmas, after we got back. That the whole thing turned out to be a trap, showed me, that my feelings are right.
On the train ride back to London, I realized some things about my 'friends', that already started feeling kind of strange after we got back from the Ministry. For example, I found it absolutely disgusting how Ginny acted like some lovesick puppy and always wanted to be near me, always wanted to be the center of my attention. Or how Hermione always needed to know everything, she asked me the whole way to London, how I feel about losing Sirius, how I feel about going back to the Dursleys, she also seemed to be fussing over me in a way that could only be called annoying, as if she had to make sure, I was okay, as if she were my mother! Or Ron! There can hardly be another person as clueless as him. He is an attention seeking prat. Always asking me to play chess with him, so he could win. Or whenever I got the whole attention from the public or teachers, he was jealous. He also stabbed me in the back more than once, and only came back, when he saw, that I didn't get everything on a golden plate. Forgetting, that he had the one thing I always wanted, the one thing, I would give everything I own to have it. He has a family with parents and siblings who love him.
When I arrived at the Dursleys, I started making a list with things, that didn't add up. For one, Dumbledore let me, a fifteen month old baby, lying outside on a doorstep during the night during the month of November with nothing more than a thin blanket and a letter-"
"WHAT?! Is that man brain dead? You could have frozen to death! You could have been stolen by anyone! What was he thinking?!"
"That were my thoughts about the whole thing as well. Did you also know, that Sirius wasn't sent to Azkaban until the sixth of November? Which is almost a week after I was left at the Dursleys."
"You're saying, the old man wasn't only mental for leaving a child outside in the night, he also practically kidnapped you? This is getting better and better. And I assume I'm right, if I think, that there's even more?"
"Yes, you would be right with your assumption. Did you know, that I got my Hogwarts letter by owl, while all other muggleborn and muggle raised are visited by a head of house, usually Professor McGonagall? I got visited by Hagrid, the groundskeeper, after I got letter after letter after letter, sometimes more than twenty at a time, that I couldn't even read because my aunt amd uncle destroyed every single one, since they didn't want me to know about anything. They even used to tell me, that my parents died in a car crush. Hagrid also took me to Diagon Alley. When we entered the 'Leaky Cauldron', he told anyone, who I was. I was simply overwhelmed, because he didn't tell me before, that I actually was a celebrity.
And after some of the worst twenty minutes of my life, we finally entered the Alley with our first step being Gringotts. Did you know, that Dumbledore had the key for my trust vault? And, of course, Hagrid also fetched the Philosopher's Stone while in the bank with me. And I never got told that the vault I entered on this day, was only my trust vault. I thought that was all money I've got. Hagrid also spent all day telling me how bad Slytherins were, that all evil wizards and witches were former Slytherins. And when he bought Hedwig and told me, she would be my birthday present from himself, he paid for her out of my money. Of course I didn't really think much of it, because I was way too happy about actually receiving a gift for my birthday. He had my money, because the bag was to heavy for me to carry myself, at least in the beginning. And in the end, he gave me my train ticket, without telling me how to get on the platform.
That's about how far I got before dinner, and afterwards, I got this letter from Gringotts." Harry showed the shocked werewolf the first ever letter he got from the wizarding bank.
"I can't believe it! And from the way you talked about Ron and Hermione before, I guess, they were in on the whole thing? And were there even more involved?"
Remus was fuming and had trouble to keep Moony down. The wolf inside of him was beyond angry about what had happened to his cub!
"Well, for one, my mother was a pureblood and adopted by the Evans', meaning, the whole blood protection I was suppossed to have at the Dursleys was utter bull shit. The Dursleys also got a monthly payment of a thousand Galleons out of my vaults, which, after my eleventh birthday changed to only be paid during the summer holidays, and I actually own the house they used to live in.
There were also several transactions, that moved money from my vault into the Weasley family vault ever since around my tenth birthday. Those transactions were made every month, with the double amount around the times I actually spent at the Burrow. The rest of the six to seven thousand Galleons, that got taken every month, went into Dumbledore's own vault. They took all that money out of my trust vault, which was made to be refilled to a certain amount once every year. And they probably only didn't take more, because it isn't possible to access the main vaults without the family ring."
"Those money-hungry assholes! And what did you agree about with the goblins about this? Because as far as I know, goblins hate almost nothing more than theft."
"So far, Vernon and Petunia Dursley got arrested for child neglect, child abuse and theft, while Dudley got sent into an orphanage, until his aunt Marge would be able to take care of him, though she, herself also is faced with a complain to the police about child abuse for sic-ing her dogs on me every time she visited the Dursleys. Also, I'm selling the house and all of their stuff, the money I get from selling everything, excluding the house, of course, it will be used to pay my compensation, and they'll have to pay me the rest with the highest possible interest. The money they got paid by Dumbledore will be taken out of his vault, as Gringotts can't take money out of a muggle bank account and it was Dumbledore who actually gave them the money in the first place.
As for the Weasley, their whole account will be seized and I now own the Burrow, though I don't know yet what I'll do about it. I wait until after the trials with my decision, as I hope to learn which of the Weasley family were in on the whole thing. Since it seemed at the moment it was only Mrs. Weasley and the two youngest that truly betrayed me, I don't want the rest to lose their home. The ones of the family, that were accepting the money willingly, will also have to pay me back the rest of their debt with the same interest as the Dursleys. The rest of the stolen money got taken out of Dumbledore's vault, which after the returned money will be quite empty. Of course, all the money won't be taken until the day of the trials, because in this case they can't be forewarned about me knowing something."
"That sounds awful for them, especially if Arthur and/or some of the boys aren't involved in the whole thing. But what exactly are those trials you keep talking about?"
"Well, I have a goblin lawyer and the trials will also be goblin trials. I choose a goblin lawyer, because with a goblin I can trust that he'll work in my interest and won't be bribed by anyone, be it Dumbledore or someone else. Plus, there won't be the risk about anything leaking to the press before Severus and I gave our okay for it. Bardook, my lawyer, is also the account manager of the Black vaults, meaning, he has a personal interest in seeing them pay.
And the goblin trials are possible, because Gringotts is involved with the whole money theft. I choose the goblin trials, because they are three times worse than wizarding trials. Some of the charges against Dumbledore are the withholding of my parents' will, the theft of my money, the spells and potions he used on me, the abuse I was put through because of him, Bardook also checks if he is responsible that child services never checked on me, as they should, and he also is checking, if Dumbledore was behind the abuse I suffered at the Dursleys. He is also charged for leaving me outside on my aunt's doorstep and for kidnapping me from my godfather, and putting said godfather into prison without trial, even though he, himself, was the one to cast the Fidelius on my parents' house and knew that Sirius was innocent all along. Dumbledore is also charged for keeping Sirius imprisoned at Grimmauld Place, because that's what he dis by forbidding him to leave the house and so on.
The Weasley women are so far charged with theft, we'll find out if there is anything else. And as they will all be questioned under Veritaserum and a truth spell combined, they will tell the truth. Bardook is also looking into pardoning Sirius post mortem. If you could give us your memories about the evening in the Shrieking Shack, we'd be very grateful, as it would support my own memories from that time. Oh, and there is the whole thing about the headmaster ordering, or, more like it, threatening, Severus, to treat me like scum."
"Well, that sounds like there are going to be some very interesting trials. I hope I can come to watch how your lawyer will destroy them?"
"Of course, you can. You could actually come to our next appointment with Bardook, Let me just have to inform him about your coming. Would you like to come?" "If it is okay with your lawyer, yes, I'd like to go with you. Is there anything else I should know now, or can we enjoy ourselves for the rest of the afternoon?"
"Well, there is. Severus wrote to Voldemort for me, because I want to meet with him to talk, as I never heard about his interests for this war, I only ever heard from Dumbledore or his people. And I want to decide by myself which side of the war I want to be on or if I want to be neutral. Then the fact, that my parents died protecting me, doesn't say, that I have to be light. Especially as they wrote in their will that Dumbledore only wants to use me.
Who knows, he even might have up the whole prophecy stuff and made Trelawney say it at the Hog's Head. Because, honestly, who has a job interview for a teaching spot at a bar, when there is a whole castle full of classrooms, offices and the like? And I'll get a resort as well, as I was heavily influenced by everything I got told before the sorting and, because of this, I asked the hat to not sort me into Slytherin. I've already arranged with Draco, with whom I started over yesterday, to meet the members of Slytherin house during the holidays, so we can all get to know each other before school starts again."
"Cub, I already told you, I'll be with you, no matter what. And if it means to become a supporter of Voldemort, so be it. But I'll probably never take the Dark Mark. For one, I don't want to be a Death Eater, and like that I can also be a spy for you. As for changing into Slytherin, this will probably be best for you, as it will also show you, who your true friends are, because for them, your house won't matter."
"Lupin, to be honest, I didn't expect this reaction from you. I expected something more like you wanting to stay neutral, not going all the way to be dark."
"Well, Severus, I am a werewolf, after all. And werewolves are naturally dark. The only reasons for me to be light were my friends and my cub, which made up my pack in the same time. And as my cub decided to go dark or at least neutral, there's nothing left for me with the light."
Severus nodded in understanding and Harry was happy that Remus was behind him, no matter what. Harry also understood, why Remus didn't want to be a Death Eater, as he didn't want to be one himself.
He wanted to be either Voldemort's equal, a dark supporter or neutral, because the light lost him, the moment they decided to use him just like a weapon, be it through theft or just for slandering his name whenever they felt like it, and still expecting him to fight for them and save them all, even though, they all own a wand themselves and are more that capable of using it. Relying on a half trained wizard verses several trained adults was not only madness but showed the length of betrayal that so called light could be faisned towards after all.
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