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Treading a Troubled Track	By : SnapesOnlyOne Category: HP Canon Characters paired with Original Characters > Het - Male/Female Views: 1833 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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I wake an hour later when my brother is burning up and shaking again, sweat forming on his furrowed brow and I know something is wrong.
"Severus, Severus please wake up, I need your help" Severus grunts and turns away from me, immediately falling back into sleep.
"Severus please!" I beg him, nudging him roughly and he grumbles again, turning over and sitting up, eyes falling on my brother and he is out of the bed in a flash, pulling on a shirt with an angry growl.
"He's burning up Severus, please don't be angry, I gave him potions an hour ago and he's already burning up again Severus!"
Severus moves to the side of the bed placing a hand on my brother’s head and recoiling in shock. He gestures for me to move over and flips my brother flat on his back with a spell and divesting him of everything but his boxers, eyes immediately falling on an angry red and weeping gash that goes from his right shoulder to his left hip.
"Go get Lucius, Remus, Molly and Miss Granger, quickly Morwyn" he commands before spelling my brother into the middle of the bed and casting a spell to cool the bed.
I move quickly into the hall pounding hard on the Malfoys door and hearing a click I take it as my invitation to go in. I push open the door and find Narcissa and a bare chested Lucius sitting up in bed. "Severus needs you Lucius" and I pop back out into the hall pounding on the Lupins door, answered shortly after by a sleep rumpled Remus.
"Severus needs your help, where are Hermione and Molly in this house?" I asked flustered.
"They're on the top floor, I'll go get them" comes Fred's voice from behind me, having been woken by the commotion. I move back into the bedroom to see my brother, A still shirtless Lucius and Remus now stand at the foot of the bed watching Deverus uncork potions, lining them up on the table. Molly and a flustered looking Hermione appear behind me.
"Molly I need some towels that can be thrown out please, Lucius, Remus, I'm going to need you two to hold him down, a binding spell will be too much on him right now and I can't null the pain without counteracting the cure. Hermione, I need you to administer blood replenishing potions every 30 seconds once I start, you need to be diligent or he will bleed to death. If anyone who has joined this room is squeamish leave now, you have been warned."
Several onlookers disappear quickly into the hall and Molly appears back with a stack of old towels and a bowl of steaming water and drops a small cloth into the bowl.
"Can you clean the wound as it clears Molly? He asks seriously and she nods. "Morwyn leave" he commands firmly but I don't move.
"Woman get out, now!" He growls staring at me menacingly and the twins drag me out into the hall closing the door behind us.
&.$.&
When the door closes behind them I ward it heavily and turn back to the brat prince, kneeling on the bed beside him. Hermione positions herself beside his head and Lupin climbs onto the bed at his feet and Lucius opposite me at his other side. Lupin kneels carefully on his legs and Lucius charms his hair back and leans in putting his weight onto Baylor's shoulders. I take a deep breath praying to whatever god there may be that I won't kill him and I raise my wand.
"Sectumsempra"
The spell hits perfectly, splitting the wound open from start to finish, the infection draining along with the blood. On cue he lets out an ear piercing roar and thrashes violently even in his unconscious state. Molly immediately begins to wipe away the drainage knowing full well that using spells would interfere with the magic I am using. As Hermione tips the first potion into his screaming mouth I raise my wand again.
"Infectio occidere"
More of the infection pushes out of the wound each time I mutter the spell, his complexion growing pale.
"Two at a time Miss Granger, he's bleeding much more than I anticipated" she nods dumping two potions into his mouth as his screams die down and he falls still. I check his vitals before continuing with several more spells before taking a step back to let Molly clean him up. I take a deep breath again and step forward as Granger administers another round of potion and raise my wand, beginning the chant.
"Vulnera Sanentur, vulnera sanentur, vulnera sanentur" I step back again taking another calming breath as I nod to Lucius and Lupin who move away from him. The scene finally dawning on me. The bed is soaked in blood and drainage and a puddle has formed on the floor, his body is pale and drenched in sweat as he lies unmoving on the bed. I can hear Morwyn yelling from the other side of the door but I ignore her for now and uncork several potions handing them to Miss Granger, I banish the bloodied towels and cast cleansing spells on the floor and blankets.
"Do I keep going with the blood replenishing potions sir?"
"Two more and we will see how he is." I respond, watching Molly as she gently cleans his chest. Granger doses the last two potions and stands from the bed. "Dittany, sir?" And I nod. I watch her summon and drip it slowly over the still raw wound as it sizzles closed, leaving no evidence of the wound. Hermione takes down the wards on the door and Morwyn all but falls into the room, racing to her brothers side.
"Severus, wake him!"
"Did you fail charms?" I grumble, hating the way she has been speaking to me recently.
"Enervate" Hermione whispers and Baylor's eyes flutter open as I quickly exit the room and go outside to sit on the porch.
&.&.&
I wrap my arms around Baylor, all the tension I have been feeling since the war bubbling to the surface as I burst into sobs. Baylor forces himself up wrapping his arms around me.
"Morwyn, it's okay, I'm okay, everything is going to be ok. Please relax"
I nod, burying my face in his shoulder.
"You need to go find Severus, you need to fix him right now Morwyn" he whispers.
"What are you talking about?" I respond, snapping my head up to look at him.
"You've been nasty to him the last few days that I've seen, and I have a feeling it's weighing on him. I get the vibe that he's pretty messed up too Morwyn"
I pause for a few moments thinking about all the times I have snapped at him, yelled and him and just treated him poorly lately and begin to sob anew.
"Go see him Miss Blanchett, he's out front, I'll stay with your brother" comes Luna's airy voice from behind me. I stand and move quickly from the house in my silk nightdress and bare feet, not thinking to grab a coat or shoes. What have I done, I've been pushing him away, the one person who needs me the most...the one person I need. I push open the door and find him sitting on the bottom step of the porch, his head leaning back against the railing.
"Severus..."
"Go inside and be with your brother" he responds coldly.
"No Severus, he doesn't need me, you do" I respond sitting beside him on the cold steps and wrapping my arms around him. "Severus, I've treated you horribly, I'm so sorry. I've been so stressed lately, there's just too much going on and I'm overwhelmed trying to balance it all, it's not an excuse I know."
He doesn't move, he doesn't speak and I feel tears begin to spill over and down my cheeks as I begin to silently sob. "Please don't leave me Severus, please forgive me"
He is silent for a few more moments and I feel my heart sink.
"Talk to me, please, tell me what you are thinking right now, I'm begging you Severus."
"I don't know what to think, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do or how I'm supposed to feel anymore Morwyn" he starts quietly, "the entire time I was in that room I was praying he wouldn't die, because I knew it would hurt you, I stood up to my colleagues so you wouldn't get hurt. I've attached myself to you so much that all I think about is you now. Yet you seem to just push me aside when it suits you"
"I know Severus, I never meant to. This is new to me, I've only ever had Lorri to depend on, him to look out for, when I saw he was hurt I went into overdrive." I pause for a minute "I would do the same for you Severus, I love you."
"Do you?" He asks still not opening his eyes.
"Yes Severus, I know I've given you reason to doubt me, but I promise you that I do, I would do anything for you. I've been so exhausted and off kilter lately that I haven't been paying attention to you, haven't been being a proper partner to you, let me make it up to you Severus"
He opens his eyes and blanches seeing me sitting on the snowy steps in nothing but my nightdress shivering. He pulls me onto his lap wrapping his cloak tightly around me and I bury my face in his chest. "I promise I will be a good wife to you Severus, and a good mother to our children. I haven't defended you and that's been unfair, I promise I will be better Severus, please-"
I am interrupted when Severus covers my mouth with his, a passionate kiss shared between us. I reach down, unzipping his pants to free him and stroking him under the cover of his large cloak. He groans tipping his head back against the railing and I turn straddling him, grinding myself against his turgid length earning a growl from his throat. I banish my panties and slide my nightdress up, kneeling up and guiding him into my waiting warmth. I sink down hard, feeling him bottom out inside me and I begin riding him slowly, making proper love to the man I need with every fibre of my being. He wraps his arms around me, his fingers digging into my back, he grabs the thin strap of my dress between his teeth, pulling it and tearing it, letting the dress fall and bare my breast to him. He closes his mouth over my hardened peak, rolling his tongue over it and sucking it. I arch into him, riding him harder, the familiar tugging behind my navel starts to build and go harder, desperate for release. I feel myself about to go over the edge and I hear the door open. I still immediately.
"I don't care who is watching Morwyn, come for me witch" he growls thrusting up and tearing my orgasm from me. My body trembles and goes rigid as I cry out, my contracting muscles milking him to his release, he growls deeply sinking his teeth into my neck, pumping his seed up into me as I fall limp against him, tucking my head into his chest. We sit like this for a few moments before he wandlessy cleans me up and repairs my dress, standing and gently lowering me onto the steps. He puts his hand on the small of my back, fixes his hair and guides me back into the house where everyone is sitting quietly at the table watching us enter, knowing looks on their faces.
"I, for one, now have a fear of opening doors." Fred starts " I don't know which was worse, seeing Snape shagging Morwyn on our front steps or seeing Draco shagging Hermione upstairs."
Lucius who had just taken a sip of his tea, sputtered, choking unceremoniously on it, turning his angry gaze at Draco who looked like a he was being faced with a dementors about to devour his soul, paling under his fathers intense stare. Narcissa lays her hand on Lucius' chest and he turns his gaze to her. She looks at him pleadingly and shakes her head and immediately his temper deflates and he sighs.
"You have been taught better than that Draco"
The entire table turns to face him and he arches a brow clearly amused at their assumptions.
"You were taught to have more respect for women than to bed them before marriage" he finishes and it is Hermione's turn to choke on the drink she had been hiding her face behind.
"Lucius that was cruel, you did that purposely to make her react" Narcissa scolds and Lucius smirks.
"Does that mean you approve Father?" Draco asks confused.
"It doesn't appear as though I have much of a choice, do be careful and don't pull a Severus and get her pregnant please, I'm not prepared to be a grandparent yet."
"Why... are you planning to have anymore children Lucius?"
"I think not, I believe the time for that has passed" he comments with a shrug.
"Perhaps not, my love..." Narcissa coos at him.
"You wish to have another child now?" Lucius asks turning his attention to her.
"I don't really think it matters what I wish." she responds.
"Of course it-" he freezes and turns his gaze back to her and she smiles weakly at him, as if unsure what he will do.
"You can't mean?" He asks, looking clearly shocked.
"I do actually Lucius, I'm with child."
"You really ought to be more careful Lucy, it seems you yourself have pulled a Severus!" George smirks.
"Are you certain Narcissa? It's… okay?"
"Yes, I waited to tell you until I knew everything was fine"
"Which means?"
"It means that I am already into the second trimester, Lucius."
"Why would you wait fourteen weeks to tell him?" Molly asks looking perturbed.
"Contrary to what we allow people to believe, we wanted more children, but I was unable to carry a child more than a few weeks. I had several miscarriages before becoming pregnant with Draco, and Several more after, we gave up trying at that point. I waited because I didn't want to give hope to something that seemed impossible." she finishes, her usual haughty demeanour slipping with her sadness as she explained.
"Oh wonderful Black family genetics" Andromeda starts "I was only ever able to get pregnant once as well," she finishes sadly and Narcissa nods.
"Bellatrix was never able to at all" Narcissa comments quietly.
"And the entire Wizarding world thanks her for not procreating" Severus drawls. Lucius summons the whiskey and pours two glasses and hands one to Severus. "I'll drink to that" he comments, clinking glasses with a smirking Severus and both men down the glass in one swallow.
Molly summons the wine with a smirk on her face, clearly remembering Bellatrix's last moments. She pours several glasses of wine handing them out to all the ladies, giving a half glass to myself and Narcissa.
"I propose a toast to new beginnings-"
"Wait for the cripple please!" Comes Baylor's voice from the top of the stairs as he slowly makes his way down, Luna helping him, her arm wrapped around his still shirtless form. "If we are going to start off the morning with drinks then count me in"
"Drinks and back to bed is my vote" Arthur chimes pouring himself and Remus a glass of whiskey and refilling Severus and Lucius' glasses. "Late breakfast today dear? Please?" And Molly nods.
"As I was saying, I propose a toast to new beginnings and second chances, since there are so many happening. To Draco and Hermione, to Severus and Morwyn and their unborn, to the Malfoys and their unborn, to Baylor's health and hopeful clearance with the Ministry, to old friendships and to new," she raises her glass and there is a cheers followed by clinking glasses all around.
After everyone finishes their drinks, the masses begin to disappear back upstairs leaving Severus, Baylor and myself alone in the dining room. Baylor moves slowly towards Severus and stops in front of him.
"Thank you… for everything, and for today. I've been a complete berk and I really didn't deserve the help you gave me, so thank you..." he finishes extending his hand to Severus. "Brothers?"
Severus stares at his hand for a moment as if expecting it to turn into a beast and attack him before nodding and shaking his hand. Baylor smirks at me and tugs Severus into a one armed hug knowing full well it would make him awkward.
"Don't worry, I don't bite… unless you ask me to" he smirks as Severus pulls away with a scowl.
"I didn't say I wouldn't still make fun of you mate, anyways I'm going to go see if Miss Lovegood will babysit me tonight" and he turns and heads for the stairs.
"Lorri!"
"I'll behave Morwyn, I promise. I was going to ask if I could lay with you, but I figured if you guys are willing to have sex on the front steps I really don't want to be in bed with you." he smirks before disappearing upstairs.
Severus turns to me shaking his head and scoops me up into his arms and carrying me up into our bedroom and closing the door. He lays me down on the bed before stripping down and crawling into bed beside me. I snuggle into him and place a kiss to his pale chest.
"Goodnight my Severus"
"Goodnight little witch" and with a kiss on the head the blankets are charmed up over us and we drift off into an exhausted sleep.
&*&*&
When I wake late in the morning Severus is still out cold and I slip carefully out of Severus' arms, dressing and making my way downstairs. The dining room is full of people when I arrive and I move into the kitchen and pour two cups of tea, I place one on the table and head upstairs with the other. I move into the room watching Severus sleeping peacefully for a moment before putting his tea on the table and placing a spell on it to keep it warm before placing a gentle kiss on his head and heading back downstairs.
"Did you behave Lorri?" I ask as I sit carefully in my seat and lift my cuppa to my lips.
"Yes I did… mother..."
"Ugh, please don't ever compare me to her again."
"Relax Morwyn, you'll be a good mother, I know, I've spent years being nagged my you."
"Parenting comes naturally dear, you'll be fine" Molly smiles
"You never met our parents then" Baylor comments harshly.
"Or mine..." Comes Severus velvet voice as he descends the stairs, tea in hand. He moves like liquid through the room, sitting carefully in the chair beside me.
"That's the first time I've heard you mention your parents Severus..."
"Nothing really to talk about."
"Care to elaborate?"
"Not here, not now, another time Morwyn. My point is that I don't believe it is a skill that comes naturally. A person can only teach what they themselves know, just as a person learns to parent by watching their parents"
"I think there are exceptions to that, I know, if I ever have children I will be making a conscious effort to avoid making the same mistakes my parents did"
"There are limitations to that though, my father was a real nasty piece of work. I said I wouldn't do the same, and I didn't. By my example growing up I have done well with Draco, but others believe me to be nasty as well, but I pale in comparison to him. As Draco will undoubtedly at this point pale in comparison to me. Each generation gets better, but it is a slow evolution I think."
"This conversation hasn't made me feel any better"
"Feel any better about what Morwyn, I only caught this last bit."
"It's not important Severus, honestly."
"It is important Miss Blanchett, clearly Severus, the child is terrified by the thought of being a mother, she isn't ready for this yet and is clearly keeping it to herself as not to concern you."
"Morwyn?" He asks surprisingly gentle and I feel my eyes glass over, turning my face away from his intense gaze as the first tear slips down my cheek. Since the day I realized I was pregnant I have doubted my ability to be a mother, I’ve felt a constant worry about failing our child entirely. As of late I haven't even been able to be a good partner to Severus, how could I be a mother..
"Stop it now Morwyn" he snaps, startling me from my thoughts and I realize he was in my head. "You have spent the last three months showing everyone on staff how capable you are despite all their doubts of you, and now, now you are going to plague yourself with doubt? Are you bloody daft?"
"You don't understand what my childhood was like Severus, you don't-" I start and I immediately feel something snap in him.
"Sixteen years of teaching students! I've learned a thing or two about reading them. Let my guess, raised by parents who never wanted a girl because you didn't carry the name, spoiled but ignored. You always had a warm bed and food in your stomach and never went without anything. Your father never spoke to you, only yelled and the rest of the time you were ignored and left to handle yourself alone, but he never raised a hand to you because he was raised better than that. It must have been horrible Morwyn, do you need a bloody tissue?"
"Severus!" Hisses Lucius from across the table.
"No, don't interfere Lucius!" He snaps before turning back to me, "If anything, your upbringing taught you to be tough and self sufficient, I've seen how strong you are when you have defended yourself, right now you are being foolish! You want to know what I came from Morwyn? You want to know what hell is? My father was a muggle factory worker until he was fired for being a drunk. He beat the shit out of my mother more times in a day then I could count and let us starve while he squandered every penny we had on alcohol. My mother hated me and blamed me for what he did to her. She never spoke to me and if she did it was to tell me she wished I was dead. My father never acknowledged my existence unless my mother was unconscious and he wasn't done firing off his temper, where I became his new punching bag. When I was fifteen I came home to my mother had been beaten to death and left to rot on the floor. I lied about my age to the muggle authorities and lived alone from then on because my father disappeared and I never heard from him again. So if you wish to throw yourself a pity party I will not be in attendance!" He finishes, anger burning in his eyes as he stands abruptly and storms from the house, disappearing with a loud crack.
I sit silently, mouth agape and tears blurring my vision. As I look around to the stunned faces in the room; I feel ashamed and horribly guilty. The silence in the room is deafening, no one knowing what to say or do. I focus in on him and from wherever his is, I can feel his pain and his anger and my heart sinks.
"You didn't know Miss Blanchett, none of us did." Comes Lupin’s quiet voice from the other end of the table.
Harry spoke, "I knew some of it, I may have, kinda snuck into his pensieve a few years back, I knew his parents were rough, but I didn't know it was that bad."
"I suggest you all put this out of your heads, if you start treating him differently because of this, he won't take it kindly." Comes Lucius cold voice.
"Where do you think he went Lucius, I need to go to him"
"No you don't, you need to let him cool down. I have been friends with him for longer than you have been alive, he says things he doesn't mean when he is angry, leave him and let him come to you. He told you more about himself in the last hour than he has ever told anyone, this is the only way he would come to tell you. For now, let him be, this is... I think… the beginning of healing for him."
"What if he doesn't come back?" I ask sadly
"My dear, he will be back. Years ago when he lashed out at Lily, he took his space, then realized he did wrong and came crawling back to her. The way he looks at you is more intense than he has ever looked at anyone, even Lily." Comes Lupin’s soothing voice as he tries to comfort me.
"He's going to come back eventually, but he isn't going to come crawling back this time. He will be angry still when he comes back, not at you but at himself."
"Why? I deserved that, I truly did."
"No, you didn't. But my wager is while you are being insecure, you are feeding his own insecurities, I think you saying how could you be a parent, made him stop and doubt himself more than he probably already was." Lucius injects calmly
"Hermione said you can feel his emotions? Perhaps you should start paying closer attention to them, it may help you understand where he is, perhaps that's why you have that gift. Whatever the gods gave you that gift, they gave it to you because they knew how broken he was and that you were going to need it to help him heal?" Luna's airy voice cuts in and she smiles "things are better between you now than they have ever been, you wait and see."
I gaze to my brother who is watching Luna with a silent admiration and a small amount of lust and I snort.
"Lorri!"
His gaze snaps to he and he looks annoyed "what?"
"If you are going to insist on making lovey eyes at her all the time, why don't you just ask her out?" I smirk.
"Sure that would go over well, I'm currently a wanted man on house arrest, would you like to go on a date with me? We could you know, stroll up the hall, or there's always a walk up the stairs, oh! I know how about we enjoy the fresh snow from the friggin’ windows."
"The trial isn't far off Baylor, would you go on a date with my pathetic brother after the trial Luna?"
"Of course" she smiles and my brother kisses her hand.
"And for the love of Merlin don't sleep with him."
"Oh, I won't, I'm going to wait until I marry." she smiles before excusing herself to go build a snow fort with the twins.
I can't help my smirk at him as I stand and head for the stairs.
"I'll be down for dinner Mrs. Weasley, this seems like as good a time as any to work on my lesson plans"
"Of course dear, I'll send someone up to get you"
I sit on the bed with papers spanning across it, having pushed aside tears and thoroughly immersing myself in them until the knock comes at my door summoning me for dinner. I finish the last bit and join everyone at the table. I sit silently through the meal and excuse myself soon after to go to bed. As I lay awake in bed late into the night and unable to sleep, I focus in on Severus again and immediately know that wherever he is, he is awake and miserable and sadness takes me again as I sob myself to sleep.
Something stirs me awake shortly after I’ve fallen asleep and I turn over, my eyes landing on a slightly dishevelled looking Severus, as he pulls off his cloak and throws it over the chair. I open my mouth to speak but he holds his hand up in the air to stop me and shakes his head. He pulls off his shirt and pants and climbs into the bed and loosely pulls me into his arms. He pulls back slightly and seeing tears in my eyes he brushes them away and pulls my head against his chest. After settling himself in the bed, he pulls the covers up over us.
"We can speak tomorrow, for now I just want to sleep, go back to sleep Morwyn." and we both do just that.
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