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His saviour	By : Kruemel Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Snape Views: 16367 -:- Recommendations : 5 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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Knowledge
When Severus woke a few hours later he watched the sleeping Harry for a while. He thought about his life and how much had changed in the short time since the school year had started. Everyone thought of Severus Snape as a cold hearted, emotionless bastard who loathed the company of anyone. Someone who relished in loneliness and seeks it. Only Severus himself knew that nothing could be further from the truth. Deep inside him there was a yearning for companionship, the desire of belonging. He never had that in his life. He didn´t feel it at home or in his time at Hogwarts and the fact that he came back as a teacher didn´t change that. He had always thought that he would be able to find friends amongst the staff but he wasn´t close to any of the other teachers. When he thought about it, he discovered that Dumbledore frequently saw to it that he didn´t get too close to anyone. He made plans with Minerva Mcgonagall a few times, but every time Dumbledore called him to ask him a favour or sent him on an arrent. He wondered why his old mentor was so keen on him having no friends but the more he thought about it the clearer it became.
Dumbledore was able to manipulate anyone he deemed useful in whatever game he was playing. Harry by far got the worst deal but Severus too was victim of the old man’s schemes. He found that it was clever that Dumbledore made sure he was isolated from anyone else but him. This way he was able to feed Severus any information without the risk of someone else contradicting him.
Severus was ashamed to admit that for many years he didn´t even bother to question the many things Dumbledore told him. He was blinded by gratitude for the old fool and trusted him to know what is best. He could bite himself in the ass for his stupidity. The past few days he got a taste of belonging, a fundamental feeling of finally doing the right thing and participating in something that really mattered. He was horrified by the thought that it took a severely abused young man to open his eyes about the evil that lead this castle and by extend a big portion of the wizarding population. Since Dumbledore got rid of Grindelwald the wizarding world saw him as a leader and didn´t question his decisions ones.
Severus watched Harry turn to his site. He was now facing him, and Severus took a long look at Harry´s face. Harry changed a lot over the last two years. He still wasn´t a tall man but he did grow a bit. Now he stood at 5`5 and although he was still skinny, he had quite a few muscles. His face lost the boyish look and was now more defined. He had beautiful long thick lashes and his lips were full hiding a set of perfectly white straight teeth. Severus thought he was very handsome and couldn´t quite believe that Harry lay next to him. He wasn´t a lucky man, and the fact that Harry seemed to be interested in him astounded him to no end. Severus never thought of him as desirable. He was pale, his lips were thin and his nose crooked and he couldn´t fathom how anyone could see him as a potential partner, but he wasn´t about to argue his fortune. He promised himself to embrace what ever the thing between Harry and him was and swore that he would do what ever he could to make Harry a happy man. Merlin knew, Harry deserved to be happy for ones.
And I think I do too. He thought to himself and scootched closer to Harry to pull him into his arms.
I have played the snarky old man for far too long. At least here with him and his friends I can be who I am. He smiled at the thought and buried his nose in Harry´s hair. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Harry smelled wonderful a scent that was uniquely him. Severus tried but he couldn´t think of anything that smelled as good as the young man in his arms.
“Good morning Severus.” Harry mumbled and opened his eyes slowly. He was relieved that Snape didn´t leave before he woke up.
“Good morning Harry, did you sleep well?”
“Yes, I did, thank you for staying. How long have you been awake?”
“An hour maybe. I think I heard Hermione a few minutes ago.”
“I bet she got up early to get and head start at her homework.”
“That wouldn´t surprise me at all. She always handed in very detailed work.”
“You know she only ever worked that hard because she is muggle born. She always saw it kind of a disadvantage. You remember calling her a know it all in third year? She would never say a thing to you but that hurt her very deep. She wanted to impress everyone so much and was devastated when she got ridiculed for wanting to prove she is no less than a half or pureblood. I know that you can´t change your behaviour in class but maybe you could stay clear of that topic?”
“I know that I was wrong to call her out, I was wrong about so many things. I was blind and ignorant, I can´t believe I never saw what was going on I am a spy I should have known. I am glad that I am not oblivious anymore. The first night back when I saw you with Dobby it was like waking up from a pleasant dream and coming back to reality. It was uncomfortable but it was necessary. I am sorry for all the times I wronged you and your friends. I promise you I will be better.” Harry gave him a big smile.
“You know, I would have never thought that we could have a conversation without insulting each other. This is the real you isn´t it? All the snark and the glares and the insults are the character you must play. I am glad that I can get to know the man behind the facade.” Severus smiled pulled Harry´s face up so he could look him in the eyes.
“I trust you and I trust your friends. The only other person to ever see me as I am, was your mother. You have so much of her in you. I never saw it before because I didn´t bother to look but I see it know.” He said and then he kissed him, and Harry was quick to scootch closer. It was a slow kiss full of emotion and Harry loved being so close to the other. They lost themselves in the kiss and didn´t even noticed that the door flew open.
Ginny stood in the door watching them for a few seconds. Her face lit up with a grin and she jumped on the bed throwing herself on top of them.
“Good morning you two. It´s time to get up. Hermione found something in Ravenclaws diary, and she is most eager to tell us.” She looked at them and laughed at Severus face.
“Morning foxy” Harry said and laughed and looked at Snape.
“You better get used to it Severus she does that a lot.” He said with a smile.
“We could always lock the door.” He said with a fake glare.
“Wouldn´t help she would just blast the damn door out of it´s frame.” Harry answered with another laugh.
“We could bind her to her bed. That would keep her out.” He said with an evil smile.
“Maybe we should… After all…” but Ginny interrupted.
“You two know I am still here, right?” She asked and Harry looked at her and laughed and she snuggled against him.
“Yes Gin, we know and although I don´t mind you being here I don´t know if Severus appreciates being attacked like that.” He grinned.
“It´s okay I guess as long as she isn´t here all night I quite enjoy having you to myself.” He said giving him a soft smile.
“Well let’s get up we have work to do, and I would like to discuss our next steps. Ginny, could you go and make coffee? We will get dressed and meet you lot in the kitchen for breakfast.”
“Okay Harry, see you in a few,” and she got up and left the room.
“Sorry about that.” Harry said and Severus pulled him close one last time.
“It´s no trouble. I thought it funny to be honest.” He kissed him again before getting up and walking to the door back to his room to get dressed. Harry couldn´t help the stupid grin that was forming on his face. He too got up and went into the bathroom for a quick shower before dressing and making his way to the kitchen.

The other´s already waited for him and Ginny shoved a cup of coffee into his Hands. He sat down between Ron and Hermione and took a sip.
“Thanks Ginny, just how I like it.” She smiled and looked at Hermione.
“Well? Everyone is here now will you please tell us what you found?” She said and Hermione nodded.
“I read through the journals and found something about the knowledge in you or rather how you find it. I don´t want to tell you beforehand because I think you´re going to think to much about it if I do. Do me a favour and close your eyes, Harry. Only listen to my voice and try to follow what I am telling you.” He nodded and closed his eyes.
“Alright Harry, I want you to think about your brain try and imagine it in front of your eyes. Nod when you can see it.” He did.
"Your brain is made from five different sections. One is the cerebrum it’s the biggest part of your brain and is kind of on top of the others. The second section is the diencephalon it lays directly underneath the cerebrum and over the midbrain. On the right, next to the midbrain is the cerebellum. There is another section, but it is irrelevant. I want you to focus on the cerebellum because that´s where your memories lie. Only concentrate on that and after a moment you should feel the part in your brain.”
Harry focused on nothing else and was surprised when he started to feel a soft tickling in his head telling him he found the right spot. He nodded and Hermione spoke again.
“What does it feel like Harry?”
“It´s kind of like someone is tickling that part of my brain but it is very faint.”
“Alright focus on the feeling and try and open this part further. If the feeling becomes more, you know it´s working. I´m afraid ones it opens completely you will black out because it will become quite overwhelming. It will be all good when you wake up but there is no way around it. Focus now.”
And Harry did. It was hard at first, but when he felt the feeling become more it became easier to focus on exactly that part of his brain. The tickling became more and more and suddenly Harry felt himself being dragged into darkness.
“I think that was successful Hermione.” Severus said. “How long will it be until he wakes?”
“I don´t know exactly but it shouldn´t be too long.”
“Ron, Ginny would you watch after Harry for a moment I was wondering if I could have a word with you?”
“Sure thing, we get you when he wakes up.” Ron said.
“Thank you.” Severus said and stood up and went out of the door, Hermione following him.
“What´s up?” She asked after they sat down in the living room.
“I had a conversation with Harry this morning and I wanted to talk to you.” He looked at her and she gave him an encouraging smile.
“I know that we all haven´t had the best relationship in the past and I also know that it is mostly my fault that that is the case. I am very grateful that you and your friends found it in your heart to forgive all that and that we could start anew without so much as an apology. I want to rectify that and that is what I am going to do. I am sorry for being so cruel. You never did anything to me or in class that would explain my behaviour. Quite the opposite actually. You are probably the only student I ever taught that came prepared to every lesson. Well maybe Draco did as well but that is because I forced him to be.”
“I was very much like you when I was a kid. I wanted to learn everything, and I always wanted to be the best I can be. The difference between us is that I was ridiculed and bullied for it and you were not. I was bitter about that and did to you what the kids at school did to me when I was your age, I regret that. I should have been a good teacher and encourage you instead of tearing you down.” He looked down in shame.
“Thank you, for the apology. It means more to me then you think. I forgive you just promise me one thing?” She looked at him.
“What is it what you want?” He asked.
“Please tell me the truth about your feelings for Harry. He is like, no not like, he IS my brother and I know that Ron and Ginny feel the same way about him. You know by now what his life was like and I don´t think he would recover if another person he trusts would hurt him or if he were to lose that person…” She trailed of for a second.
“I am very worried about him sometimes and the past couple of days were so crazy… sometimes I wonder how he didn´t become dark by now. He has every reason to take revenge out at the world but he doesn´t. Please don´t be offended I just want to make sure I know your intentions.”
She looked him in the eyes. Severus could see she was a little scared, but he was impressed by her. She could have been resentful of what he told her but the only thing she was thinking about was her friend. Severus thought he was lucky that he could count her as a friend now. She was loyal and loving and caring and she would forgive him for his many sins and all he must do is to tell her the truth.
“I am not sure what it is between me and Harry. Our relationship changed so much over the last week. I only now that I want to be there for him and I want him to feel safe, happy and I want him to succeed in everything he sets his mind on, but do I want to be the person who makes him feel all that? I think I do. I want to get to know him better and though I can not sit here and tell you that I love him, I can tell you that my feelings for him are strong and I think if we spent more time together, I would eventually fall in love with him. I just hope that is what he wants as well.”
“That is all I need to know. Thank you for telling me. I think Harry should be very happy that he has you. I know I am happy that you are my friend.” She said with a warm smile. Severus felt his throat go dry. He felt very emotional at the kind words and he had to clear his throat before he was able to speak again.
“I really think that I am the lucky one.” He said and they smiled at each other.
“Hey, Mione he wakes up!!” Came Ron´s voice from the kitchen.
“Well, lets go see him.” Hermione said and together they went back to the kitchen.
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