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Treading a Troubled Track	By : SnapesOnlyOne Category: HP Canon Characters paired with Original Characters > Het - Male/Female Views: 1833 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 17
- 18
When I wake in the morning I am still clutched in Severus’ arms. I look up and his face in sleep still show stress and strain and I begin to feel the guilt again. I slowly climb from the bed and head downstairs. I move past the masses and pour two cups of tea and go to the table to fix him a plate of breakfast and levitate the plate and saucers up the stairs ahead of me.
"I'm going to stay upstairs this morning, Mrs. Weasley." and she nods eyeing the second cup of tea that hovers in front of me.
I carefully open the door, letting the cups set themselves down on the bedside tables and putting his food down on his table, grabbing a slice of toast off his plate and eating it as I watch him sleep. I am slightly fearful of how this morning is going to go, and I decide that I will take his lead with the situation. After I finish the toast and take a deep breath, I climb back into the bed, and snuggle into his chest. His arms come around me and he pulls the covers back over me, shifting his position on the bed so his head is resting on my chest. I reach down and stroke my fingers through his soft hair and place a soft kiss to his forehead. We sit in silence for what seems like forever, his arms wrapped around me.
"Severus..." I begin gently and he shakes his head in response.
"No, I'm going to speak and I want you to listen, please" and I wait for his objection but none come. "You don't have to be strong all the time, I can feel what you're feeling right now. Ashamed for being weak. But Severus, what you did wasn't weak. It takes a lot of courage to bring your demons to light and let others know you have been broken. I won't pity you Severus, a wise man once said 'pity is just another form of abuse'. But I will make every effort possible to ease your pain Severus. Another wise man once said 'our human compassion binds us one to the other - not in pity or patronizingly, but as human beings who have learnt how to turn our common suffering into hope for the future' if you can take no comfort from others Severus, please take comfort with me. Your demons don't scare me, if anything they make me love you more, need you more, and above all you have showed me just how brave and strong you really are to have held your head up against all odds and continued on." I finish, warding the door and silencing the room to give him privacy and I continue to stroke his hair as he is overcome with emotion.
We sit like this for what must have been hours and though his eyes have dried, I know that his mind must still be reeling."I was able to let go of my demons from the things that happened to me as a Death Eater because I was able to lean on your strength Severus, can you please lean on me now and let your demons go? This is a fresh start for both of us, a second chance. I'm not going to insult you by lying, I'm terrified at the thought of being a mother. But I can't imagine anyone going into this the first time without fear and doubt. I should have spoken to you about it, but you seem so confident with everything, I didn't want you to think I regretted this, because I don't Severus, I don't have any regrets when it comes to you or our baby"
"I am not," he whispers.
"Severus?"
"You said I seem confidant, I am not. I only know that I wish my child to have everything I never had."
"And our child will Severus, I know you will do everything in your power to make sure it does, and so will I, for both you and our child. I love you beyond words Severus."
His eyes find mine and lean into kiss him softly on the lips as I brush the hair from his face. When I pull back to look at him he grasps the back of my head and brings my mouth back to his. He nips at my bottom lip, tugging it gently before tracing it with his warm tongue before seeking entrance to my mouth. I give in and his hunger deepens, his tongue ravishing my mouth as he climbs on top of me. His kisses trail down my neck and back up, stopping at my ear. He nips my earlobe and whispers the words I've only heard once from his lips. "And I love you my little witch," before divesting us both of clothes and thrusting into me all at once, clutching me as if his very existence at this moment depends on me. His every movement hungry but tender, his wordless apology of sorts as he works us both over the edge and collapses back onto the bed pulling me on top of him without breaking contact. His lips find mine again as his fingers graze over my belly and he pulls the blankets up over us holding me close to him.
"I brought you a cuppa and some breakfast Severus."
"I saw, thank you." he whispers shifting so his head is on my chest again and closing his eyes. When he drifts back off to sleep I slip quietly from the bed and get dressed and take my tea downstairs.
"Is he alright dear?"
"Yes, but can I ask a favor from you all? Can you just pretend this didn't happen? I don't particularly enjoy him in that horrid of a mood."
There is a collective nod around the room and my gaze falls on my brother who is scowling.
"What now Baylor?"
"I just don't understand it, why you two, why him?"
"You said you'd stop."
"I wish I knew, it just is, it was meant to be this way, that I know and I am happy with him, more than happy. We have both come a long way in a short period of time, and I think we have a long way to go, but this is no ones business but our own and I'd appreciate if you would kindly respect our privacy."
"You get stressed out about us being involved, what do you think the press will do when they get wind of it?"
I blanch, I hadn't thought about that. The press had been trying to get ahold of Severus and myself since the war but he kept declining comment and I have managed to avoid them altogether. I can only imagine my position in the war and my relationship with Severus - unwed, pregnant and just barely legal age - would most definitely ruffle some feathers amongst the old fashioned ways of the wizarding world.
I turn my focus away from that and instead think about the start of term.
"Is it ok that Baylor stays here when term resumes Mrs. Weasley? Or should I make other arrangements?"
"Of course he can stay, he's been a pleasure to have here"
"Has there been any news as to the date of your trial Baylor?"
"Yes, it's the ninth at ten, he couldn't avoid the date he said. What's so important about the date Morwyn?"
"It's Severus' birthday, I didn't want him to have to spend it sitting in front of the Wizengamot."
"I can go myself if you'd prefer Morwyn..."
"No, I want someone there with you, he offered, I didn't ask. He knows how much you mean to me Lorri"
"I appreciate it Morwyn, I suppose I owe him a favor."
&%&%&
The following few days went somewhat more smooth than it already had. With Baylor healing, the hols and my hormones, it was already time to head back to Hogwarts before I knew it.
We decided to board the train with the other students and some faculty instead of taking a portkey or apparating, as we’d found over the weeks that me and apparating were not currently on good terms.
We got to our private car, it was spacy and comfortable, warming charms coupled with the falling snow outside created a winter wonderland ambiance as I snuggled down under the knitted blanket I’d received from Mrs. Weasley. Severus perched on the bench, barely leaning back into the cushions, looking stiff and imposing. I sigh, pulling him by his elbow “Severus, please relax, we have some time until we arrive at Hogwarts. Relax or I won’t be able to myself.” I could see his jaw tick with how hard he was grinding his teeth, then he slowly reclined back and made a show of relaxing, sending me a sidelong glance of condescension.
I can’t help but scoff, smiling at him as I lean further into his side, and drifting slowly and before I know it, sleep takes me under.
&%&%&
She could sleep anywhere. Just about anywhere, maddening as it is, I wouldn’t let anyone find out just how endearing it appears to me.
She’d only been asleep for about an hour when she begins to stir, mumbling about her ‘damn bladder’ and slipping out to go to the loo. When she gets back, she immediately burrows back under the large blanket and back into my side. “You know Morwyn, I think we may need to ask Poppy at your checkup to do a complete physical.”
She pulls back slightly, looking up at me in confusion. “Well, as much as you nod off, I can only assume you must be narcoleptic.” She scoffs, pushing at my side lightly and settling back down again. “You try growing another human being inside of you and tell me how your body changes, then we’ll talk. Until then… hush.”
I can’t help but smile slightly as she drifts off to sleep again. I wonder how she’d feel if she knew that she sometimes drooled. I’ll save that bit of information for another time, I smirk to myself, pulling her tighter to me and letting myself drift slightly, awaiting the arrival at the castle.
&%&%&
We took the thestral drawn carriages back up to the gates and up into the grounds, Severus scaring students in our wake as we made our way to The Great Hall to align with the other faculty. Hermione and Draco along with the prefects met all the youngest students at the top of the steps with the Headmistress to make sure that all the students made it to their table to have dinner and then after to their rooms. Travel makes everyone tired, but especially after hours on the train, with the drain of the winter holidays coming to a close, every student was sleepy eyed and full from the feast and treats. After the last students filed out of the Hall, I took Severus by the hand, ignoring his grumbling and began to drag him down the back hallway and towards the dungeons. Something so simple as cutting his meat with a knife and fork, and I am randy. Damn hormones, they make even his eating look sexy to me.
The moment the door closes behind him, I pounce. Pushing him back against the door and standing on my toes my lips meet his, arms snaking around his waist. He groans against my lips and without breaking contact begins backing me down the hall, clothing falling to the floor as we move deeper into my quarters. By the time the backs of my knees hit the bed we are naked and panting. He breaks contact and scans me over with another groan, lowering me back against the dungeon cooled blankets and nudging my thighs apart his black orbs gleaming with predatory hunger. He kneels carefully between my thighs, trailing open mouthed kisses up one thighs than the other, his warm breath hits my core as his tongue darts through my folds. The first contact is delicious as he snakes his tongue around, lapping up my sweet juices, careful to avoid my swollen bud.
"So wet my insatiable witch"
"Severus please!" I beg, bucking against him. I feel him press two of his long calloused fingers into my warmth. He moves his fingers skillfully, pumping and curling them as his wicked tongue takes on a mind of his own, lashing and flicking at me mercilessly. I grab fistfuls of his hair moaning out as the wave crashes on me, taking me overboard and under with an earth shattering scream.
"Merlin I love watching you come for me witch" he growls climbing onto the bed and dragging my limp form with him and laying my on the pillows. He closes his mouth over mine and I can taste myself on him as he plunders my mouth. His mouth moves downwards trailing kisses down my neck and into the crevasse between my slightly swollen breasts, he cups them both gently and squeezes them before taking each hardened peak in his mouth, sucking and tugging at them as I arch against him. He trails kisses down across my belly before positioning himself between my thighs and thrusting into my depths in one swift movement.
"So tight my little witch" he pants, immediately picking up his pace, slipping in and out with quick bucks of his hips, pushing deeper and harder with each thrust until he is bottoming inside me with every thrust and panting hard, sweat glistening down his back as I dig my nails into it, crying out as I feel my body start to give again to his blissful torture. With one last hard flick of his hips we both come undone, spilling his seed deep into me and he thudding onto the bed beside me, the events of the day and our vigorous sex leaving him exhausted. He pulls me into his arms and kisses me again, nipping my lower lip gently and resting his forehead against mine.
"Merlin that was fantastic, I love you Severus" he nods and kisses my forehead. "We are going to see Poppy in the Morning before breakfast Morwyn, I want to be sure that all the stress from events of the last week haven't harmed our child. Go to sleep Morwyn."
I nod, yawning and curl into him, falling into an exhausted sleep, contented that everything is finally calm.
&($)&
"Morwyn, wake up and get out of bed this instant!" He growls irritably, this being his seventh attempt to get me up, and I having thrown every pillow on our bed at him in an attempt to get him to let me sleep more.
"Witch, I will carry you to the bloody infirmary naked if you do not get up and get dressed now!" He barks and I know now he is out of patience.
I sit up rubbing my eyes sleepily and pull myself out of the bed. He waves his wand and I am dressed before he pulls open the door and gestures impatiently for me to move.
We arrive at the infirmary and I can see how tense Severus is.
"I'm sure the baby is fine Severus, please calm yourself."
"Go lay down, I'll get Poppy." he growls.
I move reluctantly across the room and drop into the bed, feeling sleepy and fighting the urge to go to sleep, but it wins.
I'm woken not long after by a laughing Poppy.
"A little tired dear?"
"A lot tired, tired is the new normal, this feels like I haven't the energy to keep my eyes open anymore."
"That should ease up in around five or six weeks."
"That's reassuring." I sigh sadly, another six weeks of this may kill me.
She begins scans as Severus paces the infirmary, looking quite like his head may explode and I can't help but laugh at him.
"Everything is fine Severus, Morwyn is completely healthy again and the pregnancy looks great. I can however tell you why your fatigue is so intense if you are interested?"
"Did you not just say nothing was wrong?" Severus growls.
"There is nothing wrong Severus, quite the opposite actually, it's fantastic news, Miss Blanchett is carrying twins!" She finishes, her smile going from ear to ear, clearly thrilled.
I freeze in the bed and turn it over in my head a few times before turning my gaze to Severus who looks just as stunned as I am and immediately I know I need to break the tension.
"You can't ever just half-ass something can you?"
He immediately collects himself and turns to me with a sneer. "Apparently not."
"Do you want to know what they are?"
"I thought you couldn't find out until much further on?" Severus asks raising his brow.
"If you're muggle, in the wizarding world we can read magical signatures to find out the sex, I'm surprised I even have to tell you this Severus."
"Well seeing as she is the first woman I've ever impregnated, I don't see how the knowledge would have been necessary"
"Do you want to know?"
"It's up to Morwyn, I'm fine with knowing it's safe"
"They're safe, and of course I want to know"
"Girls, two little girls, you two must be so proud!"
"I suppose that's one way to look at it, surprised? Or perhaps overwhelmed might be a better fit at the moment"
"You can't be surprised, you yourself are a twin, it means you carry the gene. As for overwhelmed, I suppose it must be, a bit. But you two will be fine, you breathe, clearly this is what the fates had in store for you."
"I believe the fates can bugger off,"
"Severus, you are supposed to support her, not make her scared" Poppy scolds.
Severus looks at me and back at Poppy, then without warning turns and leaves.
Poppy looks at a loss for words watching him leave. "The nerve of that man."
"You told him to be supportive and not to scare me that's what he's doing" I laugh.
"I don't know how you deal with him"
"We’re equally difficult people in his defense, I have my own issues and lots of them, he's been patient with me, it's really only fair that I show him the same patience."
"I have to admit I was worried when they hired you, but now that you're here I think you will do well, and I can't wait to see how things go for the two of you."
I frown and shake my head. "I now suddenly have the mental image of all the staff taking bets on how long Severus and I will last together or if we will kill each other,"
"No one is taking bets, but there are doubts that the two of you will last just because you two are so different."
"That's why we work, why we will continue to work. Why anyone cares about our relationship I don't understand, if it was anyone else no one would care"
"It's not you, it's Severus. Many of us have known him since he was a child and have never seen him be a particularly kind man or even to show love or kindness and we are curious if he will be able to or not. This is life for everyone else, but personal relationships for him are no easy feat."
"Easy or not, I know he won't give up, and I know he will do everything he can to make this work, shame on you and anyone else who is doubting him, he is going to be my husband, he is going to be the father- a good father- to our girls and I will have at it with anyone who dares speak against my Wizard!" I snap, standing and leaving the infirmary with a snappy thanks and a slam of the door.
I skip breakfast, eat lunch in my classroom and as my last class ends Severus appears in my doorways, students giving him a wide berth as they exit the room hurriedly. I gesture Severus over and he takes his place beside me, leaning back against my desk, arms folded across his chest as he watches me finish my marking, pressing so hard on the quill it threatens to break, still feeling furious over this morning’s conversation. When I finish I keep my gaze down trying to reign in my anger, hormones doing nothing to help me. His hand falls gently onto my shoulder and when I don't look up he reaches it over tilting my chin up and eyeing me in concern.
"Are you genuinely that upset, Morwyn?"
"I am, but not for the reason you think Severus..."
"What has you upset?"
I shake my head, not wanting to upset him.
"Morwyn, just tell me, I grow tired of guessing games."
"They doubt us Severus, the staff doubt us...they doubt you. I hate them Severus, I hate them!"
He pulls me onto my feet and into his arms. I hear the door shut and lock as he holds me tightly, my body shaking in anger as he shushes me.
"They have always doubted me Morwyn, I don't care what they think or believe of me. I am here to teach and get paid for doing so, not to make friends. Do you doubt me?"
"No, Severus I don't doubt you."
"Then let them think what they want Morwyn, it doesn't matter, it has never mattered. At the end of the day it's us, bugger them."
I look up at him shocked.
"What?" He asks with a raised brow.
"That was sweet, in your own way Severus"
"Don't go getting all tears eyed and sentimental on me witch or I swear to Merlin-"
"Oh shut up Severus! Why is it so hard for you to just let it out?"
He looks at me, raises his brow again and tries to pull away from me but I stop him pulling him down for a kiss and we head off to dinner.
That night as we climb into bed and snuggle down it sinks in for me, two… two babies… two girls… my girls… our girls…
Seven months until we hold our girls. Fear and excitement intertwine and I can't help but smile as I graze my fingers over my belly and turn to watch my sleeping man beside me and I feel comfortable and safe. I slip across the bed and into his arms placing a kiss on his nose and snuggling in for the night.

"Pity is just another form of abuse" belongs to Michael J Fox.
"Our human compassion binds us one to the other - not in pity or patronizingly, but as human beings who have learnt how to turn our common suffering into hope for the future" belongs to the great Nelson Mandela.
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