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Forever and Always	By : cls2256 Category: HP Canon Characters paired with Original Characters > Het - Male/Female Views: 6832 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 2
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The girl’s had been moved in to their flat for a couple weeks now when she received Sirius’ owl. She about trampled Frankie when he flew in the window; relieved that he came back with what looked like a reply. After she untied the parchment, he flew to the perch Penelope had set up for him in the living room next to Lionel, and seemed at home already.
Mia,
Yes, I can draw you a map to Remus’ cottage, just be careful of the moon cycles when you choose to go. Write me with an update after you see him and let me know if he is alright. I would go check on him myself, but I am laying low keeping an eye on Harry. The map is drawn at the bottom of this letter.
Thanks for the pumpkin pastie, send food whenever you can.
Sirius
“Penelope!!!!” Mia shouted, busting into Penelope’s bedroom as she was getting out of the shower.
“Geez, Mia, what??” Penelope said, covering herself with her towel quickly.
“I’ve got it; the map.” Mia said, her sentences frazzled from nerves.
“You want to go today?” Penelope asked, checking her closet for what to wear.
Mia stopped and tried to think of what part of the cycle they were in. She walked into the kitchen and looked at the calendar they had posted on the fridge. It told them the dates of the New and Full moons, and right on today was a full moon.
“No, not today” Mia hollered from the kitchen. “We need to wait about 4 days”.
Mia’s stomach did flip flops. The idea of confronting Remus was so real now; it made her sick to think about seeing him. But she needed to see him. Penelope walked out of her bedroom dressed, scrunching her wet curls with her towel.
“4 days? That’s rather specific.” She chuckled.
“Full moon today” Mia said, looking through the pantry to find some food to send off to Sirius as he had requested.
“Mia… it didn’t bother you that Professor Lupin is a werewolf?” Penelope asked slowly.
Mia had found some fruit snacks that she fit into a bag with some licorice wands, and was sending Lionel out the window.
“No, it honesty didn’t; doesn’t. I was shocked when I realized it, that’s when I passed out in Snape’s Defense against the Dark Arts lesson last year, but I quickly realized it didn’t change who he is. He is still Remus. Still the man I fell in love with.” Mia said; her voice full of emotion.
“Sirius helped me become an animagus so I could keep him company during full moons, so I’ve never really felt afraid of him anyway” she added casually, walking into her bedroom to take a shower.
“Wait, that’s the magic he was teaching you in the forest?? Hold on… You’re an animagus?????” Penelope called after her, but Mia was already in the shower.
Penelope sat down on the couch with a look of shock on her face, surprised to hear her friend had learned such complex magic in a short period of time, and also that she had failed to even bring it up over the last 8 months.
The girls picked a Friday evening to confront Remus. Mia and Penelope closed up the wine and cheese shop around 4pm, and let the other employees leave early so they could discuss their plan alone. Mia was fidgeting with her outfit in the mirror of the shop’s bathroom, questioning if she should’ve dressed nicer, or dressed more casual. She was wearing her favorite pair of blue jeans and a black sweater, and her hair had been smoothed straight. She was wearing the jewelry he had gotten her for Christmas the previous year, not having taken it off since he broke it off with her at the end of the school year. She questioned whether or not she should wear it; did it make her seem pathetic to have held on to it? Her thoughts were interrupted by Penelope bustling into the back room.
“Mia, you look great, we should get going.” She said, grabbing her shoulder bag from the coat rack next to the bathroom.
Mia nodded at her, and her heart started to pound. She looked at herself in the mirror again, her chest tightening from anxiety. Her stomach lurched as if missing the last step of a set of stairs. Penelope read her body language, and stepped into the cramped bathroom with her, putting a reassuring hand on her shoulder.
“We don’t have to do this today…” Penelope started.
“No, I’m ok.” She said, taking a deep breath.
The girls exited the shop, locking the door, and made their way around the alley out of sight of any muggles. They went behind a dumpster, and pulled out Sirius’ map.
“Ok, if we apparate here in the village, we should be able to follow this map to his cottage.” Mia said, pointing at a spot on the drawing that Sirius had sketched for her.
The girls linked arms, feeling a tug just behind their navels before suddenly appearing in the little village that Sirius told them to start. They hiked for what seemed like forever, though a wooded area that bordered the village. Mia looked at her watch. 5:03.
“He could’ve warned us it was going to take this long on foot, or gave us a better apparition point.” Mia scoffed.
The map said to head southwest, and they would run right into it. She had a compass charm going on her wand, but she felt like they were walking southwest for longer than they should. About 10 minutes of walking later, they reached a clearing, with a small run-down cottage that had a beautiful lakeside view.
“Wow” Penelope breathed “it’s so peaceful here”.
Mia nodded and swallowed. She was about to face Remus, and she was shaking in her boots. Penelope grabbed Mia’s hand and nodded to her, smiling. Mia was envious of how calm Penelope was, but then again, she didn’t have the same emotional interest as her. They walked up to the door of the cottage and knocked 3 times, loudly. No answer. After a moment, they knocked again, met with the same silence as before.
“Maybe he’s not home?” Penelope whispered.
Mia was irritated at this point. She didn’t hike over an hour in the woods just to find a dead end.
She banged on the door “REMUS?! Open up!”
Mia tried the door handle, and it was open. She flung the door open and walked in before Penelope had the chance to protest. She gasped at the state of the inside of the cottage. There was probably 150 empty bottles of scotch lying around the living room and filling up the dining room table, the trash can piled so high it looked as if it was going to fall over, and Remus, snoozing in an armchair in the living room still clutching a half drank glass of scotch. The coffee table had takeout boxes littered across its surface, and there were cobwebs in the corner of the living room. Mia was surprised to see his place in such disarray; he was usually a very neat person but it appeared as if he let himself and his home go. She could tell the cottage itself needed some repair work anyway, Remus living off a tight budget most likely didn’t have the extra gold to spare some repairs, but it looked like he hadn’t picked up since he moved back in last summer. His stubble suggested he hadn’t had a good shave in at least a week, and his hair had quite a bit more gray than it did at the end of last school year. She walked over to him and shook him hard, Penelope looking around wide eyed, she too was surprised by the many bottles of scotch before her.
“Remus?? REMUS?? WAKE UP” She spat as she shook him awake.
He began to stir and groan and he adjusted in his chair, taking a moment to open his eyes. His eyes were bloodshot with dark circles under them, his face gaunt and his skin slightly sallow. When he saw the two girls standing before him, he blinked a few times in confusion before speaking.
“Mia?? Penelope??” he croaked; his voice dry and gravelly from just waking up.
“Hi, Professor…” Penelope said softly.
“Yes, us; Get up. I came to talk to you” Mia said curtly.
“What’re you…” he began to say sleepily, until Mia ripped the glass of scotch out of his hand and slammed it down on the messy coffee table.
“Hey, what the hell??” he said irritably.
“I think you’ve had enough for today. What the hell is this anyway??” Mia scoffed, throwing her hands up as if to point to the entire cottage. “Look how many bottles of scotch are around here. You seriously drank all this?”
He shrugged at her, his demeanor sobering up a little now that he was awake and she had his attention.
“I came here because I want to hear the words you are too cowardly to say. I send you an owl with no reply. Sirius even sent you two owls!” Mia exclaimed, a fire beginning to burn inside her.
Her nerves went from anxious to angry, and she was ready to have it out with him right here, right now.
“How did you find me…” he asked slowly, eyes moving back and forth between Mia and Penelope.
“Sirius, who is back in the country, by the way, and hasn’t heard from you.” She sneered. “I want to hear you say it, Remus. I want you to tell me why you broke it off.”
She put her hands on her hips and stared down at him with burning intensity. Penelope was beginning to feel uncomfortable; slinking herself against the wall of the cottage as if to blend in with her surroundings. He blinked at her a couple times, almost afraid to speak.
“Well???” Mia sneered, her eyes flickering at him dangerously.
“Mia, you deserve to be with someone better than me…” He began calmly, but Mia threw her hands up in the air and began to pace.
“Better than you?? That’s a cop out and you know it. Don’t feed me this bullshit.”
“I’m not; I cannot give you the life you should have. I will hold you back. I’m too old, too…”
“yeah yeah yeah too old, too poor, too dangerous. That’s BULLSHIT!”
Mia had picked up an empty bottle of scotch and threw it on the floor as she finished her last sentence. She ignored the shards of broken glass and continued to pace around them.
“I know you never loved me, you were just using me, some pretty little student who kept you company at your year of Hogwarts, but when the prospect of having an actual relationship came around you threw me away like a piece of trash!”
Mia had begun to cry, tears streaming down her face, voice breaking as she screamed at him in anguish.
“I want you to say it; I want to hear THAT YOU DON’T LOVE ME!”
Remus shot up out of the chair and growled in frustration. He ran his left hand through his graying hair, as he walked over to a window to look outside.
“DON’T YOU SEE?” He yelled, staring out the window. “I did it BECAUSE I love you!”
He turned back to her, his face turning red.
“A life with me is SHIT! I get passed up for paid jobs because of what I am. I go months without work, because no one wants to hire the lycanthrope. Even jobs I do get, once they pick up on my symptoms if I don’t resign, they fire me!”
Remus took a few steps towards her, his voice lowering to normal speaking volume.
“I live on a small stipend of what I’ve been able to save and what I inherited, and I can’t even afford to fix this place up still.”
His posture slumped as he ran his hand through his hair, taking a deep breath.
“I could accidently infect you if we are not careful, I could infect children we may have, and I will not condemn someone I love to live with this disease as I do. You are so young and beautiful; you have the world at your feet and I will hold you back. I want you to be happy, even if that means I am miserable, drinking myself to death in this cottage.”
Remus’ face was twisted with anguish, his emotional pain that he was drinking to numb coming to a head right in front of them. Mia took a deep breath.
“But don’t you see? I don’t care about what you are. None of those things concern me; all I want is you.”
“You will live life as an outcast, people constantly judging you for what I am.” He said gloomily.
“I don’t give a shit what people think.” She scoffed. “You won’t infect me because we will be careful. I became an Animagus FOR YOU, which we never got to talk about, but I did it so I can keep you company during the full moons, especially if we run out of Wolfsbane, which I know how to brew, by the way, because I learned it FOR YOU.”
Her voice was steadying as she spoke, her tone sounding much more logical and businesslike.
“You may have trouble finding work, but I won’t, because of my NEWT scores I can have any job I want, and I can support us both. I want this life because I want YOU. You make me whole, Remus. I don’t want to live without you. I can’t live without you.”
Remus and Mia stared into each other’s eyes for a moment, both silent. Penelope shifted uncomfortably in her spot she had pressed herself into against the wall.
“If you don’t want me, tell me and I will leave right now, and never bother you again” she said, her voice barely over a whisper.
“But if you want me, I am yours”
His mind was racing; He loved her, but he wanted what was best for her. He had made himself sick questioning if he had done the right thing, but now that she was here, he didn’t want her to go. He felt it was selfish to condemn her to life as on outcast in the wizarding world, but in this moment he wanted to be selfish. He felt dizzy from all the scotch he’d had, his mind spinning with uncertainty. He ran his hand through his hair again and took a deep breath. He gave into his emotions, and walked up to her, cupping her face with one hand and kissed her. He wrapped his other arm around her waist and pulled her close. Their kiss was passionate; Mia began trembling in his arms from the surge of emotions she felt to touch him again.
They kissed for a good minute until Penelope cleared her throat awkwardly, feeling uncomfortable by the snog session before her.
“Sorry Penny…” Mia said, giving her a sheepish smile.
She turned back to Remus, who was giving her a mournful gaze.
“I’m sorry, Mia” he said softly, looking into her eyes.
She could see the pain he was feeling in his eyes, his sorrow written all over his face.
She pressed her forehead against his and whispered “please don’t shut me out. Let me back in”.
He nodded, and she hugged him tightly, burying her face into his chest. After she broke her embrace, her mental armor went up, feeling uncomfortable with the emotional rollercoaster that she just went through in a matter of five minutes.
“Well this place is in complete shambles. You seriously lived like this?”
She walked over to the kitchen and began opening cupboards, finding only a few bags of chips and something moldy that was now unrecognizable. She crinkled her nose at it and threw the moldy mess on top of the overflowing trash can.
“Geez Remus, when was the last time you ate a decent meal either?”
“Maybe the last time you did…” Penelope said to her quietly.
Mia gave her a glare that made Penelope squirm uncomfortably. Penelope harped on Mia to eat just as much as her parents did, which drove her nuts to have three people constantly asking her what she ate last and how much. Mia ran her hand through her hair, turning her attention to the cottage rather than her eating habits.
“Penelope, if you could apparate to the village and pick up some food to make? Getting back shouldn’t be hard since you can apparate straight here now knowing where we are. Remus is going to go have a bath and shave because I believe it’s been a few days since that’s happened. I’m going to get this place cleaned up.”
Mia picked up an empty bottle and scoffed at it.
“This isn’t even good scotch. If you’re going to be a drunk, at least drink something decent.” She said as she shooed Remus towards the bathroom.
He muttered something about liking his scotch as he disappeared around the corner.
“What do you want me to buy?” Penelope asked nicely, treading lightly knowing she irritated Mia by her food comment.
“Coffee, for sure, and some earl grey tea, he likes that. Food wise something good to soak up the alcohol, pasta maybe? Anything really, whatever you think is best” Mia said, her thinking process frazzled as she was picking up bottle after bottle.
“Ok, I’ll be back shortly… you ok?” Penelope asked, placing her hand on Mia’s shoulder.
Mia looked up “yeah, I think I am.”
Mia hated dealing with her emotions, so focusing her energy on cleaning up the cottage was perfect. Penelope was back quicker than expected, and they made a big pot of coffee to help sober Remus up. Penelope kept Remus occupied while Mia made dinner, telling him how she had heard that Hogwarts was to host the Tri- Wizard Tournament this year, and that they were not playing qudditch due to the tournament’s festivities.
“Thankfully we graduated before the quidditch hiatus, can you image Oliver Wood being told that there wouldn’t be quidditch for an entire year?” Mia called from the kitchen.
The three of them laughed, sharing stories and memories of quidditch. Penelope was quite chatty with Remus over dinner, talking to him about her and Mia working at her parents shop, and their results on their equivalency exams. Remus had mostly sobered up by this point, carrying on conversation with her and asking her questions about the girls’ plans to get their own place and job prospects.
“I’m not sure if I will be working in the Wizarding world or Muggle world” Penelope said between bites. “My NEWT scores were good, not like Mia’s, but good if I wanted to work for the ministry in some way. My mum wants me to take over the shop as manager, and then sell it to me when they retire, but I’m not sure yet.”
No longer distracted by cleaning or barking orders, Mia began to feel her emotions returning to her. As she twirled her spaghetti around her fork for each bite, she was retreating further into her mind, and she slowly grew quieter at the table. Her plate was much smaller than theirs, but Penelope seemed so distracted with chatting with Remus it kept the attention off how much she ate. Her appetite was still low, and by her seventh bite of spaghetti her stomach was churning with distain.
When they had finished eating, Mia looked down at her watch. 9:13 she thought the time was flying by, but she had no idea it was this late. The sun was already down, and she wasn’t sure how late Penelope was interested in staying out.
Mia began to clear the table, and Remus stood up to help her, but she shooed him away.
“I’ll get these dishes, something tells me you probably have a giant pile of dirty laundry that needs attending too”
He laughed and ran his hand through his hair.
“Yeah, I’ll go see to that” he said with a sheepish smile, and walked off towards the bedroom.
Penelope brought a few more dishes to the sink, and leaned in close to whisper in Mia’s ear.
“If you want to stay with him tonight, that’s ok” Penelope said in a hushed tone.
Mia stopped what she was doing to look at her.
“I don’t want to ditch you” she whispered.
“No, no, really its ok; I think you SHOULD stay. It’ll give you guys a chance to really talk, without me being here and eavesdropping” Penelope grinned “I want a full report in the morning”
Mia smiled at her friend “Thanks, Penny.”
She turned back to the tall heap of dishes next to her. As Penelope was walking towards the door, she called “uh Professor Lupin? It was good seeing you.”
Remus popped his head out of the bedroom. “Oh Penelope, are you two leaving?”
“Just me, Mia is staying back and working on some dishes. I just didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye.” Penelope smiled.
“Sure. Also, you can call me Remus now if you like, since I am not your teacher anymore.” He said, but Penelope’s face twisted a little at this.
“Yeah, maybe…” she laughed. “Ok I’m leaving!” she called and a soft pop could be heard as she disapparated.
As Mia scrubbed the dishes, she more and more became overwhelmed by her emotions. She was happy to hear Remus tell her that he loved her, but she had originally came to get closure from the conversation before leaving Hogwarts. Even though he told her what she had wanted to hear, the wounds from her heartbreak still there. The emotions were boiling up to the surface, and she couldn’t stifle them down any longer. She stopped scrubbing, her tears fighting to break into violent sobs, and sunk to the floor and buried her face into her knees. She did her best to cry as quietly as she could, not wanting Remus to hear, but alas, he came into the kitchen to see her in a crumpled heap on the floor. He sat next to her, pulling her to rest her head in his lap while he stroked her hair and let her cry. He knew why she was crying, she was crying for him, so he sat there in silence and let her. After about 10 minutes, she had reduced to small sniffles, and sat back up. Before she could get the chance to speak, he cupped her face with his hand and kissed her softly. She began to tremble; he stroked her cheek gently before wrapping his arms around her and picked her up, carrying her to the bedroom.
She was much lighter than the last time he carried her. He noticed her weight change, but didn’t say anything. He laid her down on freshly changed white sheets and kissed her passionately, Mia wrapping her arms around him. She pulled his shirt off over his head, and he began unbuttoning her jeans. After a few minutes of snogging, they began to make love, slow and gentle. A few more stray tears fell down Mia’s cheek, Remus wiping them away as he gently kissed her forehead. When they had both climaxed, Mia cozied up next to him and laid her head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. She felt so safe nestled in his arms. Both of them held each other, not saying a single word, and fell asleep.
Mia had a very restful night sleep, but woke just before sunrise. It was probably the best night sleep she had had in months. Remus, next to her, was still asleep, snoring softly. She silently snuck out of bed and pulled one of his button-down shirts out of the closet. She slipped it on and began tying her hair up in a messy bun as she walked into the kitchen to make herself a cup of coffee. She took her cup and a fluffy throw blanket out onto the porch of the cottage to watch the sunrise. She sat on the steps of the porch, looking out onto the lake that’s shore was just a few paces out. The sunrise was coming out of the forest to the east, daylight just barely poking through the trees. The sight was absolutely breathtaking. Mia wondered how many sunrises Remus watched from this very spot. She cast a heating charm on the blanket, and it kept her nice and cozy in the crisp February air. She was alone to her thoughts for about a half hour, until she heard the door open behind her.
Remus came and sat with her on the step, cup of coffee in his hand also.
“Good morning” he said, taking a sip of the piping hot beverage.
“Morning” she said, looking at him with a small smile.
They were quiet for a few minutes, both of them taking in the view of the colorful sunrise before them.
“Mia…” he began.
“It’s ok, Remus.” She said softly, looking down into her now empty cup of coffee.
“No, it’s not. I thought letting you go would be the best thing. When I saw you at the graduation mixer, emotions were hot as I was recovering from the most unfortunate full moon, and you looked so beautiful, so vibrant and full of life talking with your fellow students and teachers. I hadn’t gotten a chance to congratulate you on your NEWTS, but they were most impressive, and with those scores you can get any job you want. And it reminded me that I can’t, because of what I am. I convinced myself that you don’t belong with someone like me, I didn’t deserve you and that you would be better off without me.”
She took his hand, and gazed at him intently.
“You being here last night, showed me that I shouldn’t’ve pushed you away. You had become the light in my life.” He continued; his facial expression bleak. “And without you, everything was dark. You being here gives me a reason to live for.”
“You have yourself to live for to” she said, still looking at him, but he did not return her gaze.
“There were many nights, more than I can say than not, that I wished I was dead rather than be what I am.”
They remained quiet for a moment, but Mia linked her arm around his and rested her head on his shoulder. She knew he hated his condition, but hearing such dark words was disheartening.
“You look thin.” He said finally.
She sighed a heavy sigh, “my appetite hasn’t been what it was” she said, beginning to pick at her fingernails.
He remained quiet, knowing it was probably his fault she hadn’t been eating much. He tilted her chin up and kissed her. They pressed their foreheads together for a moment before Mia settled her head on his shoulder. They sat there for another minute, until Remus broke the silence again.
“Now, when on earth did you become an Animagus without me knowing?”
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