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The big bad and the wolf Completed	By : Kvarta Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Snape/Remus Views: 3820 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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He was still alive. But that was a matter of technicality. What it meant is that he was breathing, walking and talking... The last was questionable at best, but it was still there. Today he will be released from this place. That is the one thing he looked forward to.
Today he could finally disappear.
If what they say is true, if he won’t be returned to Azkaban ...Severus wasn’t concerned too much. He knew he had no home to go to. But he wouldn’t return to that place even if it was still his.
He paid his dues and he was done.
Done with this life.
Done with the wizarding world.
Done with life in a face oh hatred turned towards him.
The mediwitch walked in with a pleasant smile on her lips and cheerful chirp in her voice, “How are we today Professor Snape?”
He groaned and turned his head away from the annoyingly happy female.
“We are going home today!” The mediwitch continued to chirp “You should be happy.”
“We?” He raised one eyebrow, his voice unrecognisable to him, rough and scratchy, “I am going home today, you preferably stay here - as far away from me as possible.” he hissed through the pain in his throat.
“Oh, come now Professor Snape, you don’t mean that.” she smiled at him, placing a wrapped bundle on the table next to his bed.
He glared at her, “Is that all?”
“Mostly.” the female continued to sing-song her words, annoying him to no end. “You should get dressed, you have visitors today.”
Severus just nodded to her. Waiting until she left to get out of the bed and slowly changed into his old robes. Even if someone did try tegreo on them, the fabric was still stiff and dark in places from his blood. He didn’t have anything else besides these robes.
Just as well, as long as I can disappear from here, I don’t care.
But it wasn’t like that. Resist as he may, Severus knew. His skin crawled from the sole touch of the fabric against it. The black material was a vivid reminder. And it hung on him loosely. Not that he was any worse than he was at the end of the war, he even gained some weight in the hospital and still, the robe was too big on his thin frame.
“Ah, good! So, you are ready then!” A soft, cheerful voice made him spin and lose his balance. Before he realised he was being in Lupin’s arms, tenderly lowered on the bed. “Easy now, Severus. The medi-witch said you are still not strong enough.”
“Lupin!” He managed to choke out, “What in Salazar’s name you are doing here? Go and pester someone else.”
“Didn’t Harry and Minerva tell you?” Lupin sounded surprised and a bit uncomfortable.
“Should I expect for them to pester me as well? You are not welcome, Lupin. I don’t have to suffer your presence... “ A coughing fit tore through his throat painfully.
Lupin offered him a glass of water and he took it reluctantly.
“I’m afraid you don’t have much choice, Severus, but to suffer my presence. You are going with me.”
“Most certainly I am not.” He growled the words through the sound he made caused him pain.
“I’m afraid you don’t have much choice. You see, the hospital released you to my care.” sheepishly smiled Lupin and he sighed.
“So I am not free?”
“You are, you are still in need of constant care, and of a home... Of which presently you have none as I understand.”
“No. I refuse... “ he started, but the annoying voice from his past cut him off mid-sentence.
“You are welcome to stay with us.”
“Potter” He squeezed through clenched teeth and turned to gaze at Lupin, “Is he my only option if I refuse you?”
“I’m afraid so. Hogwarts is still rebuilding and they can’t take care of you ... “
“I can take care of myself just fine.” he bit out fully aware how blatant the lie was. Apparently, Lupin was also aware of the lie, because he just kept on talking.
“... You may stay with Harry, Hermione and Ron or with the Lovegood girl. But I’m afraid that is it. It is your choice, Severus.”
The silence fell on them, his thoughts raced. Humiliation spreading the pungent stench in the air. Finally, he spoke, slow deliberate drawl.
“You managed to pull the short straw then, Lupin? Is that the reason why am I stuck with you now?”
“You could have been much worse and end up with Aberforth and his goats.” Lupin grinned at him.
“Very well. You are far easier to manage than being here anyway.” he huffed.
Empty words for an empty victory.
He may be forced to acquiesce to their idiotic demands, sounding reluctantly victorious over the whole ordeal, but the truth was... No, I would be better off on my own.
~ SS ~ RL ~
No one knew.
Why would they?
It was his secret to keep.
Why would anyone knew how much damaged he truly was. He kept his secrets close, safely locked inside him. Not like he was in any danger that Lupin would ever find out. Why would he?
It was private and even if he wasn’t ashamed, letting the wizarding world or his enemies know was a recipe for disaster.
His name was a brand of shame.
He bared the mark of shame on his arm.
Merlin knows he didn’t need another one.
These simpletons probably couldn’t understand, even if he was inclined to explain. But to explain what?
How he loved her...
How he longed for...
Too much time, too much bad blood, too much hatred built a deep chasm between the two of them.
Maybe, if the things in school were different back then, they might even be friends. He would be content to have the warmth of friendship... There was no point of dwelling on the past.
He was doomed to carry a torch with no luck. Taken from him by Potter and Black. One of a deep friendship, the other… but what that did matter now? He survived so many trials, he will survive this one as well.
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