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Please, Release Me!	By : Severus1snape Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Snape/Neville Views: 17663 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Welcome back sweet Tommy-Lane, you have been missed dearly. Not sure to tell you what you WANT to hear or the truth about where this is ending up... Erhm... *Don´t hate me*, soooo I´ll just have you read on, then feel free to react :D But I will tell you this, of course Snape will not die....! I promise!
Jan, hon, this is for you, cannot have your addiction getting the better of you while I´m away... ;-)
I hope you will LOVE the next chapter to come, like I do... It will be... intense.....

”Let´s see it then. The proof.” The redheaded female was back and still very much pissed off arm crossed over her chest, shaking to keep her anger in control, as Neville´s four friends re-entered the room. Luna smiled broadly down at the two men still sitting side by side on the couch, even though they were in each end not touching, she knew.
Neville didn´t dare leave them alone with Severus again, so he handed his wand to the man, and told him to cast a summoning charm on the pensieve, not trusting his own magic to hold up such a heavy object, and his grandmother would kill him if he broke any furniture. And she wouldn´t when she finds out about you and Severus?
The tension in the room grew to a maximum, but Severus handed the wand back right after said spell and the pensieve landed onto the table in front of them. “When you have seen the memories, you will apologize to Severus for treating him like this.”
I don´t need their bloody apologies, especially not fake ones. “The hell I will.” Seamus thundered bravely. Gryffindors.
“What about the way he treated us; his students? Every day since we all entered Hogwarts has been a nightmare around him!” Ginny chimed in shaking a pointing finger at Snape.
“He had reasons for that. I am talking about today only. I have shown you that I trust him, that ought to have been enough, even though he killed someone. You would have had I been Harry.” Neville kept his voice calm. I would not have been as strong as him.
Ginny rolled her eyes and Seamus made a noise with his tongue. Dean and Luna had been quiet. He understood why Luna had, but what was up with Dean? He always talked.
“I do not want apologies.” Severus drawled and Neville turned around to stare at the older wizard. When will the man let his pride not run his emotions?
“Severus-“
“No.” He sat up straighter. “I deserve whatever is coming. You know that fact to be true.” Drop it, right now.
Neville shifted closer to the other, too close for the public eye, but Neville didn´t care. “You made one mistake, Severus.”
“I made a choice, yes. “ He corrected. “And every choice is followed by consequences. Whether you like them or not, I learned to live with them years ago, that´s the way it is.”
“You shouldn´t have to!” Neville was clearly angry. He´s even sexy like this, bloody fucking great!
Neville forgot about the pensieve and forgot all about his friends being there too. A thing he normaly did being so close to Severus. Things got ´normal´ with you two quickly, huh? They all fell silent, watching them closely, as if wanting to know every last detail they could suck out of this situation. They were nosy teenagers after all. Even Ginny, who loved to gossip.
“Severus.” It was but a mere whisper. “You´re the main reason Harry is still alive.”
Several gasps were heard after that statement, but neither Severus nor Neville noticed. “You´ve kept him alive for years.”
Severus drew in a breath of air. “I killed Lily.”
More gasps, and Ginny went for her wand automatically, Luna stopped her and gave her a stern look and shook her head. The redhead went back to listening along with the other three, anger still flaring deep within. Luna didn´t release her wand hand. Luna of all people giving stern looks is terrifying!
“You didn´t know that until after. Voldemort murdered her, not you.”
“BECAUSE OF MY TESTEMONY!” He bellowed. Everyone but Neville flinched and jumped. This startled his friends more than ever. How could Neville be so calm sitting this close to their hated professor?
Neville weighed his words carefully. “You keep telling your students how young and stupid they are, because of their hormones and weak minds.” He paused and placed his hand to Severus´ thigh.
“Nev what the fuck!” Seamus burst out. Neville held up his hand dismissively but never gazed to his friend. Severus didn´t try to remove his hand. He´s letting me comfort him in public. That, or he hasn´t realized yet.
“The great big, bad wolf was a cub once too. He´s allowed making mistakes too.” Neville smiled caringly.
“My mistake got people killed!” He snarled. He still hasn´t turned away.
Nevilly thought back on the things Severus had shown him, or that is what he thinks he did by not blocking his mind from Neville the day he healed him and they lay together. Neville had asked him for more information about his role around Harry, just in case he had to defend him. He wouldn´t speak of it, not say the words, but he let him in. He never told him to use Legilimency, but it was between the lines, and Neville was beginning to learn about Severus and how he functioned. Well, a bit anyway.
“Our first year, you were the one who figured out the true identity of professor Quirrel. Had you not, Harry would be dead today, Dumbledore got there just in time to heal him. He was only eleven and had used up all his magical strength to fight of Voldemort, his magical core being connected to his very being, thus if that was too damaged so would he be.” Neville saw Severus draw in a heavy breath and exhale slowly. He´s trying not to lose his temper.
Severus didn´t respond, he had to clear his mind, and before he could say what he wanted Neville went on. “Second year in the chamber of secrets, you found out that Lucius Malfoy had slipped the diary to Ginny and alerted the headmaster again. Fawkes then came to Harry´s aid and the Sword of Gryffindor didn´t pop up by itself.” He swallowed. “I know that Dumbledore sent the sword, not knowing where the chamber was he kind of had to, but he could not have without you.”
“In our third year, you shielded Harry, Ron and Hermione directly with your own body when they were about to be attacked by a werewolf. You never hesitated once, not because you made a damn pact, but because you went on instinct. Bad people don´t do good things on their instincts alone.” You know that deep inside. Severus shook his head dismissively
“Who but you figured out something was wrong in fourth year, when the fake Mad-eye dragged Harry away after Cedric was killed, hm?” He paused.
“And just before summer, when Harry was in the tower with Dumbledore and Death eaters were suddenly there, who kept him safe, out of harm´s way?”
Severus finally stood up and went to the window. “Nothing I can do will bring Potter his mother back.” The words were spoken so quietly that if any other sound had been present they would not have been heard at all.
“No.” Neville wouldn´t lie to the man, he respected him too much by now. “But you were her best friend.” He got up and stood beside Severus, their eyes met. “When the war ends, he will need someone, to tell him about her.”
Severus snorted. “The day Potter will listen to me is the day I will wear red to work.”
Neville held back a laugh. “He will. Eventually, he will forgive you and he will come to you for answers.”
“I do not deserve forgiveness, nor do I expect it.” He said honestly.
Neville swallowed hard. “I forgave you.”
Severus didn´t bother asking him what for, because he already knew the answer as soon as their eyes met. They had not spoken of it, and he did not know that Neville knew about it. He couldn´t speak. His throat fought to hold back the words; stopped them from coming out. I´m so sorry Neville. Please…
“Y-you shouldn´t…” He tried.
“I do.” Neville smiled a little, saddened but the smile was there all the same. “You couldn´t have stopped them from torturing them. Did they…” Severus turned away and Neville understood. Yes, they suffered. Of course they did, they were tortured to insanity. “How come they didn´t kill me?” He had always wondered.
“They tried.” Severus bowed his head as he glanced outside, not really seeing anything. Don´t ask. Please, I don´t think I can deny you the truth.
“Grams told me the reason why I have more trouble with learning new magic is because they used the cruciatus on me too.” Neville´s eyes widened when the other nodded.
“My god Nev.” Dean broke the silence from his friends somewhere in the background, speaking what they were all thinking.
“The aurors, who found me, said someone put spells over me, for protection.” Don´t ask! “Do you know who?” His voice was so strained, that Severus had to close his eyes and he immediately felt dizzy and almost lost his footing. Neville caught him and guided him back to the leather couch.
Humiliation washed over Severus with the thought of his students seeing him like this, but whatever he was going to say or do was swept away by Neville´s next words. “It was you, wasn´t it?”
No response.
“They mentioned… a silencing charm so the others couldn´t hear me when I cried… and a… body-binding spell so I couldn´t crawl out of my hiding…” His throat was dry, but he had to go on, he had waited years for answers. “I-is… that why…” He took a steadying breath. “The cloak… my birthday present from you…” Tears which had not been invited joined the party and Neville let them fall heavily, when everything fell into place. My god…
Neville stood up faster than anyone had imagined possible and it startled the entire room. He returned to the window and stared blankly into the garden noticing three birds there. “I couldn´t tell you… I-I…” Words never fail me. Maybe the bezoar was not swallowed completely, what else could explain the great lump he felt in his throat right now.
“I know.” The voice was calm, but Severus could still see the salty drops gliding over the gorgeous cheeks. GOD I want to hold him. To comfort him. Why did his friends have to be here? He wouldn’t have let you anyway. You lost him. Those beautiful eyes will never again look at you the same way, like you have become accustomed to. His friends beat him to it when they went for a group hug. You would not have hugged him anyway. You fucking coward.
I don´t need them to comfort me. I need Severus. I want him to be the one to hold me tight. Don´t even think about it, he will never let you. Neville´s head worked on overtime as he stood there enveloped by four of his best friends, feeling their love for him. It´s not their love that I want.

Oh my god, this chapter even surprised me, who wrote it !?
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