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Draco's Saving Grace from his Devastating Past	By : PygmyPuffs Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Snape Views: 9017 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Chapter List
- 1-Draco
- 2-Harry
- 3-Harry
- 4-Neville
- 5-Draco
- 6-Ginny
- 7-Draco
- 8-Severus
- 9-Harry
- 10-Severus
- 11-Emberly
- 12-Draco
- 13-Emberly
- 14-Death
- 15-Gred and Forge
- 16-Ginny
- 17-Harry
- 18-Andromeda
- 19-Severus
- 20-Draco
- 21-Harry
- 22-The Greengrasses
- 23-Draco
- 24-Severus
- 23
- 24
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter
Summary: Severus reads Harry's letters to Draco and learns some ugly truths about himself...
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Chapter 24: Severus
When Severus came out of the pensive, his mind was blank. He didn't know what to think, didn't know how to respond. He felt a glass being pressed into his hand and he stumbled over to a chair where he proceeded to down it.
"I have a letter for you to read. Perhaps you'll understand more as to why he believes he is a 'coward'." Severus watched as he walked over to his desk and picked up a piece of warn parchment and handed it to him. He took it with a shaking hand, setting his empty tumbler on the small table beside his chair. "Draco…" he started, only to be interrupted.
"Read it Uncle, once you're done with that one, I have several other on my desk for you to read. I suggest you do so. And while you're doing that, I'm going to floo Aunt Andy and check on my friend," he turned around and left without another word.
Severus stared at the folded parchment with Draco's name on it. It was like the day before. He wanted to know what was written, yet he knew that he wouldn't like what he saw. Taking a deep breath, he unfolded the letter and started to read it.
When his eyes lit upon the potion that woke him, he felt horror fill him. How I found it was through a great tragedy and I cannot speak of the horrors I saw as I guided hundreds of children to their afterlife. He didn't, couldn't even imagine what Potter must have gone through, how he survived that horror.
He closed his eyes as he read of the pain he went through while in a coma, and to know that it was partially Potter's fault for what he went through. He pushed it aside, the boy had apologized, his guilt clear in his letter to him and on his face when he spoke of it. He could forgive him for that, he had suffered the guilt long enough. He felt his eyes water as he read Potter's shame, I could not live, knowing that he would die. I saved him for selfish reasons, Draco, and I am ashamed of that.
To see him write that he had lived for centuries was just as shocking as hearing it from Draco. To be alone for so long, and to love a man without that love diminishing, even if that man was a greasy dungeon such as he was, or had been, was astounding to him and he could not help but feel awe from that knowledge.
And then he read it. His heart stopped as he read the fear. He could clearly picture that fear now. The fear he so clearly saw on his face the night before just before he ran from him. He felt shame for his action, for the way he went about telling Potter that he had heard his confession of love.
Severus stopped reading for a moment as he tried to contain his emotions, but he was unable to stop the tears from sliding down his cheeks. What had he done? After a moment, where he decided it best to leave his tears be as he continued to read. I am afraid that he will not want me for the title that I never wanted, and the immortality that comes with it.
He scrubbed at his face as he got to the part about Draco. He had to have clear eyes to learn about his godson. He only saw snippets as he read the same paragraph over and over again, trying to comprehend what it was that he was reading…blocked the trauma from your mind… seen something horrible and life changing…
What horrors did Draco go through that would cause him to block his own memories? What had happened five years ago that changed his godson so much from the man, no boy, that he once was? Severus shook his head. If Draco could not tell him, and if Potter…Harry…could forgive him for his own foolishness, Perhaps, when things settled once more, he would learn what had happened.
For now, he continued to read, and what he saw only confirmed what Harry had told him about the girl the night before. Murdered for having magic…muggles, the most horrible ones that is, never truly changed, do they?
Severus stood and folded the letter and moved over to Draco's desk where he saw a small stack of parchment with Draco's name written in the same calligraphy as the other two that he read.
Picking them up, Severus settled in Draco's chair behind his desk and slowly, methodically read through each one. He read of the loneliness that plagued him and smiled at the points where Harry tried to describe Death's assistance in trying to alleviate that loneliness. The ramblings of harry trying to explain his feelings to an entity that simply didn't understand.
Once he was finished reading the letters, he placed them all back into a neat little pile and sat back in in the chair. He closed his eyes and tried to assimilate everything he had learned, from the memories that he watched and the letters that he read, and all he could think about was how ashamed he was of his behavior towards possibly the only man that could love him for who he was and not want to change him.
The door opened, and he looked to see Draco walk in. "Did you find him?" He asked cautiously.
"Yes, he is spending the day with his godson. From what Aunt Andy told me, and from reading between the lines, it seems that Harry may be leaving sooner than we expected."
Severus sucked in a hard to swallow breath and closed his eyes. It was his fault. His fault for letting Harry think he was out right rejecting him when he didn't even have two minds about the implications. "I am truly sorry Draco. I know that you have missed him and because of my…dunderheadedness, I have chased him off."
"So, you understand now?" Draco asked, moving to the chair that was usually for guests to sit in.
"I have no excuses for what I did. I was foolish and prideful. I didn't take into account his feelings, ignored the fear he clearly felt, and showed. I am ashamed of my action Draco, and I haven't a clue as to how to fix it."
"You wait. Give him the rest of today to spend with Teddy, then go to him tomorrow. Tell him what you've just told me," Draco advised before he leaned forward in his chair and looked him in the eyes, "And will you reject him and his feelings, or will you accept that he loves you and try at a relationship with him, Uncle?"
Severus closed his eyes once more, a heavy sigh escaping. He has accepted Harry's feeling for him, how could he not when it was so clearly shown. He had also forgiven him for his part in his coma. It was unintentional, a side effect that he hadn't known about until much later and worked centuries to fix.
"Yes, I have already accepted his feeling toward me. It is the only thing to do. As for a relationship. I have come to realize that I have respect harry for all that he has done, for me, for you, for the world that doesn't deserve him, even before I went into a coma. That respect has only grown to my caring for him. He is an extraordinary young man," he shook his head and sat back, heavily, in the chair. "I do not love him, but that is not to say that I can't." He looked at his godson and waited for his response.
Draco nodded and gave him a smile. "That is all I can ask of you. It pleases me that you were able to see past your pride, and your own fears, to see the whole picture that is Harry Potter. He is a good man, and loyal to a fault. He needs someone to care for him, it is something he has never had, and though I have tried, it is not me that he wants caring for him, but you." Draco stood and refiled both his and Severus's discarded tumblers once more before handing him the glass.
"I will not lie to you, Uncle. Harry has seen and been through so much. Things that I cannot even imagine. He needs someone to accept him for everything that he is, all his faults and his being the Master of Death included. If you hurt him, I may never forgive you. You need to understand that."
Severus blinked at Draco's words. He hadn't realized these last three years how protective he was of Harry, but now he could see it clear as day. He nodded in acceptance of his words and gave his godson a tentative smile. "I will heed your words, not for myself, but for Harry," he told him solemnly.
"Thank you. It has been quite a while since I first brought you here. Let me go wake Emberly and well go and eat some dinner," he walked back to the door he had come through moments before but stopped just as he was passing through the threshold, "I am quite serious when I say that you're to wait until the morning to go to him. He need the time to collect himself, just as much as you do."
"I understand Draco, and I will," Severus assured him. To be honest, he didn't think he could face him yet. His own emotions and thoughts were all over the place and he needed to meditate on what he learned, for fear that he didn't, he would only make things worse, instead of better. With a sigh, Severus down the rest of his scotch, stood, and followed Draco out of the office and towards the dining room.
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