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Coming of Age (Female Potter)	By : stargazer67 Category: HP Canon Characters paired with Original Characters > Het - Male/Female Views: 11694 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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When Snape arrives, Voldemort explains to him the issues he’s having with controlling the Elder Wand, which was last in Dumbledore’s possession; and he tells Snape that despite his faithful service, he must die so that Voldemort can make full use of the wand, because it can only be mastered by the person who has killed its previous master. Snape is stunned and tries to talk his way out of this; he had never thought he could be in any danger unless his secrets slipped out.
In the meantime Evie, Ron and Hermione, who arrived at Hogwarts earlier and had immediately set about finding Nagini, are now also watching this unfold; peering just around the corner out of sight. Even before Snape can pull out his wand to defend himself, Voldemort slashes him with a curse, and then gestures to Nagini and she attacks him swiftly, biting him repeatedly and savagely. Evie starts from their hiding place with a strangled cry, but Ron and Hermione both grab her and Ron puts a hand over her mouth, saying that they have to take care of Nagini first, she can’t go confronting Voldemort yet.
Voldemort then departs with Nagini, leaving Snape to bleed out on the floor – and as soon as he’s gone, Evie gives soul-rending wail. She pulls herself out of Ron and Hermione’s grasp and runs out to him, sobbing, desperately trying to stop the bleeding with her hands, trying to close the wounds with magic, begging him to hold on, begging him not to leave her.
Ron and Hermione are shocked; granted, they also felt horrible witnessing Voldemort’s casual regard for Snape’s life, calling him a trusted and faithful servant with one breath, and then sending Nagini to kill him with the next. But her reaction seems way out of proportion to them, they don’t understand it.
Severus feels his heart leap at the sight of her, but at the same time also plummet that she had to witness this. He knows he only has a few moments to tell her the things she needs to know, and commands her to stop and look at him. He holds up his wand and says, “…in the handle – flask.” She takes it, and he looks at her for a long moment, tears rolling down both of their faces. With his last breath, he whispers, “I love you, Evie… I’m so sorry…” and she whispers that she loves him too; and then he is gone.
Ron and Hermione finally approach her, still confused as to why she is sobbing over his body as though her soul is being torn to pieces, and tell her that they need to go – just as Voldemort’s wand-amplified voice is thrown to every corner of Hogwarts, saying that Evie must come to him within an hour, and until then, everyone is free to collect and mourn their fallen. Evie finally allows Ron and Hermione to pull her away, putting Severus’s wand in her pocket.
When they reach the Great Hall, they find more of their friends prostrate and sobbing over their own loved ones. Remus is sobbing over Tonks’ body; Molly Weasley over Fred’s. Ron exclaims and runs to his family, while Hermione stops and tries to comfort Remus before moving to Ron’s side.
Evie searches out Professor McGonagall, and when she finds her, says numbly, “Severus is dead, Professor. Will you please make certain that his body is brought here?”
Minerva knows why she’s asking, since nearly everyone still thinks he was a Death Eater. She replies, “Of course. And I will ensure that everyone knows why he’s being brought here as well. He was a hero, Evie.”
Evie sobs again and Minerva holds her. She’d probably cry, herself, but the many losses spread out in the Great Hall over the past few hours have by this point completely numbed her to any new ones.
Evie wanders out of the Hall and walks slowly to the Headmaster’s office. Once there, she locates the flask and parchment in the handle of Snape’s wand, and stops to read the poem first. It makes her weep again; she thinks that he must have known what was about to happen and was trying to tell her both how much he loved her, and also to give her the courage to keep going after he was gone.
Getting herself under control again, she empties the flask into the Pensieve. She’s expecting to see some last words from him to go along with the poem – but what she sees instead stuns her. She sees Dumbledore’s final horrible revelation to Severus, and the incredible pain and anguish that it caused him; and she realizes the poem was meant for himself rather than her (but still applies equally to both of them).
She is actually at this point much less concerned than he was, that she must die – she doesn’t really feel like she has much left to live for without him already. And if it means she’ll be able to rejoin him sooner, it doesn’t feel like such a sacrifice to have to make.
She wanders out of the castle alone, towards the meeting in the Forbidden Forest; stopping when she’s close and pulling out the Snitch that Dumbledore left her. When it opens, she finds the Resurrection Stone; and, turning it three times, four people appear; her father and mother, Sirius, and Severus.
They are equal distances apart with her in the center, almost like they are marking four cardinal compass directions around her; and in a way, they are. Other than Dumbledore, the four of them did in fact mark out the most significant directions in her life, and there is even a sort of symmetry to where they are standing; Sirius across from her father, and Severus across from her mother.
For a moment she doesn’t know what to think, being confronted with both Sirius and Severus at the same time, her memories of each of them flashing in turn in her mind. She had of course made inevitable mental comparisons between them before now – but never really thought about being presented with both of them at one time, and essentially having to make a choice while facing both of them.
She thinks of kissing each of them for the first time, making love with them, each of them holding their children for the first time. She sees love in both of their faces as they look at her as well, and she looks down, trying to find a way through this in her mind before she approaches any of them.
While she is looking down and struggling with her feelings, her father and Sirius exchange very startled looks at the inclusion of Severus in this group; but her mother looks searchingly at Snape and finally nods, recognizing (as Evie was sure she would) the incredible and heroic man he has become.
Severus and Lily share a long look between them, and Lily finally nods at him again, transmitting silently her approval of who he’s become and of his relationship with Evie. She alone knows, without needing to be told, that Evie would not have called him back unless she had loved him deeply.
As Lily is looking searchingly at him, Snape wonders to himself for a moment, if he hadn’t been so desperate for a place to fit in (that drew him to joining the Death Eaters); if he hadn’t been sorted into Slytherin but instead into Gryffindor with her, where he likely would not have needed to seek acceptance elsewhere (after all, they accepted Lupin into their inner circle, when he was as much of an outcast for being a werewolf as Snape was for being poor and lacking in social graces) – would Lily have chosen him instead of James?
He thinks about it only for a moment though, and decides that the answer doesn’t matter anyway. He loves Evie with all his heart, and would not have traded that, now, even for a life with Lily. Evie has given him everything he ever wanted, and even things he didn’t dare to dream of having - to a degree he’s not sure even Lily ever could have.
Evie finally approaches and speaks to each of them quietly in turn, so quietly that none of them can hear what she says to any of the others. She actually doesn’t have much to say to her father, just telling him that she loves him, and he responds that he’s proud of her (as well as that he loves her). She confirms to her mother her love for Severus, and tells her of her children with both Sirius and Severus. Her mother smiles and tells her they were both in their own way good choices.
She approaches Sirius after speaking with her parents, and tells him that the twins have grown and he wouldn’t recognize them now. He looks a question towards Snape, but she just shakes her head and asks him if it hurts, to die. He says no, it’s easier than falling asleep.
She gently touches his face, even though he is not solid enough to actually make physical contact with; and tells him that she loves him. And, she does still love him; but she also knows that with her gesture she has made her choice and is releasing him for good, saying goodbye to him for good.
Even without necessarily knowing how the afterlife works for herself, she’s pretty certain that Sirius won’t be the one who meets her in the end; that in fact she’ll probably never see him again. It seems like he also understands what she hasn’t said; because when he says he loves her, too, there is a sadness in his eyes, like he knows it will be the last time.
Severus just watches her, trying to keep any potential jealousy at bay but still wondering what she’s saying to Sirius. She approaches him last – her father and Sirius still curious as to why she summoned him of all people, but unable to hear what she is saying to him.
Snape reaches towards her face as she stops in front of him, and says, “I love you, Evie. I am sorry that I had to leave you, and Albus; and sorry that I had to be the one to bring this news to you as well.”
Evie smiles at him and says, “I love you too, Severus. More than life itself, in fact. I cannot imagine how much harder this would have been, if it had also meant knowing that I was leaving you behind, instead of coming to be with you.”
Severus smiles back, and then says, “There is at least that. As long as I don’t have to fight Sirius for you when you get there…” He gives it just a small rising inflection at the end, almost making it a question.
She gives him a knowing smile and replies, “No. No more than I’d have to fight my mother over you, dearest.”
He closes his eyes, touched that she is clearly choosing him even with Sirius there and watching; he knows beyond any shadow of a doubt that he has won the complete love of the one that he also loves best, and that she also knows the same about him.
Snape’s old self would have immediately tried to find a way to lord that victory over Sirius. But, as Evie steels herself mentally and turns towards the place where Voldemort is waiting, Snape risks a glance at Sirius and sees Sirius watching him, levelly; even if Sirius couldn’t hear what Evie was saying to him, still he couldn’t fail to see the looks that passed between them.
Snape looks back at him, with a naked, almost “I couldn’t help it” kind of look – in no way triumphant, but instead as though he is begging Sirius’s understanding. For Evie’s sake, if not his own. Finally Sirius nods once; in life they may not have had much in common, but he cannot fault anyone, not even his greatest rival, for also falling in love with Evie.
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