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It Wasn't His Fault	By : Sevy14 Category: Harry Potter > Het - Male/Female Views: 3920 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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"Ah Nymphadora, how good it is to see you again. I hope things are well?"

"I don't want to hear it you old coot. Is he in?"

"Yes. I believe he's in his office grading papers."

"Right." Stupid bloody lemon eating man. I'll never know what goes through his head. How could he just let her not say anything, mum or Kingsley. That just doesn't make sense. Not at all. So irritating I am so mad right now. I can't believe that I told him. I. Told. Him. Why? What did I think I would get out of that-it's just insane.

"Tonks. Hey. Hey. Slow down there."

"Severus what are you? I-"

"Albus informed me of your incoming visit… And mood. How about we go get a drink."

"No-no I don't need a drink I need to tell you something."

"My office then?"

"Yes. That would be good."

"Now, what is it that you have to tell me? You didn't quit did you?"

"I-No… I am taking a week off though. Did you-well I… Malfoy's my dad." I'd gotten it out without throwing up all over myself.

"Ahh… I wondered if there were more to your looks than genetics."

"Gen-You know about… What?"

"You look too much like him to not be. I always suspected but of course, I never knew. Why are you just telling me now, we've been friends for awhile."

"Well yeah, but I just found out, three days ago. Can you believe that old fool knew my entire life and Kingsley and Ted, and they never said anything. NOTHING! Even my mums parents knew. EVERYONE KNEW!"

"I didn't. Lucius didn't. Did he?"

"No. I just told him though so he does now."

"Oh… And did you, did he say anything to Narcissa?"

"He told her. While I sat there. I thought I was going to be sick. In fact I still feel that way."

"What are you going to do with this new information?"

"I'm taking a week off. I need to digest."

"Ahh so-"

"So I just wanted to tell you and I'm going to go work out-or something. I'm sorry for dropping in and leaving but I just-I just need to figure myself out now. I don't know who I am."

"Of course you do. You're Nymphadora Tonks-"

"Malfoy. My last name is actually Malfoy. And I had a twin brother name Lucius."

"Yes well, you're still Nymphadora aren't you? And you are an Auror, a successful one, you're a potions mistress, you like to read, dance, you work hard on being graceful as you have a tendency to be clumsy at times, you love firewhiskey, and you enjoy going on vacation to Ireland and Italy."

"Yes well that doesn't-"

"And your favorite color is teal. You like strawberries. You-"

"I get it. The little things about me haven't changed, just this big thing that's still-"

"Remember, you are still you, now you just have all the puzzle pieces to fit together. Ah, and that reminds me, you like to do puzzles."

"…"

"Yes well, floo me if you need anything. I'm here for you."

"Thank you. And Severus, if you-if you happen to meet up with him, don't mention that I was here, please. Please. I know you two are close so please don't say anything, that'll just be weird and then I'd feel as though I'd lost my only true friend, and that would be sad, because I don't think I am at the point where I can lose anymore people."

"You haven't lost me. I won't tell him you were here."

"Thank you. Have a good evening… Grading." God it would suck to be a professor, all that paper work, I hate paper work.

"Good evening Nymphadora."

"I hate when you call me that. Can I floo?"

"Of course."

"The Leaky Cauldron!"

WHOOSH!

"Ah Lucius, when my good watchmen informed me that you were here to see me I was curious as to why. Please sit. Tea? No, alright. Lemon drop? No. Quite alright. What is it that you need help with? Something for young master Draco?"

"No. No. I am not here about Draco, I am here, about her."

"Her? I'm sorry, I'm not sure I follow."

"You-I-Tonks. Andromeda. I need to know about-about this whole situation."

"Ah... What do you need to know specifically?"

"I-I am not sure. Answers."

"Perhaps you should ask yourself, you might surprise yourself with what you know."

"I've been wracking my brain, I can think of nothing and yet I am thinking everything."

"I see. Well, how about, you take a look at this letter."

"What is it?"

"A letter."

"I-I know that. Who's it from?"

"It's from Andromeda of course. But first, I have a question for you. How did your wife take this?"

"I-I am not sure. Shock obviously, that is the most natural reaction. When I left her she was upset, she'd read the letters that Andy wrote her and Bella."

"Ahh, I'm sure that will be hard for her to digest, even now, after all of these years."

"Yes well... I-I just, I shall read this letter."

"You may use my office. Remember, things were complicated back then for everyone and young Andromeda was in a tough spot."

"Yes..." Opening the letter he just looked at it and then unfolded it and began to read.

Lucius, my love-

I know that this must come as a shock to you, that I would write YOU a letter. But here I am, I cannot even figure why I'm bothering, you have made yourself quite clear what you think of blood traitors like me, but I find that I must write you.

First, I want you to know that this is hard for me because I never wanted to leave you, honestly, but I felt that I had to, for reasons that I will go into later. In case you don't know, I wrote letters to Bella and Cissy. Speaking of the two, I hope that you have looked after them appropriotly. While I appreciated Rod for his undying love for my sister, he wasn't capable of looking out for her safely, you know how she can be. The mixture of crazy and love for destruction and dark magic are hard to control, especially in impulsive Bella. So I pray that you were able to keep her on a short leash, one that kept her relatively safe. As for Cissy, I don't fear for her as much as I do for Bella. I know what kind of man you are or rather were, but then, you always did take care of your own, I only wish that you treated her right when you were stressed and upset that your plans were not going as you wanted. But deep down, I know that I am just being a worry wart, you took care of her, I assure you, I was watching. You know she was always my favorite.

I don't know how to tell you other than just jump into this head first as Bella does, so here it goes: I was pregnant when I left. That's the main reason. I never loved Ted, I hoped that you never believed that, you knew me better than anyone. Well perhaps Kingsley, but you knew me intimately. It is funny that even now, after all these years, I blush at the thought of our intimacy. You, my first, and even though I gave myself to Ted three times, my only. I would be lying if I didn't say that I didn't think of you those three times-I missed your gentle touch all these years. But I digress, I was pregnant. Twins. A boy. Lucius Narcissian Malfoy. He died at birth. Or rather after Ted hit me one too many times after he found out that I was carrying a boy. Looking back now, I wish that I'd never told him it was twins, that I went along with saying it was one, that it was a girl. Speaking of, Lucius' sister, Nymphadora, no doubt that you two have met or at least crossed paths by the time you get this letter. She is my baby, although I don't think I was a very good mother to her. I named her Nymphadora Belladonna Malfoy, although it'll show up as Tonks should anyone go deep into her files, Albus Dumbledore is an amazing man and if it weren't for him I don't know what I would have done. You must thank him for me. My baby, she is amazing, smart, resiliant, and a Slytherin to the core. Yet she was in Hufflepuff, I was upset that she only was placed there because she thought it was cool-you can only imagine argument I had with that girl after I found out. Happened right in Dumbledore's office, she didn't want to be moved to Ravenclaw, she belonged there if not Slytherin, which was out of the choice. But she did well-top of her class all seven years, quidditch captain her last three, prefect, Head Girl, oh and the only Hufflepuff to recieve perfect marks in Potions all seven years. I don't know how she befriended Severus Snape-but she did. Perhaps it is your charm, she definately knows when to pull that out of her sack of tricks. She's an amazing young women, you should be proud that she is your daughter, even if you didn't know for her entire life. You should know, she's special. Very special. But I won't go into that, that is hers to tell and not mine.

Lucius, I love you, still, to this day I love you as sure as the sun rises and sets. I am aware that you are married to my sister, but I don't care. I loved you before Cissy was ever in the picture. I want to apologize for my departure. I know that the main reason was my pregnancy, I didn't want to make my family look like dirt any more so I took the out that would make them appear to be clean of me. That I was just a mess up-one that went bad. It wouldn't be so strange, Sirus went bad, they could blame my departure on him, on his Gryffindor ways. And they did, but it was never his fault, he didn't even know until he was told. I wish I could apologize to him for what he went through, I loved him too, even if he was a sarcastic arse. Another reason, lesser, I didn't, I don't agree with all of that pureblooded nonesense. I'm sorry. I don't. Perhaps I saved us from an unhappy marriage because I would always struggle with your supremist attitude, even if my heart beat for you. I couldn't allow my children to be raised in an environment like that. Looking back now, I'm happy I did leave because Cissy isn't married to a Carrow, I know you knew about that-I couldn't believe daddy wanted to do that to her, just because they were in favor. Disgusting. But you two are good for each other, compatible. I'm sorry that I caused you some embarrassment, a bruised ego, it was never you, it could have never been YOU. Don't think that. I'm sorry that I betrayed you, that I decieved you-I am sorry.

I just wanted to apologize to you for everything I put you through. I wanted to say I'm sorry for not being brave enough to tell you about my baby. I'm sorry for everything. I love you. And I know that I won't see you again, except for in the picture that rests by my bed. It's of you, me, Cissy, and Bella, our sixth year at your families Christmas Ball. We looked so young, so care free, so-you were so handsome that night. I have kept it with me always and I love that you were a part of my life. Thank you. Thank you for making me whole and giving me the most beautiful gift you could ever give and for once Luc, your money couldn't have bought anything better. I'm sure that Narcissa feels the same about Draco. I'm sorry for everything and I love you so much. Please, be nice to my baby girl Luc, she had no idea that she was yours, I even made her change her appearence so that she couldn't be traced back to you. Only me. I do not expect you to give her expensive gifts, I just want you to protect her if she ever needs it. She is without parents, I know that once I am gone, Ted will disown her. He despises her with a passion, because of you and your pureblooded views. So please, protect her if she should ever need it, I ask you only that. What you do other than that, if that, is up to you and her. Just please, do not be mean with her, when she finds out, I am sure that she will be mad and very disgruntled with me. Baby Dora, she hates that nickname, has your temper, it is loud and powerful, she is so much like you it was sometimes scary.

Lucius, I must go. I love you and my breath is fading fast. I wrote the majority of this a long time ago, yet this last part, I write on my dying bed. As the veil is reaching out to me I can only think of you, Cissy, Bella and my little girl. That is unfair to my other children and to Ted, who, for all of his faults, has been relatively good for to me. Just know that I love you with all of my heart. I love Bella. I love Cissy. And I love Nymphadora. Kingsley has been keeping watch over her in your world for many years now, please thank him for me once more. I fear that I have not done so enough and the sickness that has eaten away at my body will not permit me to do so one more time. Lucius, you were my everything and know that no matter what I did to you, how I embarrassed and decieved you, it was for the best. I hope you can see. I won't ask your forgivness for unlike Bella and Cissy, I truly did betray you. I hid from you an heir and heiress. I hid myself from you when I had worked so hard to be the one that was to be yours.

Lucius, I love you. Remember that. I always, loved you.

With all of my heart, my dying breath's, my love for you is enclosed here in this letter. I pray that you can see and feel it. A kiss for you... Just one more time.

Yours from the beginning and yours until my end,

Andromeda Black

PS: Never doubt that I loved you. Never, for you were my everything.

Rereading the letter three more times, a man that has been described as vile, cruel, and evil didn't have the heart to speak out, to breathe, only to look at the picture that was in the envelope. Her only picture that she'd taken from her home. Connected, with a string, was his signet ring. His original, she'd never given it back. After a few moments, he put the letter, picture, and ring away. Standing and straightening his robes he strode out of the headmasters office, down the stone steps and made his way out of Hogwarts. He had to clear his mind.

Looking out the window Severus turned to Albus, only to see the old man smiling. "What are you smiling at Albus? Have you had too many of those blast candies of yours again?"

"Oh no my boy. Just that for once, I am looking forward at the future of a Malfoy."

"I don't understand. You didn't have a meeting with him."

"No. Not really. I did give him a letter from Andromeda."

"Oh... I see. And that makes you happy to see his future because?"

"Because, now, not only he, but his wife perhaps can close a particularily painful part of their lives."

"Perhaps, but maybe you just made the wound deeper and more painful."

"If that's what it takes to help the healing process, then it shall be a good thing."

"Albus I wonder about you sometimes."

"That may be my boy but there is alway one thing that I remember."

"What is that?"

"Nothing a good meal and a nice new pair of socks can't fix."

"..."

"Dinner's ready, shall we?"

"Fine. But I want to know about what happened when Tonk's was here."

"Nothing. She asked if you were in, I said yes, told her where, and she was gone. I get the feeling she is not in the mood to speak with me."

"Maybe Trelawny should look for a new job, you seem as though your seer powers are growing stronger."

"You've gotten more funny as you aged. I like that."

"Albus, don't start with that."

"Fine. Fine. I'm just saying though.

"Lucius? Lucius? Where are you gosh darn it."

"Mistress, Master said hes was goings out."

"Oh... I see. Well then I shall take my supper then."

"Yes mistress, suppers is ready and wantings fors you."

20 minutes later

"Narcissa."

"Lucius where have you been? I've been worried."

"I went to see Dumbledore. Then I went for a walk, needed to clear my head."

"Oh..."

"I-Are you done eating?"

"Yes, shall you be dining?"

"No, I'm not hungry, do you think that you'd be able to speak with me?"

"Yes. Is it about...?"

"Yes."

"Oh well how about we just talk here. Tippy?"

POP!

"Yes Mistress?"

"I'd like some more wine please."

"Yes Mistress."

POP!

"So..."

"Before I show you the letter I recieved from Andromeda. I want to know how you are doing with all of this?"

"I-I am ok. I think. It's all just so hard. She loved you. I knew that before she left. All she would talk about is you-everything was Lucius this and Lucius that. I was jealous because I didn't have anyone like that in my life but then she left and I was betrothed to you. In retrospect, I am happy that she talked to me, because it made being married to you much easier. I was very angry when she left, she-I felt so betrayed. I thought that she was just being selfish and now I learn that wasn't it. And I feel so foolish how could I think that about her, how could I have said all of those horrible things I said, I feel very ashamed Lucius. She was my sister and I let her down when I disowned her."

"But the times Cissy, those were the times."

"They were, but she gave up everything to protect her children, our family name, and-and me. Everything. She must have been so alone and so afraid. And even though what I read about Ted Tonks upsets me, I am happy that she wasn't completely on her own because I don't know if she could have survived it. I wish that I hadn't been such a cruel sister to her and that times had been different."

"Yes, I regret much of my life now, even before I found out about all of this."

"Lucius, I don't think any less of you, you know. I know that you two cared deeply for one another, I never cheated myself into believing that you cared more deeply about me than you did her. You two were your first loves. You can't replace that, ever, and to be with her sister is even worse, even harder."

"Cissy, in the beginning it was hard, I'll admit that, but your sister talked about you as well. You were her pride and joy. Rarely would we meet and she wouldn't talk about you. In fact the only night she didn't speak about you was the night right before she left. She didn't mention you at all. I think it would have been too hard for her, she knew that I would in turn have to marry you. Not that I am complaining. You are a wonderful, loving, and caring wife. So don't beat yourself up."

"Thank you Lucius, that does mean a lot hearing you say that. I just-I wish I could make this whole thing right. And your daughter-your-Tonks is it?"

"Yes."

"She-she must be so confused and lost right now and she doesn't even have a mother to guide her through this. I feel awful, she must think we're awful people Lucius."

"She may. She may not."

"What are you going to do about her? About Draco, we have to tell him."

"We do. Perhaps, we should all be here to do that though, her as well. It's only fair."

"I-I suppose. Are you going to persue a relationship with her?"

"I am not going to do anything. What she wants, is up to her."

"Should she appear to want one though?"

"I would allow it. She is my child after all."

"True. Maybe you should make the first move? It'd be a good sign, perhaps a peace offering an olive branch."

"We'll see. It is much too soon to be thinking of such things."

"Yes. May I-May I read your letter or is it too personal?"

"No, no you may read it. I'll be in my study. Good evening dear."

"Good evening."
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