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Shame's Desire	By : dweek Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Het - Male/Female Views: 32597 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 3
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor any of the characters from the books or movies. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Ginny-
When I wake, I am hit by a massive headache. I curl into a ball and whimper, hoping Lucius will wrap his arms around me to make me feel better. The power that we have shared since our bonding ritual was buzzing in me like ants crawling around with nowhere to go.
I sit up with a start as I remember the last thing that happened before I blacked out. Harry drugged me! I look around to see where I am. I’m in a dark room I don’t recognize without windows or really anything in the way of furniture. The bed I was laying on, a door, and a small candle lantern are the only things in this new space. The lantern is hanging from the ceiling out of my reach.
How could Potter actually drug me? My head starts to feel worse as I feel like I am about to lose it. I put my hands on my stomach and try to take a few breaths. My Healer is always saying stress is bad for my child. So I let numbness take me as I try to figure out what I will do next.
I slowly get to my feet so I can at least try the door. It’s locked of course so I start to pace back and forth. My body feels like I haven’t moved in forever and I wonder how long I was under that potion. I’m starving and I taste the thick residue of nourishment potions. Well at least my captors want me alive.
Before today I wouldn’t think for a moment that Master Potter would want me dead, but I can’t trust anything now that I find myself in this strange room.
When the door finally opens a young man, I don’t know looks at me with pity in his blue eyes.
“Lady Malfoy.” He says before stepping into the room with a tray of food.
“How long have I been out?” I ask not sure if I can trust any food these people offer me.
“About a week. It was important that you didn’t wake until we had you settled here.” He says setting the tray beside me on the bed.
“Why?” I gasp trying very hard to hold back tears. I’m alone again without my wand to defend myself, how pathetic is that?
“I think it’s best if we wait for Harry.” He says in a comforting way and I shoot to my feet with more ferocity than I knew I had left.
“If he steps foot in here I will make him bleed!” I growl making the man back up a few steps. “Tell me why you brought me here!”
“To save you and your child.” He answers calmly. “Dark magic has corrupted you and swayed your mind.” He says and I shake my head as this is all so stupid. “We’ve checked my Lady; you’ve had several dark spells used on you, including the Imperious. And we don’t know the extent your marriage rite has on your mind. No one’s dared use a binding so dark in ages.”
“You have no right to keep me here. I want to go home now.” I tell him because everything that comes out of his mouth sounds stupid.
“We’re going to take you home my Lady. Once we have stripped away the darkness he used on you. Once you're ready to go back to your family.” The man says and I can’t help but sneer.
“Did my father hire you?!” I ask taking a step back and turning to protect my child from him.
“Your family asked for our help. My name is Neville, can I call you Ginny?” he asks carefully.
“No.” I stop, narrowing my eyes. “Only my friends get to call me that.”
“I want to be your friend Lady Malfoy.” He says putting his hands up like I have nothing to fear from him.
“If you wanted to be my friend you would take me back to my husband where I belong.” I tell him wondering if I could push him out of the way to get to the door.
“Your husband is a very evil man, and your family regrets the part they played in…”
“Selling me to him?” I sneer. “It is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and you need to take me home before he finds this place and kills everyone here.” I say trying to act stronger than I feel.
“He won’t find you here my Lady. You are in the haven of Longbottom; no dark magic will reach you here.”
I bite my lip as I realize who I am talking to. I shake my head and give him a forced smile. “Master Neville Longbottom, heir to your line? Do you really think you have any right to take me away from my child’s father?”
“Your child will be a Weasley like you, because by the time he's born, you will no longer be a Malfoy. That is our promise to you my Lady.” he says stepping back.
When he opens the door again I rush forward to try and catch him off guard. I break through to see the hall of a modest house before he pulls me back into my prison. He tosses me onto the bed before quickly leaving and locking the door behind him.
I look to the food he brought and burst into tears as I find my mother’s shepherd’s pie. How can my family do this to me?
Lucius-
I am going out of my mind. Ginevra was taken over a week ago and we have found no trace of how they even got her out of the palace. They won’t let me help with finding her but Severus gives me daily reports on their progress. Which is to say they haven’t made any.
They’ve raided the Weasley estate, if one can call it that, once already and there was no trace of her there. But tonight, after so long they are actually letting me go with them to look around again. I am not allowed to carry my wand as the Emperor thinks I will unnecessarily harm things and people on the estate. If I am honest, he’s probably right.
The only reason I am getting to go this time, is because I know my wife better than anyone. Maybe I can pick up on some trace of her that the other wizards wouldn’t be able to do. I am waiting for Severus to come and collect me, as I am not permitted off palace grounds without a chaperone. All to protect the Malfoy line of course.
I can feel our power buzzing inside of me like an angry nest of bees. We finished the rite just in time for them to harm us with it. No one that had been bonded like my wife and I should be separated for so long.
I know the side effects will only grow and I wonder if they are trying to kill her or me. When the door opens, I snap to attention, using all my will to control my posture and expression.
“Is it time?” I ask trying to sound bored. Severus gives me a knowing look before nodding and leading me out into an Apparition safe zone within the palace ground.
“Do they know we are coming this time?” I ask trying to seem like someone of use to this mission.
“No. They shouldn’t know that we are coming. The only ones who know of this raid are trusted members of the Dark Council.”
“Good. They need to learn not to take what isn’t theirs.” I say and he looks to me.
“We have no actual proof they took her you know.” He says seriously.
“But you also have no other leads.” I remind him as my hand tightens into a fist. “Who else would take her?” I ask as we approach the fence that surrounds our destination.
“You have other enemies Lucius.” He says opening the gate for me and leading me inside. “I have been keeping a close eye on Bellatrix as well.” He adds making me stop as I suddenly hope it is the Weasley’s who have her.
When he Apparates us to the Burrow I can’t help but sneer at the poor surroundings. I’ve never actually been to the Weasley estate, and now that I have seen it I wonder how any place so common could have produced my wife.
Four council members arrived here before us, and rounded up the family and servants so we could search unimpeded. I count give redheads and a beautiful young woman with silver hair holding a bundle. I know the size of Ginevra’s family so I stop and frown.
“There’s some missing.” I tell Severus as I glance over where the few servants are standing to see if I’ve missed anyone.
“What?” He asks looking over the group as well. “There seems to be a swarm of them.” He says but I shake my head.
“She had six brothers and I only count three.” I tell him, though it isn’t like I could tell one from the other.
Severus leads me over to Lord Weasley so he can question the patriarch of the brood.
“Where are your missing sons?” He asks and I stand behind him looking as menacing as I can.
“You have no right to treat us like this.” He answers fuming as well.
“A man’s wife is missing, one that is carrying a pureblood noble of the realm. We have every right to see to her safety.” Severus explains calmly. “Where are your missing sons?”
“Two have opened a shop in London, and the third is visiting a friend.” He answers as he stands straighter, trying to stare us down.
“What friend?” Severus asks the question I wish to.
“Harry Potter. They have gone on a hunting trip.”
“A child you claim to love is missing and your son goes away on holiday?!” I spit wanting to strangle the man.
“This happened because we left her in your protection!” Weasley spits back and his biggest son puts a hand on his arm. “After we are cleared we will see what the Emperor has to say about that!”
“Lady Malfoy went missing while under the Emperor’s protection. He takes this case very seriously, and I would discourage you from bringing this up to him at all.” Severus says before leading me away before I get in a muggle fight with the old man.
“We’ll check the shop, and we will see if we can get clearance to check the Potter estate.” Severus says trying to calm me.
“Severus I am worried about her. The longer this takes the more danger our bonding puts her and the child in.” I say under my breath. “We finished it. I surrendered my power to her. But now it may kill her.”
“Than go home. Go back to Malfoy Manor and find a way of protecting them while I keep searching. “I won’t stop old friend. And maybe I can be this one’s godfather as well.” He says in a rare showing of comfort.
“I know you won’t.” I agree and let him lead me back to the palace.
Ginny-
“Ginny it’s time to wake up.” I hear a soft voice say and I try and curl myself up into a tighter ball, but I’m so huge now I can’t really curl much at all. I have no idea how long I’ve been here but it has been hell.
Someone comes every day and wakes me, then makes me eat something I know my mother has made for me. I haven’t seen any of my family yet, but I can feel their presence in every word these people say to me.
I think I’ve hardly said two words in I don’t know how many days. I tried at first to yell and scream and tell them they need to take me back to my husband. As time has gone on all I can feel is my need for him. I’m not supposed to be away from him and the magic we are bond with has become a living agony.
“Come on Ginnybean, time to wake up.” The voice says again and I try to pull away because now the person is touching me.
“How long has she been like this?” Another voice asks and I sob because I want them to go away. “You said you could help her.” The voice sounds mad. Nobody here ever sounds mad with me. Even when I hit and kick and spit at them they are always calm and pitying.
“There is nothing physically wrong with her.” Neville says. He comes often to check on me and talk to me about how all they want is to save me from what Lucius has done. “The magic he used on her is complicated, I don’t think we will make any real headway until after the child is born.”
I whimper again as the person next to me seems to be petting my hair like my mother used to. “We need to take her home Arthur.” She says and I perk up at the word home.
“I can go home now?” I ask opening my eyes and working to sit up. “You’ll let me go home? I need to see him. Please let me see him?” I beg before I realize I’m actually talking to my mother and father. “NOOO!” I scream moving away from my mother’s touch as fast as my massive body will move. “No, no, no!” I scream more and they look at me with shock like I am acting crazy.
“It’s us darling.” My mother says moving a bit closer like she thinks I don’t recognize her.
“I know who you are!” I scream I can’t seem to control the volume of my voice. “This is all your fault! Take me home! I need to go home!” I beg because I want them to actually understand. “We need to go home!” This is the most I’ve said in a while and I find that they are all looking at me like I’m crazy.
“What’s wrong with her?” My mother asks like I’m not even here.
“I NEED TO GO HOME!” I scream because they are being thick. Why can’t they understand that I need Lucius, that they are torturing me by keeping me away from him so long?
“We are taking you home dear.” My mother tries to step forward again. “Please calm down, it isn’t good for you or the baby.”
“You’re taking me home?” I ask more softly because I am starting to feel calmer. “Really?” I ask, it’s been so long since I’ve had hope of seeing him again.
“Yes darling.” She says moving closer to me and wrapping an arm around me. “We are taking you home right now.” She says soothingly.
My father moves forward and helps me to my feet before looking back to Neville. “We’re going to talk about this later.” He says but I don’t care because they are taking me home.
All I can think of is how wonderful it will be to have his arms around me. I know he will need to see me as much as I need to see him, but then I start to worry about how I look.
I haven’t seen myself in a mirror since I was taken from the palace, and even though they make me bathe regularly, I don’t put any energy into the task. They feed me every day, but I hardly have the focus to eat much of anything.
“Do I look okay?” I ask my mother because I don’t want him to be disgusted with me.
“You look like a woman about to give birth my darling.” She says patting the side of my face carefully. “You’re glowing. When we get home we’ll get a nice hot meal into you.”
“What?” I ask because I don’t understand for a moment. “No.” I say but I can’t find the energy to scream any more. “No. Mom. I need to go home.” I tell her as they lead me out of the building and towards a covered wagon.
“We’re taking you home honey.” My father says and I look back at him and I see the same pity in his eyes as I always see in the people here.
“I need to go to my home dad.” I tell him as they help me into the back of the wagon. There is a pile of blankets and pillows to make me comfortable. Mom climbs into the back of the wagon with me so I look to her for an answer. “Why are you doing this to me?”
Once my father has moved out of site my mother moves so she can help me get comfortable in the back.
“We are trying to undo a wrong darling.” She says and she looks so sad. “I’m so sorry that I let you go with that man.” She adds and she looks like she’s about to cry.
“So you’ll take me to my home now?” I ask because I can’t keep things straight in my head and everything is so confusing.
“Everything is going to be okay baby.” She says and pulls me close. I don’t believe her because she is a liar and it is her fault I’m not home right now.
“Why do you hate me?” I whimper and she just shushes me and starts to sing a lullaby she used to sing me when I was young.
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