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Unrequited Love	By : Kitkatislovely95 Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Sirius Views: 18406 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor any of the characters from the books/movies. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Hey guys! This story is going to be a lot shorter than I thought.

This takes place precisely 23 months after the part the last chapter ended. (Maybe still even after the edit...?)

I had to cut this one in half. Build the suspense, you know? Although it will probably be put up a little bit later tonight.

So, enough of my inane babble...On with the story...

Harry walked quickly down the corridor of his home, trying to get to the fireplace in the study. He had to get to the Leaky Cauldron; he was supposed to meet Draco and Blaise there in about 5 minutes. He just hoped they were the only ones he ran into.

It had been about 4 months since his graduation from Hogwarts and he hadn't been able to see them due to their vacation in Australia. It came to no surprise when Draco had said he had a manor there.

They had asked Harry along, but he had politely declined because they deserved their time alone. He felt like he was intruding on their relationship, no matter how many times they had told him otherwise; just because he couldn't have the one he wanted, didn't mean he could come between another couple.

He stepped into the rinky-dink establishment rather gracefully, all things considered. He spotted his lovers in a darkened corner and made his way towards them.

He slid into the seat across from them, "How was your vacation?"

They had been looking at each other, completely enraptured by the other, that they hadn't even heard Harry sit down. Draco smiled at his enemy-turned-lover and reached out to take his hand lying carelessly on the table.

"It was lovely. But it would have been better had you come with us."

He squeezed Draco's hand, "You two deserved some quality time together, and I am sure you managed fine without me."

He smirked as a light blush colored the blonde's face. He knew that they had enjoyed themselves, the letters that had been exchanged over the last months said that much; but he loved taking every opportunity he could to try to make the usual calm and collected Slytherin blush prettily.

Oh Gods, he really had to stop letting his 'inner snake' out. The damn thing had a mind of its own sometimes.

The subject changed to what Harry had been doing the last few months, seeing as how he hadn't told them very much in the letters.

That was because he hadn't done much of anything. He had talked to Dumbledore about getting the position of DADA professor next year, had fixed up one of the manors his parents had left him; a beautiful place, relatively small but quiet and cozy; perfect for him to live alone in. It had 3 bedrooms, each with their own washrooms; he had turned both of the bedrooms into guest rooms, and had been sleeping in the master bedroom. The house had a study, with books, so many books; he loved the study the most. The basement was a soundproof training room, equipped with everything for physical and magical training. The kitchen was huge and he had discovered that baking helped keep him relaxed, a sense of peace always wrapped around him like a warm blanket when he made something in the kitchen. The dining room wasn't too special, though it could seat about 20 people comfortably.

He described the house in detail to Blaise and Draco, a small smile on his face as he pictured his home. He loved it and wouldn't want to live anywhere else; except Hogwarts if he gets the job.

They had decided to just eat here, not wanting to go out into the fall weather yet. After they had finished their meals, nothing to heavy; none of them were too hungry, they left the Leaky Cauldron, Draco and Blaise going to the robe shop, and Harry heading to Fred and George's shop. They would meet up outside in a little while. He wanted to see how the twins were holding up.

Unfortunately, luck just so happened to not be with him today, seeing as half way to the shop, he passed my an alley and saw something that made his heart stop beating for what felt like an eternity before speeding up to an almost abnormal rate.

Sirius Black was pinning another man to the wall, kissing him softly, lovingly; the way Harry wanted Sirius to kiss him. He didn't know the other man, from this vantage point at least; but he looked relatively handsome, with jet black hair to his chin and a lithe, firm looking body. Harry's chest hurt as his heart cried out for mercy from this torment it was being put through.

Harry turned away from the sight, intent on going into his friend's shop before Sirius noticed him; he had almost succeeded, but again, he never had been very lucky.

"Harry?"

Harry flinched slightly at the sound of Sirius' voice saying his name. He hadn't talked to his godfather since he had visited him in Hogwarts almost two years ago. He still remembered the last thing Sirius had said to him.

'You will realize soon that you were wrong about how you love me.'

He still loved Sirius with everything he was and it had been a long time since he had discovered he was in love with his godfather.

He turned slowly around to face the man he loved, and most likely his new lover.

He smiled slightly at the pair, but deep down, he wanted to pull Sirius to him and tell him that he should be with him; not this other man that...looked a lot like him? Harry’s eyes widened in astonishment as his brain made that connection for him.

Harry looked a little closer at the man that was currently inspecting him as well. When their eyes met, Harry barely refrained from gasping aloud; he had green eyes! They weren't like emeralds necessarily, but they were beautiful in their own light. But his hair was messy, and it wasn't because of a recent snogging session; there was a difference between that and the look of just naturally messy hair. He had slightly thin lips, a strong jaw; there were a few other noticeable differences, but they could also be easily over looked.

Could Sirius possibly be subconsciously trying to have someone that looked like an older version of him?

No, Harry forced that though from his mind roughly and shook his head, that wasn't right; it couldn't be.

"Hello Sirius."

Sirius smiled lightly at him, "Aren't you going to give me a hug? It has been quite some time since we last saw each other, I'd wager."

Harry stepped forward slowly, wrapping his arms loosely around Sirius' waist as the older man wrapped his own around Harry's shoulders, squeezing tightly for a minute.

He let go, and Harry quickly stepped back, the scent of Sirius still lingering in his nostrils. He smelt of cherries and cream, one of Harry's favorite desserts, and musk that was just Sirius. It was perfect; and heartbreaking, because it could never be his.

"How have you been?" Sirius asked after a minute standing in awkward silence.

"I've been good, working on one of my parent- my properties. I might take the job as the DADA teacher, though it had already been filled this year."

"That's great, Harry. I think that will be a perfect job for you."

Harry nodded his thanks at the compliment, "How are you?" He really didn't know how long he could keep this up without breaking down and begging Sirius right here, in front of everyone, to love him.

Sirius smiled softly, reaching out to take his lover’s hand; completely oblivious to Harry's heart convulsing in his chest. Didn't Sirius realize he was killing him?

"Harry, this is John. We've been together about a year now. And we're engaged."

Nothing prepared Harry for the pain that one statement brought. For a minute, he thought he was dying, that maybe Merlin decided to be merciful and kill him with a heart attack. But he realized after his left side didn't go numb that his heart had just split in two with those three little words.

He looked down at the ground, away from the happy couple before him; trying desperately to keep it in until he was away from the older men.

"Congratulations." He barely managed to choke that out without breaking down; he hoped he could make a quick escape.

"I wanted to ask you something, Harry."

Gods, could his day get any fucking worse? All her wanted to do was run back to Draco and Blaise and beg them to take him home and make him forget.

He made sure he had a blank look on his face before looking up into Sirius' eyes, "What's that?"

His godfather stepped away from John, coming forward to grab Harry's hand. Harry felt tingles spread through him where their skin was touching, but Sirius didn't appear to feel it.

"I want you to be my best man, Harry. You have no idea how much it would mean to me if you were there standing behind me, giving me your blessing." Sirius smiled softly at him, looking so hopeful that Harry wanted to rub at his chest to ease the vicious pain that was now tearing at him.

Apparently he had been wrong. His day could get worse.

His immediate reaction was to say he had other plans; that he couldn't make it. But he had already made the mistake of looking into Sirius' eyes, those ocean blue eyes that you could drown in if you weren't careful.

Those orbs made Harry think before he opened his mouth. One the one hand, if he went with his original thought, he would probably save himself some serious heartache. Because it would hurt; watching the love of his life marry another man while he stood back, expected to give his blessing to the happy couple; his heart being mercilessly shredded in the process.

But on the other hand, what kind of person would he be if he didn't do it? It was entirely too selfish of him to deny Sirius something that would make him happy. Besides, wasn't there a saying, 'If you love something, you let it go. If it doesn't come back, it was never yours to begin with?' He loved Sirius with all his heart, with his entire being, to the very core of his soul he loved this man; then who was he to say no? It was obvious, no matter how painful the thought may be, that Sirius had never belonged to him. He had never come back to him after that night they had spent together; so shouldn't he move on as well?

Sometime he wondered if Sirius ever thought about what had happened that night, and how he could act as if it had never happened. Maybe he really was a Black.

Harry steeled himself for the pain to come, took a deep breath and smiled up at his godfather, "Yes Sirius. I would be honored."

Sirius smiled at him, but there was a glint in his eye; as if he had hoped for a different reaction. It was gone as quick as it had come so Harry didn't have time to figure it out.

"Thank you, Harry. So much."

Sirius hugged him again, holding tightly, but hanging on longer than the last time. For Harry, this was goodbye. After the wedding, he was going to disappear. Only Draco and Blaise would know his whereabouts. He couldn’t take seeing the man that he loved with everything in him loving another man. He didn’t care what Draco said; he wasn’t strong enough for this. Not by a long shot.

This final hug, before Sirius would be a married man, was his last bit of happiness leaving him; his last bit of hope. He had nothing more left to give. He had given his heart, his soul, his body; and it had all been stomped on in front of him, leaving nothing more than bloody tendrils of what used to be his life source.

Now, he didn't really care what happened to him anymore. He would only stay alive because he knew a few people would miss him. He couldn't hurt them that way; even if it meant suffering the rest of his life. Because he didn't think he would ever recover from this. He wondered who in this world was strong enough to handle this and bounce back. He obviously wasn't one of those people.

Unbeknownst to them, John stood watching his fiancé hug his godson. He knew what was going on here, and he felt immensely guilty. Here this boy was, Harry, in love with his godfather; and his godfather loved him the same way. He just didn't want to see it. He couldn't let this wedding happen. Maybe he could even try to push Sirius in the right direction. Because he might love Sirius, but these two were soul mates; Sirius just had to realize it first.

Well, there it is. There will be about 3 more chapters, than if people want it, I will make an epilogue.

I hope you all liked it. Please review. XD

xoxo,

Kitkat
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