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“Severus?” Harry asked after pushing the door open.
“Harry? What are you doing here? Is everything alright?”
“Yes… I thought we should talk. After our fight and all…” Severus looked at him.
“I still have a bit of work to do. Can it wait till tomorrow?”
“It could, but…”
“If it isn´t that urgent I would ask you to give me a little more time. I have to see him in two days. If I don´t deliver the standard potions he requires from me, I will be in trouble.”
“I guess it isn´t. I leave you to it then.” Harry said but had the feeling that Severus wasn´t really listening to him so he just left and went to bed. He couldn´t help but feel hurt and he hated himself for doing so. He knew that Severus didn´t chose the potions over him because he wanted to but rather because he had no choice. It still stung a little bit and it frustrated him to ne end. He drifted into sleep almost an hour after retiring for the night. Everything that happened the past few days came crushing down on him. He was so glad that Sirius was back. He was happier for Remus then for himself although he was relieved that most of the guilt he had felt since he found out what really happened to his parents all those years ago was lifted from his shoulders. He knew it wasn´t his fault that they had died, kind of… The prophesy referred to a boy and although it was Dumbledore who forced the narrative that it was him, he knew that even without him, it would have been just as likely for Voldemort to pick him. They were both half-bloods and although Harry knew that Voldemort´s agenda relied heavy on blood purity, even he could figure that in this particular case blood purity wouldn´t have mattered all that much because Voldemort himself, the most dangerous wizard of all time, was a half blood. It was true that the Longbottom´s were very capable aurors, but form what he´d heard, so was his father. He knew that many teachers praised Lily for being very bright as well, so it really had been a fifty, fifty chance. When he finally fell asleep, he was haunted by nightmares. He saw them all dying again. He also had the image of Frank and Alice Longbottom being tortured to insanity replaying itself over and over again.

He woke at four in the morning, shaking and sweating heavily. He climbed out of bed careful not to wake Severus and made his way to the bathroom. He threw up a silencing spell on the door and slowly stripped and stepped under the shower. The nightmares hadn´t been this bad since he last left the Dursley´s. He figured it was his own fault since he hadn´t occluded before he went to sleep. He stayed in the shower longer than it would have been necessary. He just couldn´t bring himself to step away from the warmth that encased his entire body. After fourty five minutes he still felt cold inside, so he sighed and turned off the water. It was Friday and his first lesson was double potions so he decided that he would go out for a while. After he got dressed in his most comfortable joggers and a jumper that he had kept from when he was thirteen, it now fit him like it was supposed to, he quickly wrote a note for Severus and pressed a gentle kiss in his hair. He then went to the living room and took his portkey to headquarters.
He knew that his parents would probably be still asleep as well, but he wanted to talk to his mum desperately. He hoped that she would be able to get rid of the cold for him since isn´t that what parents do for their kids? He opened the door to their bedroom quietly and cast a silent lumos. He put his wand on the dresser and quietly stepped up to her site of the bed.
“Mum?” He whispered and nudged her gently.
“Mum?” He called again, this time a little louder. Lily stirred and opened her eyes.
“Harry?”
“Yes, it´s me.”
“What time is it?” Lily asked sitting up after carefully pulling James´s arms from around her.
“It´s just after five.”
“What are you doing here so early? Is something wrong?”
“I needed to talk to someone. I… I need to talk to you.” Harry said averting his eyes.
“That´s fine sweetheart. Look at me.” She waited until he looked up.
“You can always come to me, at all times of the day alright? Go and make us some tea. I will be down in a minute; I will just get dressed.” Harry nodded and left the room. He had just put on the kettle when Lily walked in.
“Could I borrow your wand, Harry?”
“For what?” Harry asked.
“I want to make you breakfast. I never got to before… Let´s just say it´s what mums do.”
“Sure, go ahead. We need to get you new wands soon. It´s safe here but you will need one eventually.”
“You could just retrieve our wands from Gringotts.”
“They´re there? We looked through all the vaults. I don´t remember coming across wands.”
“That is probably because Gringotts laws forbid the storage in the normal vaults. They pry themselves on their security but even they know that it would be to much of a risk to leave them without extra protection. How much do you know about wand law?” She asked while Mixing ingredients together. By what she used Harry guessed she was making waffles and he couldn´t help but smile.
“I think I know everything, even though I´m not aware of it.”
“Alright, then I will make this quick. Every wizard´s wand is registered, and you are legally allowed to own only one. If you win a wand in a battle, you are allowed to keep it since the ministry will still be able to oversee what you’re doing with it. But if someone dies, the wand vanishes from all their lists. The wizard who´s wand it is, is no more so there is no need to track it. The wand still works though. Can you imagine what chaos could break free if people would start using unregistered wands. Unforgivables would start flying left and right. That are the spells the ministry actually can track after the trace is broken. If a wizard uses his wand to cast one of them, his name will automatically appear on the most wanted list. They can´t track your location, but they know from the moment you do it, that you are to be arrested.”
“But why wasn´t I arrested after I cast crucio on Bellatrix?” Lily´s head whipped around, and she looked at him with small eyes.
“What did you just say?” Harry blushed and shrunk into his seat.
“It was right after she killed Sirius. I chased her through the ministry, and she kept screaming that she killed him. She laughed! It didn´t work of course. All that happened is that I blasted her from her feet. I just lost it. After all I had already lost, and Sirius was the only family I had left. Remus and I always got along great but after Sirius died, I felt so guilty that I couldn´t even look at him. I think as much as he didn´t want to, he blamed me just a little bit and he was right. Well maybe not really but it doesn´t matter. I didn´t even try to learn how to close my mind when Severus tried to teach me in fifth year. We know now that it makes no difference. I can´t keep him out of my head even though I am very good at occlumency now so there isn´t anything I really could have done. Maybe if I tried a little harder, I would have been able to tell that it was a false vision he sent me, but I never would have gone to the ministry in the first place if I had known that all he was after was the prophesy. I get why Dumbledore wouldn´t tell me, but Sirius and Remus should have.”
“I´m afraid I´m a little lost honey.” Lily said and handed him his plate.
“Right… I have this connection to Voldemort. When he has a strong emotion, I can look into his mind. It actually feels like I´m getting pulled into it. Because we have this connection, he can create images in my mind. He can show me what he´s doing but he can also show me a vision he created that seems just as real. He hasn´t done that in a long time so I don´t know if I could tell the difference by now. Sometimes when he´s too worried to keep his mental shields up completely, I get glimpses of his thought. That helps if I want to try to figure out what he´s up to next, but it doesn´t happen very often. Tom is not the type that worries very much.” Harry told her and then tasted the waffle. Lily had served it with strawberries and blueberries which he loved. A dash of whipped cream and cinnamon and Harry almost moaned it was so good. Since he was pregnant, he loved sweet breakfast foods. Lily smiled as she saw him devour his food.
“Do you know what is behind that connection?”
“We do, but if it´s okay with you I rather not talk about it over breakfast. It´s quite disturbing.”
“Of course, we don´t have to talk about it. You can choose. Do you want to talk about why you came here in the first place?”
“I had a bad night. The dreams were quite overwhelming, and I just needed to see you I guess, to make sure it all wasn´t just a dream. I feel much better already.”
“What were the dreams about?” Harry looked at his hands.
“Your death, and Cedric´s and Sirius´s. The earliest memory I have is a flash of green light. When Remus taught me how to fight against the dementors in third year, I figured out that the screaming I was hearing when they´re around were you and dad. After that I dreamed a lot about that night. I knew what you looked like, sounded like and from what people told me what happened it was to real not to become a nightmare. It only got worse after Moody used the Avada on a spider and I then knew the spell that took you away as well. I don´t know how many times I wished I died that night as well. To not feel so guilty even though I knew I didn´t do anything wrong. I never wanted that any of you to die for me. But you all did, in one way or another.”
“Oh Harry, you were a baby…”
“I know, and everybody kept telling me that it wasn´t my fault, but somehow that made it even worse.”
“I´m so sorry that we had to leave you and that Albus left you with Vernon and Petunia.”
“It´s not your fault either. Neither is it Severus´s or even Dumbledore´s. Voldemort was the one who cast the spell. Only he is to blame. He and that rat. How I would love to rip Pettigrew apart the next time I come across that miserable stinking fool.” Lily´s eyes flashed when he mentioned their old friend. Their friend who had betrayed them.
“I get the impulse.” She said dryly and Harry chuckled.
“Harry, what was that about last night? Why did you get so mad at Remus?” Harry shuffled his feet. The conversation with Draco still fresh on his mind.
“There is something I should tell you. Remus thinks I should have done so already and pushed me too far. All my life I was told what to do, and even worse, what not to do. Don´t cry out, don´t ask questions, don´t look at the family while they eat, don´t be a freak, don´t be cheeky… I could go on for hours. Remus knows this. I don´t like to be pushed and I don´t react well if someone attempts it. I know that he means well, but I think I know best what is good for me. I have been taking care of myself and others my whole life after all.”
“That doesn´t mean that you can´t allow people to take care of you too.”
“I know that… now.” Harry admitted.
“And I don´t mind it so much anymore. Hermione and Ron introduced me to the concept our first year here and Hagrid helped a lot with that too. But I must admit that I only really got it when Severus started to look after me. I don´t know, it´s just not so big of a deal with him.”
“It seems to be an instinct for him. Just yesterday when we were in the kitchen. He somehow knew that letting you pull away wasn´t what you needed, he just held on. I think after that display you relaxed around us a little more.”
“Yeah… most of the time he knows exactly what to say as well. To calm me down or to put me in my place. I don´t allow it very often but sometimes I am too stubborn to see reason and then he lets me know just that. In those moments, it feels like being in potion class again.”
“He has become an intimidating figure.”
“Three years as a death eater and sixteen more as a spy can do that to a man.”
“He is very brave. James and I came across the dark lord three times and he truly is terrifying.”
“He´s not only brave but he is so strong. He told me how horrified he was after his first raid. The things Riddle had them do shocked him to his very core. He must continue doing these horrible things, to innocents, just so Riddle won´t get suspicions of his loyalties. I give him little pieces of information that he can report in hopes that it will keep the torture to a minimum. I gave him permission to tell him that I am lord Black and all that comes with the title. That luckily has kept him from being tortured at all for the last few times he had to go to him. I know how much pain you´re in for when you are the course of his wrath.”
“He used the crutiatus on you?” Lily asked with wide eyes.
“He used all three of them. I could resist his imperio which made him quite furious.”
“When was that?”
“The night he came back. After Pettigrew stole bones from his father’s grave, cut of his hand and cut open my arm to use my blood to bring him back. The portkey brough me and Cedric right to his site.”
“That must have been horrible to witness.”
“I couldn´t really see much. My scar hurt so badly that my vision blacked out from time to time.”
“My poor boy.” Harry shuddered.
“Let´s change the subject, shall we?” Lily asked.
“Yes, please.”
“Do you want to tell me what Remus and you were talking about?” Harry looked down and bit his lip.
“I don´t know if I should without Severus being here.”
“I won´t tell him. I can act surprised when you tell us together.”
“I´m not ready for dad and Sirius to find out.”
“Then I won´t tell them either. I can see that you want to Harry. Please?”
“Alright… there are actually two things. Severus proposed to me, and we are getting bonded.”
“That´s great. I am very happy for the both of you.”
“Really?”
“Of course. I meant what I said last night. He is a good man.”
“Thanks.”
“What´s the other thing?” Harry blushed, brightly.
“Well… the thing is… hell, this shouldn´t be this bloody difficult.” Lily came around the table and took a seat next to him.
“Look at me Harry and take a few deep breaths. Are you afraid that I get mad?”
“I don´t know, I guess I am ashamed. I don´t need to be I know that but the Dursley´s treatment has left it´s scars.” Lily grabbed his hand.
“There is nothing you should ever feel ashamed about. Not with me and not with your father.”
“You know how much he hates Sev. You know how he treated him.” Harry said quietly.
“I do and we talked about it a lot, but people can change Harry. I really think your father did. We are just so glad to get this second chance with you.”
“Alright… I… I´m pregnant.” Harry mumbled and avoided his mother´s eyes.
“You´re pregnant?”
“I am… with twins actually.” As soon as he said it, he felt a little lighter.
“Wow… I am a little young to be a grandmother already don´t you think?”
“Sorry bout that. And don´t worry, Hermione has lectured us already. Many times. Repeatedly.” Harry giggled.
“How far along are you?” Lily asked and Harry swallowed.
“Almost five months.”
“But… You don´t look like…” He raised Harry´s wand that she hadn´t gave him back yet and mumbled:
“Finite.” Harry felt the glamour drop and instinctively wrapped his arms around his middle. Still… You could tell that he was carrying. His belly lightly filling out the front of his jumper.
“Look at you.” Lily whispered awed.
“You’re not mad?”
“I doubt there could be anything that would make me mad at you right now. Give it a few months and I will pull myself together.” Harry sighed in relieve.
“Can I?” Lily asked and reached out her hand. He let his arms fall to his sites and grinned like an idiot when Lily´s hand came to rest on his stomach.
“Do you know the sex?”
“Yes, two little girls. We decided to name them Emma and Elea.”
“Oh, that´s beautiful. I am honoured that you chose Emma. I never really felt like one myself.”
“Yeah, I´m really happy with our choice.”
“I always wanted to have more kids. I loved you to death, but I would have liked to have a girl as well. And now we are going to have two little Potter girls.”
“About that…” Harry was suddenly anxious again.
“Severus and I decided that after we get bonded, we will go by Black. Sev Is not comfortable with Potter and I can understand why, and we both think that Snape is out of the question.”
“Oh, that doesn´t matter. They will still be Potters. And Weasleys if I´m not mistaken.” Harry grinned.
“I guess that´s true.”
“I am happy for you. I really am. You seam at peace with it so who am I to question that. I can´t wait to meet them.” Harry couldn´t help himself. He buried his face against her, and Lily stroked his hair while she held him closely.
“How do you think dad will react?” Lily stiffened a little bit.
“I´m afraid he will go a little nuts. I think he is fine with you and Severus as long as he doesn´t think about what you do when your alone too much. This is something that will push all his willing ignorance to the site, and I am worried that he will say something that could be quite hurtful. As much as he wishes not to rush his mouth, his emotions get the better of him more often than not.” Harry sighed.
“Ron is known to act like that as well. The last time it happened I ended up with deep slash wounds all over my back. It took weeks to recover.”
“James will not raise his wand at you.”
“Neither did Ron. Molly aimed for Severus. Don´t get too mad. He just lost her husband a few days earlier and wasn´t in her right mind. It was Ron´s fault that she snapped.”
“Then maybe you shouldn´t stay too close to Severus this time? Now that your pregnant…”
“I was pregnant the last time. It only happened in December and if you think that I will just give dad or Sirius free aim at him you don´t know me very well.”
“Right… I didn´t think you would. Maybe we´re lucky and James matured more then I know. I would hate to have to hex him for being stupid again.” Harry giggled.
“Severus told me that you used to do that quite a lot.”
“Well… He was really stupid sometimes. It´s not my fault that he acted without his brain.” Harry straightened up and took a sip of his now cold tea.
“Which would bring us back to topic. How can I get your wands when I am not allowed to own them?”
“We will have to come with you. But since you are the head of house you must sign the order so we can get them back.”
“Alright. You will use Polyjuice potion then. I can request a room until you change back. We have a few Gringotts goblins on our site so I know I can trust them to keep it quiet.” The door opened and Harry paled. He turned around and sighed in relief when it was only Remus. The man looked at him with an eyebrow raised but didn´t comment. He only made himself a cup of coffee and sat down opposite to them. Harry took his wand from the table and reapplied his glamour. He wouldn´t risk James coming in and seeing him again.
“So, you told her.” Remus finally said.
“I did.” Harry said coldly.
“Listen, I´m sorry Harry I shouldn´t have pushed. But don´t you feel a little better now?” Harry glared at him but nodded.
“I do.” He admitted.
“Still Remus, you know how I get.”
“I know.”
“Just don´t do it again. I hate being mad at you.”
“I will try my best, but I won´t make any promises. Sometimes you need to be pushed.” Harry rolled his eyes.
“Don´t do that Harry, you know I´m right.”
“You could have gone about it another way. You could have talked to me alone instead of just beating me over the head with it. You know that I am able to listen to reason, but you didn´t even try.”
“I suppose that´s true.” Remus admitted.
“Let´s just forget it alright? I told mum, but I will decide when I tell dad. Got it?” His tone was still harder than usual, but he tried to soften it as much as he could. Remus nodded and the tension almost completely fell away.
“Remy! Harry and Severus chose the cutest names. Emma and Elea, isn´t it pretty?” Remus smiled.
“It is. I like it. Just that or have you chosen second names as well?”
“I thought maybe Emma Jean, after Hermione and I have another idea, but I haven´t spoken to Severus about it and I need to ask a few other people as well, so I won´t tell you what it is. If everybody agrees I want it to be a surprise.” Remus thought he knew what Harry had in mind and thought that someone would be very happy indeed.
“You have good taste.” Was all he said and smiled at Harry brightly.
“Well, Severus came up with Elea which I just love so much. It´s so unique as her father is. It fits.”
“Harry, don´t you have to be at school soon?”
“Not really, I have potions the two first periods of. Dudley is standing in for me. The fumes and all.”
“I hope you still do the theoretical work.” Remus warned him.
“Yes, Severus wouldn´t let me just rest. Teachers.” He said shaking his head. Lily laughed.
“You sounded just like Severus there. The same tone as he called James and Sirius Idiots all the time.”
“Well, I have been spending a lot of time with him.” As if he knew he was spoken about, Severus walked into the kitchen. He looked at him and Harry knew that he tried not to look angry.
“I left you a note.” He said quickly.
“You should have woken me.”
“Why? You need your sleep.”
“Because… Just because!”
“Just because what? I had no idea when you got to bed last night, and I thought you deserve some rest. Don´t make this into a whole new thing again. I left you a note. Right on the pillow next to you. It could have only been seconds that you didn´t know where I was.” Remus and Lily quietly left the kitchen to leave them alone. Severus rushed forwards and pushed Harry against the table.
“Three, to be precise. Three seconds in which I could not breath and was terribly afraid.”
“You get up without waking me or telling me where you go all the time.”
“That´s different!”
“Why? Because I should just trust that nothing will happen to you. I have to sent you to HIM, knowing that he could kill you at a whim. And you are the one who makes a fuss? I don´t think so Severus.” Harry yelled. He was sick of fighting. Sick of feeling like shit.
“Why did you come to see me yesterday.”
“I don´t want to talk about it right now.”
“Well to bad, you are going to.”
“Why are you acting like this? You weren´t that mad yesterday. What happened.”
“Yesterday I didn´t know that you wanted to talk about something important. When Draco asked me if it went well, I was shocked to discover that you apparently had a chat about me?”
“What did he tell you?”
“Nothing! Why are you talking to him and not me?”
“I tried talking to you, but you kicked me out and can you please step a few steps back! I don´t want to fall because you made me lose my footing.” Severus glared but stepped back.
“You only tried to talk to me after you talked to him.”
“You didn´t know that then!”
“Still…”
“No, enough. You barge in here and start to throw around accusations when you weren´t willing to listen when I came to you. Draco convinced me to tell you what we talked about, I wasn´t planning to keep it from you. You said you were too busy. How do you think that made me feel? We fought and didn´t talk about it. Then you cuddle me in front of my parents, making me think we´re okay, and then you disappear without a word as soon as we come back. I went to bed, ALONE, knowing that you are mad at me. I had a terrible night, that is why I came here at five in the morning. I don´t have the nerves for this right now. I don´t want to do it. I don´t want to fight you.” He sagged down onto the bench and slumped down on the table. Severus stared at him for a second before stepping to him and sitting down next to him. Harry couldn´t stop the tears when he was pulled into strong arms and from the bench onto a lap.
“I´m sorry. I didn´t think…”
“That´s right you didn´t.” Harry said chuckling as he remembered at least fifty occasions when he had had the exact conversation with the men, only this time it was the other way around. He whiped the tears away and cuddled closer to his chest. Severus chuckled as well, probably thinking the same.
“I told mum, but she too is worried that dad won´t take this well. I´m sorry, we should have told her together, I just…”
“Do not think about it. It´s fine. How´d she take it?”
“Well… she´s not exactly thrilled that she going to be a nanna at thirty-seven. But she took it well otherwise. She likes the names we picked.”
“I must say, I am relieved. I was afraid that she would be angry with me for seducing her son.”
“She knows that it isn´t like that Sev, she told me twice that she is happy for me. That you are a good man who will take good care of me and our family.” Severus smiled.
“She always was extraordinarily kind.”
“I heard as much. Won´t you be late for class?”
“Draco can take over. It´s only third years. I will make up an excuse for the headmaster.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I am. Do you want to talk now?”
“No, I need to talk to Remus and Siri first. Bill should be here soon, and I had an idea that I want to discuss with them.”
“Alright, let´s go find him.”

They didn´t need to look at all. The marauders were in the living room speaking quietly.
“Hey Remy, we need to talk about the whole mission of yours.”
“You´re not about to tell me that you changed your mind, are you?”
“No, I´m not. I was just wondering if maybe it would be wiser to take Sirius instead of Bill.”
“Are you crazy! That is way too dangerous!”
“Just listen to me, will you?”
“Yes Moony, let´s hear what he has to say before dismissing the idea completely.” Sirius said with a huge grin.
“The reason you became Animagus in the first place is so that you can keep Remus company at full moon. Why should I sent someone in who is in danger of infecting himself when I can send Sirius in, knowing that he can transform at any given time?”
“I see your point but the death eaters know about him. As soon as they see me with a dog by my site, they will know that it is him.”
“No, as soon as they see you with a huge black dog by your site, they going to think it´s him. You can change his appearance without a problem.”
“And how is he going to help me fight if necessary?”
“Easy, you are not going to fight at all! You asked me for permission to try and convince other´s of your kind to join us rather then the dark site. That is your mission. You will take portkeys with you, and you WILL use them as soon as there is a sign of death eaters. You are not going to start a battle that you cannot win. Understood?”
“We may have to fight! What if they find us and attack us?”
“You can either raise your wand and fire back, or you open your mouth to activate the portkey. The latter doesn´t even need you to raise your arm. Do you want this mission or not?”
“Of course, I do!”
“Then you will do as I told you. If you sense danger, you come back here immediately and go back another day.”
“But Sirius doesn´t even have his wand!”
“Yes, that is why you will leave a few days later. I will need to make an appointment at Gringotts to get all their wands back.”
“But we need to leave now. You agreed that we shouldn´t wait.”
“That doesn´t mean that we shouldn´t wait if we have a better way. And this is. You won´t have to leave Sirius behind, I know that you will always watch your backs, and Sirius is immune against your kind while he is in dog form, an advantage Bill doesn´t have. He will not be happy, but dad, if you´re up for it, I would like you to guide him as he attempts to become an Animagus himself.. I know not everyone can do it, but maybe we are lucky. Bill is a bright man and I think with a little help he should get it rather quickly. He can join you should he succeed.”
“Sure Harry, I can do that.”
“Great, I would like you to help as many DA members as possible. We know that Voldemort has at least Greyback on his site and I am sure that despite our best efforts, others will want to join him. I will get Fred and George to think of something that can help protect us or weaken them in battle, but the more people can transform the less we have to worry.”
“That is a good plan, Harry.” James said proudly.
“Have you ever attempted it?”
“Yes, I have.”
“Did it work?”
“It did.”
“Well, tell us! What kind of animal are you?”
“Ahm… I… I can choose.” Harry mumbled. He hadn´t told his parents about the founders’ gifts yet. He didn´t know why and he knew it was stupid, but something deep inside him had told him not to do it.
“What do you mean you can choose?”
“It means that I can become any animal I like.”
“But how is that possible.” Lily asked.
“We´re not sure.”
“Well, Harry never played by the rules, or laws for that matter. It´s just another thing we can´t explain. Maybe it´s just because he´s so powerful that he overcame some hurdle others can´t.” Severus said, and Harry smiled at him.
“But how is it that he became this powerful. Not even Dumbledore is able to do what you are claiming.”
“Well, we know that Tom transferred some of his power to me when he attacked Godric´s Hollow.”
“And we think that Harry may have inherited some of the founder’s power when he came of age. We believe that since he is the first living heir of all four of them, that he can also draw power from the castle. It scares me to say it, but our best chance to end this war, would be if the last battle would take place at Hogwarts. The school as been absorbing the magic of students and teachers for centuries. If Harry can draw as much power from the castle as Hogwarts allows, there is no question who would win the battle.” Severus explained and Harry was so thankful. Somehow Severus again knew exactly what he needed.
“Well… this whole thing is getting crazier by the day isn´t it?”
“Yes, that was our experience as well.”
“Alright Harry, we will wait a few days. Just don´t let it get too long.”
“I won´t, I promise you Remus. I will contact Gringotts today. Sev could you check on our stock on Polyjuice. I know that we had a pretty big batch, but Dudley uses it quite regularly.”
“We have enough left, and I already have a new batch in the final stages.”
“Oh, great. Thanks for keeping a close eye on it.”
“As if there is a question that I wouldn´t.” Severus sneered and Harry grinned.
“Right… Well, I think we should get back to the castle. I´m not sure if I will make it back today but it´s Friday and we spend most of our weekends here. You will get to meet Dudley for the first time. Boy I have no idea how to explain this to him. He has coped surprisingly well considering who his parents are. He loves to brew potions and he´s actually good at it. I think and this will sound ridiculous, but I really think that he could become the first muggle potions master ever. How crazy would that be?”
“Are you serious?”
“I am. He´s in potion class right now pretending to be me.”
“Why would he do that?” James asked and Harry paled. He just had to run his tongue without thinking about what he´s saying. He didn´t know what to say and apparently neither did anybody else.
“Harry, why aren´t you attending your own potion classes?” James asked frowning. Harry just turned his head and starred out the window.
“James, maybe you should…” Lily said and he looked at her.
“You know something I don´t.”
“I… no, James…”
“I can tell Lily! You´re only ever lost for words when you are trying to cover something up. What is it?”
“Nothing! I just think it´s obvious that Harry doesn´t want to talk about it.”
“Just stop.” Harry said quietly but stood up and started pacing.
“Dad, there are things I haven´t told you, because frankly I am scared how you will react. I am also scared that as soon as I do so, it will start a whole confrontation that I am not ready to have. In fact, I don´t think I will never be ready to have this fight.”
“What could be so bad Harry?”
“It´s not the thing itself that is bad. It will just unravel a lot of stuff.”
“But why do you think that?”
“Because I know how much you hate Severus! I know how much bad blood is between you. Until now, you have done well. You haven´t insulted each other, fought about old stuff or hexed each other and I would very much like it to stay that way.”
“But why would it have to change?”
“Because you are a hot head James, a hothead who used his partner as target practise many times before. You can´t blame him for being nervous.”
“So, you do know!”
“Yes dad, I told her this morning.”
“So, am I the only one who doesn´t know?” James asked and Harry could hear the hurt in his voice.
“No, I haven´t told Sirius either because he used to treat Sev the same you did.”
“Well, I wouldn´t hex him Harry.”
“Are you sure? Because I´m not.” Harry said and unconsciously lay his arm around his hidden belly. Sirius caught the movement and his forehead wrinkled. He never saw Harry do that before. He saw Harry hug himself before, straighten up in defence and one time Harry had pushed him away when he felt threatened. But the way he cradled his belly, as if he were protecting a… Wait, potion fumes can be harmful to an unborn…
“Holy shit!” He exclaimed and Harry’s head whipped around to look at him. They locked eyes and Harry knew. He quickly stood up and stepped in front of Severus who got to his feet as well.
“Siri…” Harry said but winced when he saw the look on his godfather’s face.
“Sirius?” James asked but his friend ignored him.
“Is this for real?” He asked Harry instead.
“Yes. We didn´t plan it but it is what it is.”
“So, you two…”
“Yes, so? It´s what you do. What did you expect?”
“I don´t know! I guess I just don´t get how this happened. I know Ron and Hermione explained it but it just doesn´t make any sense. You two hated each other for years. He treated you like scum Harry.”
“We had our disagreements.” Harry said and Severus snorted at the understatement of the century.
“Disagreements? How many times have you told me that all he does is berate you? Humiliate you and your friends in class and give you detention for breathing.”
“People change Sirius.”
“Not that much they don´t. You can´t just change who you are. He´s cruel Harry, ´punishing an innocent child that has done nothing to him. He´s a dark wizard. He has the dark mark for Christ’s sake.”
“You know what? Your right. Some people are incapable of change. You are the perfect example Siri. If you follow your own logic and based on your own words just now, you are exactly who you used to be. A bully.” Sirius flinched as if he was hit in the face.
“You heard his story. He told you what his life was like, and you know that Dumbledore is one of the mane reasons that you hated him in the first place. And you still stand here and refuse to see just how much this man has sacrificed. If I remember correctly, you were the one who caused the whole situation which drove him and mum apart. I grew up in worse circumstances then Severus and I only am who I am today because I have Ron and Hermione. They have kept me sane all these years. They were the ones who sent me food and comforted me after my nightmares. You took his Ron and Hermione away from him. Have you ever tried to see it from his perspective?”
“No, I haven´t.” Sirius admitted.
“But still Harry, he´s a killer. And a potion master how can you be sure that he hasn´t put a love potion in your drink?”
“How dare you!” Harry spat.
“And if you condemn him for being a killer them you have to condemn me too. I killed Quirrell in first year! And do you really want to tell me that you never killed. I know you tried it at least three times. You tried to Kill Pettigrew twice and the last time the only reason you didn´t was me. I told you to let him live. And you did try to kill Severus when you were at school. Plus, you were an Auror, and in the order fighting a war. Yes, Severus started on the wrong site, but he changed. He did it for YOUR best friends. It is because of your old friend that they died, not because of Severus. You can´t blame him for this.”
“I don´t…”
“Then what´s the problem?”
“I… I don´t know.” James had listened carefully and was getting angrier by the minute.
“Can anyone please just tell me what is going on?”
“I´m pregnant okay. That is what´s going on.” Harry yelled and sank back down the couch. James starred at him.
“Really?” James asked.
“Yes, really.” To everyone’s surprise a grin formed on James´s lips.
“But… that´s great! Congratulations.” Harry starred at him.
“What?” He asked dumbfounded.
“What?!” Shrieked Sirius. Remus looked at his friend with wide eyes.
“I said congratulations. Didn´t I?” He asked looking at his wife.
“You did. I´m proud of you.” She whispered the last part into his ear.
“Are you sure you heard right James?” Sirius asked gobsmacked.
“Of course, I did. We will have a baby.”
“Two.” Harry said.
“Really?”
“Yes, you are taking this surprisingly well.” James frowned trying to figure out why everyone acted like he should flip out.
“I always wanted more then one kid. Sure it´s not quite the same but it´s still great.” Harry rushed forward and hugged his dad. When he stepped back James walked up to Severus and stuck out his hand. Severus looked at Harry who smiled brightly and took it. It was a silent peace offering and relief ran through him. Sirius looked as if he had bitten into a lemon but kept his mouth shut. Harry decided that it would do good to leave and give him some time to get used to the idea.

“Well, that went well.” Harry said when they landed in Severus´s quarters.
“It didn´t went horrible.”
“That´s true. I´m so sorry for Sirius. He just can´t keep his mouth shut.”
“He´ll come around. You´ll see.”
“I know. Mum will make sure of that. But still…”
“Yes, it was not pretty.”
“No. Man, It´s not even nine thirty and I´m already exhausted.”
“And we still have a few things to discuss, I think. Let me start by saying that I am really sorry that I dismissed your feelings about the whole baby thing, but you need to understand that I was afraid that by waiting, your mother would be upset with me all over again. I really want my friend back Harry.”
“I understand and I am sorry for making it seem that your opinion doesn´t matter and again for leaving like I did.”
“Good, since the whole topic of the fight was resolved this morning, I don´t think we need to get into that. I must admit that I was still upset last night and that was one of the reasons I sent you away last. But merely because you mad me worry.”
“I know. Growing up with the Dursley´s, I learned that flight was often the only option I had. If I was lucky and made it to the cupboard in time, I could lock myself in until they calmed down. And when I came out again the punishment wouldn´t be as bad as when they were mad. It´s a hard habit to break but I will try and do my best.”
“Thank you. Will you tell me what Draco was on about?”
“I asked him if he ever met a partner of yours. I didn´t know if you´d be mad so Draco suggested I just tell you.”
“Why did you ask him?”
“I was wondering what they looked like.” Harry said blushing.
“Why?”
“Because… I thought maybe I am not the type of man you, you know, find appealing?”
“What would give you that idea?”
“Well, we haven´t… you know, very much.” Harry blushed even further. Severus looped an arm around him and pulled him close.
“I didn´t want to push. You were still recovering after last time. You never initiated anything, so I thought you were content with how things are.”
“I´m seventeen!” Severus chuckled.
“But you are right. I could have made a move as well. I will keep that in mind.”
“I´m sure you will. I´m glad we talked.”
“Me too. So, what do you say? Wanna go to the bedroom?” Severus arms tightened around him.
“I wish I could, but… I should get to class and after I have to finish the potions from yesterday. Regrettably… this will have to wait until tomorrow.” Severus said pressing kisses to his neck.
“Great!” Harry said sulking.
“I will make it up to you I promise.” Severus whispered in his ear and Harry shuddered.
“Fine…” He said with a sigh. Severus bent down to kiss him deeply. When he had left, Harry went to get his schoolbag and pulled out his potion text. He had reading to do.
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