Diary of a Death Eater

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Dear Diary,


With the Dark Lord back everything has changed. It’s harder to keep tabs on Harry. If He were to find out my intentions he would kill me without a second thought. I have to be more cautious.

The Dark Lord is keeping a low profile. He’s ascent didn’t’ exactly go to plan. He had meant to kill Harry and than rise to power, leaving the wizarding world with out its hero. However, Harry escaped and now plans have changed.

He has seceded to lay low. He was sure that as soon as Harry announced his return they would come after him. Unfortunately, that’s not what happened.

No one believed Harry! Can you believe that? The so-called Saviour of the Wizarding World and everyone thinks he’s daft. Only Dumbledore and his “Order” know he’s telling the truth.

The Dark Lord has made the following plans:

Retrieve the prophesy concerning Harry and himself.

Recruit more followers.

Keep a low profile.

That’s it. I’ve been set to find a way into the Department of mysteries. I’m to find this so-called prophesy.

All I can think of is Harry. He’s back at the muggles this summer. I hope he can stay out of trouble.

I’ve learned that Sirius Black wasn’t after Harry. Turns out he’s Harry’s godfather. An unregistered animagus named Peter Pettigrew had framed Black for his crimes and had betrayed Harry’s parents. He is a Death Eater. Of course I only found this out after speaking with Peter himself. He is always with the Dark Lord. Not his right hand man, more like a man servant.

Maybe now that Harry has both Black and me looking after him, he will be safe. I do not trust Dumbledore. I think he has his own agenda and is using Harry as a means to and end. We shall have to wait and see I’m afraid.


Dear Diary,

I knew that boy couldn’t stay out of trouble. He had a hearing at the Ministry today. I went, of course, to find out the truth of what happened. I missed the hearing; however, it seems they changed the time on me. I spoke with Cornelius and he told me his theory on what happened. Needless to say I did not believe his hypothesis. I simply went and read the transcripts of the trial to get Harry’s story.

It seems a dementor attacked Harry and his muggle cousin outside their home. A dementor! I actually agree with the old coot, Dumbledore. Someone at the Ministry sent that dementor. The Dark Lord hasn’t got any dementors on his side…yet.

Now, as if I haven’t got enough of a problem trying to make sure the Dark Lord doesn’t go after Harry himself, I a have to worry about the Ministry.

I saw Harry this morning. He looked dreadful. All this stress must be getting to him. I want to go to him and make him feel better. To make him forget…everything…for now.

Dear Diary,

It’s the start of the school year. Draco has been made a prefect. I told him that now more than ever he is to keep an eye on Harry. He knows what my intentions are. I keep no secrets from my son. He has also confided in me his feelings for the muggle-born, Granger. I’ve told him not to pursue the relationship unless he feels it to be a long-term thing. It would look bad if he were to use her then throw her away.

I have not been completely honest with him, however. Hell, I have not been completely honest with myself either. I have not told him my real reason for keeping the boy safe. I haven’t even spoken it out loud. I am infatuated with the Harry. He haunts my dreams at night, my thoughts during the day, and wherever I go I worry about him.

I saw them on the platform this morning. I accompanied Draco to the train. He arrived with the Weasley’s as was the norm. Only he also had a large black dog with him. Sirius Black. First, I thought that this was a good thing; obviously Black is keeping a close watch on the boy. On second thought, however, Black is putting himself at risk by showing himself in public. I made sure to mention this to Draco. Draco would surely inform Harry that Sirius had been recognized.

The boy must be more cautious. I’ve learned that the Ministry is going to try to rein in Hogwarts this year. That means they are going to interfere. They’ve appointed that foul, little toad, Delores Umbridge, the new DADA teacher. That can only mean trouble.

I shall have to maintain contact with Draco this year. I must stay informed as to Harry’s well being and safety. I will not let anything happen to him.



Dear Diary,

Something strange is happening. I think I almost have it worked out. It seems that there is a connection between the Dark Lord and Harry.

The Dark Lord had sent his snake, Nagini, to check out the Department of Mysteries. I, myself, have tried to gain access using any means available. So far all my “attempts” have been fruitless. Thus, the Dark Lord decided to check for himself. The only way he could do this is by possessing his pet snake.

While the snake entered the Department he noticed that someone was guarding the hallway. Of course we already knew that the Order was keeping watch. I had already used one of these guards, under Imperious, to try to gain access. I do not deny that. I want to hear that prophesy myself. I need to know for Harry’s sake, at least.

Now it just so happens that on this night the guard is no other that Arthur Weasley. The Dark Lord decides that this is fortuitous and attacks him (in snake form). He then leaves him there to die a slow painful death. However, this was not to be. Within a few minutes, help was already on the way. He was located and rushed off to St. Mungo’s.

It seems Harry had a vision of the attack as it occurred. I believe Harry’s and the Dark Lord’s minds are connected by that damned scar. I do not know if the Dark Lord has discovered the connection yet. If he has this could prove disastrous. I shall mention this to Severus today. He will, of course, mention it to the meddling old man and they will find a way to protect the boy.

The Dark Lord is obsessed with this prophesy. He thinks it will provide him with the knowledge of how to kill Harry. I hope he never hears it. I only want Harry to hear it. There may be beneficial information in that orb. Harry may find out how to defeat the Dark Lord once and for all. I want that more than anything, and somehow I know that the only one who can do it is Harry.




Dear Diary,


Sorry it’s been so long since I last wrote. A lot has happened lately. I’ve just looked back to see what was last written and it was the attack on Arthur. It seems so long ago.

The Dark Lord found out about the link between Harry’s and his minds‘. He used it as only he knew how. He set a trap.

He sent the boy images of Black being assaulted and subsequently tortured in the Hall of Prophesies. Everyone knows about the boy’s fondness for his godfather, and about his reckless habit of saving people. The Dark Lord knew he would try to come to the rescue. It was the perfect trap.

And Harry fell for it. The Dark Lord knew he would. Harry even brought friends. Stupid boy. He had to have known it was a trap…didn’t he.

Draco says he tried to stop them. He had him at wand point in that bitch Umbridge’s office. Of course it didn’t stop there. That silly little girl, Granger, came up with some half-brained story of a weapon in the Forbidden Forest and Umbridge fell for it. She decided it would be alright to follow the three (Harry, Weasley, and Granger) into the forest. She also decided that it would not be a good idea to allow Draco and his goons to accompany her. She ordered them to keep watch on Harry’s other friends. Of course, as soon as Harry and the others were out of sight, the other students attacked Draco. They stunned him and ran off to join Harry and the others in the forest.

Draco ran to contact me. He said he was sure they were running directly into the trap. I awaited the Dark Lords orders and went along to the Department of Mysteries.

We (the other Death Eaters and I) arrived before Harry and his unlucky band of loyal misfits. We awaited him in the Hall of Prophesies. I just realized I don’t even know how they found their way there.

Once they arrived, Harry picked up the prophesy and from their the fight ensued. Bellatrix, of course, had to open her rather large mouth and the students scattered. Death Eaters began throwing a large number of hexes at the students and I was pleasantly surprised by the number of hexes being thrown back. The fight spilled out of the Hall and into a number of other rooms off the main hall.

I didn’t pay much attention to who was fighting whom. My undivided attention was on Harry. He threw a few minor hexes at me and I simply shielded myself against them. Somehow, we ended up alone in the main hallway. I yelled at him to smash the prophesy and listen. He was confused. Didn’t I want the prophesy for my master, he asked. I told him that the only person that should hear it was him. He simply had to smash it…quickly.

After what seemed like an eternity, he finally heeded my advice and smashed the orb on the ground. A disembodied voice began speaking and I turned away. I did not want or need the knowledge of the prophesy. It would only be used against me.

I turned back to Harry as he turned to enter a room off the hall. I followed him. Upon entering the room, I immediately took notice that the room was empty except for a veil of sorts hanging in the center of the room. I also took notice of the duel that was taking place in the room.

Sirius Black and Bellatrix were fighting each other and holding nothing back. I surmised that the Order of the Phoenix had arrived and Harry would now be safe. At the next moment, Bella fired some sort of stunning hex at Black. It nearly hit him full on, however, he dodged out of the way at the last second. In his attempt to dodge the curse he tripped and was falling towards the veil in the center of the room. I acted instinctively. “Accio Sirius Black.”
Sirius flew away from the veil and towards me. Bella rounded on me immediately. Shock registered in her eyes as she comprehended what had happened. I knew in that moment that I was done for. I cast the killing curse and foolishly saved myself.

The moment Bella’s body hit the ground I was running for it. I had to escape and escape I did. I don’t know if I merely got away due to Harry and
Sirius’ shock at seeing me kill my sister-in-law or the shock of knowing that I had just saved their lives. Whatever it was I’m just glad I got away.

I found out later that the Dark Lord himself had shown up at the Ministry that night. He apparently dueled with Dumbledore and somehow escaped unscathed. However, the damage was done. Too many people saw him there. His ruse to keep a low profile was blown. Now, of course, everyone acknowledges that he has indeed returned.

What should I do now? Should I contact Harry and explain myself? What would I say? Will he believe me? Could I possibly earn his trust?

I don’t know, but everything will change from here on out. Now my only hope is to make it out alive.