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Harry's True Self	By : yaoiboydaisuke Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Snape Views: 42735 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 8
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor any of the characters from the books or movies. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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AN: o.o I am sorry for my constant hiatus, my attention was being put into playing video games, this chapter was written back on 5/6/13. This was the last chapter I had wrote so far, I had lost the memory stick with it on it and just found it. Next chapter will be longer and I will try not to be so distracted, I have got my writing mood back.
Harry hesitated he was starting to think it wasn't such a good idea, sure the man was nice to him to a degree, but had been a total asshat most of the time. He also didn't know what side the man truly was on, he was definitely a double agent, but which way did he lean more. The boy put his hands to his face in frustration and groaned, the man was a death eater and an Order member, he also was the only person in the world he felt he could talk to in the school. “...I'm not the son of James Potter...” Severus raised a brow at this, he didn't think Lily would cheat on James. “ I am only half Lily Potters child, I don't know exact details about it. I was upset and I found a note from her in my teddy bear. She said my real mother couldn't keep me and he.” he saw Severus' eye twitch at the 'he' part. “Put his, I guess it was his egg into her, I talked to my real mother...sir I know you want to speak, but please let me finish. I talked to my real mother and he told me that because I wasn't in him for very long before I was put into Lily, he was told by a Mediwitch that I would have Lily's DNA as well, as she would be carrying me to full term...these are all things I don't exactly understand. But I'm just saying what he told me.” Harry swallowed, he was just fifteen years old, he didn't know all that much about human anatomy, even more so wizard anatomy, hell till he read Lily's note he didn't think men could be pregnant. “My real mother who conceived me is Sirius Black and my father...he is Voldemort.” he watched as Severus turned pale, the man put his glass down and stood. “Professor?”
“Is this some sort of joke Potter?” Severus clutched his bottle of fire whiskey in his hand. “Lily Potter would never! Have any part of what you just said.” his face was turning red from anger, he drank straight from the bottle in his hand. “She was muggleborn, the dark lord would have killed her than let her raise his child!” he took a staggering breath. “He DID kill her and tried to kill you as well boy!”
“I'm just telling you what her letter told me and what Sirius told me!” Harry balled his fist tightly on his lap. “What do you even know about my mother..uh...Lily.”
“She was my friend!” Severus' shoulders tensed as he yelled at the boy. “I knew her better than that fool James, but she choose him after I made one mistake!” he fell back into his chair, dropping his bottle to the floor. “She was a good person, she wouldn't have agreed to bare the spawn of the dark lord.”
Harry was in shock, he didn't much like being called a spawn and Severus had been Lily's friend? He knew Severus' had a grudge against James and from different things he'd heard from Remus and Sirius, he knew that they all had bullied the man, though they left out details. “She did it for Sirius, she didn't want anyone to find out who Sirius was with...who my father was..she knew we'd both be killed.” he looked at his lap, he didn't exactly know the whole story, he just knew what was in the letter and the little bit Sirius had told him. For all he really knew Sirius was lying to him and the letter could have been fake, but it didn't explain how he looked like all three of his parents, so he knew it had to be true.
Severus looked at his fire his expression was that of a man who'd had many regrets, with his right hand he rubbed his index finger against his thumb in thought. “Lily...she would have done something like this to help a friend.” his expression turned to anger once again. “How could she be such a hypocrite, Black obviously was a death eater or supporter to be with the dark lord in the first place!” he took a few deep breaths, tears welling in his eyes. “She turned her back on me, years of friendship and I only made one mistake....I called her a mudblood.” he sobbed into his hands, Harry was in to much shock to react, he never knew the man could cry. “....James Potter was a horrible boy in school, him and his group set their sights on me the first time they saw me on the train. I was frustrated and humiliated, she couldn't understand that it was a mistake!” he was shaking. “I loved Lily...” he looked at Harry hopelessly. “Why did she choose that prat James? She hated the dark lord and death eaters so much that she turned her back on me forever just over one word...why..why did she agree to give birth to you!....I begged the dark lord to let her live when I told Pettigrew where they where....” Harry normally would have blown up in a fit of rage, would have reacted like he'd done when he believed Sirius got the Potter's killed, but he could see that it effected the man horribly with the decision he made in telling Peter. “If he knew, that you were his son..why did he kill her? Why did he think you were the child from the prophecy?”
“....Lily believed that Dumbledore had Trelawney make up a fake prophecy, she said it was to much of a coincidence that the prophecy was about the time I was going to be born. She thought..maybe Dumbledore knew that James wasn't my father, that he might have known something was going on, she and Sirius seemed to be under the impression he could get into their heads...so I guess that would be how he'd find out anything if Sirius and Voldemort were together, Sirius even had his memories erased or at least blocked to stop Dumbledore from reading his mind, Lily said she knew how to keep both Voldemort and Dumbledore out of her head. I am getting sick of everyone flinching when I say his name!” Harry glared at Severus. “It is only a name and he's already back.”
“...Both Dumbledore and the dark lord like to get into peoples heads...” Severus gritted his teeth. “If what you are saying is true...then I know why Black has been reported missing to Order members, he probably went back to the dark lord before Dumbledore could see him again.”
“So...he did go back to him.” Harry thought for a moment, his mind was finally, at least for the time being, back to being less chaotic. “How can you stop someone from reading your mind? Is there any way to tell if someone has tried?” Harry was worried now, he had been around Dumbledore for the trial after all.
“First of all, it is called Legilimency, and you would know when it happens...trust me. They invade your mind looking for the information they want against your will.” Severus sighed. “Sometimes you will see memories from your past or see something they are looking at or feeling at the moment. To stop it you will need to be trained in Occlumency, have you had any visions of things? Felt like there was a odd sensation in your brain?” he watched Harry sort through his thoughts, Harry began to realize the pain of his scar whenever the dark lord was around or involved,his weird dreams, and the vision he saw of Dudley being tortured, he mentioned those occasions to Severus. “ ...It appears that you have a mental connection with the dark lord, weather its because of your scar or your blood relation to him...either way.” he stood. “Under the guise of detention, starting tomorrow. I will teach you Occlumency, for the time being...stay away from the head master, and try not to think about anything the dark lord won't like.” he paused. “Then you will need to decide which side you are on boy, will you join your mother and your father? Or will you stay on the side with your friends and a man who might possibly have set your father up to kill your other parents? Give it a lot of thought Potter, one option will get you killed for sure. Now leave my room, I wish to go back to sleep, and you don't want that insufferable Umbridge woman to see you.”
Harry had wanted to ask the man why he'd kissed him back in the library, but he knew that in away both of them had decided to not talk about it again to each other or anyone else. He did however feel closer to the man, he liked this side of him instead of the mean and strict side. He was feeling better now that he got his parentage off his chest, but now he had another new issue about choosing sides. Voldemort was evil, he was a murderer, but apparently Dumbledore was manipulative and caused the murders of the Potter's and almost his murder by his fathers hand. “Have a good night...” he put his invisibility cloak back around himself, leaving the room. He whispered the password to the fat lady, she was to sleepy to notice there was no one in front of the door, and she opened. Once back in the 5^th year boys room, he climbed into bed and fell asleep.

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