All That You Leave Behind

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I love you.



It echoed through Harry\'s mind over and over again.



He lay there watching Ginny sleep with Severus\' words running through his mind, guilt making his heart heavy, not knowing what to do. If he told her about Severus and she left him, he would be devastated. But not telling her was killing him.



He didn\'t like keeping secrets from Ginny. He\'d hated not being able to tell her what he was doing when he\'d been off searching for the Horcurxes. All that time he\'d been gone, watching her on the Marauder\'s Map as she went about her day at Hogwarts, he made a silent promise to himself that when he returned, if she\'d still have him, he\'d never keep anything from her again. He\'d promptly broken that promise when he\'d stayed a Spinner\'s End for months helping Severus recuperate and not telling her where he was and what he was doing. But she\'d waited for him, and was understanding when he did finally tell her. That was what he loved about her so much. She was so understanding of the things he wanted, of the things he felt he needed to do. When they\'d rowed and he\'d nearly lost her because of his own stupidity and selfishness, when they had got back together, he had vowed then he would never keep anything from her again. And now he\'d broken that vow as well.



And Oh my God, had it been sweet! Even afterwards when the guilt had set in viciously, he still remembered how his body had sang. It wasn\'t just about sex, he loved Severus deeply, with the same burning intensity he loved Ginny, but my God the man turned him on!! His hunger for Severus was becoming insatiable. Harry closed his eyes, and his mind was instantly filled with images of himself and Severus caught up in the abandon of the afternoon they\'d spent together.



He\'d been working on the investigation in the room he and Ginny used for an office, going over the witness reports again and again, hoping to catch something, anything, that they may have overlooked. Suddenly he\'d felt cool hands caressing his neck, sliding down to knead his shoulders. He leaned his head back and looked into deep obsidian eyes.



"Ginny is out," Severus told him, "she\'s taken James to the Burrow. She asked me to tell you. She didn\'t want to disturb you while you were working. I, however, have no such qualms."



He knew Severus had felt the shiver that had run through him; he could tell by the lustful look that came up in his eyes, which made Harry shiver again and his breath come short.



"All work and no play makes Harry a dull boy," Severus murmured, pulling Harry out of his chair and into his arms, claiming his mouth in a kiss that took Harry\'s breath completely away.



He followed Severus on legs that felt like jelly, so overcome with raw lust and desire was he, and Harry thought that in that moment he\'d have followed the man to the ends of the earth just to be able to be near him.



He saw where they were headed and, not that he was protesting, far from it, had managed to squeak out, "I thought it wasn\'t all about sex..."



"It isn\'t," Severus growled silkily, turning around, "but in this instance, I\'ll make an exception. Or would you rather I didn\'t?"



"You want me..." Harry had uttered, unaware he\'d said it aloud until he saw the evil grin spread across the other man\'s face. He could feel his own begin to flush.



"Indeed I do," Severus said and pulled the younger man forward into another mind searing kiss. "Do you object?" he asked when he let Harry up for air.



"N-no...." The Auror rasped out, his throat desert dry with excitement, "not at all."



Severus\' reply was a low, "Then come along," that sent more delicious shivers along his spine. Harry didn\'t argue.



They\'d undressed one another in a hurried rush of tangled fingers and hot kisses, Harry nearly screaming in frustration at all the goddamned buttons the man insisted on. He\'d mewled loudly when he finally reached the bare skin he craved to touch and taste.



Severus had pushed him back onto the bed, climbing on top of him, kissing, nipping, licking him seemingly everywhere all at once, and Harry eagerly reciprocated. The potions expert paid keen attention to his nipples, sucking them hard, pinching and tugging while Harry had writhed in pleasure beneath him, grinding his stiff and leaking cock into the equally rigid one above him.



Severus had used his arms and legs to hold Harry still and spread eagled on the bed, then used his tongue and lips to nibble, kiss and lick his way down his lover\'s burning body. He stopped to lave his navel before going lower to nip and suck on Harry\'s hip bones, the crease where his leg met his body, and to lick a hot trail around his balls. The wicked tongue flickered briefly lower, over the hidden puckered opening, making his partner gasp in surprise and lust.



"I believe three is the number of the day," Severus growled into his groin and Harry felt the slick slide of one long digit as it breached his waiting hole. He wondered when Severus had managed to lubricate his digits, but only wondered it idly, The rest of his mind was hazed with desire.



"Oohh...Sev," Harry had moaned shakily. He was used to one finger now, but that didn\'t make the tingling in his veins and the pounding of his heart any less. He clenched down on the finger as it slid in and out with agonising slowness, biting his lower lip in an effort to shout for more. He knew Severus would ignore him and take his time anyway, so it was useless, and Harry moaned again at the knowledge.



After long moments of what felt like teasing to Harry, the other finger slid in, and he groaned in appreciation. "Sev..." he said breathlessly, "so good....faster!" and pushed into the digits, impaling himself further, clenching the muscles of his channel, revelling in the full feeling.



He felt the stretch when the fingers began scissoring within his needy passage, and felt his excitement wrench in his gut at the thought of what the man was doing. He groaned loudly, and Severus said, "You may feel discomfort....."



"I don\'t care!" Harry gasped, "Do it, Sev. I want it!"



He felt the stretch even more as the third finger slid in, a burning feeling along with it, almost pain, but he was immediately distracted from that by the sensation of his balls being washed with a hot and wet tongue. He clutched the bedclothes in his fingers, arching his body up to get more of that glorious tongue, his entrance clenching madly around the three fingers as he pushed down on them.



"Oh fuck!" he gulped, "Oh!...FUCK!" he shouted as his balls were sucked into the warm, wet cavern of Severus\' mouth. He\'d never had this done to him before, and he whimpered at the exquisite feeling of the older man\'s firm tongue gently rolling his balls in all that heat.



It was too much; the three fingers sliding in and out of his body, his balls awash in Severus\' mouth; just as he was about to shout he was near climaxing, Severus\' other hand grasped his cock firmly, delaying his release.



Harry lay there panting heavily, nibbling on his lower lip, and swallowing harshly as Severus popped one, then the other of his balls loose and waited for him to calm down. When he had, he heard a quiet snicker and then Severus\' low rumble. "Ah...the eagerness of youth..."



"You\'ve....got...your fingers in....my ass...and my balls in....your mouth...what…what else am I supposed......to do?!" Harry whined "Please, Sev.....please just....fuck me!!"



Severus\' answer was to crook those three fingers, brushing against that magic spot inside, while he plunged his mouth down over Harry\'s straining cock, sucking nearly the whole shaft in at once. Harry fairly howled in surprise and ecstasy.



"Oh...holy fuck!!" he sang as Severus\' wicked mouth went to work on him, long fingers caressing his prostate, driving Harry mad with pleasure. He couldn\'t help it, his hips thrust his leaking, throbbing prick deeper and deeper, feeling the head hit the back of Severus\' throat, but the man took it all.



"Gonna...gonna....," he wailed helplessly, thrashing about under the onslaught of sensations. Clenching, writhing, moaning and gasping, Harry felt his release rush up his cock and out, spurting into all that heat and wet in gut wrenching spasms that made his entire body twitch convulsively.



He had lain there afterwards, limp and boneless all over while Severus untangled them and crawled up onto the bed to hold him closely, kissing his face and brushing back his hair, whispering calming words that Harry\'s brain in its current mush-like state couldn\'t process.









He looked over at Ginny lying beside him, sleeping peacefully in her ignorance of his betrayal. He hated keeping secrets from her. He hated keeping anything from her. But this...how could he ever tell her about this?