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Someone Like You, Someone Like Me...	By : Kimmimaru Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Slash - Male/Male Views: 4901 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 2
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AN: Ok so apparently there’s going to be some form of sex in every chapter! Lol. Let me just give due warning here, this is NOT going to be a happy fic. I am afraid I can’t write happy, and if I do try it fails. Forgive me but I’m not even very funny… :( I hope you enjoy this chapter, nothing will make me stop writing short of a hurricane coming along to whisk me away. :) So although updates may be few and far between I am still writing!

Chapter Five

Sirius,

We received your letter and we would be very sad to see you go, we have enjoyed having you with us but if you feel that you must leave then we wouldn’t stop you. What we did was what any decent person would do, I understand better than anyone else what you went through at home and I wish that you had never bourn such hardship. As for this unfortunate incident I accept that it must have been a difficult transition and we are grateful that you told us, however before you return (if you so choose to) we must ask you if you have a safe place to change as unfortunately I have no wish to endanger my family, or you. So if you would write to us and tell us where you would go every full moon we can allow for this and would welcome you back with open arms.

All our love, Charlus and Dorea Potter.

“Well…maybe you could come to mine every full?” Remus offered gently, he had read the letter over Sirius’ shoulder.

Sirius turned his head to look at him, he smiled weakly. “Thanks. It would be easier.”

“We’d be changing in the cellar…my parents set up some pretty strong enchantments and chains and stuff…” He trailed off and a small frown creased his brow. “My mother…she’ll be angry at me when she finds out what I did to you.”

Sirius lifted a hand and touched Remus’ cheek, gently he guided him so their lips brushed. “It’s ok, Remus.” He whispered and kissed him lightly. “We’re gunna be ok…”

Remus’ lips curled into a small smile. “Yeah…perhaps we will be.”

The dorm was quiet, James was out at Quidditch practice, bossing around the youngest members of the team and devising tactics for the last Quidditch match of the year. Gryffindor Vs. Ravenclaw. Peter was in detention for failing to hand in his Charms homework and so it was Sirius and Remus alone for a few hours. Sirius put the letter on his bedside table and lay back against Remus’ chest, he sat between his legs and gazed down at the end of the bed. Remus buried his face in Sirius’ throat and made him giggle, he smiled and their fingers entwined. “Remus?” Sirius asked softly as Remus’ tongue found his skin and he tipped his head back against his shoulder.

“Yes, Sirius?”

“We…we will be alright…won’t we?” he whispered, feeling the spike of arousal heat his body.

“Of course we will. Why wouldn’t we be?”

Sirius half opened his eyes and gazed out at the dorm. “…when they find out…I…I don’t know what will happen.” He said, his voice softer than the breeze.

“Who?” Remus could feel Sirius’ trepidation and he pulled away from teasing his skin to try and look into his eyes. The angle was awkward but he could see the worry in his mates expression.

“My family.” Sirius replied.

“What can they do? You left them…they disowned you…”

“They did but I still carry the name Black. I’m pretty certain a good number of my cousins will want me dead already but if they find out about my…about what happened then they might take bigger steps towards eradicating me completely.”

“That’s silly, they can’t murder you!”

Sirius smiled and ran his fingers up Remus’ arm, he watched his hand absently. “Hmm…maybe you’re right.” He said and rolled over in Remus’ arms. “Maybe I’m being paranoid.” He smiled and kissed his mate deeply, but his mind was already hearing the words and insults that would be shouted at him if they discovered the truth…

“Not just a filthy bloodtraitor but a Half-breed monster!”

“I always knew you would come to such a disgraceful end Sirius…”

“You’re even more pathetic than I first realised!”

And, as Remus slipped his shirt from his chest, he heard the voice that hurt the most…it was always that voice that caused the worst pain…

“You disgust me! I never want to see you again, Bloodtraitor filth! You’re a monster, stay away from me! I wish I didn’t have a brother!”

He tipped his head back and Remus’ tongue traced lines of fire across his body and he sighed. Having Regulus find out would be the worst punishment in the world, it was bad enough that his brother thought he had betrayed their family, if he discovered any of his dark secrets the boy was sure to hate him. Leaving his little brother to the dubious mercy of their parents was one of the hardest things he had ever had to do, but he knew that if he hadn’t of left he would have either taken his own life or been murdered. He despised leaving him, impressionable and vulnerable…but what choice did he have really? He would be a useless protector if he had stayed, he would have eventually been crushed beneath the tyranny of his family, his spirit destroyed by abuse both physical and mental, he would have wasted away and become less than a corpse.

It was with difficulty that he pushed aside his melancholy thoughts and concentrated fully on Remus’ hands, his lips, his tongue.

XXX

James sighed heavily as he sat on the parapet of the Astronomy Tower, he gazed down over the grounds and thought about Sirius. Apparently trying to avoid him and give him space was not working, he found himself automatically searching for his ex-lover whenever he could. He was constantly thinking about him, his mind drifting into the past as he sat in lessons and failed to concentrate. He closed his eyes and tipped his head back, he didn’t want to obsess, especially now it seemed that Sirius was finally ending it. He wished everything could go back to the way it was, he only wanted to be with Sirius again and not have to consider what he was doing to Remus. “Sirius…” He whispered to the empty sky.

“Ah, so it’s true.”

The voice made him jump and he almost fell from his precarious perch, once he had steadied himself he turned around to see Lily Evans leaning against the door frame. “Evans! What are you doing there?!”

She shrugged and pulled her hair over her shoulder, absently she ran her fingers through it and watched him from heavily lidded eyes. “I was going for a walk, I like to come up here to think…” She smiled. “It seems I’m not the only one.”

“No…well, if that’s all I’ll leave you to it.” He slid down from the parapet and began walking to the door, Lily stopped him by touching his arm gently.

“Do you…are you in love with him?” She breathed.

James paused a moment, considering his answer. “If I was I wouldn’t tell anyone about it.” He said slowly, his voice more bitter than he liked.

Lily’s eyes filled with pity, her fingers tightened on the sleeve of his Quiddtich robe. “I’m sorry.” She said softly. “I had no idea…”

“Don’t.” James shook himself free of her and ran a hand through his hair. “It’s fine…he’ll be happy...eventually.” With that he walked away leaving Lily looking after him and biting her bottom lip. James was in love with Sirius who was now more than likely in a relationship with Remus, and something had happened to the three of them. They spent less time together, their eyes now held a similar shine of general unhappiness and she hated seeing Remus in such a state. The wind picked up and blew her hair across her face as she realised that James’ fingers had brushed her own when he had made her release him. A flush of pink tinted her cheeks and she took a shuddery breath.

“Get it together, Evans…you hate him! He’s a bullying prat!” She muttered to herself but something had changed inside her, it had been changing slowly over the past year and she could feel a strange thrill of emotion every time she was around James Potter. She shook her head rapidly before frowning. “I’m being pathetic.” She said and followed James’ path off the tower.

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Exams ended with a relieved sigh from every sixth, seventh and fifth year in Hogwarts. Everyone was excited about leaving for the summer but Sirius had never wanted to stay more. At least here he had perfectly good excuses to avoid James, but when he returned to the Potter’s he wouldn’t have a choice but to spend it with his ex. It was bound to be horrible. He lay beneath the Marauders favourite tree and gazed out across the water, it glittered and flashed in the summer sunshine as students played in the shallows and further out the Giant Squid swam lazily. He shaded his eyes with one hand as he spotted James stood in the shallows surrounded by girls and admirers including Peter, he was smiling and gesticulating wildly. Just from his body language Sirius knew what story he was telling and he smiled at the memory, it filled him with bitter regrets.

In third year they had been sneaking about the castle in the evening. It had been well after curfew and the only sounds had been their breathing, Remus had long ago stopped trying to badger them not to do it as he seemed to have realised it was pointless. Sirius stood behind James as they tip toed around a corner and found the Trophy Room. Once inside they had put Peter on the door while James removed his wand, it was only a tiny mispronunciation but the effect had been disastrous, where he they had intended all the Trophies to turn into giant dildo’s they were now wobbling, penis shaped Jellies. James had let out a burst of nervous hysterics and Sirius had snorted when they heard the familiar sounds of Peter’s nervous whining. They turned to find Filch holding him by the scruff of his night shirt and looking around the room as if someone had slapped him with one of the interesting shaped Jellies.

The memory made Sirius smile, but it was more the fact that he missed those days. They had all been so innocent, so happy…now all he could see was darkness and it was crushing him. He sighed softly to himself and tore his gaze away from his ex as another familiar scent assaulted him, he stayed perfectly still as Remus approached and smiled when he felt him sit at his side. “Where have you been?” He asked quietly, he felt fingers running through his hair.

“I was helping Professor McGonagall with a class detention…” He said and gazed down at his friend, his lover. “Were you watching James?” Sirius stilled beneath his hand, he had his back to him but Remus could still sense the change in energy as he became apprehensive. “It doesn’t matter.” Remus said but he knew it was a lie, the wolf inside him growled fiercely and for a second he almost lost the battle against the urge to re-stake his claim upon Sirius’ body. He pushed it down and kept it tightly in check, he could only imagine the horror of the other students if they saw that.

Sirius took a breath before rolling over and looking up at Remus through a curtain of hair that was now resting over his face. “What are we going to do?”

Remus didn’t have to ask about what, he knew. “I don’t know.”

“It’s…going to be hard…being away from you…and…” He pushed fingers into his hair and tipped his head back. “And being so close to James.”

Remus stilled and turned his eyes to his best friend. “Will you…will you fuck?” he asked slowly, the words making pain and jealous rage tighten his chest.

“…I don’t know…” Sirius said truthfully.

“I don’t want to smell him on you.” Remus muttered.

“I know…”

“Promise me.”

“Remus I-” Sirius’ eyes widened as Remus pinned him down by his wrists, their faces were inches apart and Remus looked as if he was struggling with something.

“If I smell him on you I’m going to hurt you! I know I will! I can’t do it…don’t make me…please…”

Sirius nodded quickly, eyes wide with surprise. “Yeah…yeah alright. I-I won’t fuck James again.”

“Good.” Remus pulled away reluctantly as the wolf howled at him to take Sirius then and there, to ensure he never forgot who he belonged to; Mine! Mine! Claim! Bite! Mate! He frowned and cleared his throat. “That’s…that’s good.” He said in a tight voice.

Sirius tipped his head at an angle so he could see Remus’ profile, he lifted an arm and tucked it behind his head. Remus was squinting slightly in the sun as he gazed at the other students playing in the water, Sirius was certain he was watching their friends. He could see the small frown of worry on his mates face and he sat up slowly. “Let’s go inside.” He said quietly with his head down. “And you can…I know you want to. I can see it in your face.” He turned and looked at Remus who looked strained before he nodded jerkily.

James turned away from his fan club and saw Sirius and Remus walking up to the castle, he sighed and reluctantly turned to the girl trying to get his attention by lifting up her robes further than necessary as she paddled.

XXX

Sirius gazed out the window as the train pulled out of the station, he drew one knee to his chest and absently chewed on his nail. He was going home. He was going to spend the majority of the summer in close proximity to James with his promise to Remus haunting his mind. Already he was finding it hard not to brush James accidentally in the cramped compartment, every time their eyes met he felt a sickening jolt in his stomach and realised that he really would have to move out if he was going to avoid hurting his friends. He watched James play Exploding Snap with Peter and wondered how on earth their friendship was going to survive this. When James lifted his head their eyes met and Sirius knew he was wandering the same thing, when they were together they could hardly keep the fiery passion from devouring them and it was almost impossible to keep from kissing. Sirius felt as if he was drowning in confusion, his head span every time he considered the possibility of losing James not just as a lover but as his best friend as well. He loved him. He loved him more than his own life, yet he was torn. If he hurt Remus he would hurt himself, if he hurt James he would potentially destroy the tentative bonds they still shared and either option was deplorable.

The agony of the train journey was over soon enough and they disembarked at Kings Cross, Sirius took a moment to look at Remus who embraced him. “Come to mine next week…” He whispered and pulled away again before hurrying off to greet his parents and leaving Sirius at James’ side.

It was harder that Sirius had imagined. He stayed in his room, only coming down for meal times and some tea with James’ parents. Each time he saw James he averted his gaze and lowered his head, James would watch him walk past and neither of them spoke. The tension became intolerable until the full moon arrived and Sirius was glad of it, he couldn’t live with James anymore, of that much he was certain. He had to find his own place and now he was seventeen it would be easier.

The change was as agonising as always, and the morning after left him weak and shaky as he lay wrapped up in Remus’ warmth. Remus had told him that his parents were furious with him, that they were disappointed but they were happy to allow Sirius room to change in their house. The cellar was large with thick stone walls and a massive cage enchanted to prevent breakage, chains dangled from the walls and it looked like a torture chamber but Sirius knew it was for the safety of the normal people. He had changed kneeling on the floor, gripping Remus’ hand with both of his own, his head lowered as he hid his tears.

Now, as he lay curled against his Mate he could feel a warmth filling, a warmth that belonged to his wolf nature. He inhaled deeply, shivering as the after effects of the change washed over him. The sun was poking through the single window high up in the far wall and he could feel it caressing his skin as the inner wolf slept uneasily. He opened his eyes and blinked as he rubbed at them, his body was exhausted, but not so much so that he wasn’t sporting a rather impressive erection. He sighed sleepily and began nudging it against Remus’ thigh insistently. “Moooony…” He whined softly against Remus’ throat. “Mooooony…wake up…” He felt Remus stir against him and grinned softly.

“Mmm, Sirius?” Remus asked sleepily, he opened his eyes and saw Sirius’ problem. He smiled and chuckled. “You’re always horny…even after a change…” he said thickly and yawned.

“Yeah…don’t care…touch me…” Sirius grabbed Remus’ hand and forced it down to his cock, he wrapped those warm fingers around it and groaned into the crook of his elbow. “Fuck I’ve had this while…” He felt Remus nip lightly at his ear and moaned. His body ached, he was tired and he was filthy, still covered in blood and scratches from the previous night but he could only think about Remus’ body pressed so close to his own, about the scent of his partner, his mate as he too became excited by their intimacy. Sirius suddenly halted Remus’ movement and pressed a quick kiss to his lips before rolling Remus onto his back and moving down his body, he lapped absently at the scratches across his exposed chest until he reached Remus’ own erection. He gave his mate a smirk before encasing the waiting cock in heat. Remus’ hips jerked slightly and he gasped, his hands flew to Sirius’ tangled hair and he pulled on it insistently.

“Oh Merlin!” He hissed as his hips jerked forward, seeking that wonderfully intense feeling. “That’s…nnng…that’s fucking amazing…” Sirius chuckled around his mouthful and that seemed to begin a chain reaction, before he knew what was happening he hurtling towards his orgasm. Vaguely, through a haze of bright white and the sound of his own blood rushing through his ears he heard Sirius’ muffled groans and pleasured noises but he was too far gone to care.
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