Acceptance | By : Madam_Weasley Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Draco Views: 6301 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 2 |
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I dream about Potter every night the following week. I wake up aroused and have to take a shower every morning. Some are cold and others are hot as I take care of my arousal. I think I was better off on my own instead of thinking of someone unavailable the way I am. If he would just stay away.
My dreams embarrass me. While I made the realization that I was gay around the age of 18 I’ve not actually been with a guy. It’s hard to date when you are still hated and while I’ve had dates I’ve not felt any real attraction to take any of them farther than kissing and some above the clothes touching. My dreams are vivid and very graphic. I find myself thinking back on them as I work, eat, try to sleep. My dreams are creating a nightmare in my real life.
The second week after dinner the dreams are decreasing and I am not as preoccupied as I was. It’s Wednesday and I’m getting a shipment in so that will keep me occupied. I close the shop early and meet the delivery guy at the door. I’ve got my new cauldrons and multiple boxes of ingredients. The delivery guy helps me get them into store using magic. I like to do the rest by hand. I feel like I’ve accomplished something. I take off my robes so they don’t get in the way as I’m unpacking glass bottles and dangerous ingredients. I’m in jeans and a white tee shirt. I put on the radio and get to work. I’m feeling more relaxed than I have in a long time. I create a new display for the new cauldrons and restock the shelves. I take pride in my work and I’m feeling very good about what I’ve done. Things are looking up. I stand back to look at my display.
“Looks good.” I jump a mile and whip around, wand at the ready.
“Damn it Potter!” He’s got his hands up and is backing away.
“Music is too loud, you must not have heard the bell.”
“Obviously. What are you doing here?”
He walks to the counter and hops up to sit.
“Make yourself at home.” I say dripping sarcasm.
I start to pack up the boxes and crates to move them to the store room.
“Are you going to tell me why you’re here?” I won’t look at him. I don’t want him here. I was just getting my life back to normal.
“Uh….”
“What?! Why are you here?” I turn to look at him. My exasperation unable to be hidden, I’m getting angry at him and technically he’s done nothing wrong. I just can’t handle the feelings I’ve had. He needs to leave.
“Dinner.” He runs a hand through is hair and looks nervous.
“Seriously? Call Weasley, or Granger, or Longbottom. I’m not hungry and I’m filthy.”
“Dinner on Friday.”
“Merlin you are making no damn sense. Call one of your friends if you are afraid of eating on your own. Or eat at your place. Or go to Weasley’s.”
He hops off the counter, closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. “I want you to go to dinner with me on Friday night. Not at the Leaky Cauldron.”
It’s my turn to close my eyes. Why is he doing this? He has no clue what he is doing to me. I can’t tell him. But maybe if I do he’ll go away. He’s noble and all that.
“Potter.” It comes out weary now. The fight has left me. I can’t keep doing this. He has to go away.
I turn to look at him and he’s much closer than I thought. I take a step back and stumble over a crate. I catch myself and curse myself for the blush that I know has colored my cheeks.
“You need to leave. Please just go and don’t come back. If you need potion ingredients send me an owl and I’ll mail them to you. Other than that, I really don’t want to see you again.”
“Why?”
“Do I really need to give you a reason? Did you forget Hogwarts? The war? Slytherin versus Gryffindor? How many reasons do you need?” I’m starting to yell.
“I need a reason for now. Not eleven years ago.” he’s yelling too.
“Why do you keep coming back? What is it you are trying to do?” I’m yelling louder, fists at my sides.
“ASK YOU ON A DATE!” he screams back at me.
The silence is deafening. I just stare at him, he looks down breathing hard.
“I’ve been trying to get the nerve to ask you out on a date.” this is much softer.
“What? Why?” My voice is full of the disbelief that I feel.
He walks back to the counter and sits again. I can’t move, I just stand there.
“When I came here to ask you to lunch it was because I wanted to tell you thank you, I wanted you to know that everything I said to Teddy was true. That was my only reason for coming back that day. Then you told me that you were gay and I let myself look at you the way I wanted to. The day I came in with Teddy and I saw you, I kept that image with me. You look incredible. I thought about you every day. I tried not to. So when I came here with Ron and Hermione I thought I’d ask you to dinner. I couldn’t get up the nerve to tell you I was interested. “
I still don’t say anything. I can’t think.
He gives a wry laugh. “I guess the only way that we can communicate is through fighting. Listen. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come. I’m sorry. Take care Malfoy.” he turns and heads to the door.
He’s closing the door before I find my voice. “Wait.” It comes out just more than a whisper, luckily he heard me.
He stands in the doorway and turns. We just look at each other.
“What time Friday?”
He grins at me and I can’t help but grin back.
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