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If Only To Feel...	By : Jadestonedreams Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Draco Views: 10416 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Title: If Only TO Feel

By: Jadestonedreams

Rating R-for the overall story.

Disclaimer: I make no from this at all. Just pleasure in my work.

Pairing: Harry/Draco. and other couples such as HG/RW, BZ/PP, VG/NL, SS/PD, RL/SS

Summary: Both Harry and Draco are going through changes. Harry is a veela Searching for his mate. Will secrets that Draco is keeping. Stop him from claiming his true love.

A/N: I don't really follow the books in my story, So people who may be dead there. Might turn up alive here.

Warning: Slash, Mpreg, and Sex

A/N2: I want to thank all of my reviewers, It means a lot to me that you like the story.

Changes

Chapter 7

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Leaning back against the thick trunk of the willow tree as he twirled a soft blade of grass between his fingertips, Harry looked out at the calming lake before him. The cool breeze twirling the ends of his raven hair as it tickled the edges of his cheeks.

Harry didn't for the life of him understand why the Draco's refusal to call him by his first name irked him so much; he just knew that it did. It was as if Draco really didn't believe they could become friends. Yes, they had discussed not fighting anymore and had even called a truce of sorts, but for some reason it just didn't feel like it was enough. Something was telling him he couldn't let this go. He couldn't let Draco get away from him again.

Frowning at that thought, Harry looked up at the sky. 'When had Draco gotten away from him before' he wondered. Probably when the blonde had first held out his hand in friendship, but his attitude had gotten in the way of anything ever happening.

'You still could have taken his hand you know. No one said you had to choose between them. Who says you couldn't have been friends with both?'

"That was impossible." muttered Harry

'Was it?'

Letting the warmth of the sun flow over him, Harry suddenly became aware of approaching footsteps and smell of spiced vanilla and cherries as it floated through the air. Looking around he was slightly startled to see Draco walking along the edge of the lake staring out at the waters as if mesmerized by the calmness of its waves and the reflection of the sky above it.

Watching as the cool breeze played with the strands of blonde hair causing it to flow around Draco face before it was gently tucked behind his ear, Harry found himself wondering what it would be like to run his hands through those soft strands, to feel that silk between his fingers. The smooth pale skin slightly tinged with a healthy pink was another thing that didn't go unnoticed by the raven-haired Gryffindor. 'You�re wrong Draco and I'm going to prove it to you.' thought Harry as he continued to watch the other boy.

Ignoring the slight tingling sensation in his fingertips, Harry continued to observe the Slytherin before him. Draco seemed unaware of his presence as he stood there, or he was ignoring him.

Closing his eyes and taking a deep breath, Harry let the thick rich scent of everything wash over him. He wondered for a moment when things had really changed between him and the Slytherin. Things were changing, whether for good or bad remained to be seen.

Getting ready to call out, Harry was stopped by the sound of something flying above them. Looking up at the sky at the soaring object above, Harry found himself unable to move as he looked from the sky back to the silver eyed blonde not far from him. Looking out at the Slytherin Harry watched in fascination as Draco simply gazed out at the calming waters, before looking up at the sky as if noticing something for the first time.

The soaring creature seemed to circle once more before swooping down and landing directly on Draco's outstretched arm.

The look of shock that floated across both of their faces as the elegant bird landed on Draco's arm and settled there was priceless.

"Fawkes" murmured Harry.

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Opening and closing his mouth a few times Draco continued to stare out at the beautiful golden and red bird as it perched upon his arm. The calming warmth that came over him as he stared out at the creature flowed through him serenely as he blinked several times before speaking.

"Uhm, hello." whispered Draco reaching out to gently touch the top of the beautiful creature's head before taking out a package of crackers from his pocket and giving it to the magnificent creature.

"You look awfully familiar." Draco muttered looking for a moment back up at the sky. "Where have I seen you before?"

The answering screech from the bird did little to answer Draco's question, but seemed to satisfy the golden bird as it cocked its head to the side as if studying the blonde for a moment. The overwhelming feeling that he was being examined sent a little shiver down the Draco's back, but somehow it didn't really bother him at all.

"Draco?"

Stiffening slightly at the sound of the voice behind him, Draco turned to look back out at the calming waters. 'What God in heaven have I pissed off, that they keep sending Harry my way.' thought Draco. The only answer he received was the loud screech as he looked over and saw the bird leaving his arm and flying above them for a moment before disappearing above the clouds.

Looking over again he found himself staring into large green emeralds and for a moment wondered if one could truly get lost in another's eyes. If it were true then he would be lost forever in Harry's.

Tearing his eyes away from the other boy quickly and looking out at the waters Draco prayed that raven-haired young man didn't notice the slight hitch in his breath, or the pounding of his heart.

"Potter"

Hiding the tinge of hurt he felt at Draco's use of his surname Harry sighed inwardly. This wasn't going to be easy, 'but then things worth fighting for rarely are.' He thought.

Biting his lower lip and taking a few steps closer, Harry stopped a few inches away from silver-eyed blonde.

"I've never seen him do that before," stated Harry taking his gaze off the quiet blonde and glancing back up at the sky for a moment.

"Who?" asked Draco looking over his shoulder at him.

"Fawkes, the Headmasters Phoenix, I've never seen him go to anyone like that," Harry shifting on his feet and looked back over at Draco.

Opening his mouth to respond, Draco quickly shut it as Harry held his hand up to silence him.

"Listen Malfoy, I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry about getting mad earlier at the library. I know we talked about no longer fighting anymore. I guess we never discussed being friends, but I'm willing to try if you are."

Taking a few more steps and holding out his hand to the other boy, Harry waited expectantly.

Clenching his hands at his side, he turned to look back out at the lake. Harry was offering him the one thing he'd always wanted from the Savior of the Wizarding World; friendship. No not the savior of the wizarding world, he'd wanted to be friends with Harry, ever since the moment he'd seen him in Madam Malkin�s all those years ago.

Draco didn't know whether to laugh or cry as his dream was starting to come true just when the end was approaching. How ironic.

'Not the end, only the beginning' whispered the small voice in his head.

"Draco?" inquired Harry shifting from side to side.

"Are you sure, Harry?" asked Draco turning to look at him.

"I�ve never been surer of anything in my life." Harry smiled inwardly at Draco's use of his first name.

"I'm willing." Draco smile he he grasped Harry's hand in his own.

The tingling sensation in their hands increased swiftly sending a sharp bolt of electricity up their arms causing both boys to jump back.

'What the hell was that?" thought Draco and Harry simultaneously.

Looking back down at his arm and shivering slightly Draco turned away from the piercing emerald orbs that seemed to bore right through him.

'What the hell is happening to me' he thought as the unwelcome feeling of losing control seemed to pass over him for a moment. The air around him seemed to suddenly turn thick and sweet. The rich arof tof the emerald eyed Gryffindor filling his senses to overwhelming capacity.

Closing his eyes at the onslaught Draco tried taking a deep breath to calm his ever-growing swirl of emotions. Opening his eyes slowly after a moment Draco nearly gasped at the blast of bright colors around him. It looked as if everything was suddenly glowing from the inside out.

"Malfoy�Draco are you alright?' Harry asked worriedly taking a step closer to the other boy.

Letting his gaze finally fall over to where the raven-haired Gryffindor stood, Draco felt his breath catch in his throat and he was sure his heart had skipped a beat. Harry was, to Draco's eyes, surrounded by color. A bright green shown mostly through out the kaleidoscope surrounding the other boy as Draco stood back and stared at him. Harry seemed at tot to be glowing.

Getting worried at the way Draco was staring at him Harry took another step towards the dazed blonde reached out to touch him.

'Beautiful' Draco sighed inwardly his gaze scarcely leaving the other boys face.

The overwhelming feeling of peace that washed over Harry as he took hold of Draco's arm with his hand was so unexpected that Harry could do little but gasp until Draco pulled away.

The rich swirl of beautiful glowing colors now fading from his sight and out of existence before him. Draco looked around at the scenery before him everything seemed to be going back to normal. Looking over at Harry, Draco stopped for a moment Harry still seemed to be glowing slightly.

The urge to reach out and drag Harry over to him and press his lips upon that soft pink one's of the golden boy's was nearly heart stopping. Taking a step back and shaking his head as he felt the colors start to swirl up again Draco groaned inwardly.

"Uhmm, I'll talk with you later Potter." muttered Draco turning to rush past the still quiet Gryffindor. He had to get out of here before something happened.

"Draco, wait!"

Cursing to himself, Draco quickly turned around, looking across at Harry.

"What is it, Potter?" asked Draco.

"A few of us are going into Hogsmeade tomorrow. I was wondering if you wanted to join us."

"Thanks, but I think I'll pass this time," replied Draco turning around to leave then stopping to look back over his shoulder at the dark haired boy.

"Thanks for asking though." He muttered before heading back to the castle leaving a slightly confused Harry behind.

******

Walking along the grounds toward Hagrid's home, Harry couldn't seem to keep his mind off the silver eyed blonde. Lately it seemed as if his entire mind only wanted to think about a certain annoying Slytherin.

Not that it was the first time, mind you. Harry was not blind. Draco Malfoy wasn't known as the Slyin Sin Sex God for nothing. Although Harry wondered if some of the stories were more fiction than fact, as no one could ever really prove if they were true or not.

He was so engrossed in his own thoughts he didn't see the rather large furry beast bounding up on him till he was knocked roughly onto the ground.

The ticklish feeling of a rough wet tongue lapping around his face caused him to squirm.

"Ughhh, Fang get off!" shouted Harry trying to sit up.

"Sorry about that �arry." Hagrid laughed pulling the large animal from off him and helping Harry to stand.

"It's alright Hagrid." Harry laughed dusting off his cloths and patting the large dog.

"Fangs just happy to see you is all, come on I was just fixing to have a snack, got plenty for two."

Following Hagrid, Harry couldn't help but look back towards the castle wondering what Draco was up to at that moment.

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The air around Draco seemed to grow ever more thickly as he made his way back to the security of his room. Once again he was grateful for the use of his own room. Barely looking around at the few students he passed, Draco finally managed to make it back to his room before collapsing on the floor.

'Whatappeappening to me' he thought looking up at the ceiling.

The answering silence of the room was all that he heard around him.

Rolling over and pushing himself up off the floor, Draco made his way into the connecting bathroom to throw some water onto his face.

"Get a grip, Draco, it's probably nothing," muttered the blonde boy letting the cool water run over his features.

Staring back at his reflection in the mirror, Draco brushed his fingers through the wet strands of his hair. He really did like it better without all the gel in it. Finally feeling better after a few moments Draco turned to head back into his bedroom.

"I've got to get out of here." Draco stated picking up his wand. The low rumble from his stomach causing him to remember the missed lunch he's skipped.

"Wonder if Dobby can fix me some of that smoked chicken" murmured Draco heading out of his room.

*****

Walking backo Gro Gryffindor common room Harry plopped down onto the couch.

"Hey Harry, where you been?" Seamus asked from his seat near the window.

"Meeting Hagrid's latest pet." Harry replied looking over at the other boy.

Raising an eyebrow at the raven-haired boy Seamus looked over at Harry expectantly.

"Not to worry, this one's seems to be harmless." Laughed Harry flipped open a Wizard's weekly and glancing inside.

"Good, I don't think poor Neville ever got over the Spideria incident from third year."

Shivering at the thought Harry shook his head. That was one pet of Hagrid's that Harry was glad the headmaster insisted had to go.

"Hey where is Neville anyway?" Harry asked looking around the room.

"Probably in the library again," said the Irish boy getting up from his seat. "He's really on about not messing up so much in Snape's class anymore."

Nodding Harry smiled.

"I saw you talking to Malfoy, yesterday." Seamus remarked, taking a seat next to Harry.

"Draco and I have agreed on a truce, I figured since he hasn't been as annoying as usual lately it might be a good idea."

"That's good."

"I invited him to go with us tomorrow."

"Are you sure that was a good idea Harry? I don't think the others are going to be happy about Malfoy being there."

Frowning Harry shook his head. "Doesn't matter, he said he turned me down."

"Probably for the best mate."

"Come on let's go see if we can get a snack out of the kitchen. I adore Hagrid but he has a lot to learn when it comes to what's edible."

Laughing they made their way out of the common room and towards the kitchen.

****

"Dobby is so happy Master Draco is here." The little house elf smiled hopping up and down.

"Thank you Dobby." Draco replied smiling as he followed Dobby to a small room just outside the kitchen and sat down at a small table. Despite many beliefs Draco and the little elf had got along just fine, Dobby was after all Draco's favorite house elf when he had been at the manor.

"How do you like working at Hogwarts Dobby? Are you happy here?" Draco asked.

"Oh yes, Dobby very happy. Dobby not afraid anymore. No hear Master Lucius yelling anymore. Is that why Master Draco is still here? He no want to hear Master Lucius yelling."

"Is that why you�re staying here Draco?"

Turning around in his seat, Draco looked over and frowned as he saw Harry and Seamus Finnigan coming into the room.

"Harry Potter, Dobby is so very happy to see you again!" squealed the little elf hopping up and down as he approached the two boys.

"Thanks Dobby, can we get something to eat? I missed lunch." Harry asked sitting down across from Draco.

"Of course, what would Harry Potter and his friends like?" Dobby asked, popping out a moment later leaving the three boys alone.

"I seem to keep running into you Potter." Draco stated looking across at the two boys.

"What can I say, I skipped lunch earlier." Harry replied quickly.

"Yeah, me too," Draco replied popping a strawberry in his mouth. "For some reason I just seem to be really hungry lately."

"We noticed." Seamus replied smiling across the table from Draco, his eyes traveling over the blonde across from him.

Blinking several times, Draco looked over at the other boy for the first time. The boys sandy blonde hair hung slightly over his face as deep blue eyes stared back at Draco's silver.

Shifting uncomfortably in his seat, Draco shrugged. Which was not a very good response he knew, but Draco wasn't used to having to explain his actions to others.

The sound of popping from behind them caused the three to look over as Dobby reappeared with a tray and three fresh glasses of pumpkin juice.

The conversation though tense at first quickly turned to more enjoyable things such as Quidditch and friends and the latest gossip around the school.

"I hear Harry asked you to join us tomorrow." Seamus stated his eyes never leaving Draco

"Yes, but I don't think it would be a good idea." Draco replied, "Besides I have a few things I need to take care of tomorrow anyway."

Narrowing his eyes Harry watched Draco as he spoke, something in the tone told Harry the other boy wasn't exactly being honest with them.

Most others wouldn't have noticed the slight changes in the Slytherin. But Harry Potter couldn't help but recognize these little insignificant details; he had after all studied the blonde for years.

"Well if you change your mind you can still join us." Seamus stated quickly. "I'm sure Dean and Neville wouldn't mind."

Looking over at the two Gryffindor's with a raised eyebrow, Draco simply snorted.

No matter how appealing the idea was. Spending the day with Harry's friends was the last thing Draco ever thought he would want to do. The urge to give in and say yes was starting to become increasingly more difficult to contain.

'What could it hurt?' Draco thought.

Opening his mouth to speak, Draco was interrupted by the sound of popping from a few feet away.

Looking over Draco frowned at the now quiet and subdued house elf.

"Dobby?"

"Headmaster has sent me to tell you that Master Lucius has come to see you." Dobby stated looking over at Draco before popping out again.

The flash of dread and fear that passed over the Slytherins face did not go unnoticed by the two Gryffindor's before it was pushed away and the usual unemotional mask was placed in front of them.

Pushing his tray away Draco got up to leave.

"I'll see you later." Draco stated walking out the door a moment later.

"What the hell was that about?" Seamus asked looking over at Harry.

"I don't know, but I intend to find out," muttered Harry staring at the door where Draco has just passed through.

Harry had no doubt in his mind he would.

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