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Chapter 7 : When dreams become reality

�W-What?� asked Harry, abruptly very
aware of Seamus� hands on his shoulders, and especially, of his face's
proximity to his own.

GB'>�I�ve asked you� what you think about men who� who
are� gay!�

�Oh!� said the horrified black-haired young man, not
knowing what to answer.

�Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, what have I said!
Plus I�ve repeated it! The shame! Oh Merlin! Please Harry, don�t be disgusted�
thought the blond. �I�d like so much for you to tell me that loving men is not
a disease and that you love them too. Answer me Harry, please.�

Seamus was gazing at his friend intently and didn�t
move. His hands didn�t massage the boy�s shoulders anymore but he had let them
stay on the soft skin.

�Oh Dear Merlin, please, I beg you, that he answers
he�s gay too.�

There was a heavy silence then Harry responded �Er- I�
I think that they can do what they want. It�s not a disease to be homosexual
and if they aren�t attracted by women, I think they are right to be with men.
That they�re in love or not, I don�t see anything wrong in seeking happiness
everywhere it can be.�

The further Harry got in telling his answer, the more
his voice was becoming low and he finished in an embarrassed murmur.

�Oh!� repeated Seamus who could feel his heart beating
faster.

�YEEESSSSS. Oh Merlin, thank you. For that, I promise
to tidy my part of the dormitory every day for six months!�

Harry suppressed a laugh. But he didn�t have to force
himself to choke it back when he felt the blond squeeze his shoulders a little more
and move his face in close again.

�Harryyyyyy.�

Harry stayed still. His back was very stiff and he
didn�t dare to turn his head, too afraid that his lips would touch the Irish
boys', when the blond said �And what would you think if I told you that I�m
attracted to men? Only men?�

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�Oh Merlin, oh Merlin, I can also tidy it for a year!
Please, please.�

Harry was shaking slightly and he closed his eyes for
a second before opening them again, feeling as though his breath was caught in
his chest.

�You do what you want Seamus� replied the young man in
a whisper.text-autospace:none'>Seamus sighed in his head and Harry heard also the
question that the Irish boy wanted to ask him. He stiffened more, glancing
everywhere around to see if there was a way to escape while praying Ror
Mr
Merlin to come and save him.
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�And you Harry? Do you prefer males or females� or
both?�

�No.�

�No what?�

�No what?� echoed the blond softly in his friend�s
ear.

�No, I�m not� attracted by� women� he answered in a
breath.

�YEEEEEEEEESS! Oh Merlin, thank you. One year, I
promise!� Well, almost� I won�t be here anymore in a year so I tidy my room
instead� Oh Harrrrrryyyy. YEEEESSSS!!!!�

In the Irish young man�s head, Harry was seeing that
he was imagining jumping everywhere with joy, like a madman, doing acrobatics
he would be unable to do in reality.

Seamus smiled and Harry waited. Had he done well in
confessing his homosexuality when he knew that his dorm mate wanted him?

�Harry� sighed Seamus. Then, he slid his left hand in
the messy raven-coloured hair and pulled them softly to meet Harry�s beautiful
green eyes.

�He really has gorgeous eyes� thought Seamus. �He�s so
handsome. I could sink into him� Harry.�

Harry saw the other young man�s eyes wandering to his
mouth then his head tilt back to lightly touch his lips. Very slowly. Seamus
moved away a bit, his eyes still closed and then came back to touch Harry�s
lips again.

They both moaned inwardly and Harry opened his mouth
to let Seamus deepen the kiss. The blond did it tenderly and slid his tongue
between the swollen lips that he wanted so much. The black-haired Gryffindor
responded slowly, with sensuality while the Irish let a hand stroke the firm
torso of his �friend�.

�Mmmm� groaned Harry, feeling as though this were all
a dream. urneurned himself around in Seamus� arms and slid his own arms around
the other boys' neck without breaking their kiss.

�Oh Harry! Mmm, Harryyyyy.�

This last felt a daring hand wander farther towards
the small of his back then, on his buttocks that were squeezed softly.

�Seamus� called Harry while the blond was devouring
his neck with burning kisses. �Seamus, I� I think� mmmm� that it�d be better�
oh yes� to� to stop� Oh Seamus!�

Seamus captured Harry�s lips again and was beginning
to undress him when the raven-haired boy stopped him abruptly.

�No!� he exclaimed, pushing his Irish friend roughly.

Seamus toppled over the floor. Too shocked to think
properly for that instant, Seamus said nothing but Harry could see by his face
that he was hurt. No thoughts came to his head but he had the impression that,
inwardly, his friend with moaning in pain. Harry felt his heart tighten in his
chest.

�W-Why?� Seamus stammered weakly. "I thought that
you liked it� that you wanted me too." His voice broke suddenly.

�Yes. No. Well�� Harry looked straight in the Irish
eyes and saw all his pain. �Oh Seamus; I didn�t want to hurt you. I�ve wanted
you for so long and I still want you but� but there�s someone else of whom I
think about� and I�m not sure about the feelings I have for him� I� I don�t
know� I didn�t want to make you suffer. Maybe, it would be� better� for both of
us� to just stay friends.�

�Harry!�

Harry was devastated too. Not only he had pained a
friend that he loved a lot but he had just admitted that he had feelings for
Snape. He was completely lost.

�I�m really sorry Seamus� he said pitifully while his
heart was bleeding by what he could hear of his dorm mate�s thoughts. He had to
go, and quickly. �Seamus� he began again.

�Harry� cut the other Gryffindor in. �You�ve kissed me
too. You liked this! So, why do you say me that there�s another person? Why did
you kiss me back? I have feelings
for you y.� y.�

Seamus was gazing at him with an unbearable intensity
and Harry shook his head, feeling like an executioner. He knew that he had hurt
his friend and felt guilty to have kissed him back only to reject him after
but, at that particular moment, he had wanted so badly to be touched by Seamus!
During years, he had dreamt of him, to be in his arms, to caress him� and to
kiss him. But he had always believed that his schoolmate was attracted to
women. So, he had stifled his feelings until he resigned himself.
Progressively, his fantasies had diminished and he had dreamt of other men. But
when Seamus had wrapped his arms around him, when he had murmured in his ear,
when his lips had touched his� each dream had come back brutally and he had
succumbed� and liked it. However, when Seamus had wanted to undress him, he had
been violently returned to reality, the face of his potions professor in mind.

Harry was ashamed.

�Sorry Seamus. Believe me, I really didn�t want to
hurt you. I just lost my head.� He stopped suddenly, seeing thesh osh of
suffering that went through the Seamus� eyes but spoke again, quickly �That�s
true that I liked your kisses but I wasn�t really myself. Malfoy had got on my
nerves and, when you began to massage me, It felt so good then� My anger had
collapsed in a second and I felt as if I was� emptied. Like in a second state
and��

�In fact, he would have kissed anybody in that moment�
thought the Irish young man with despair.

�You said that you have wanted me for years� and that
you still wanted me� cut in the blond.

�Yes, that�s true.� Harry lowered his head,
remembering, then tilted it up to face his friend. �I�ve desired you for ages
but I thought that you were hetero� so I�ve never tried anything and I�ve told
myself that I�ll forget you.�

�What a waste of time!� sighed the blond mentally �
�But he hasn�t forgotten me seeing that he kissed me back. He still wants me.�

�But you still want me and I�M gay!� insisted Seamus.
He paused an instant and added �And I want you too. You�ve just seen how much!�

�Yes, I know� groaned Harry, overwhelmed. �Seamus, to
be honest, I think that� that I want your body��

�Oh me too� moaned Seamus inwardly with intense lust.

�� but I�m not in love with you and��

�That doesn�t matter!�

�The fact that you aren�t in love with me isn�t
important Harry. We can go out together and, for you, maybe it would change
with time. I�ve told you that I have feelings for you. Plus, you want me and I
want you so where is the problem?�

�The problem Seamus is that me, I want more than just
lust in a relationship. I want to love and to be loved. Desire is not enough�
Sorry� Plus, I�ve got feelings for someone else. If we were dating, it never
would work for a long time.�

�It doesn�t cost you something to try, bloody hell�
snarled Seamus silently. �And who is it, the other guy?�

�Tell me who the other person is.�

�Seamus, it won�t bring you anything good to know�
answered Harry who didn�t want to give him the name of their potions master.

�Tell me who the other person is, Harry. I�ve got the
right to know! I swear to you that I won�t repeat anything to anybody but I
have to know.�

�Seamus, it�s difficult��

�NO!�text-autospace:none'>�No, it�s not difficult Harry. You just don�t want to
tell me, that�s all� exclaimed the Irish boy who was still hurt and whose anger
and jealousy was increasing gradually. �I want to know with whom I�m in
competition!�

�It�s not a competition� exclaimed Harry in his turn.

�Oh yes it is� thought a determined Seamus.

�Of course� he said with evident irony.

�It�s not a competition� repeated the raven-haired
wizard.

�You can say what you want� thought the blond. �But I
can recognise a competition when I see it and there is one! And it�s me who
win win.�

�Seamus!� warned Harry who had not heard his words �
seeing that the young man kept silent � but who had definitely heard his
thoughts.

�Harry, you won�t lecture me because I stick with the
man that I feel I�m about to fall in love with! I feel good with you. When we
kissed earlier, I� I was� sort of transported. I�ve never felt a sensation like
this before. It was� wonderful Harry. And I don�t want to lose all of this. I don�t
want to lose YOU.�

�Seamus, I don�t want� don�t want to hurt you. Maybe
you have not felt something like this before because you haven�t met a lot of
men or at least not the good ones. I know that if you were my boyfriend, our
relationship would not last very long and we�d make ourselves suffer more than
if you stop now��

�No!�

�I don�t want to lose you Harry!� repeated the boy.

�You can�t lose me Seamus, because you�ve never had
me.�

It was words that hurt, Harry knew that and he was
mortified to have to say them but he had to do it. He didn�t want to give the
wrong impression to his friend. He desired him, it was a fact but he also knew
that he never could be in love with him. Neither Harry nor Seamus would ever be
satisfied. Plus, Harry would always be thinking of Snape and this would not be
something good at all.

�Yes� told Harry to himself as he got out the room,
head lowered. �It�s better to have said it to him before it destroys us.�

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Harry was walking in the corridors to go to the
library where Hermione would probably be. He would be able to tell her
everything that had happened and she would know how to comfort him, to tell him
that he had made the best decision. For him and for Seamus.

Suddenly he felt cold and he could hear the sound of
strong winds.

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�That�s weird!� Harry said to himself. �There�s no
wind yet.�

The air felt cool but there was not even the slightest
breeze inside the castle. Truly bizarre.

�Where are those bloody parchments? I�ve two to give
to McGo and if I don�t do that, she�ll change me into vile beast or worse, into
Crabbe or Goyle� thought a sixth year of Slytherin who passed close to Harry.

The young Gryffindor stopped to burst into laugher.

�One for my master and one for my dame. And one for
the little� No! Nooooooooooooooooooo!!!�

Harry had like an impression of d�j� vu and he
continued to walk while smiling slightly.

�� Who will be able to guess that I wear them,
anyway?! I�ve the right to wear that! I don�t see the problem to wear that�
seeing that no one knows!�

Harry stopped suddenly and turned himself towards a
seventh year Slytherin to gaze at him attentively. What was he talking about?
What was he wearing?

As the student continued his way, Harry shrugged and
went on his way.

�Nonsense! It�s not my fault if I had spilt my ink pot
on his head��

�The bastard! If he touches my girlfriend, he�ll pay��

�I�m sure that he steals them from me! I still haven't
found the second packet and it�s certainly not Fawkes who eats them! My lemon
drops��

text-autospace:none'>�Hello Professor!� replied the Gryffindor with a grin.

�I hate this briefs! They're too tight and those
patterns, my God! I hate penguins! I seriously have to have a talk with mum��

�Oh Merlin! Too good! Too funny! (inward laughers)
Filch was scarlet! I really believed that he was about to have a heart attack!
I knew that he�d be happy if we transfigured his clothes into a sequinned
bikini!�

Filch in sequinned bikini? Harry burst into laugher.
He would have liked to see that! He was wiping away a tear which was running in
the corner of his left eye when he heard the intense wind again. He looked up
and met Goyle�s eyes. But once Malfoy�s bodyguard was far away, the wind had
stopped. Harry stayed still for a moment then shook his head and continued on
his way.

�Wow, she�s curvy. Shiiiiiiiitttt! No! Not here, not
now. I must hide that! Quickly, a book! Bloody hell, I hope she hasn't seen
anything. Blimey, I hate when its happens� that is to say every five minutes�
Shiiiiiiiiittt��

Harry smiled, understanding perfectly well the source
of the problem.

�Yeah! I�ve done it! I�ve kissed her ! Yeah!!!�

Harry�s mood suddenly darkened when he thought again
to his recent interview with Seamus.

�Oh Merlin! Will I manage one day to see him without
having an erection?! Little idiotic, stupid Gryffindor��

At these thoughts, Harry froze.

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�� Oh Dear Merlin, he�s so cute like that! Blimey, why
does the school demand from the pupils to wear those large robes? They're too
big, not comfortable at all. It would be better if the clothes were tighter�
much, much tighter� oh, if he�d come in my classroom naked� Oh yes, it would be
great. Of course, I wouldn�t be able to teach but we would go in my bedroom and
there, I would teach him other things� Such a talented apprentice� mmmm�
Severus! Pull yourself together! Pull yourself together! It�s Potter The Grand!
Son of the most arrogant and stupid� but he�s so sexy, look� No! No! No and No!
You have to pull yourself together Severus. Scream at him, give him a
detention, act as usual.�

�POTTER!�

�Yes, it�s exactly like that.�

�What are you doing here? Up to mischief again? A bad
prank?�

�Like a nasty little boy who deserves punishment like
a good spanking� Severus!�

�No, I was going to the library Professor.�

�Aaahhh you confess Potter!�

�But what are you saying Severus! He drives you so
crazy in desire that you talk nonsense!�

text-autospace:none'>�Why are you going to the library Potter?�

Harry was staring at Snape with wide-opened eyes.

�Oh for Merlin�s sake Severus, shut up!� the man said
to himself. �He can go to the library if he likes� How can I make up for it
now?� er� a detention? No! Insults? Insults!'

�Yes Potter, you heard me perfectly well: why do you
go there? Judging by your grades, we can wonder if you even really know how to
read!� smirked Snape.

�Oh, he�ll pay that!� said Harry to himself with
anticipation and anger.

The young man looked straight at his teacher and was
about to throw a sharp remark when, suddenly and somehow, he confessed �I�ve
kissed Seamus.�

TBC

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A/N : I
know that�s an evil cliffhanger and I�m sorry for that. I know the frustration
of a reader so I�ll try to translate very quickly.

The next chapter
: Title : Always thinking before speaking.

Severus will realize that Harry is gay� he�ll act in
consequence�
- 6
- 7
- 8
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