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Living	By : ssdawn Category: Harry Potter > Het - Male/Female > Snape/Hermione Views: 31347 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Sorry that this is a shorter chapter, but I wanted to get something out there to you. This will also lead the way into bigger problems that Severus and Hermione will encounter.

Living: Chapter 7
Hermione ran and ran, not aware of where she was going. All she knew was that she had to get away from, Harry, Draco, Hogwarts and especially him…Severus Snape. Gods the humiliation! She still could not believe what he had done to her during potions class. She would never forgive him! She had experienced degradation in her life being a muggle in the wizarding world. Nothing could have prepared her for the complete mortification that she felt now.
She ran down the hill and towards the lake. The tears streamed down her face, as she remembered the feeling of Severus thrusting into her backside. The look of utter horror on Harry's face, as he watched what happened was awful.
Having Draco Malfoy mimic fucking motions with his hands was abominable. Draco made her skin crawl, especially for one main reason. Draco and his goons during sixth year one night had cornered her in the dungeons, while she was doing rounds. Draco had pinned her to the wall with his body. He had lifted her skirt up, as his two goons drooled and watched.
"You know what you need Granger? You need a good fuck!" He had started thrusting against her as he licked the side of her neck. Goyle had grabbed her wand and along with Crabbe, they had helped hold her against the wall. Draco has pulled her knickers down and started running his hands over her mound. As he was undoing his trousers they heard someone coming down the corridor. They quickly let Hermione go and ran away as Professor Snape came billowing around the corner. Hermione stood there, disheveled and terrified.
"Ms. Granger, is there a problem? Shouldn't you be done with rounds by now?" Snape was curt and to the point. His eyes traveled up and down her figure. He had a puzzled look on his face as he stared at her hair.
"Yes, Professor, I was just waylaid for a moment. I will be heading back to Gryffindor tower right away." Hermione's voice trembled as she leaned against the wall. Snape had given her a smug look of disgust and reprimanded her one more time for being slow in getting her rounds done. As soon as Professor Snape had walked away, Hermione was able to part her robes and pull her knickers up, which had been resting at her knees. Hermione had been sure that her knickers were going to fall around her ankles with Professor Snape standing there.
Yes, Hermione had good reason to hate Draco Malfoy, even three years later.
Now she knew she had one more reason to hate someone. Hermione ran to the far side of the lake and dropped down onto her knees. She bent over to the ground, covering her eyes, "Why does it always have to be this way? Gods I hate my life!" Her screams echoed across the lake and the open field. She rocked back and forth, letting the sobs escape her body.

Severus ran out of Hogwarts looking around for Hermione. He had a feeling that she had left the castle and who knows where she would go from there. Looking out he glimpsed her running towards the lake. He followed behind seeing her drop to her knees and rocking back and forth. His heart ached as he heard her scream about hating her life. Severus had not always felt remorse in his life for what he had done. He now stood there, fists clenched, hesitating, trying to decide what he should do. He let his deep feelings inside move him. He walked up behind Hermione and dropped next to her and encircled her in his arms. She stiffened as she felt him hold her next to him.
"Shhh…you are safe. " He held her against his strong chest and rocked her in his arms. "I am …sorry Hermione. If I could take it back I would." Severus felt his chest tighten with shame and grief. "I didn't mean to hurt you." He brushed her hair back from her face while kissing the side of her neck. Severus felt Hermione relax in his arms, her head dropping back against his chest.
"Please tell me that this is not part of your games. I don't think that I could bear it if you were just playing with me now." Hermione turned in his arms and looked up at him with her teary, amber eyes. There was a mix of weariness and hope there also.
His large hands cupped her face, "The games are over Hermione." His eyes focusing on hers. "What I mean ... this is real. It is so hard for me to…give my heart away to anyone."
It was so hard to try and explain to Hermione how he had only been in love once with Lily, Harry's Mum. After she had rejected him, his heart broke and he turned away from love and caring about others. It seemed easier that way, to stay cold and aloof. It had become effortless for him, the past twenty years, to be a heartless, Death-Eater bastard. The only demands on him had been from Dumbledore on the Light side and Voldemort on the dark side. He always knew what was expected of him from both heartless and selfish men. He had to do a job and as long as he did his job, he stayed alive. This was new territory for him, the true game of love. He was not comfortable sharing his feelings or showing his tender side. He knew now though, after what happened in class, that he had to break down his own walls and confess to Hermione how he really felt.
"I need to tell you something," Severus brushed her tears away with his thumbs. He could feel her total sense of trust which she now displayed in him while she listened. "Everything that has happened the past several days should not have happened." Bollocks he was messing this up! Why couldn't he just spit it out how he was feeling? It was easier being rude and heartless.

Hermione could not believe that she was hearing these words coming from Severus Snape's mouth. He was sorry and didn't want to play any more games? He was scared about giving his heart away? Was he saying what she had waited so long to hear from him? There were so many questions rumbling around in her mind. She could see, that he was having a terrible time, speaking the words she hoped to hear from him. Though, when she looked into his eyes, she could see the sincerity lying there.
Hermione did feel safe with him now. This was the man that she knew Severus Snape could be. She was slowly tearing down the walls that had enclosed his heart for so many years. She knew that she could not rush him, but she was so anxious to hear what he had to say.
In a soft voice she spoke, "I forgive you Severus". He looked at her like he didn't believe what she had just said. "Did you hear me? I said that I forgive you." She smiled up at him through her tears. He almost looked frightened by her pronouncement of forgiveness. He pulled her closer and hugged her to his chest. Hermione could feel his heart beating wildly. She wound her arms around his neck and looked up into his eyes.

The words "I forgive you" shook Severus to his core. After everything that had happened the past week, let alone the past several years, and she had forgiven him. He was amazed at this woman! He knew that he didn't deserve someone like her; so beautiful, bright and caring. She had so kindheartedly taken care of him after Nagini's attack. He did not feel worthy of her kindness or her love. The battle continued inside of him. Then she wound her arms around his neck. She looked up at him…waiting, trusting. Should he go ahead with what he was feeling? Was he ready to give a part of himself away as he had never done before? He threw caution to the wind and bent down and kissed her lips, softly. He felt like he was melting into her. Now this was true magic; holding Hermione and kissing her and she kissing him back with as much fervor. He felt like the outside world was gone, and he wanted to keep feeling the warmth of their lips meeting again and again. They broke away from the kiss and Severus was almost afraid to look into Hermione's eyes. He was relieved to not see revulsion, but something else.

"I have imagined that moment so many times. " Hermione's arms were still draped around his neck. "I would like to experience it one more time…please?" Severus smiled down at Hermione and complied. Without a word his lips met hers once again. Hermione loved to feel him pressed up against her. She felt the tingles spread throughout her body as his arms held her so close to him. This felt so good, so right; the taste of his mouth, the smell of sandalwood soap and the hardness of his chest. For just a moment she believed that this would turn out happy for both of them.
"Severus, what changed your mind? " Hermione's eyes focused on his face and her smiled disappeared. "I mean, one minute you are mocking me in front of the class and the next you are chasing me and begging for my forgiveness." Hermione knew that she needed to hear the truth from him, in order to fully trust that no more games would be played. Severus no longer met her eyes and he bowed his head.
"I was ashamed of my actions. " He turned around and started to walk away. Hermione reached out to grab his arms. Swinging around, his face was colored with rage, "As a Death Eater, all of the horrendous things I did were for a good cause, according to Professor Dumbledore! I had no choice whether or not I attacked innocent Muggles or killed off fellow Death Eaters. When Voldemort gave a command you followed without questions! "
Hermione carefully touched his arm again, "But you are not that person anymore! You have paid a high price for your sins." She tried so hard to keep her tears at bay. "It is time to forgive yourself and move on. That part of your life is over now. You are free to be happy Severus." He stood there now with no more anger. Hermione could see how his heavy load was still standing between them. "You are a good man. You are the kind of man that I have always wanted." A sour expression crossed his face as his eyes scrunched up. Hermione had seen this look often in class when someone asked a stupid question. He almost looked like he was in pain when he did that. She tried not to giggle, because Harry and Ron had made fun of him when he had done this. Many points had been lost from Gryffindor through the years because of this same expression.

Severus noticed that Hermione was stifling laughter. "What did I do? Why are you laughing at me?" He had never liked to be the butt of anyone's joke. With his feelings lying out there for her to see, this was not the kind of reaction that he had been expecting.
Hermione could not hold it in any longer. A huge laugh bellowed out and Severus glared at her. "You made a face like you often do in class."
"Why is that funny?" Hermione could see that she was starting to irk him. "I often make a face when I hear something outlandish from a dunderhead."
The minute the words slipped out of his mouth, Severus Snape knew that he was in trouble. Hermione's eyebrows shot up and her lips pursed in an unpleasant scowl. Bloody Hell why did he say that? What could he say now?

Yes, this is where we are going to leave our two lovebirds. It will be fun to see how Severus digs himself out of another hole. Thanks for reading and be sure to review.*****Thanks Kazzi for your wonderful and insightful review from the last chapter. I valued it greatly.*****
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