Adult-FanFiction.org : Harry Potter

Reflections of Desire	By : tbird1965 Category: Harry Potter > Het - Male/Female > Snape/Hermione Views: 20754 -:- Recommendations : 2 -:- Currently Reading : 5
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Chapter List
- 1-Reflections of Desire.
- 2-Two
- 3-Chapter 3
- 4-Four
- 5-Five
- 6-Six
- 7-seven
- 8-eight
- 9-Nine
- 10-Ten
- 11-eleven
- 12-twelve
- 13-Thirteen
- 14-Fourteen
- 15-Fifteen
- 16-Sixteen
- 17-seventeen
- 18-Eighteen
- 19-Nineteen
- 6
- 7
- 8
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. The moment had arrived. He had to tell her that he wanted to remain a part of his daughter's life. He wanted her to agree, but he was willing to fight for it if she didn't. "Is there more wine?" He asked, holding up his empty glass.
"Yes." She nodded, starting to rise. "In the kitchen."
He waved her back down. "I'll get it." Holding out his hand, he took her empty glass and headed towards the kitchen. He knew he was stalling. Pouring out two glasses, he returned to the living room and handed her a glass, before returning to his seat on the sofa. "Minerva has offered me my old position at Hogwart's."
"And what did you tell her?"
"I haven't told her anything yet." He took a drink of wine. "I asked for a day or two to think about it, but I believe my answer will be 'yes'."
"Why?"
"If I'm going to remain in England, it would be nice to have some sort of gainful employment."
"So your plan is to remain in England?"
"Well I think that should be obvious." He snapped, growing irritated at her seemingly obtuse questions.
"It is obvious. Professor...Severus. But I want to hear you say it. Why do you want to stay in England? Why do you want to teach again?"
"Because I have a daughter, dammit." He snapped, his voice rising angrily. Taking a deep breath, he struggled to remain calm. "Because I've already missed so much of her life and I don't want to miss any more. Do you not wish for me to be a part of her life?"
"No. It's not that." She shook her head. "It's just...this morning you didn't even know you had a daughter and now you are willing to uproot yourself and change your entire life for her. I don't want you to do something rash, something you'll regret later. Before today did you even want children? Did you want to be a father?"
"No, but..."
"There's no 'but' Severus." She sighed heavily. "I'm not trying to be harsh with you. I just want you to be very, very sure about the decision you're making. No, hear me out." She held up her hand, cutting him off when he began to speak. "My first and only priority is to that little girl and I won't have her hurt or disappointed if this doesn't work out the way you thought it would. This isn't like having a baby and watching her grow and learn and develop her personality. She's already her own person, with her own thoughts and ideas and opinions. And while she's smart and sweet and kind, she's also a bit spoiled, stubborn and she has a horrible temper. Are you ready for all of that?"
"I...I don't know." He frowned. "I only know I have to try. I have to be a part of her life."
"Why?"
"Why? Because I can see myself in her. And...just now, when she hugged me..." He took a gulp of wine. "I am not accustomed to discussing my emotions or talking about my feelings." He said gruffly, staring into his half full glass.
"Well if you want to be a father, you'll need to get accustomed to it. She'll expect it. Consider this practice. Tell me how you're feeling."
He glared at her and took another deep breath. "Just now, when she hugged me, I felt something I've never experienced before. I guess it's love. But to be perfectly honest I'm not sure. I have limited experience with that particular emotion. I only know that I would die for her, kill for her, do anything I can for her. I do not know how to be a father. My own relationship with my father, with both my parents actually, was not a good one. I cannot say with any degree of certainty that they ever really loved me. I certainly did not feel loved. I will strive to be different. That is all I can do. I cannot promise you I will not make mistakes, I can only promise to do my best, and that I will...love her." He paused, clearing his throat. "But I can promise you this, I will never leave or abandon her."
"Well that's certainly one thing that's not in question," she smiled gently at him, "you're ability to keep a promise. If nothing else, you are certainly loyal. I just never thought you liked children."
"I don't. Anymore then I like people in general. But I can become very fond of certain individuals. I quite enjoyed Draco when he was a child. Please do not judge me based on my behavior during your Hogwart's tenure. As you well know there were extenuating circumstances that dictated how I could and could not act. I was also under an enormous amount of stress and as a result, I was a very unhappy man. Make no mistake, I will always be a strict disciplinary in my classroom. The subject matter I teach demands it, but there were times, with you in particular, that I wished I could have encouraged you more. I think the grades I issued you reflected my true feelings regarding your performance." He glanced up at her quickly, before gazing back down at his wine. "You do not know me Ms. Granger...Hermione. Please do not judge me on the man I was, I can only ask that you get to know the man I am now."
"You do seem different." She looked up him, letting her eyes roam over his seated form. "You look healthier, you've filled out quite a bit."
"Are you saying I'm fat?"
"No. I'm saying you were far too thin before. I would never call you fat." She sputtered, glancing up to catch the glint in his eyes and the small smile that curled up the corners of his lips. "You're teasing me. I'm just saying you look good. Whatever you've been doing it suits you."
"Yes, well it's amazing what escaping from two crazed megalomaniacs can do for both your appetite and your disposition."
"I can only imagine." Hermione said, raising her hand and covering a yawn. "Oh excuse me, I'm sorry."
"No." He said, glancing down at his watch. "It is I who should be sorry, I had no idea it was so late. I should be going."
"Where are you staying?"
"Hmm." He frowned. "In all the excitement I did not make arrangements for anywhere to stay. I'll just go to Diagon Alley and see if I can get a room at the Leaky Cauldron."
"Don't be silly. You can stay here tonight. The couch isn't much, but it's comfortable. And that way you can see Sabrina first thing in the morning."
"I wouldn't want to impose."
"It's no imposition at all. Besides if you went to the Leaky Cauldron now, you'd scare everyone to death. You're still dead you know."
"That's right." He smirked, rubbing his index finger across his lips. "I suppose I'll have to go to the Ministry and take care of that tomorrow. The resurrection of Severus Snape, so to speak."
"That's going to set a few heads spinning." Hermione laughed, rising from the sofa. "Let me just get you some blankets and a pillow."
"If you're sure you don't mind."
"Don't be silly. Sabrina will be thrilled to see that you're still here." She said, returning from the hallway. "Here you go." She handed him the bedding.
"Thank you Ms. Granger."
"Oh no." She said, interrupting him. "No more of this Ms. Granger, Professor Snape nonsense. We have a child together. I'm Hermione, you're Severus. Deal?"
"Deal." He smiled. "Sleep well Hermione."
"You too, Severus. I'll see you in the morning."
- 6
- 7
- 8
You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.
Report Story

Reflections of Desire