Line Between Nightmare and Dream

“I saw him everywhere I looked!” Hermione complained in a high pitch voice

“Slow down lets start from the beginning” Phan said

“Ok so I saw him when I was buying my dress” Hermione explained

“He was actually there though right?” Phan asked

“Yeah he was there, well at least the clerk saw him too, so I assume he was there. I don’t know… it felt like I was standing in front of him forever, and he wouldn’t stop looking at me” Hermione went on

“You said yourself the dress was beautiful what you expect a man to do” Phan pried

“No…it wasn’t the dress” Hermione mumbled “Then again maybe it was”

“Let’s say it was the dress. What happened after that?” Phan pushed her forward

“I went home..and….er…got ready for the evening” Hermione turned red remembering what she really did after that

Phan smiled behind her scroll and nodded for Hermione to continue

“The night was going really well. I was social and enjoying myself a lot, then I saw him in the bar, or at least I thought I did when I looked back he was gone” Hermione explained

“Maybe he was there and just left” Phan questioned

“No he was gone way too fast to have actually been there, plus I thought I saw him again at another bar later that night and he disappeared again” Hermione wasn’t doing a good job of keeping the hysteria out of her voice

“Ok but you haven’t had a dream in four days now so maybe this is just another manifestation. These events may take on new forms as we work through them” Phan explained

“Um …well… three days. I was good for three days but last night I…had another dream” Hermione pulled a scroll out from her purse and handed it to Professor Phan

Phan opened the parchment and began reading:

First dream in three days (after seeing Lucius in town and … at the bar)
I was in the hall outside the main library. I felt a need to go into the library but it wasn’t my normal need, the books weren’t the ones calling me, he was. I could hear him breathing inside slow steady breaths like someone half asleep. I figured he was reading and I was debating disturbing him.

“You do very little good standing out there” He grumbled but I could hear the smile in his voice

I walked into the room and he had a stack of books next to him as tall as the chair arm. He was reading a rather slim book and as I got closer I noticed there were more pictures than words.

“Interesting book here” He smiled at me “It’s about the dark arts of SEX”

I tried to stop my body from reacting but it was worthless. I drew in a quick breath as he showed me a picture of a woman with her back arched in an upside down ‘U’ and a look on her face that was either extreme pleasure or excruciating pain.

“It’s called the Ekstaza, a dark wizard discovered it in 1659 but it was lost for centuries. It makes a woman feel immense pleasure from head to toe” Lucius explained and took a few steps towards me. I nodded back trying to control my responses

“Would you mind if I gave it a shot” Lucius smirked and traced his wand down my jaw

My pulse gave me away as it began to race and sweat beaded on my forehead. He leaned in to kiss the line he was drawing with his wand and whispered in my ear.

“The book says it’s very enjoyable” Lucius hissed in my hear

“Lets not try new spells on me ok?” My voice was no where near steady and I leaned into his touch totally negating what I just said to him

“I won’t hurt you” Lucius sounded cautious, and like he was trying to reassure me of something far more important than the Ekstaza spell

“I know you wouldn’t mean it but new spells are dangerous, especially ones from ancient dark wizards” I smiled up at him with my eyes I wanted him to feel comfortable with me.

“Would you rather I find another witch to practice on?” Lucius asked

My heart sank into my stomach. “NO!” I barely was able to control the scream. The idea of him…with…I couldn’t even think about it.

“Well then how am I going to learn?” Lucius was holding my waist in one hand and cradling my chin in his other. His face was so near to me that I wished he would stop talking and kiss me.

I closed my eyes to stop having to think about what he was asking me. I envisioned his mouth falling on mine and the soft caress of his lips. I could feel his breath in front of me and I opened my mouth to taste him. But as I did the word “Okay” escaped me.

I was too far into my fantasy to take it back. He let the hand with his wand fall from my face. He put his left hand firmly on my back and pressed his cheek to mine. I felt the rush of wind on my neck before I heard the word, but soon after his perfect Latin accent and the word EKSTAZA washed over me.

All over me. At first it was just a soft tingle but as I opened my mind to the sensation I felt it build. Like a buzz it started in my head but quickly spread to my breasts and stomach then down between my thighs to my legs.

I was aware that my knees had given out and Lucius had caught me and that he made some sort of worried comment to me but I was too far gone. The swirl worked its way from my toes making small circles to the base of my spine then to my shoulders. My nipples became so erect I was uncomfortable in my bra then a straight shot ran to my clit.

I squirmed in Lucius’ arms and stretched my body out as long as I could make myself. The sensation was like a vibrator in that only something mechanical could make the movements it was making. But it was far deeper than a vibrator could ever go it was as if every nerve was being triggered at the exact moment it needed to be to make me go insane with pleasure. I felt my mouth open and a yell ripped from my lips but it sounded miles away. I felt miles away from the room that scream was coming from.

I wish I could describe the orgasm that followed but the only thing I can think of is full. Not just a clitoral orgasm but a full body orgasm.

The scroll ended there and Phan took a long sip from her water.

“Where did you learn the word Ekstaza?” Phan asked

“Read it somewhere I suppose” Hermione said gazing through her glass of water

“Well your dreams have one unusual consistency; they never have anything to do with your actual past with Lucius. Other than the setting and the man these could be normal fantasy dreams” Phan explained

“Except that I do have a history with this man and that history should mean that I hate that man!!” Hermione broke out of her daze. She hated when Phan tried to make these dreams sound perfectly normal.

“He is never threatening in the dream though, on the contrary he always asks permission” Phan said

“He never raped me. He was…physical, punches and pushing. He would make me lay naked in bed with him at night but he never crossed the line to rape” Hermione said in a small voice

“Go on” Phan knew they had made a break through. Any attempt to ask questions about her actual past with Lucius this far lead to short quick answers. She switched to short hand so she didn’t miss anything.

“He was…nicer…than the other death eaters. It seemed like it was more of a show than actual cruelty. I think I had to sleep with him in case anyone barged in, they would assume he had raped me earlier” Hermione thought

Phan made an encouraging grunt

“I don’t know it was complicated” Hermione finished and she went back into her closed off tone

“Well maybe these complications are what trigger you. When you try to sort them out you fall back on a less complicated explanation… for example that he had feelings for you and that’s why he treated you nicer than others” Phan ventured

“That could be but I never got the feeling he even remotely liked me. I knew he despised me, he just didn’t translate that into physical hatred as much” Hermione said

“Why” Phan prodded

“I don’t know. It’s complicated!” Hermione said

“Maybe we should try to get his side of the story” Phan ventured

“How!” Hermione sounded terrified

“Well he isn’t avoiding you, he could have easily walked out of that store, so maybe you should try talking with him again” Phan suggested

Hermione thought about it for a second. The idea of seeing Lucius again made her heart leap but then sink into her gut. What would she say? What could she say? Would he kick her out again? Millions of questions swam in her mind but one caught her dead in her tracks. What if this was the only way to get rid of the dreams?

“What do you suggest I do?” Hermione said giving into Phan’s expertise

Phan explained and tried to reassure Hermione. She told her she could call her at any point in the day if she needed to talk. She figured Hermione would either need to be talked into this later or talked down from it after.

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Ekstaza was taken from a Serbian (Latin) translation of ecstasy


Jamie~ I’m so glad you found my story I’m sure it was buried in the masses when you found it

Snapes_Goddess~ I am blown away that you like this story. I love your work so much I was a little star struck that you read mine

Heidi191976~ Thanks for sticking with me on this one

Magalena~ You found the story at a good time I plan on making my weekend a Lucius bananza!

Mariteri~yeah I thought it would be a good hint at his feels for her if he was in a same sort of predicament

Voracious Reader~ I’m glad you’re enjoying it. Hold off on your ratings just yet it will get a lot more descriptive