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Take Me To Your Arms	By : nekofreakz Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Snape Views: 6661 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Chapter 7

Severus’s POV

For Severus, love always felt painful. Lily was his first and only love. She was the one that had led him out of his cold and dark world. She showed him a world that was full of kindness, warmth, and light. A world that was truly different from his world. There was nothing he wished more than to be a part of that world.

Severus was never welcomed there—the darkness that once was a part of him wouldn’t let him. As such, she gave up on him, leaving him in the shadows. Because once that he had tasted the light, he couldn’t come back to the darkness.

However, he never blamed her for leaving him. It was his fault that it had happened. She was too perfect to be his. So he tried to change himself to be a man that would suit her. But the more he changed, the more she slipped away like the sand through his fingers.

But Severus never gave up. He believed she would love him back someday. Until that happened, the day Lily died. That was when the illusion had finally shattered into dust. All this time, his love for Lily was the only thing that had kept him going. So when Dumbledore manipulated his love and regret into protecting Potter, he had accepted the role of guardian without much protest. If he looked deeper, he realized that the old wizard had saved him by giving him another reason to continue living.

At first, Potter’s presence was merely a shard of light. A chance so he could redeem his sin. It was nothing like the warm light that Lily had brought into his life. But as time passed on, Potter had become blindingly bright. If Lily was a moon, Potter was like a sun in the darkness. It exposed the dark and hideous part of him till he was bare. Yet, he couldn’t help himself to gravitate toward it.

And when Severus was thought everything was finally going to end as he lied dying on the Shrieking Shack, Potter saved him. He woke up in the hospital wing as a free man, being pardoned for all his wrongdoings. He didn’t even know what to do with his life. All this time he had been living for someone else’s sake.

Therefore, when Potter had chosen him as his advisor, he had accepted it. And all the works at Hogwarts and the Ministry had kept him busy so he wasn’t given time to think and feel. Yet even that had changed. Suddenly Potter had acted strange; he had rejected Severus. To his surprise, Severus felt hurt by his rejection. When the young man had run away, Severus felt lost. He felt like he was being thrown away.

Severus was angry at himself for feeling that way and to Harry Potter for making him feel that way. He had come to lash out at the young man, only to find out madness. The young man had said that he loved him. The love that he had desired for so long was given by Potter. Now he was going to hurt the young man and probably make him run again if he said the wrong answer.

No one had ever said that they love me before, not my mother, not my father, not even Lily, Severus thought, As mad as the situation is, I don’t want to lose him. I can’t bear losing him!

“Kiss me,” he said curtly to the young man.

Potter snapped his head up so fast that Severus thought the young man might get hurt. Potter looked bewildered by his request and his green eyes were as wide as saucers.

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

WHAT?! Harry couldn’t help himself from gawking at him.

He was completely baffled. Did he just say that?! What did I miss?! Had he not just pushed me away before?

However, Severus seemed to lose his patience. The man pulled him into his arms then mashed both of their lips together. Harry froze. His heart was banging strongly against his ribcage, so loud that he could hear the sound in his ears. He was afraid to breath. Actually, he was afraid to do anything.

Then Harry felt Severus’s soft and warm lips move gently over his. He stiffened and started to count inwardly when the man would pull away. He hoped it would be like thunder. If you expected it to strike then you wouldn’t be so surprised later. He just wished it wouldn’t be so painful when it ended.

XxXxX

Severus’s POV

To say that Severus was annoyed was an understatement. He was itching to hex Potter for looking like a frightened deer that would jump and disappear. He almost snorted. He should have known better than to believe that Potter really had feelings for him.

Truthfully what bloody annoyed him was the way Potter act. He knew that he wasn’t that attractive but Potter was the first person that despised his kiss so much. It wounded his ego. Oh yes, he’s going to pay for this!

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

Harry was forced to let out a breath since Severus still hadn’t let him go. But it had been one minute. Severus would have to stop anytime now, right?

So he almost jumped when he felt Severus’s hand on his neck. Those fingers moved slowly in a circle, stroking the spot below his ear. His eyes reflexively fell shut. It felt so good to be caressed like that. Not to mention that Severus had deepened the kiss and now nibbled on his lower lip.

Harry wrapped his arms timidly around Severus. It felt amazing to have the man kiss him willingly. He moaned silently into the kiss. And Severus took this chance to plunge his tongue into his mouth. The sheer perverseness of that act made him weak in the knees. He had to grab on the man’s clothes to keep him from falling down.

It was only in his wildest dream Severus would kissed him like this. Now that it had become real, he couldn’t help himself from responding eagerly, entwining his tongue with Severus’s. Severus mapped his palate, stroking it with his tongue, leaving fire behind. When Severus sucked on his tongue, Harry finally lost control. He groaned low, grabbed the back of Severus’s head then plunged his tongue into Severus’s mouth, stroking, tasting.

His desire urged him to do more while his conscience shouted at him to stop. It took a lot of effort to push himself away from Severus. He might as well have split himself into two. But as he looked at the man who was breathing as heavily as he was, he knew it was the right decision.

The pain, as expected, doubled. Other than that, it was also surprisingly easy to regain self control after he completely let it go, to reset it all and set his priority straight because, for him, it was always Severus’s welfare that mattered the most.

Though, that doesn’t mean I won’t regret my decision, Harry sighed.

Harry stared at the floor. He didn’t know why Severus would do this. But it was time to end this and if he was lucky, he could pass it off as a laugh. He was about to say something when Severus yanked him closer. He had to bite off a moan when his arousal was pressing directly onto the man’s thigh. He went pale and hastily tried to get away. There was no way Severus wouldn’t notice it!

But his struggling ceased when Severus moaned low. Then he realized something hard pressed onto his stomach and he was sure as hell that it wasn’t a wand. His throat went dry as peered at Severus. The man’s usual pale face was tinted red and his hair was messed up. To sum it up, one could say that Severus was delectable enough to eat. Harry was afraid he might jump on him right there.

Bloody fucking hell! I’m in a deep trouble! He thought in panic. I should ask him to knock me out now!

“Sev—,”said Harry.

But Severus interrupted him, “I desire you enough to accept your feeling.”

“Huh?!” He gawked at Severus.

Of all lines, he would never imagine to hear that one. What did Severus mean by that? Did he-?

XxXxX

Severus’s POV

Severus saw a gleam of hope dawn on those green eyes as Potter understood what he had told him before.

“Really?” asked Potter with irresistible puppy eyes.

Severus snorted. He wasn’t going to be swayed by those eyes.

“I won’t repeat it, Potter,” said Severus in a tone that said take it or leave it.

Truthfully, despite of his indifferent façade, Severus was surprised that Potter could rouse his desire. Nor had he planned for the kiss to be so out of control. He had planned to let Potter down, indirectly refusing him by proving that he didn’t feel anything for the young man after he kissed him. Yet, it was clear that it totally went to the drain.

Severus observed as Potter made a pensive expression. He should have known that Potter would defy all odds. After all, the young man had been doing a good job at it even when he was a mere baby by surviving the Killing Curse. No matter what Dumbledore had said about Lily’s sacrifice for her son, Severus suspected Potter might have taken a part in the survival. After all, the Killing Curse wasn’t something that could be avoided that easily. He had seen many people die while protecting their beloved ones, yet no one ever survived, except for Potter.

For so many years, Severus had accepted the fact that he was an asexual being. It wasn’t like he had never had sex before—just that he didn’t enjoy it. In fact, he couldn’t remember the last time he had slept with someone was. He definitely never desired the same sex before. Now a mere young man left him wanting for more.

No, not just a mere young man. Only Potter would do such an unthinkable thing, like falling for his old Professor, he thought ruefully.

Severus was slightly lost in thought when Potter beamed at him. That bright smile threw Severus out of balance. His chest suddenly felt tight with emotions and it made him feel light-headed.

That smile should have come with a warning, he thought, annoyed.

“Sit down,” ordered Severus.

Potter walked to the bed and sat down obediently.

Who knew that you only had to kiss Potter to make him this obedient? Severus thought as he stored the knowledge for later use.

“Do you feel any pain?” asked Severus.

Severus raised an eyebrow when the young man shook his head. He found it hard to believe that Potter didn’t feel any pain with an active curse.

Severus snorted, “Repeat after me: I will go back to England with Severus Snape.”

The young man snapped out of his daze. “Does that mean that you will go out with me?”

Severus cringed inwardly. ‘Go out’ was one of his most hated words since it was sticking close to ‘Dating’ and ‘Lovey-dovey’. All those words in his mind vocabulary were puke- inducing. He never even dreamed one day that words would be used against him.

Better not strangle him now, he thought, disgruntled. I do want him to come back alive, don’t I?

“Yes,” Severus gritted his teeth. “Now get on with breaking the curse.”

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

Harry repeated the words happily after he heard the confirmation from Severus. Well, if happy could describe what he felt right now. Maybe he was already in La-la Land, finally snapped out of his mind. But it wasn’t so bad if that meant he was together with the person he loved the most.

“Did you hit your head when you fell?” asked Severus.

“Uh—no, I don’t think so,” answered Harry.

Severus raised an eyebrow at him. “Stay still.”

Harry wasn’t angry when Severus began to touch his head even though the action showed just how little the man trusted his words. The same slender fingers that he had desired before were touching him now.

When the man started moving his hand to press gently on his scalp, Harry had to bite back a moan. I’m in heaven! Please, don’t stop!

“Tell me if you feel any pain,” said Severus coolly.

But soon, Harry began to feel uncomfortable as Severus moved his hand lower to his neck then on to his shoulder. Not because he disliked Severus’s touch. It was more to the fact he was hard down there and there was possibility of coming in his pants, which would be very embarrassing no doubt.

But any thought of that was forgotten when he flinched, feeling a twinge of pain in his shoulder. Severus seemed to notice it too. The man pushed harder on that spot, making Harry grunt in pain.

“Take off your clothes,” ordered Severus.

Harry widened his eyes.

“I need to check how severe your bruise is,” explained Severus dryly. “Get your mind out of the gutter, Potter.”

XxXxX

Severus’s POV

Severus watched as Potter blushed brightly but the young man followed his order and took off his jacket and shirt, revealing a toned body beneath it. It was slightly tanned, most unusual for a British skin but giving off the sense of an active and healthy young man. Gone was the pale short twerp that he had seen standing nervously at the Sorting Ceremony at Hogwarts seven years ago.

Harry Potter had transformed into a fine young man since the last time Severus had seen him. As the young man grew up, it became clear that the Potter wasn’t his father’s perfect copy anymore. Unlike his father’s sturdy built, Potter had a lean body like his mother.

Potter was losing his baby fat too. His face became manly with long eyelashes to balance it. He also grew taller, although not as tall as Weasley. Right now, he had shot up to just below Severus’s ear and it looked like Potter still hadn’t reached his full height. He was going to grow some more.

However, the young man best features were his eyes. Now that it wasn’t being hidden behind ugly glasses, Severus could see why those girls in Hogwarts have developed an obsession over them. Overall, he was a good looking young man.

Enough to rival that Mutt at the time of his youth. Even Severus loathed Black. He wasn’t blind to the fact that all girls in the past were practically throwing themselves at Black’s feet.

That Weasley girl is an idiot to dump him, mused Severus.

Severus inspected Potter’s shoulder. There were nasty looking bruises from the right shoulder stretching to some parts of his back. It looked worse than he had predicted.

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

Harry blushed as he felt Severus’s stare on him. He was proud of his body. All that training he had for Quidditch and Special Force had kept him lean with muscles in the right place. The problem was he wasn’t sure Severus would appreciate the view. For all he knew, Severus only loved one person, his mother, who was a female.

Harry watched nervously as Severus took a black square from his jacket, which turned out to be a medium sized trunk after the man casted an enlarging spell on it. Severus waved his wand, unlocking the trunk. Then he pulled out a small container.

XxXxX

Severus’s POV

Severus uncapped the container then scooped out the salve with his fingers.

“Don’t move, Potter,” warned Severus.

Then Severus applied it directly to the bruises. He smeared it down evenly. Potter moaned low when he did that. Snape shivered when he heard it. Now after the kiss, even though he tried to deny it, he couldn’t see Potter just as a former student. He quickly put the rest of the salve on before it led them to another incident.

“Do you feel pain elsewhere?” asked Severus.

Potter looked at him, and blushed even redder. He muttered something under his breath.

Severus snapped out, “What?”

Potter shook his head and gave a little smile to Severus.

“I’m going to do it myself,” said Potter, embarrassed. “It is on my lower parts.”

“Believe me, you don’t want to do that,” continued Potter sheepishly.

XxXxX

After Potter had accepted the salve and went to the bathroom, Severus transformed the bed into a couch. Then he sat there contemplating. Potter could have anyone he wanted, be it woman or man. The young man was famous. There was no one in the whole wizarding world that didn’t know Harry Potter. As much as he hated to admit, Potter was also pleasing in manner and appearance. And as the heir of Potter and Black, the young man got enough money to lead a comfortable life even without to work.

While there was no reason to like an old Potion’s Master who was lacking beauty or charm, he didn’t have any idea why that young man loved him and by what had been happening, desired him as well. Not to mention he was twice the young man’s age.

Severus himself wasn’t sure what had possessed him to accept Potter. Although it was real that he desired Potter physically, which he didn’t even know till today, he still didn’t have any feeling toward him. And if Potter really did love him, it wouldn’t be enough for the young man. Besides, despite what Potter had said, no one could tell how long the young man’s feeling would last.

He is still young, someday he might fall for someone else, Severus thought somberly.

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

After finished applying the salve, Harry put on a white shirt and a brown sweater over it. He also wore the baggiest pants because he was still aroused beyond belief.

Well, who wouldn’t? After all, he had just shared a hot kiss with the person who occupied the largest part of his mind.

Even though he was practically on cloud nine, he was also confused. There were so many questions swirling in his head. All of these events felt like Christmas Miracle; he could imagine wishing innocently to Father Christmas. Dear Father, I’ve been good this year. May I ask for Severus Snape, please? Then again, he doubted that Father Christmas would ever dare to kidnap Severus and dropped him outside Harry’s apartment door.

Another option was that he might be dreaming or utterly mad; that was impossible because his shoulder and bum were throbbing painfully, reminding him that it was real. And he highly doubted that the man was only pulling a prank. Severus wouldn’t go that far just to make me suffer.

Harry sighed loudly. It wouldn’t change anything by staying in the bathroom. He summoned all his courage and walked out from the bathroom. He found the man was sitting in the same black couch like yesterday. However Severus didn’t read a book right now. He was staring at Harry intently.

“Err-- Thanks for the salve,” said Harry, feeling flustered under Severus’s gaze.

Severus accepted the salve back without uttering any word. The man was looking at him with unreadable gaze.

“What’s wrong?” he asked cautiously.

After a few moments, Severus crossed his arms and said quietly, “Why me, Potter?”

Harry was silent as he pondered over this question. Why Severus? It was the same question he had asked to himself so many times before. Why him? The man looked very male in every aspect while, in retrospect, Harry only fell in love with a female. Ginny and Cho were enough proof for that.

And while Severus didn’t hate him as much as he did in the past, the man wasn’t the most pleasant companion. Hell, if I ask any student in Hogwarts, I’ll get the same answer: Severus Snape is a git. The man was nasty enough to make first years burst in tears. Harry certainly wasn’t blind to Severus’s faults, being the butt of the man’s malicious demeanor for years.

Harry was also sure that he wasn’t masochistic enough to fall for the man because he loved being humiliated or emotionally abused. No, I actually hate it when he does that.

But if someone bothered enough to see past Severus’s spiteful shell, they would find a man that was precious enough to be treasured and loved. For Harry, his love for Severus wasn’t love at the first sight. It was a long process of understanding and knowing Severus.

At first, it was merely a sense of security. Harry realized after some time that the only reason that he was able to sleep in Severus’s bed was because he felt safe. Sure, Ron and Hermione would do anything for him but what he needed was someone that would be able to stop him.

He was already tainted by death and blood. It wasn’t surprising if one day he would be swallowed up by his own darkness. For being born, he had caused his parents to die. For surviving, he had caused Sirius and many others to die. The anger due to his misfortunes was always there, hidden just under the surface. It knew no enemy or friend, only sought to destroy everything on its path. But there was a reassurance that nothing would be destroyed because he believed Severus Snape would be there, strong enough to stop him before anything happened.

However, as he got closer to Severus, he began to see him not only as his last stronghold against darkness but also a friend, a very dear friend. His wicked sense of humor never failed to make him laugh. His quick wit amazed him. His loyalty and bravery were something that he admired. His quirks always amused him. Then before he realized, he started to treasure every single moment that he had spent with Severus. Slowly, it evolved into love until it reached to the point that he needed Severus like he needed air to breathe. Severus was simply irreplaceable so it was a necessity to protect and make him happy.

Harry couldn’t find a right way to express his feeling. He wanted Severus to understand but at the same time was afraid that he might drive the man away with the intensity of his feeling. So, he settled for simple words that were nothing compared to what he truly felt for the man.

“Because you are you,” said Harry earnestly.

Judging from the man expression, Harry knew Severus didn’t believe him.

He probably thinks that I’m lying, he sighed.

Severus narrowed his eyes at him, “Do you forget that you hated me before, Potter?”

No, I don’t. Harry slowly shook his head but didn’t offer any words to him.

“James Potter and Sirius Black would turn in their grave right now,” said Severus mockingly. “Imagine, their precious heir is falling for Snivellus!”

Harry said calmly, “I’m the one who is in love with you, not them. So why should it matter?”

The only thing that matters is your wish! Even if they won’t approve, there is no force in this world that can push me to let you go!

“And don’t--,” Harry frowned, disturbed that Severus referred to himself as ‘Snivellus’. “Don’t call yourself that!”

XxXxX

Severus’s POV

Severus didn’t know whether he should call Potter naïve or stupid. There would be a roar if public knew that Potter was going out with him. Not to mention that many people around Potter disliked him.

But Potter’s next words made him stunned. Potter sounded like he was really mad on Severus’s behalf. No one had cared about his welfare before and somehow it made him pleased. The corners of Severus’s mouth slightly curved upward.

“Fancy yourself to be a saint, Potter?” mocked Severus.

Potter spluttered, flushing red, “I’m not!”

Severus continued to taunt the young man, “Or maybe you’re just compelled to be a savior all the time?”

Potter glowered at him, “No, I don’t! You! You’re evil! I just-”

“Oh, now I’m evil? Have I deflated your ego, Potter?” said Severus dryly.

Potter narrowed his eyes accusingly, “You just love to make me suffer!”

“You should be thankful to have someone to keep you from growing an even more swollen-headed,” said Severus with a smirk.

Potter let out a loud frustrated growl. Then he threw up his hands to the air and slumped into the couch. For the first time in his life, Severus felt like he wanted to laugh loudly. The young man’s action was highly amusing.

XxXxX

Harry’s POV

Harry couldn’t believe that the man in front of him was the same man that had kissed him not so long ago. Severus was practically brimming with pleasure by seeing him suffer.

I always knew that he was a sadist! Does it mean that I’m a masochist? He moaned inwardly. Great! What a bloody unhealthy relationship!

Harry buried his head into the couch, frustrated. It was likely impossible to make Severus to behave like a lover in general. And I’m sure that he will curse me if I ask him that!

There was another problem too. Severus had said that he desired him. But desire didn’t mean love. It was likely that Severus still loved his mother. Harry shook his head hard. No, no! What the hell I’m worried about?! I’m the one that is with him right now, not my mother! What I have to do is take advantage of the opportunity as well as possible!

Harry lifted his head and looked at Severus with determination.

“Thank you for giving me a chance. I promise you won’t regret it,” he said with a bright smile.

Severus looked bewildered. It seemed that the man didn’t expect Harry would thank him. Harry grinned from ear to ear. There was only one word to describe it. Cute!

But he would never say it out loud, knowing it would make Severus mad at him. He really shouldn’t push his luck because by what had happened today, he probably had used up all the luck he had in his whole life.

End of Chapter 7

As you might have noticed, this fic is longer than usual. It’s a presents to you all. (A huge thanks to My Beta, Mirai Kurosaki for her fast work!!) I hope it won’t be too boring to read.. XDDD And Happy Christmas to you all! *hugs* As usual any review will be welcomed (very) warmly.. ^_^
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