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Anything For You	By : lexiatel Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Het - Male/Female Views: 7798 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: Harry Potter belongs to Jk Rowling, I do not make any profit in writing this story what so ever, I am just having some fun.

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Chapter 8
Severus stopped at Harry's bedroom on his way up to the bathroom. Her voice still made his insides leap and his pulse pump wildly. It was a miracle... Lily was back. Sent from the past, according to Potter's letter to her. She was here to take care of Harry. It was also implied that she liked him more than a friend. But how much more? Did she tell Potter that she loved him? And what if she didn't?
He frowned and leaned up against the door. Was she going to take Harry away from him? He had grown to love the boy in the past fifteen months, Severus wasn't sure what he would do if Harry wasn't in his life anymore.
"It's very impolite to eavesdrop." Remus whispered, stepping up to him.
"I thought you left?"
"I forgot my mug. Left it in Harry's room."
"He's reading to her." Severus informed.
"A Snitch Through Time?" Remus grinned.
"Harry knows no other book." Severus replied dryly.
"It should be fitting, given her recent time travel."
"I can't believe she's back..."
"You look worried though." Remus noted. "What's wrong? Shouldn't you be floating in the clouds right now?"
"I fear... she'll take Harry away."
"Raising a child on your own is extremely difficult, you know that."
Severus scoffed. "Lily could do it easily."
"Maybe she'll want support though, and she's already seen how you are with Harry. I think you're worrying over nothing."
The doorknob turned and Severus quickly removed himself from the door before Lily could open it.
"He's asleep." Lily informed quietly.
Remus accio'ed his mug. He looked between the two of them and gave a slight nod. "Good night, you two."
"Night Remus." Lily hugged the man and watched him descend down the stairs to go home. Lily smiled at Severus, and he hinted that there may had been a bit of shyness to it.
"Can we... talk?" He requested.
"We ought to. Do you have any tea?"
"Of course." He led the way down to the kitchen and set the kettle on the stove to heat the water.
"Thank you." She told him. "For taking care of Harry. He's such a charming little boy. It's a shame I missed so much of his youth..."
Severus glanced away when he saw her wipe a tear from her eye. "Lily... I couldn't let anything happen to him... but I'll be honest... I'd not have done it for any other child. Especially Potter's."
"Why did you do it then?" Although, he wasn't exactly looking at her, he knew her eyes were piercing him. He had always known each and every time she had looked at him. He never understood how he could feel them, but he did. Every time.
"One look was all it took."
"For what?"
He looked at his hands in his lap. "It's those bloody eyes." He whispered. "Just like the moment 18 years ago."
"What happened 18 years ago?"
He slowly met her eyes, gazing into them, grateful that she was there in his life again. It didn't matter how long for. The woman he loved was sitting across the table in front of him. She needed to know. Lily needed to know just how much he loved her.
Severus broke the eye contact.
He just couldn't say it.
He inwardly cursed himself for being a bloody coward. Why couldn't he just say it?! Why couldn't he tell his Lily Flower that he loved her more than life itself and would do absolutely anything for her?!
Because he was afraid... He was afraid she didn't share the same feelings, and he'd only look like a fool. Then what sort of friendship would they have?
But they didn't have a friendship... Lily broke that off in their 5th year...
Unless...
No, he couldn't get his hopes up. Just because some boyfriend of hers told her to forgive him, doesn't mean she would.
Oh, but how he'd do anything for her forgiveness. He never meant to hurt her. He had only been an idiot. A foolish adolescent who lashed out during a moment of incredible embarrassment.
Lily sighed. "I thought you wanted to talk..."
"Lily... I-"
-love you! Say it, man! His insides screamed.
Severus cleared his throat. "Um... Harry and I, we've gotten immensely close during the past year. And... well... I am not sure it would be good for him if he were... suddenly separated from the first person he considered his family."
Lily frowned in thought. "He's my son, Severus. He's going to live with me..."
"Then move in." He blurted before he gave it any thought. "I mean... Y-You can... mo-move in- if you want..."
"You'd do that for me?" She asked uncertainly.
Oh, if you'd only knew what I would do for you, Lily.
Severus nodded and got up to turn off the whistling tea kettle, serving them both a cup of tea.
"You know, it seemed to me that James was hinting around to something in his letter." Lily said and took a sip of her tea.
Severus busied himself by conjuring up a box of biscuits to dip into his tea. "What about?" He asked and shoved a full biscuit into his mouth.
"I think he wanted Harry to have both a mother and a father." Lily leaned over the table and snatched a treat from the box. She took a thoughtful nibble off it. "You read the letter, he was quite thankful that you are around for Harry."
Severus choked a little. He took a gulp of tea to wash his throat. She wasn't really saying what he thought she was, was she?
"So?" She asked, swirling the rest of her biscuit in her cup.
"Hmm?"
"Wouldn't you agree?"
"I..." Oh, Gods! What was she saying? What was she doing? She wasn't thinking clearly! She was only seventeen! He was almost thirty! And... there was no possible way she could love him. He was a greasy, slimy Slytherin git! The opposite of the man she had married.
Severus finished his tea with one last swallow. "I... need a shower." He rinsed his cup and placed it into the drainer. "Pick whichever free room you want." He told her.
He felt her eyes piercing his back. His heart ached, but there was no way he would force her into a relationship if her feelings didn't match his. No matter how much he wanted to hold her in his arms and never let her go.
* / *
"Are you going to marry my mum?" Harry asked Severus at breakfast that morning. Harry took a bite of his cereal, chewing it slowly, and looking at Severus for an answer.
Severus let out a nervous sound. He had tried to laugh, but it came out more as a cross between a gasp and a snort. "Why would you think that, Harry?"
"You love her, don't you?"
"How would you know anything about that?" Severus demanded.
Harry rolled his eyes. "Severus, your eyes get all googly when you look at my mum."
"Googly?" Severus drawled with slit eyes.
"Like Draco's dad when he looks at Draco's mum. Draco says his father is head over heels in love with his mother." Harry then grinned. "And they kiss a lot too. I've seen them do it."
Severus' mind wandered, thinking about Lily's lips and how they would feel pressed against his own. He shook his head to clear his perverted thoughts. He couldn't think about Lily that way... Not in front of the boy...
Harry was staring at him, the grin still presently displayed on his face. "Are you thinking about my Mum again?"
Severus stiffened. "You will say no more inappropriate things about your mother. Do you understand me?"
Harry looked confused. "How was that bad?"
Severus sighed and quartered an apple with just a tap of his wand. "Your mother doesn't like me in that way, and in order for two people to have a close relationship such as the one you have suggested, both parties must share the same feelings of each other."
"If I were my Mum, I'd marry you, Severus." Harry said. "You're the best man alive. And I love you." He got up to hug Severus.
Severus cleared his throat uneasily. "I love you too, Harry, you good boy." He pat the back of Harry's head. "Now go finish your breakfast."
Lily walked in a few minutes later, smelling clean from her shower. She smiled and greeted them cheerily, kissing the top of Harry's head. "How's my sweet boy this morning?"
"Good!" Harry answered with a bright smile.
Severus watched her dish a plate of breakfast and sit down at the table. She looked at him, making his stomach lurch up what little breakfast he had eaten.
"I hope you don't mind, I had to borrow some of your shampoo. I'll go shopping for my own in a bit. Professor Dumbledore sent me an owl this morning, giving me a key to..." she laughed a little, pausing to think of what she was about to say. "Well, to a Gringotts back account that James and I apparently shared during our marriage. It's just silly to think about it, you know?"
Severus gave a tiny nod, agreeing with her. But it was true. Potter had found a way to steal her heart away- somehow or another. It still confused him to this day. Thankfully, Potter had had enough sense (or a heart) to send her back before that all happened.
And if he could ever thank Potter for something, that would be it.
"I'll probably drop by my parents house too, they'll be happy to hear that I'm back."
Oh, Gods, how could he tell Lily about her parents...? Severus shifted in his seat uncomfortably. "Lily," he started slowly. "You... won't be able to do that..."
Lily frowned and wiped her lips with a napkin. "Why not?"
Severus set his fork down but didn't remove his hand from it. His fingers tapped nervously. He couldn't look at her. He wouldn't be able to stand to see the sadness in her eyes. Her beautiful eyes.
He sighed. "They are gone..."
"Are they dead?" She squeaked.
"Where it concerns you, they may as well be..."
"What's that supposed to mean?!" Lily demanded crossly.
Severus took a breath. "I had to do it Lil'... To protect them... They would have died if I didn't..."
"What'd you do?"
"In the dark days, they were targeted... And during the raid-" Severus glanced toward Harry who was listening closely. "Harry, go wash up, please."
Harry groaned, annoyed that he wouldn't be able to listen any further, but did as Severus said.
"I intercepted their fate and sent them away, wiping their memories and creating a new life for them. That way they wouldn't come back for you." He sighed.
"And... Tuney? What about her?"
"Pentunia was never targeted since you didn't communicate with her by that time, but I learned that you and your husband went to her house after your parents disappeared and put their lives under protection."
"Did you tell me what happened to them?"
"No... You refused talk to me and I couldn't jeopardize anymore lives anyway... I had to make you believe they had disappeared. In those days, you really didn't know who you could trust. There was so much side jumping, it was often aching to keep up with. It was one reason why Albus was the only one who knew I was a spy for him."
"You were a spy for Professor Dumbledore?" Lily was shocked.
"And also the Dark Lord..."
Her narrowed her eyes. "And just which side were you really on?"
Severus stood up and collected the empty plates from around the table with his wand, nonchalantly sending them to the sink. "Just yours, Lily."
"Just mine? So you were on Professor Dumbledore's side?"
The dishes started washing behind his back. He found something to gaze at so he wouldn't have to look at her questioning eyes. "I fought in the war for you."
"But you supported blood purity..." she said accusingly.
"I was fifteen, Lily." he sighed in defeat. "I didn't fit in anywhere, I only wanted a place to belong. Everyone was accusing me of training to be a Death Eater already, especially the Gryffindors." he gave her a pointed look. "Everyone thought that Slytherins were bad, and automatically would follow The Dark Lord. Most Slytherins most were pressured into it. And, I'll admit it, every muggle except you and your parents were awful to me all because I was a wizard or a nasty looking poor kid who didn't deserve to breathe the same air as them, so, yes, I kind of felt that the muggles deserved the same treatment. I was bitter when it came to muggles."
"That's really awful..." she whispered, horrified at his words.
"It's was simple truth, but it was also something I thought in the days of my childhood. I've learned a grand deal since then. And no matter if your a muggle, wizard, or mixed, no matter how awful you are, no one deserves to be ripped apart from the inside out, all the while, screaming for your dear life..."
Lily shuddered.
"Something I was forced to watch... over... and over..." Severus told her blankly, casting his Occulmency spell to hide his traumatic expression from her.
"You didn't do any of it though?" She asked worriedly. "Did you hurt anyone?"
"I was useful in different ways. The Dark Lord discovered early on that I wasn't as dark as the spells I was creating. I was too much of a coward to cast the curses. I am clean though... at least when it comes to intentional destruction, but it doesn't mean that no lives were lost from my actions. I put your family in danger, without even realizing it, and it is something I have regretted since. When you died, I about killed myself. I was drowning in so much guilt that I just couldn't take it. It wasd the worst pain I have ever had to endear, which is saying something."
"What stopped you from doing it?"
Severus shifted his eyes from the wall he had been staring at to look at her. She was listening, trying to get a feel on what he was thinking. To understand him Caring, yet, not quite trusting.
"Dumbledore explained to me that while The Dark Lord had fallen, his true supporters would be searching to kill his successor in pure down and out revenge. This successor was your son..." he closed his eyes, groaning. "That bloody old man...He literally handed me your baby to hold... 'Look, Severus. Look at him' he said to me. 'Lily lives in that boy you hold there.'" Severus sniffed. "It was true. One single look into his wide, baby green eyes was all it took." He said with a cracking voice. "Then, he said, 'Lily would disapprove of it, my boy. You are so much stronger than that.'"
Lily dabbed her eyes with a napkin. "So there are still Death Eaters roaming about?"
"Most have been caught, yes, but Harry's protected from anyone who intends him any harm. I charmed him with a protection spell." Severus informed proudly.
"How do you know who was on which side?"
Severus rolled up the sleeve to his right arm, exposing a pale, sallow limb. "When the Dark Lord died, The Dark Mark disappeared from those who truly didn't support him. This includes those who were forced by threats or spells, and those who switched sides; like myself."
Lily stood up all the while eyeing his arm, and walked to him. She touched her hand to his skin and ran her fingers up his arm to the crease of it. Butterflies fluttered in his stomach at her touch, and his skin layered itself with goosebumps as his hair stood up on end.
Lily smiled. "You... really have changed." She whispered.
"Still not a fan of muggles though..." Severus muttered.
"Maybe your opinion of that will change too." She said hopefully.
"Probably not."
The air got heavy as Lily wrapped her arms around his waist and set her head against his chest. A moment later she giggled. "Sev, your heart is beating really fast."
"Ye-" Severus cleared his throat, trying to find his voice, stunned by her calling him by his nickname. Something he hadn't heard in years. He wet his lips. "Yes." he said more firmly.
Lily sighed. "When are you going to tell me your secret?"
"What secret?"
She pulled back to look at him. "We've been given a second chance, love, don't ruin it."
Severus coughed. "Lo-ve? You... l-love m-me?"
Lily tenderly raised a hand to touch his cheek. "Always." She whispered. "Since the very first day that I met you."

A/N: Yes, sappy, I know. Sue me! *Love for Severus, yay!*
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