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Forgiveness	By : Drarry-Lisa Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Draco Views: 2856 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter-8
Accumulated Pain and fury
"Papa." Cygnus called him and Draco loosened his hold on Potter's neck. "Papa." Draco spun around and looked at his little baby sitting on the ground, his thumb in his mouth and his green eyes curious. "Papa." He said again and Draco moved towards his child. He wanted to hold him. He just wanted to hold his precious baby only once. Was that too much to ask for?
"Papa." Cygnus was so beautiful, so adorable that Draco wanted to kiss his chubby cheeks and play with him for hours. He just wanted to love his baby, if only once. Did Draco not deserve even this much? Mother had always told him that if Draco did not intend to harm anyone, god would ensure that nobody harms Draco or his babies. Draco had never intended to harm anyone. Then why was god not letting him love Cygnus?
"Cygnus. Papa is coming." Draco whispered unconsciously and walked forward.
"Papa. Come." Cygnus spreads his little arms, wanting to embrace Draco and Draco felt his heart burn with fierce longing.
He was so close to the child, just two steps more and he would reach his baby and finally get to hold him and love him like Cygnus deserved.
"Pa-" Cygnus suddenly hiccupped and started sobbing "Pa-pa. Hurts so much. Papa." And then was blood everywhere. His baby was gone and Draco sat in midst of a pool of blood that only his eyes could see. His arms were still empty and he wanted Cygnus so desperately.
Why had Potter persisted so much? Why was he always so bloody stubborn?
Well, Draco decided, I will tell you, you bastard.
He stood up and came face to face with Potter's pained eyes and in a blur of motion clutched Potter's messy hair, pulling his head back and glaring at him.
"You wanted to know the reason, Potter and father you as well, didn't you." Draco growled and father nodded, his eyes shocked and pained.
"Draco, this is not the right way." Severus spoke soothingly and Albus asked "Should Scorpius and I leave, sir?"
"You might as well know. He was your brother after all." He spoke coldly and looked into Potter's wide and shocked green eyes.
"Draco. What did you mean by brother?" Potter gasped and Draco shoved him away.
"I will not just tell you. I will show you." Draco mocked and he knew that it would be equally painful for him but he wanted to punish himself. Had he been a bit more careful, a bit less of a sentimental fool, his baby would still be alive."
He took out his wand and placed the tip on his forehead and closed his eyes. All the memories that he had tried to bury came to the forefront and Draco cursed Potter for the millionth time.
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Harry stared soundlessly as a memory pulled out of Draco's wand and Draco cast "Memoria Elongata" A screen appeared and absorbed the string of memories and everyone turned to look.
"Oh Merlin! No." Draco whispered in shock and fear, looking at a pregnancy tube. It had turned red and Draco collapsed on his knees, his eyes tearing up. "He needs to know. He needs to- I need to tell him." Draco's voice broke and he shook his head decisively, "What if he asks me to abort. I won't. I will tell him later. What he does not know won't hurt him."
Harry stared in shock and his own legs collapsed under him. He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked into Albus's warm and worried eyes, much like his own. Draco had been pregnant.
He heard gasps and turned around. Lucius was sitting on the ground now, staring at the screen speechlessly and Scorpius and Severus were on his either sides. While Scorpius's eyes had gone wide with shock, Severus's eyes were knowing which meant that this was what Severus had been lying about.
Draco sat at furthest couch, looking at Harry. His eyes were murderous and Harry's attention returned to the screen as another memory came.
Draco was in the bathroom, looking at his stomach. It showed a little. It had been just a month and Draco stroked his belly affectionately. His lips were turned into a frown though. He wished Harry was with him. He wanted to share this with the man he loved. His eyes watered as he remembered that Harry did not love him like he did and he still had to tell about the child to Harry.
The memory finished again and Harry looked at Draco. The man's eyes were shining and they had so much pain that all Harry wanted was to comfort him but it was obvious that Draco hated him and if what Harry thought had actually happened, Draco would never forgive him.
"Dad. Look." He heard Albus whisper and returned his eyes towards the screen again. What happened in this last memory would be forever engraved in Harry's mind and heart and he would forever blame himself for what Draco went through.
Draco's bulge had become prominent now and he looked at it lovingly. He was in in his third month and was waiting for his baby to come. He had finally decided to tell Potter. He had so far tried to hide it from Pansy but the girl had an uncanny intuition and Draco wondered if the glasses of milk on his bedside were left by her. It might be the elves but the proportion of sugar was exactly as per Draco's taste.
He cast glamours on his belly to make it invisible and walked out. Pansy was sitting on the bed. She spoke softly "All fine?"
"Yes." Draco murmured, not knowing why Pansy was looking so worried.
"Where are you going Draco?" She asked and Draco murmured "Just for a walk."
Now she had a knowing look in her eyes "Shall I come with you. It has been weeks since we spent time together."
Draco shook his head though because there was no need to worry. He would go and tell Potter and then return. "I will be back in half an hour. After that we will play something. Okay?" He knew that his voice was soft but she was her best friend and they knew that they would never have that kind of marriage. The marriage had in no way ruined their friendship. Draco loved the girl with all his heart, just not as a lover.
His eyes shined as he looked at his sweetest friend.
Bloody hormones. He thought and wiped his eyes before walking out of the room slowly. As expected, Potter was climbing the stairs towards the library, the Weasley chit with him. Draco felt jealousy course throughout his body and climbed behind him slowly.
Harry knew what happened next and his hands shook and his eyes watered and his throat pained. He had never known that Draco had been pregnant. Merlin! In third month.
Draco climbed the last stair and called "Potter, can we talk?"
Potter turned around and whispered something in the girl's ear. Weasley simply nodded and walked ahead.
"What do you want Malfoy?" His voice was venomous and Draco's heart clenched in pain. This man was his child's other parent. Draco had never wanted Harry to despise him. He could barely contain his pain when Harry glared at him furiously. He loved Harry so much. He had given everything he had to the man and still it had not been enough.
"We need to talk. there is something you need to know. Can I-" Draco begged and Potter glared at him. His eyes were so furious that Draco almost stumbled.
"there is absolutely nothing that you have to say that is important for me. Just fuck off Malfoy, from my life and do not show your face to me ever again. I am getting married to Ginny, the coming Sunday." Potter snarled and stomped back towards the library.
Oh no no no no no no no. Harry knew what had happened next and he had not paid attention because he had been so angry and jealous at that time. He had not wanted Draco to marry Pansy. He had been selfish and a bloody coward for not having stopped his Draco from leaving that night and then on the bloody stairs.
"NO." He screamed.
Draco panted and staggered back, having completely forgotten that he was on the edge of the first stair and his feet slipped. He fell and he screamed but no one came to his aid. When he reached the last stair, he found himself in pain and his trousers were covered in blood.
His baby's blood. Cygnus. "NO NO. He can not have died." His body pained like hell and at a little distance he saw a small boy with vivid green eyes and blonde hair look at him before turning his tear streaked face around and disappearing.
It was too much for him to bear and he lost unconsciousness.
Harry's throat was hoarse from screaming now and Draco's face was covered with tears. He was biting his lips to prevent his hysterical sobs.
Both Scorpius and Albus were crying. Albus was hugging Harry and Scorpius was trying to soothe his father.
Lucius was completely another story. there was not even a single tear on his face though Severus's eyes were shining with unshed tears.
"Lucius, wait." Severus said when Lucius stood up, his shoulders slumped and Lucius shook his head "Tell me what happened next."
Severus spoke in a pained voice "I was fortunately strolling in the corridor and saw Draco lying, his trousers drenched in blood and took him in the infirmary. I healed him myself and the unborn child had of course not survived the fall. I vowed not to tell anyone when Draco woke up. We have not discussed this since then because Draco has refused to."
Lucius simply nodded and whispered "Thank you for everything.", his eyes on the floor before he walked towards the door. Harry couldn't speak yet. He had not yet digested that his unborn child had died. The worst thing was that he had been the cause of Draco's shock and eventual fall. He had arrived here for Draco's forgiveness. How will he ever forgive himself now?
Lucius left and Severus left shortly after kissing Draco's head. Draco kept his eyes averted from his godfather and Severus just sighed before whispering "See me when you wish to."
Draco did not reply and Severus apparted right on the spot after Lucius, not even sparing a glance at Harry.
"Dad." Albus was speaking and he looked as the memories returned to their owner. He wondered how Draco had lived with so much pain for the last seventeen years.
"Dad." Albus's voice was alarmed now as he whispered "We need to go."
Harry simply blinked. In his memory, Harry had seen Draco imagining a little boy leaving. Perhaps he was the image that Draco had chased after. The child had green eyes like Albus and he stared into his son's eyes.
"We need to leave. You are in no position to talk." Albus requested him, holding his hand and pulling him up. His son's face was streaked with tears at the prospect that he had lost a brother.
"Don't be late tomorrow Mr. Potter." Harry heard and blinked before gazing into Draco's murderous eyes.
"Draco." He spoke in a strangled voice.
"Don't." Draco snarled and Scorpius could barely stop Draco from pouncing on Harry. "Get out otherwise I will kill you. I despise you Potter. I will never forgive you and as you requested, will not show my face to you ever again. GET OUT. OUT. OUT. YOU ARE A BLOODY MURDEROR. YOU KILLED MY CHILD. MY BABY. MY CYG- CYGNUS." Draco's voice reduced to a whisper now "My little baby."
"I didn't. Please. I did - did not know. I- Draco. I did not kill him. Please." Harry begged desperately, tears falling down his cheeks and Draco struggled in Scorpius's hold ignoring his mumble "Father please calm down."
"I hate you so much that I want to kill you Potter. As you have witnessed, I am mad and you are the reason of this madness. If you do not keep away from me, this madness will be the reason of both of ours demise because first I will kill you and then myself." Draco's voice was deadly and Harry knew that he meant every word.
Harry had turned Draco into this- this-
Harry's heart clenched and he couldn't finish the thought. Gone was his soft hearted and calm Draco and just like that Harry decided that there was no point in tormenting Draco any more. Draco would never forgive Harry for this and would never move on. Merlin knew that Harry wouldn't be able to live normally now.
"We need to go." Albus insisted desperately and Harry nodded. "Come on dad."
Harry glanced at Draco for a last time and Draco looked crazy as he tried to get out of Scorpius's hold, his teeth bared in a snarl and his eyes deadly.
He had done this. Harry was responsible for this and he would never be forgiven. All the hopes were lost now.
The last thing Harry saw was Draco trying to bite Scorpius's hand to follow Harry and felt something die inside his heart. He had not just killed his child. He had killed his Draco as well, on that cursed day.
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Things will eventually improve. The darkest hour is just before the dawn. Please calm down. I will try to update soon.
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