Second Chances
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Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
13
Views:
2,936
Reviews:
5
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Currently Reading:
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The Hardest Thing I've Ever Had To Do
TITLE: Second Chances
AUTHOR: Lady Sirius
PAIRING: SB/RL
RATING: NC17
FEEDBACK: darklove_zorg@yahoo.com
DISCLAIMER: Of course all rights to Harry Potter belong to JK Rowling
- I would claim Sirius if I could (but alas this is not meant to be!)
DEDICATION: To my glorious, talented, wondrous and everlastingly sexy
inspiration - Gary Oldman. And it is also dedicated to my good friend
Kitty - she is the Remus to my Sirius in our rpgs, and has inspired me
to write about their love.
Chapter 9 - The Hardest Thing I\'ve Ever Had To Do
\"I love you, Remy,\" he breathed into his kiss.
\"Love you, Sirius,\" his lover replied, his breath so warm, so gentle..........
..............................until he felt that same breath in his ear, and that same voice, having dropped an octave or so, with a bit of an edge to it, ask, \"Would you like to explain to me about the motorcycle in the back yard, Sirius?\"
Sirius\' eyes grew big as saucers. How the hell he did he know already? He looked into Remus\' eyes and he knew that his lover was not happy - not at all. \"R-remy,\" he stuttered, \"I was going to tell you. First thing in the morning.\"
\"Tell me what, Sirius? And would you have? What if I hadn\'t happened to run into it last night on my return, would you still be trying to seduce me into not being mad in advance? Yes, I am mad. Mad that you obviously left here, a place where you are safe and out of harm\'s way, in order to return to Hogwarts -first off, taking a chance on being spotted between here and there. Not to mention that there could be people at Hogwarts watching, waiting for the opportunity to turn you in, if for no other reason than to please Voldemort? And for what reason? To get your motorcycle?\" Remus looked at Sirius with disbelief in his eyes. \"You waited til I was away on Order business, obviously, so that I couldn\'t stop you, didn\'t you? Not even once considering how I might feel about the matter. Not caring how I would feel if something were to happen to you.......\" He paused for breath, becoming more and more distraught, his amber eyes reflecting his distress.
\"But, Remus, nothing happened,\" Sirius protested, quailing in the face of his lover\'s fury.
\"But it COULD have, and that\'s the whole point, Sirius.\"
\"I didn\'t think.........\" Sirius mumbled.
\"That\'s the whole problem, you DIDN\'T think! What WERE you thinking of, Sirius? That you\'d come waltzing back here with the motorcycle and take me on a joyride? WHERE? HOW?\" Remus looked at Sirius, shaking his head in confusion.
Sirius could say nothing, completely taken aback at Remus\' words. He had not expected him to be quite so upset, and he didn\'t know how to deal with it.
\"Sirius, you know I love you. I love you more than anything,\" Remus said in a voice filled with pain, as he attempted to quell the possessive wolf within, the wolf that wanted to grab Sirius and hurt him in the same way. But he restrained that feeling, with great difficulty. \"But you were willing to risk us, our being together, our future together.......and for what? A stupid motorcycle?\" He grew more and more indignant as he spoke, rising in his agitation, and grabbing for his clothes, dressing hastily, without looking at Sirius, who grew paler and paler with his words.
\"Remy, what are you doing?\" Sirius asked timidly.
\"Getting dressed. Obviously.\" Sharp. Clipped tones.
\"Okay, let me get dressed, and we can....\"
Remus rounded on him, his amber eyes blazing with passion. \"WE can do nothing!\" he snapped. \"I don\'t know what YOU will do, but I have to get out of here - now!\"
Sirius swallowed, hard. \"Remy, you don\'t mean it...\" he said in a low voice, filled with emotion. \"I know you\'re mad, and you have a right to be, but please, don\'t go........please.......\" He put out a tentative hand to touch his lover, but the wolf shook him off.
\"Yes, I have to, Sirius. I have to be somewhere that I can think....calmly, quietly, which I can\'t do if I stay here with you. No, don\'t touch me!\" he fairly hissed as Sirius tried again. \"It won\'t work. Not this time. Don\'t you understand, Sirius? I\'ve been without you for twelve long years, twelve horrible lonely years when I loved you and hated myself for doing it. And now, when I\'ve finally gotten you back, and it looks like we\'ll finally be together forever, what do you do? You try to throw it all away without so much as a second glance, or thought, like it doesn\'t matter to you whether we\'re together or not....\" His voice broke, and an involuntary moan escaped his lips. \"You can\'t treat me like that, Sirius, you just can\'t. We aren\'t in school any more, and I\'m not willing to stand around while you throw away something as important as us, just because it didn\'t occur to you that maybe what you were doing was dangerous, and that maybe we could end up apart again, which I couldn\'t bear. But it did occur to you, it must have, otherwise you wouldn\'t have done it behind my back, would you? WOULD YOU?\" His voice rose until it reached a crescendo, pouring out onto the other man in a great storm. Sirius had no reply, closing his eyes against the barrage, and trembling with his own emotions. A single tear seeped from one eye, rolling down his cheek.
Remus quailed at the sight, but the wolf was adamant, and where the wizard would have reached out to his lover, the wolf stood firm and unmoveable. His heart breaking, Remus turned away from his lover - his soulmate, his one true love, his mate - and fairly ran down the stairs and out the front door of #12 Grimmauld Place, leaving Sirius to collapse heartbroken onto the bed behind him.
AUTHOR: Lady Sirius
PAIRING: SB/RL
RATING: NC17
FEEDBACK: darklove_zorg@yahoo.com
DISCLAIMER: Of course all rights to Harry Potter belong to JK Rowling
- I would claim Sirius if I could (but alas this is not meant to be!)
DEDICATION: To my glorious, talented, wondrous and everlastingly sexy
inspiration - Gary Oldman. And it is also dedicated to my good friend
Kitty - she is the Remus to my Sirius in our rpgs, and has inspired me
to write about their love.
Chapter 9 - The Hardest Thing I\'ve Ever Had To Do
\"I love you, Remy,\" he breathed into his kiss.
\"Love you, Sirius,\" his lover replied, his breath so warm, so gentle..........
..............................until he felt that same breath in his ear, and that same voice, having dropped an octave or so, with a bit of an edge to it, ask, \"Would you like to explain to me about the motorcycle in the back yard, Sirius?\"
Sirius\' eyes grew big as saucers. How the hell he did he know already? He looked into Remus\' eyes and he knew that his lover was not happy - not at all. \"R-remy,\" he stuttered, \"I was going to tell you. First thing in the morning.\"
\"Tell me what, Sirius? And would you have? What if I hadn\'t happened to run into it last night on my return, would you still be trying to seduce me into not being mad in advance? Yes, I am mad. Mad that you obviously left here, a place where you are safe and out of harm\'s way, in order to return to Hogwarts -first off, taking a chance on being spotted between here and there. Not to mention that there could be people at Hogwarts watching, waiting for the opportunity to turn you in, if for no other reason than to please Voldemort? And for what reason? To get your motorcycle?\" Remus looked at Sirius with disbelief in his eyes. \"You waited til I was away on Order business, obviously, so that I couldn\'t stop you, didn\'t you? Not even once considering how I might feel about the matter. Not caring how I would feel if something were to happen to you.......\" He paused for breath, becoming more and more distraught, his amber eyes reflecting his distress.
\"But, Remus, nothing happened,\" Sirius protested, quailing in the face of his lover\'s fury.
\"But it COULD have, and that\'s the whole point, Sirius.\"
\"I didn\'t think.........\" Sirius mumbled.
\"That\'s the whole problem, you DIDN\'T think! What WERE you thinking of, Sirius? That you\'d come waltzing back here with the motorcycle and take me on a joyride? WHERE? HOW?\" Remus looked at Sirius, shaking his head in confusion.
Sirius could say nothing, completely taken aback at Remus\' words. He had not expected him to be quite so upset, and he didn\'t know how to deal with it.
\"Sirius, you know I love you. I love you more than anything,\" Remus said in a voice filled with pain, as he attempted to quell the possessive wolf within, the wolf that wanted to grab Sirius and hurt him in the same way. But he restrained that feeling, with great difficulty. \"But you were willing to risk us, our being together, our future together.......and for what? A stupid motorcycle?\" He grew more and more indignant as he spoke, rising in his agitation, and grabbing for his clothes, dressing hastily, without looking at Sirius, who grew paler and paler with his words.
\"Remy, what are you doing?\" Sirius asked timidly.
\"Getting dressed. Obviously.\" Sharp. Clipped tones.
\"Okay, let me get dressed, and we can....\"
Remus rounded on him, his amber eyes blazing with passion. \"WE can do nothing!\" he snapped. \"I don\'t know what YOU will do, but I have to get out of here - now!\"
Sirius swallowed, hard. \"Remy, you don\'t mean it...\" he said in a low voice, filled with emotion. \"I know you\'re mad, and you have a right to be, but please, don\'t go........please.......\" He put out a tentative hand to touch his lover, but the wolf shook him off.
\"Yes, I have to, Sirius. I have to be somewhere that I can think....calmly, quietly, which I can\'t do if I stay here with you. No, don\'t touch me!\" he fairly hissed as Sirius tried again. \"It won\'t work. Not this time. Don\'t you understand, Sirius? I\'ve been without you for twelve long years, twelve horrible lonely years when I loved you and hated myself for doing it. And now, when I\'ve finally gotten you back, and it looks like we\'ll finally be together forever, what do you do? You try to throw it all away without so much as a second glance, or thought, like it doesn\'t matter to you whether we\'re together or not....\" His voice broke, and an involuntary moan escaped his lips. \"You can\'t treat me like that, Sirius, you just can\'t. We aren\'t in school any more, and I\'m not willing to stand around while you throw away something as important as us, just because it didn\'t occur to you that maybe what you were doing was dangerous, and that maybe we could end up apart again, which I couldn\'t bear. But it did occur to you, it must have, otherwise you wouldn\'t have done it behind my back, would you? WOULD YOU?\" His voice rose until it reached a crescendo, pouring out onto the other man in a great storm. Sirius had no reply, closing his eyes against the barrage, and trembling with his own emotions. A single tear seeped from one eye, rolling down his cheek.
Remus quailed at the sight, but the wolf was adamant, and where the wizard would have reached out to his lover, the wolf stood firm and unmoveable. His heart breaking, Remus turned away from his lover - his soulmate, his one true love, his mate - and fairly ran down the stairs and out the front door of #12 Grimmauld Place, leaving Sirius to collapse heartbroken onto the bed behind him.