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Love Letters	By : JustAbi Category: Harry Potter > Slash - Male/Male > Harry/Draco Views: 4798 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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All Love Letters are from Draco to Harry.

Chapter Nine

oOo

How can you sit there
and smile at me like you are my friend, like you and I share a private joke
with that bloody twinkle in your eye and your arm around that girl who hates
me? I am not your friend, not now, maybe not ever. All I wanted for so long was for you to take away
the constant ache in my chest, to fill the emptiness inside me, or merely to
make me forget.

But instead you ignored me.
Not hard to do when you are so many miles apart that there is nothing
left to remind you of me, but I felt the lack of your regard none the
less. I could feel your indifference
through a hundred miles and more, not hatred or anger, but something worse,
more horrible. You had got over me.

Nothing in my life prepared me for the desolation I felt
every time I opened a letter from one of your friends telling me how happy you
were now, how you seemed more yourself than you had in a year. I doubt that in their miserable Gryffindor
way that they meant this to hurt me, most likely they thought it would make me
happy to know that you were happy.
Because to them, love is wanting happiness for
another more than you want it for yourself.

But I�m not a Gryffindor, and that isn�t what love is to
me. I am a Slytherin, and my love is
selfish. I need to see you happy with my
own eyes, I need to know that I had something to do with it, and above all I
need you to love me, too. It�s selfish,
so selfish, but I would rather see you aching for me across the room than know
that you are happy somewhere else. I�d
rather see pain and longing and desperation in your eyes than see you move on
and be happy without me. I�d rather you
hate me than simply not care one way or another that I am alive.

oOo

Why the fuck are
you being nice to Blaise? Have you ever,
in your entire life, even spoken to him before? And for that matter, why are
you even speaking to *me*, when you
couldn�t be bothered to acknowledge that I existed all this time?

If you were jealous you would be hexing him or sneering at
him the way that your precious Weaslette does to me, the way I want to do to
her. Instead, you are more polite than
even the best breeding and manners, of which you have neither, dictate; you go
out of your way to be kind to him. You
talk to him about me as if I am just a convenient way to bond with your new
best pal, talking about my moodiness and my vanity and my bite like old school
chums reminiscing over an old professor.

You must be trying to drive me mad. How can you talk about how beautiful my hair
is with Blaise like I am not even there? How can it not rip your heart into a
thousand little pieces every time you see me, the way I feel when I am only
just in the same room as you? I never tormented you this way.

I only hope you
aren�t expecting me to be nice to the Weaslette after what she did to me on the
train.

oOo

There is grass in
my hair and a rash on my arse. A latticework of bruises covers my body and I
ache every time the fabric of my robes brushes against my skin. Every breath moves some part of me that hurts
and reminds me of when last I saw you. I
feel as if everything I am was burned away and all that is left is the part of
me that loves you.

When can I see you again?
My friends hate me and I look like I should be in hospital and I cannot
even begin to make myself care about anything but the next time you press your
mouth to mine, touch your hands to my body, dangle your hair in my eyes. I should shake you and scream at you and
demand you explain to me why you didn�t throw me to the ground and show me that
this is what it was like instead of looking at me across the Hall with a
thousand bodies between us for months, but I�ll forgive you if only you will do
it again.

It�s been hours since you left me and my body craves you
already.

oOo

A/N: Now, see, I got
them together, just like you�ve been waiting for me to do. Aren�t you happy? What? This doesn�t explain a thing and you
aren�t sure what happened at all? Tough. Be more specific next time. Ah, well, the fun of Death Eater Summer Camp
couldn�t last forever.
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