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Subverted (Walk Away)
Date: 22nd February 2003
Author: Gabriel Pierce
Fandom: Harry Potter Slash
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Harry realises he needs to walk away from the relationship he has with Draco.
Warnings: Slash. Angst. Alludes to an abusive relationship. Song fic.
Disclaimer: This story is a work of fiction based of the characters created by J.K Rowling. No money is made from this, no harm is intended.
Acknowledgements/ Dedications: Christina Aguliera's song Walk Away. Dedicated to Glory for dragging me kicking and screaming into the Fandom of Harry/Draco—I'm so happy to be here. *smirks at the title* You get all the credit for this fic—be proud. And of course to Christie cause you are my Goddess.
Subverted: Walk Away
What do you do when you know something's bad for you
And you still can't let go?
I was naive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web
And I learned how to plead
Harry walked aimless. Hurt. Trying to think. He knew he had to walk away. Knew it. The whole relationship was crushing him, like the vibrant green grass he was crushing under his boots.
I'm about to break
I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your lure
and I'm feeling for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...
He loved, he hurt. Draco. Damn you Draco. So sweet when he wanted something. And he got what he wanted, always what he wanted. Yet he was still falling, so deeply falling in love. For Draco, with Draco. But Draco hurt him, in so many ways. He had to walk away, knew he had to walk away before he broke. But Draco was an addiction. He just kept going back to what he needed.
"˜No.' he told himself, "˜Don't need.'
Need to walk away. He deserved better than the nightmare his life was becoming.
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cos I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
He turned a corner. Blinked.
"˜Shit!' so soft, vehement. "˜Need to walk away but I've lost my control, so addicted.'
Cursing himself, screaming inside. Trying to walk away but he just kept running back to the thing he most needed to walk away from. He didn't deserve this pain. But a small voice wondered. Was this all he deserved? But what had he done to deserve it? Let his parents die? Not lived up to expectations? So many of those.
Hanging his head he walked away. Wandering again.
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this moment
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
He was standing at the top of the astronomy tower, arms resting on the cold stone parapet, eyes blank, staring out, when he heard the footfalls. Steps. Someone was coming up the twisted staircase. He knew, knew who was following him, dogging his steps. His heart, his mind. Draco. Following him, the one he had to get away from.
"˜Walk away.' He told himself, "˜just take to the stairs and walk away.' He turned. Draco stood in the stair well, blond hair vibrant, blue eyes cool.
"What are you doing? Why are you avoiding me?" demanding.
"You have to leave. This has to end."
"Oh really Potter, that's not what you said last night. Or any of the nights for the last six months." Quiet sneer, smirking at him so confident.
"No more. It's over."
"If you say so." A shrug and he turned.
Everytime I try to grasp for air
I get smothered and this sky, it's never over, over
Seems I never wake from this nightmare
I let out a solid breath, let it be over, over
Three steps before Harry called to him, striding across the tower. Just as Draco knew he would. Harry cursed himself even as Draco turned, stepped into the tower. Two steps in, two swaggering steps and Harry was on him, pushing him back into the stone wall. Mouth hungry, craving, fingers gripping him, Draippeipped open his shirt, pushed his cloak half off his shoulders. Kissing, grinding, groans, moans.
"You love this Harry, just admit it."
Gnawing at his neck, yanking the tie loose, the top two buttons still intact. Harry moaned. He ripped, popped the top one clean off. Hands stroking Harry's back, pulling him closer. Kissing Harry deeper, tongue flicking, teasing. Making Harry moan, plead.
Sharp pain and his senses screamed back in a rush. Suddenly he was pushing Draco away, shoving him against the stone, hard, violent. He licked at his bottom lip, tasted copper sting. Blood.
"You love it Harry, don't deny it." So sure, cocky, sprawled back against the stone. Shirt half way up his chest, open from the bottom. Tie loose. Pants open, zip undone. His hair was a mess, thin locks covering one eye.
Harry was panting, breathing hard, so hot, so hard. He wanted, wanted what Draco wordlessly offered. Tempting, oh god so tempting. He wanted, craved, needed. His addiction. Copper tang again and he jolted back to reality. Draco wouldn't deliver, he'd only take, demand, hurt. Betray.
"No more." Voice shaking. "No more." Surer this time.
Draco's legs shifted further apart, arms wide, resting back on the parapet, hard, so deliciously hard Harry could almost feel it as he backed away. Flipping his eyes up to his face. Eyebrow raised, smirking. He knew the affect he had on Harry.
"NO!" and he fled, running down the stairs, re-zipping his pants, straightening the shirt, doing up the buttons.
Only thing I need to do is walk away
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
Three strides out onto the grass and he wasn't alone.
"You always come back." Mocking him.
He stopped, spun, stalked towards him.
"I said no more, not again. Never! Don't knock on my door, don't touch me!"
Draco just kept coming till he pressed against him. Delicious heat.
"No Draco!"
He stopped.
"What did you say?"
"I said no."
Unsure now, all the cockiness gone.
"˜My addiction. Me need. But I have to do this, have to walk away from all the hurt. The pain.'
"You walk away now, don't expect to touch me again. Ever." Warning but Harry could see the fear. He'd won, so why'd he feel like losing?
"˜Walk away, just walk away.'
"Think about it Harry, is that really what you want?" open, inviting, shirt still untucked, unbuttoned, top button of his pants undone.
"Yes." Choking on the word, eyes stinging.
He wouldn't cry, not in front of Draco. Suddenly kissing, Draco pulling him in, clinging to him. Taste of copper. He pushed him away, rough, hard, one last time. Shocked. Stunned look on Draco's face.
"No more. Never again." Finality as his voice broke, vision blurring as he turned.
He walked away. Tears running in rivers down his cheeks, mixing with the blood on his lips. His thumb came up, wiped it away.
Draco stared at his retreating back, silent, shocked. Then finally.
"But I love you."
FINIS
Walkaway by Christina Aguliera:
What do you do when you know something's bad for you
And you still can't let go?
I was naive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web
And I learned how to plead
I was prey in your bed
And devoured completely
And it hurts my soul
Cos I can't let go
All these walls are caving in
I can't stop my suffering
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cos I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
I should have known
I was used for amusement
Couldn't see through the smog
It was all an illusion
Now I've been licking my wounds (licking my wounds)
Woke up in love and seems so great (deeper, deeper)
We both can't subdue
Darling you hold me prisoner (prisoner)
I'm about to break
I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your lure
and I'm feeling for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...
I can make it
It's some state I'm in
Getting nothing everytime
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this moment
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
Everytime I try to grasp for air
I get smothered and this sky, it's never over, over
Seems I never wake from this nightmare
I let out a solid breath, let it be over, over
Inside I'm screaming
Breaking, pleading the world
Ahh...
My heart has been bruised
So sad but it's true
Each peep reminds me of you
It hurts my soul
Cos I can't let go
All these walls are caving in
I can't stop my suffering
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cos I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...
I'm about to break
I guess I missed it
I'm addicted to your lure
And I'm feeling for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...
I can make it
It's some state I'm in
Getting nothing everytime
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this moment
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
I say...
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
Only thing I need to do is walk away
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
I need to get away from it
I need to walk away from it
Get away, walk away, walk away
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