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HOPES AND PROMISES

By Betsanne

Harry looked at the cock in front of him with pleasure. He moaned in delight and leaned forward to lick the tip. He moaned as the man's taste exploded over his tongue. He heard the man moan and looked up, his eyes peering at him impishly.

The man grabbed him by the hair and pulled Harry closer to his cock. It touched Harry's mouth and he opened it and stuck his tongue out to lick it again. "Stop teasing me Harry and suck it," the man growled out in lust.

Harry shivered as the man growled and with a sudden movement, he engulfed the cock in his mouth. He heard the man groan loudly and he smirked internally. He may be on his knees before this man but he was the one who had the power now. Harry began to suck on the cock and he could feel as the man restrained himself from moving. He moaned to himself and the man gasped aloud at the sensations that traveled along his cock. Harry bobbed his head a couple of times, sucking lightly. He pulled his mouth off the cock and smirked up at the man and asked, "Would you like to fuck me now?"

The man growled and pulled him off the floor and threw him onto the bed. "You'll regret teasing me Harry," he said with a snarl as he leaned forward and attacked Harry's mouth with his own.

Harry moaned as he felt the man ravish his lips. The man pulled back and looked down at him possessively. His eyes were alight with lust and he gave Harry a feral grin. "I'm going to fuck you now Harry. I'm going to fuck you so hard, you're going to be feeling it for days," he said with a rough voice.

Harry gasped and shivered as lust rushed through him. He arched his body as the man's hands ran down his body with a firm touch. The man touched his cock, grasping it firmly and gave it a couple of tugs. Harry whimpered and began to plead with the man. "Oh please, oh Merlin please. Yesssss," he hissed out as the man's hand reached behind Harry and parted his ass cheeks. He could feel the man's finger running over his opening and he began to beg, "Oh Merlin, please fuck me! Please!"

The man laughed gruffly, leaned over Harry and looked at him with a wicked grin. "Don't worry Harry, I will. You're mine Harry and I'm never going to let you go. You belong to me," he said with a harsh whisper and Harry moaned in agreement. He loved the feeling of belonging that he felt when he was with this man. He loved being here, loved feeling the man touching him, owning him. He loved this man.

He looked up into the man's black eyes and whispered, "I love you Severus."

Harry awoke with a gasp, tears filling his eyes as he realized it was just another dream. His breathing was erratic and his cock was hard. He groaned in pain and lay back down on the bed. He was tired of the dreams, tired of hiding his love for Severus. Since his graduation five years ago, he had been hiding his feelings for his former potions professor. He knew that even though they had a truce, the man would never have any feelings for him. He sighed to himself, wiped the tears off his face and rolled over in the bed. He gazed out the window, his expression sad. He was tired of feeling the pain that came with unrequited love.

Realizing that he wouldn't be able to sleep any longer, he pulled back the covers and got out of bed. He walked out of the bedroom and walked over to the small kitchenette. With a wave of his hand he heated some water for tea. He walked over to the cabinet and pulled out his tin of loose tea leaves. He grabbed his teacup off the counter and placed it by the tea kettle. He began to prepare his tea, poured the water and waited as it steeped. A few minutes later he pulled out the sugar and cream and added it to his tea. Picking up the teacup, he walked over to the window and gazed out at the early morning sky. He glanced around the grounds of Hogwarts and wondered if maybe it was time to leave. The school year was almost over and he needed to decide if he wanted to stay as the Defense Against Dark Arts teacher. While he enjoyed teaching, being around Severus was becoming painful and he didn't think he could take it anymore.

After his graduation they had worked together as members of the Order to bring down Voldemort. Severus had trained Harry relentlessly and made sure that he would have every advantage for whenever he finally faced Voldemort. Two years ago that time had finally come. Severus had been captured and labeled as a traitor by Voldemort. Harry, in a bout of what Severus would call "Gryffindor stupidity", decided to rescue Severus on his own. He had apparated to the Riddle Manor and snuck in. He had found Severus locked up in a small cell. He had been beaten and tortured but he was still well enough to yell at Harry for his stupidity of coming alone.

They had just made it out of Riddle Manor when they were confronted by Voldemort. He had been surprised that Harry himself would come to save his hated Professor. Voldemort had laughed in glee and bragged about how he was finally going to defeat his enemy. He stood there and ranted and raved and Harry looked at Severus with a look of disbelief. Severus had smirked and whispered, "You always knew the man was crazy."

Harry shook his head, grabbed the knife that was hidden in his robe and threw it. It flew into the air and sank deep into Voldemort's chest, slicing his heart in half. Voldemort's eyes had flown open in shock and he looked at Harry in disbelief. With a final gurgle the Dark Lord dropped to the floor. Harry pulled out his wand and burnt the body into ash. With a muttered, "Moron," Harry helped Severus walk the rest of the way and past the wards. They both apparated to Hogwarts and the rest was history.

After Voldemort's death, Harry had taken off and traveled around the world. For a year he had visited places he had always wanted to see. He hadn't been surprise when Albus had sent him a letter asking him to come back to Hogwarts to teach. Harry had immediately packed up his things and arrived at Hogwarts within mere days after he had gotten the letter. He was eager to teach and he was eager to see Severus again.

When he had finally seen the man for the first time in a year his breath had caught. Severus looked good and damn sexy. The year had been good to Severus. His hair was longer and shinier and his skin was tanned. His black eyes sparkled, not with contempt and malice, but with slight humor. He was still his snarky self but the edge on his insults was gone. Harry has smiled at him and was disappointed by the distant look the man had given him. His heart sank as he realized that though they had a truce, they didn't truly have a friendship. Throughout the school year Harry tried to deepen their friendship but Severus didn't seem interested. He would either give Harry cutting remarks or nod at him distantly.

The breaking point came two months ago when he had gone to Diagon Alley and saw Severus kissing a brown-haired man. Harry stopped and stared, his heart breaking as he realized that he'd never had a chance with the older man. He watched as Severus had stroked the man's face tenderly. Harry knew then that there was nothing left for him to hope for. He could see that there was love between the two of them. Tears filled his eyes and he left Hogsmeade; leaving a shattered heart behind.

Since then he had recurring dreams about Severus and never slept for more than five hours each night. He had withdrawn from everyone. He knew that his co-workers were worried as were Ron and Hermione but he couldn't help it. He knew he was depressed. Being around Severus and knowing that nothing would ever come of it hurt him. Tears pricked his eyes and he closed them, trying to stop the tears from falling.

With a sniffle, he turned away from the window, set his teacup down and got ready for the day. There was another month before the end of the school year and he needed to talk to the Headmaster. He couldn't stay here anymore. He needed to leave the school and Severus and get on with his life. He was determined to get over the man and find someone who would love him. Starting today, he would suck it up and not let Severus hurt him. He only had a month of school left and he would be strong. With a determined look on his face, he made his way to the door and left his room.

Harry made his way to the Great Hall for breakfast. He entered the room and sat down next to the Headmaster. He would normally sit next to Severus but today he was determined to change things. He would begin by ignoring the man's presence unless he had to acknowledge him.

Albus looked over at him in surprise and delight. "Harry my boy, how are you this morning?" he asked brightly.

Harry gave him a wan smile and replied, "I'm fine. I need to talk to you after breakfast if it's alright with you?"

Albus looked at him intently and nodded. "That's fine. I hope things are well?" he asked in concern.

Harry looked at him, not realizing that his eyes were filled with pain, and said, "They will be."

Albus looked at him seriously. "You can tell me if something is wrong. I'll try to help in anyway I can," he said softly.

"It's alright, we'll talk later," Harry said.

The Headmaster nodded and proceeded to talk about the coming day. He was eager to hear what Harry would be teaching the students. They made small talk and Harry never realized that Severus had stalked into the Great Hall.

"Potter," a silky voice said.

Harry stiffened an instant before forcing himself to relax. He looked over at the Potion's teacher and nodded. "Snape," he said coolly before turning back to talk to Albus.

He didn't see Severus stop a moment and look at him in surprise. Harry had called him by his first name since the beginning of the school year. This was the first time Harry had called him by his last name and Severus frowned. He sat down and began to eat, waiting for Harry to begin nagging him about something. It was a few minutes before he realized that Harry hadn't said a word to him beyond his greeting. He looked over at the young man and frowned. He knew that something was going on with Harry but he didn't know what. There was a look of sadness that never seem to disappear from Harry's face. He had also caught glimpses of pain shining from Harry's eyes. The other teachers were also concerned about Harry and his withdrawn state.

Breakfast was over and Harry and Albus got up to leave. He walked past Severus and never said a word. Severus watched him leave with a frown. He tried not to admit it but he felt disappointment when Harry left without acknowledging him. Lost in thought he left the Great Hall and made his way down to the dungeon.

Harry followed Albus up to his office. They entered the room and Harry took a seat in front of the desk. He glanced up when he heard a trill and saw Fawkes fly over to him. The phoenix landed on his lap and proceeded to sing. Harry felt himself relax and some of the sadness he felt disappeared. Harry lifted his hand and began to pet the phoenix, who trilled in contentment. "Thank you Fawkes," he whispered and the phoenix sang a note in acknowledgement before flying back to his perch.

Albus looked at him seriously and asked, "What can I do for you Harry?"

Harry fidgeted a second before looking up at the Headmaster. "I've come to let you know that I won't be back for a second year," he said softly.

Albus looked at him in surprise. "Why ever not my dear boy? I thought you enjoyed teaching?" he said.

Harry chewed on his bottom lip nervously and nodded. "I do enjoy teaching but I can no longer be here. It hurts," he said with a whisper.

"What hurts?" Albus asked his eyes filled with confusion.

Harry looked down at his lap and nervously wrung his hands. "Being here. I can't do it any longer. I've tried and no matter I do it still hurts," he said softly.

Albus crossed his arms, laid them on the desk and leaned forward. "Harry, has something happened? Did someone hurt you?"

Harry chuckled bitterly before replying, "No, no one hurt me, at least not intentionally. It was my own stupidity and my own false hope that hurt me." His eyes filled with tears and he looked up at Albus. "I was stupid Albus. I believed I had a chance but now I know that I don't. I need to leave here because being around him hurts too much. I don't sleep and when I do I have dreams. It hurts Albus, it just hurts," he said with a hoarse whisper and tears began to fall from his eyes.

Albus's eyes widened at the sight and he got up from his desk and walked over to Harry. He sat in the chair next to him and grabbed his arm gently. "Oh Harry. What is it? What happened?" he asked softly. He couldn't stand seeing the young man he cared so much for in pain.

Tears fell from Harry's eyes and he gave a couple of sniffles before looking up. "Unrequited love sucks Albus," he muttered and Albus's eyes widened in comprehension. Thinking over the last year he had a sinking feeling he knew who Harry had fallen in love with.

"Severus," Albus said softly and Harry nodded miserably. He looked at the Headmaster and said, "I've loved him since my seventh year at Hogwarts but I knew I was too young then. Plus we had the war to worry about."

"That's why you went after him when Voldemort captured him," Albus said in understanding.

Harry nodded and said, "Yea and he yelled at me for it. He never understood and I could never tell him. I had hoped that this year I could have an opportunity to make him realize how I felt but he made it abundantly clear that I was nothing more than a co-worker to him. I tried to be friends but he brushed all efforts at getting to know him aside. I stupidly had hope though, sure that I would somehow break past his walls."

Harry shook his head and chuckled bitterly. "That was until two months ago when it became apparent that all the hope in the world wouldn't help me."

"What happened?" Albus asked.

"I saw Severus kissing another man, an older man, in Diagon Alley. I could see the love between the two and I knew then that I had no chance. Being around Severus now hurts too much. I need to leave Albus. I need to be able to get over him. I want to find someone who will be able to love me back. I can't do it here if I'm around the one person I want to get over. So I've decided not to return next year. I hate to do this to you Albus, but I just have to go," Harry said sadly.

Albus patted the young man on the arm. "I understand Harry. I'll miss you but I do understand. I knew something had been bothering you for the last couple of months but I have to admit I didn't know it was this. I'll be sad to see you go. You've been a joy to have around here," he said.

Harry looked at the Headmaster and gave him a wan smile. "Thanks Albus. Who knows, in a few years if the position is still open then maybe I can teach then. But for now, it's just impossible," he said.

Albus nodded and stood up. Harry got up from his chair and was surprised when Albus pulled him into a hug. Pulling back, Albus smiled at him. "I know you can't be here now but that doesn't mean you can't write. I don't want to lose contact with you," he said cheerfully.

Harry gave him a small grin. "Wherever I wind up, you can be sure that you'll have an open invitation. I would miss you too much if you never visited Albus."

Albus smiled brightly, the twinkling in his eyes ever present. "Well off you go. You have a month to teach the students all you can. I'll talk to you later Harry," he said cheerfully.

Harry nodded and left the office. He made his way down to his class room. He felt oddly buoyant now that he knew he only had a month left. Then he would be gone from Hogwarts, gone from Severus and hopefully gone from the pain.

A couple of weeks later the teachers were in the staff room for their weekly meeting. Harry looked around nervously. He knew that Albus would be announcing that he was leaving at the end of the year. The last couple of weeks had been hard on Harry as he began to ignore Severus. He saw confusion on the man's face a couple of times when he walked past him without starting a conversation. Harry shook his head ruefully I guess I was trying too hard. Harry honestly didn't think the man would notice when he stopped talking to him. He made sure that the seating arrangement at the Head table was changed. Albus was a great help in that.

"Now everyone before we leave for the day I want to make an announcement. I'm sad to say that we will be losing one of us at the end of the year. For personal reasons Harry has decided not to come back next year," Dumbledore said and Harry's co-workers looked at him in surprise and shock.

"Are you alright?" Minerva asked in concern.

Harry looked at her and smiled. "I'm fine. I just need to leave."

"Can you tell us why?" she asked gently.

Harry's eyes filled with pain and Minerva held back a gasp at the anguish she saw shining from his eyes. "No, it's personal," Harry said softly. Minerva nodded in understanding and looked at Albus. He shook his head and Minerva dropped the subject.

"Off to pander to your fan club again?" Severus asked in a cold voice.

Harry stiffened in pain and glanced at Albus. "Are we done?" he asked hoarsely.

Albus glared at Severus and nodded. "Yes Harry we're done," he said kindly.

Harry got up, ignoring the glaring man next to him, and left the staff room. He made his way to his room and entered them quickly. He shut the door and locked it, leaning against the door as the pain at Severus's cold question overwhelmed him. He knew then that he was making the right decision by leaving. He heard a hoot and looked over at the owl that was sitting on his desk. He walked over to the small barn owl and took the note from his foot. He gave a treat to the owl and patted it on the head. He made his way over to the couch and sat down. He unrolled the parchment and began to read.

Harry,

Mione and I would like it if you came over for dinner tonight. We have something important to tell you and to ask you.

The family will be there and so will Charlie. (nudge, nudge, wink, wink)

We'll be expecting around six so don't be late.

Ron

Harry laughed at the note. Ron had been trying to get Harry to date his brother Charlie since he had found out that Harry was gay. Ron couldn't seem to get it through his head that Charlie and he were simply not interested in each that way. They'd had a brief fling right after Harry graduated but they realized they made better friends. They both found amusement in Ron's attempt in matchmaking.

Only Hermione and now Albus knew of his love for Severus. Hermione had been shocked at first but had taken it well. When he found out about Severus's lover she had been sympathetic. She worried about him and made sure to send him a note everyday to cheer him up. Harry looked at the clock and jumped off the couch in surprise. He had an hour and a half to get ready. He wrote down his acceptance and attached the note to the owl's foot. He watched the owl fly out through the window. He turned and headed for the bathroom to get ready. He was looking forward to spending time with the Weasley clan. Maybe they could take his mind off Severus for the night.

An hour later he left his room and began the walk down the hallway. He was humming quietly to himself. He was actually in a good mood for once. He made his way to the exit of the castle. He walked out of the front doors and made his way to the gate.

"And where would the esteemed Savior of the Wizarding World be off to?" a cold voice asked him.

Harry stopped a second before deciding to ignore Severus. He kept on walking towards the gate.

"Don't ignore me Potter. I asked you a question," Severus said harshly.

Harry continued to walk away without answering. He was not going to play Severus's game. He knew it would only lead to hurtful words and he just couldn't cope with that right now. The sooner he made it to the gate the sooner he could apparate to the Ron's house.

"Damn it Potter, don't you walk away from me. I deserve some respect," Severus yelled.

Harry stopped and turned and looked at him. Harry's eyes shined with pain and he said, "You deserve some respect? What about me? Don't you think I deserve some respect? I'm only showing you the same amount of respect that you show me. I don't have to answer to you Snape. You're no longer my teacher and you're definitely not my father. Where I go, what I do and who I see is none of your concern. Goodnight Snape," Harry said coldly. He turned and walked past the gates and the wards. He immediately apparated to Ron's house and stood there as he tried to control his anger. There went his good mood.

He walked up to the house and knocked on the door. The door opened and Charlie was standing there. His face brightened when he saw Harry standing on the doorstep. He walked out of the house and grabbed Harry and pulled him into his arms.

"Harry," he said joyously. "It's good to see you again." He pulled back from the hug and gave him a passionate kiss on the lips. Harry leaned into his ex-lover and sighed. For a moment he felt wanted and that went a long way to appease his anger. He pulled back and grinned at Charlie, "Careful Charlie, you might get Ron excited. He's probably in the midst of planning our wedding as we speak."

Charlie started to laugh and dragged him into the house. "Hey look who I found out on the doorstep," he called out. The red-headed clan looked over at them and cries of "Harry" filled the air. Harry relaxed for the first time in days, basking in the love of the Weasley clan.

Ron walked over to him and grabbed him for a hug. He pulled back and beamed at him. "Hey mate, how're you doing?" he asked cheerfully.

"I'm doing well. You?" Harry asked

"Can't complain," Ron said with a grin.

Harry walked over to the rest of the Weasleys and bent down to kiss Molly on the cheek. He hugged Ginny and shook hands with the rest of the clan. He walked into the kitchen and saw Hermione fixing dinner.

"Hey Mione," he said.

She whirled around and squealed in joy when she saw him. She rushed over to him and threw her arms around him, giving him a hug. She pulled back and Harry noticed that she was glowing. Her eyes were filled with joy and happiness. His eyes narrowed and he looked her over. He cocked his head and he scanned her and noticed two magical signatures mixed in with hers. His eyes widened and he looked at her in shock.

"Mione?" he asked in a whisper.

She grinned at him and said, "I knew you would figure it out. With your magical abilities I knew you would be able to see the magical signature. Ron and I just found out today."

"Wow, twins!' he said joyously.

Hermione froze and looked at him in shock. "What?" she squeaked out.

Harry looked at her in confusion. "There are two magical signatures mixed in with yours. The signatures are so alike that I almost didn't see it. You're having twins," Harry said with a grin.

The shock was replaced with joy and she squealed in happiness. "Oh I have to tell Ron," she said and ran out of the kitchen yelling for her husband.

Harry walked out of the kitchen and watched in amusement as she whispered into Ron's ear. His face went white and he looked over at Harry, a question on his face. Harry nodded and Ron's face light up with joy. He picked Hermione up and whirled her around, crying out in happiness. The rest of the family had finally realized that something was going on and they surrounded the couple, demanding answers.

When Ron told them the good news, Molly squealed in happiness and proceeded to hug them. Arthur patted Ron on the back and kissed Hermione on the cheek. The rest of the Weasley clan began to hug them and gave them their congratulations. Harry watched as Ron looked down at his wife and touched her face gently. The love that was in his expression made Harry's throat tighten with tears. He looked away as Ron gave Hermione as gentle kiss. He cleared his throat and made his way back into the kitchen. While he was happy for Ron and Hermione, it just made him realize what he was missing and what he couldn't have with Severus.

He was taking the bread out of the oven when Hermione and Ron came into the kitchen. "Harry," she said nervously. "We would like to ask you something."

Harry looked at them in concern and asked, "Is everything alright?"

"Yea mate, everything is fine. We um�well we wanted to know if um�you would�could you�well," Ron stammered out.

"Oh honestly Ron, it's not that hard," she said rolling her eyes. She looked at Harry and said, "We would like to know if you would be the godfather of our children."

Ron nodded his head eagerly and said, "Yea, what she said."

Harry looked at them in shock and whispered, "Me?"

They both nodded and Harry's eyes filled up with happy tears. "Yes, I would love to be their godfather," he said hoarsely.

They all three smiled at each other before Hermione groaned in annoyance. "We hug now," she said firmly.

Harry chuckled and proceeded to hug Ron then Hermione. He was going to be a godfather. That was just, wow! he thought gleefully.

Ron grinned at him and left the kitchen. Hermione walked over to the stove and began to stir the pot of stew that was sitting there. She hummed softly as Harry helped her fix the salad. She paused and looked over at Harry. "How are you doing?" she asked softly.

Harry glanced at her with a sad gaze and shrugged. "Ok I guess. I decided that I'm not going back to Hogwarts next year. I already told Albus that I would be leaving. He wasn't happy but he understood once I explained it to him," he said.

"Oh Harry. I know you like teaching. Are you sure you can't stay?" she asked.

Harry bit his lip and shook his head. "No, it hurts too much. Even before I came here he was being cruel. Of course he doesn't think he is but he was. He'll never see me more than the son of the man he hates. The arrogant child who lives in the limelight, the wonderful Savior of the Wizarding World," Harry said bitterly. "I love him so much Mione and he can't even see the real me."

"Who do you love Harry?" Ron asked from behind him.

Harry whirled around and looked at his best friend in shock. "Uh�Ron, I didn't hear you come in," he said.

Ron snorted and said, "Obviously. Now maybe you'll finally tell me who you're really in love with?"

Harry looked at him in shock. "What?" he asked.

Ron rolled his eyes and said, "Harry, mate, you're my best friend and you have been for twelve years. I think I know when you're in love."

"What about Charlie?" Harry asked with a frown.

"Even I know there is nothing there. I do it because it's amusing to me. So who are in love with? Who do I have to beat up for hurting you?" Ron asked seriously.

Harry throat tightened with emotion at his best friend's words. He did the best thing in the world when he picked Ron over Malfoy. "It's Severus," he said quietly.

Ron stared at him a moment before nodding. "I thought it might be. Before you ask, it's the way you act around him. Like I said, I've been your friend for twelve years. You can't really hide anything from me. I'm sorry he's too much of a git to see you Harry. I'm sorry the man has hurt you. Do you want me to beat him up?" he asked semi-jokingly.

Harry chuckled and shook his head. "No, I'll be leaving Hogwarts at the end of the year. I've decided its time to get over him or at least find someone who will love me. I can't stay there anymore," Harry said. "Merlin knows its not like the man is going to miss me."

"I'm sorry to hear that Harry. I know how much you love to teach. But it'll be good for you to get away from him and the pain he's caused you," Ron said. "You know Mione and I will be here for you and once the twins are born, well you can spoil them all you want," Ron said with a grin.

Harry laughed sadly and said, "Thanks Ron, you too Mione. I don't know what I would do without you guys."

Hermione looked over at them and said briskly, "You'd starve. Dinner is done and its time to eat. Go set the table," she said and shooed them out of the kitchen. Harry and Ron left, laughing at her imitation of her mother-in-law. Harry began to set the table, secure that at least someone loved him.

Harry made his way to his room at Hogwarts. The dinner with the Weasleys was just what he needed. He grinned in remembrance at the teasing the twins had inflicted on Ron and Mione about being parents. He was excited about the news. He didn't know if he would ever have any children so Ron and Mione's children would have to do for now.

He stopped in front of his door and muttered the password. The door opened and he walked in. He shut the door and went to make a cup of tea. He was in the middle of adding sugar to the tea when there was a banging on his door.

"Open the door Potter, you blasted brat. I want to talk to you," he heard Severus yell. "I know you're in there. Open up damn you!"

Harry looked at his door with a frown. What the hell was Severus yelling about? he wondered. He bit his lip in indecision. Maybe Severus would go away if he ignored the knocking.

"Don't you ignore me! I'll stand out here all night and make a scene if I have to. Open this god damn door," Severus yelled angrily.

Upset with how Severus was acting, Harry stomped over to the door and flung it open. "What the hell do you want Snape? It's 2:00 in the fucking morning. Why are you doing banging on my door so damn late? What the hell is your problem?" Harry asked with a snarl.

Severus brushed past Harry and entered the room. Harry slammed the door and turned around and glared at Severus. "What? What do you want now that couldn't wait until the morning? I haven't done shit to you. I don't need nor want your damn attitude. Now leave my room or by god you'll regret it," Harry said angrily.

"Shut up you miserable excuse for a man," Severus snarled and Harry's eyes widened in shock. Harry felt pain at the words and internally winced as he realized that whatever the hell Severus's problem was, the result was not going to be pretty.

"I want you to know that it's all your fault. I was perfectly happy before you came back. Then you come back and screw it all up and you have the gall to tell everyone that you're leaving before you fix it? Not bloody likely," Severus growled out.

Harry looked at the raving man in confusion. "What's my fault? I haven't done anything to you!" he yelled out.

"Exactly you twit," Severus said with triumph.

Harry pinched the bridge of his nose and took a deep breath to calm himself. He didn't understand what Severus was trying to say. "Maybe if you explained it to me I can try to understand what you're trying to tell me," Harry said in a calm voice.

"Oh no! No uh huh, talking is what got it started in the first place. I can't go anywhere without you talking. You talked and you nagged and then you stopped. I left him because of your talking then you tell me you're leaving. Oh hell no, you are not leaving," Severus said with a glare.

"What I do with my life is not your concern. If I want to leave then I'll leave. You have no say in it," Harry said coldly.

Severus sneered at him. "Oh so you're going to him are you? That's the real reason you're leaving isn't it? He's your fucking personal reason," Severus said with a snarl. "Well I won't allow it," he yelled out.

"Him? What him? Severus, what the hell are you going on about?" Harry asked in confusion.

Severus stalked over to him and got into his face. With a crazed look he spat out, "You are not leaving Harry. If you do, I'll drag your ass back here."

Harry took a step back as he could smell the alcohol fumes on Severus's breath. "Have you been drinking?" Harry asked in disbelief. "How much?"

"What the fuck does it matter? What I do in the privacy of my own room is my business," he said.

Harry grew angry at the unfairness of the remark. "That is so fucking hypocritical of you. You demand to know my business but tell me to butt out when it's yours. You're a fucking bastard. I want you to leave my room. I have nothing to say to you. I'm tired of hearing you rant and rave about whatever insane idea you have in your head. Come back when you're not drunk," Harry said angrily and walked to the door. He touched the handle when he was whirled around and slammed him against the door.

"No! I told you that you're not leaving and I meant it," Severus yelled at Harry.

Harry stared at him with shocked eyes. "What the hell? Severus?" he whispered.

"You belong here. You belong with me and I'll be damn if you leave me now. Not now," Severus snarled.

Harry tried to pull away. "Let me go damnit. We can sit down and talk about this but you need to let me go," Harry said.

"Never," Severus roared out. He grabbed Harry by the hair and pulled his head back. "Mine," he snarled and slammed his mouth down on Harry.

Harry froze in shock as he felt Severus's lips on his. He stood there a moment before he let out a moan. Oh Merlin the man could kiss. His eyes closed and he opened his mouth to let Severus's tongue in. Their tongues dueled for dominance and Harry gasped as he felt Severus's hands on his ass. They grabbed him and pulled him hard against Severus's body and Harry moaned as he felt his hard cock pressed up against Severus' hard cock. He pulled back from the kiss to breathe and Severus pulled his head back and attacked his throat. Severus nibbled and sucked as he muttered, "Never leave me, never going leave me."

Harry whimpered as Severus attacked his lips again. He could taste the scotch that Severus has been drinking and that brought Harry to a sudden halt. He began to fight Severus's hold but he wouldn't let go.

Severus pulled his head back and looked at Harry with a possessive look. "Mine, not his. Mine, always mine," he said with a growl and Harry whimpered as he shivered in desire at the words. As much as he wanted to believe in what was going on he knew that Severus was drunk. He didn't know what was going on and Harry had to put a stop to it. He panted as Severus's hands began to roam over his body. He shouted in pleasure as Severus cupped his cock and began to caress it through his pants.

"Severus you have to stop. Oh Merlin, yessss," he hissed out. No wait, that's not what I meant to say. He pulled back from Severus and said, "Stop Severus. You need to stop. You don't know what you're doing. You're drunk. Oh god that feels good. No, stop. Severus," Harry groaned as the man began to suck on his neck again.

Severus looked at him and gave him a feral grin. "You talk too much," he said and proceeded to ravish Harry's mouth again. Harry whimpered at the sensation of Severus's soft lips on his. He could taste the essence of Severus under the scotch. His mind went blank and he could only focus on the pleasure of the kiss. Severus pulled back and Harry gulped for air. His breathing was harsh and he felt dizzy. He body was dancing with sparks of arousal and he had trouble remembering his own name.

"My Harry," Severus said softly and touched his face gently. Harry looked at him and the touch made him go cold and he pulled away from Severus sharply. "No I'm not Severus. I don't know what's going on but I've never been yours. You need to leave. You're drunk. I don't want you to do something that you'll regret in the morning," Harry said. Harry felt like crying but there was no way in hell he would do that with Severus here.

"Please leave Severus. I can't deal with this right now," Harry said softly.

"No, I'm not leaving," Severus said firmly.

Harry took a deep breath and nodded. "Fine then I will," he said and turned towards the door to open it. Hands grabbed him and pulled him against a hard body. "No, my Harry, you're not leaving. I told you that. You're mine and I won't allow you to leave."

Harry turned around quickly and pushed the man back. Severus stumbled back a couple of steps and looked at Harry in shock. "What the hell are you doing Severus? I told you to leave. Why are you doing this to me? Do you enjoy hurting me? Is that what this is? Is this some sort of sick revenge on the Boy Who Lived?" Harry asked in contempt. "Because as far as I know you hate me. You've hated me for years and now you want me to believe the man who so casually cuts me down suddenly has feelings for me? BULLSHIT! I don't know what's going on but I'm not playing your game. I want you gone by the time I get back Snape," Harry said coldly. He turned, opened the door and walked out, slamming it behind him.

He stalked down the corridor, tears forming in his eyes. Merlin it hurt. It hurt so much. He never knew Severus; no Snape, could be so cruel. Did he know about Harry's feelings? Is that why he did what he did? Could he really be that cruel? Harry didn't want to think so but why else would he do it? Harry rushed out of the castle and walked towards the lake. He walked around it and walked to his private niche that he'd found when he a seventh year student. He sat down and leaned against the tree and began to sob as the pain overwhelmed him.

He didn't know how long he had been crying but he finally calmed down. The sobs trickled down to hiccups and he took a couple of sniffs. He looked up at the sky as he wiped the tears off his face and sighed. He stayed there for a while before deciding that Snape had enough time to leave his room. He stood up and turned to walk back to the castle. He was exhausted; from the crying and the emotional upheaval of the fight. He made his way back to his room and muttered the password. He opened the door and walked in. He sniffled a couple of more times, the tears not far from the surface.

He headed towards the bedroom. He was ready for what little sleep he knew he would be getting tonight.

"Harry," a voice said softly.

Harry whirled around and saw Severus standing in dark corner of his room. "What are you still doing here? Haven't you hurt me enough?" he asked pain shining from his eyes.

Severus stood a step forward and halted when Harry moved back. "I'm sorry," Severus whispered. "The only excuse I have is because I was drunk."

"Oh and you're not now?" Harry asked in a snide tone.

"Spell," Severus replied.

"Oh," Harry said shortly. "What are you still doing here? I thought I told you not to be here when I got back."

Severus winced and said, "I just wanted to apologize for my behavior."

"Yea well apology not accepted," Harry said belligerently. He wiped his eyes and felt the wetness from the tears that he had cried. He closed his eyes tiredly and sniffled. He felt like sobbing again. Merlin he was being such a girl but he was exhausted, stressed and in pain. Severus behavior didn't help him any.

Harry felt hands on his face, wiping away the few tears that had escaped. Harry's eyes flew open and he watched in astonishment as Severus's face crumpled in regret. "I made you cry," he said softly. "I'm so sorry Harry. I never meant to make you cry." He pulled his hands away and Harry couldn't stop the whimpered of protest from escaping.

Severus glanced at him in confusion. He shook his head, turned and headed for the door. "I can never apologize enough for my behavior tonight. I don't blame you for not accepting it," he said softly.

"Why? Why did you come here tonight?" Harry asked as the man's hand touched the door.

Severus leaned against the door and sighed. "You're leaving," he replied.

Harry looked at him in confusion. "So? I thought that would make you happy. After all who needs the Savior of the Wizarding World around? Isn't that what you told me?" Harry asked.

Severus looked over at him sadly. "I guess I owe you more than just one apology. I didn't mean it. I never meant anything of what I said to you this year," he said.

"Then why say it? Why insult me if you didn't mean it?" Harry cried out.

"I'm not a nice man Harry you know that. It was a defensive mechanism and I'm afraid I treated you rather harshly," Severus explained softly.

"From what? I never did anything to you Severus. I tried to be your friend and all I got was cutting remarks or distant acknowledgement. I don't understand what I did that was so wrong," Harry said tearfully.

Severus stalked over to him and touched him on the face. "You did nothing. It was my fault. I tried to keep myself safe but it didn't work."

"Safe from what?" Harry asked in confusion.

"My feelings for you," Severus said softly.

Harry's eyes widened in shock. "What?" he whispered.

Severus's hand continued to caress Harry's face. "I became aware of my attraction for you not too long after you graduated. I taught you everything I know and as we spent time together, my attraction began to bloom. But there was a war going on and I didn't have time to worry about things like feelings. So I pushed it aside and focused on teaching you how to defend yourself. Then you finally killed Voldemort and suddenly my excuses had no merit but you left. You were gone a year, seeing the world, growing as a person. When you finally came back, you were different. More confident, less stressed. My feelings rushed back but I pushed them aside again, determined to ignore them," Severus explained.

"I figure I wouldn't have a chance with you. You're young and vibrant and I'm not. I'm an old ex-Deatheater with nothing to offer you. So I continued to treat you as I always have, hoping to spare myself pain. But you were relentless in your pursuit of friendship. I got use to you hounding me all the time. You were always there with your little comments, your snarky, and sarcastic humor. I woke up every day anticipating whatever you would try to do to get past my walls. I looked forward to seeing your eyes sparkle in amusement and determination. I loved to hear you talk passionately about teaching. You were always there, talking to me. Then it stopped. You stopped laughing, your eyes were dull. You withdrew from everyone, especially me and I began to wonder if maybe you had given up. I was confused and angry. Angry at myself for pushing you away and at you for giving up on me. I was very confused and then you threw me for another loop," Severus said.

"Dumbledore announced that I was leaving," Harry said softly, his mind in a daze.

"Yes. I knew then that my time had run out. I could either let you leave and never say a word or I could finally tell you how I felt. Either way, I had nothing to lose. I saw you leaving the castle and all I could think of was that your 'personal reason' was a lover. I'm afraid that I quite lost my head after that. You apparated and I followed you. Once I realized where I was at I also realized how stupid I had been," Severus said.

"I calmed down only to be thrown for a loop again. I witnessed the kiss between you and Charlie and I went mad with jealousy. I apparated back to Hogwarts and began drinking. I put a spell on your door that would let me know when you got back. By the time you came back, I'm afraid I was rather drunk. My behavior was atrocious and as I said, I can never apologize enough," Severus said softly.

Harry licked his dry lips and softly asked, "What are your feelings for me?"

Severus walked closer to him and lifted his hand to caress Harry's face again. Harry closed his eyes at the touch and opened them when Severus said, "Don't you know Harry? I love you."

Harry bit his lips to keep from sobbing. He stared at the dark, intense man in front of him and decided that he needed to be held. Too much had happened tonight. He was exhausted and emotionally drained. He took a tiny step forward and paused. He glanced at Severus warily and took another step forward.

"Come to me Harry," Severus said softly. Harry glanced at him and quickly walked into Severus's arms. He could feel them as they enfolded him in their warm embrace. He snuggled closer to Severus and sighed in contentment. He stood there and became very sleepy. He yawned widely and looked up into Severus's face. He blinked at him sleepily and Severus said, "You look drained. You need to go to bed."

Harry hummed in agreement and just stood there. He was quite happy where he was, thank you very much. He moaned in protest as Severus moved. He looked at the man with an unhappy expression and Severus chuckled softly. "You look like a child who had his toy taken away."

Harry looked at him in irritation and said, "I did."

Severus smiled and pulled him into the bedroom. He proceeded to take Harry's robe off and laid it on the chair. He took his wand out and transfigured Harry's clothes into pajamas. He pulled the covers back and helped Harry onto bed. He covered Harry up and kissed him softly on the lips. "Goodnight Harry," he said and stood up to leave.

Harry grabbed his hand and stopped him. "Stay," he whispered. "I don't want you to leave me."

"Harry, I�" Severus began in protest.

"Please Severus," Harry begged.

"Alright, I'll stay," he said and began to take his robe off. He took out his wand and transfigured his clothes into pajamas. He pulled back the covers and got onto the bed. He lay down and pulled the covers back over him. He looked over at Harry and Harry wiggled his way over to Severus. He snuggled up to the man and laid his head on Severus's chest. He wrapped an arm around Severus's stomach and sighed in contentment. Harry felt the kiss on his hair and muttered, "Night Severus."

"Good night my love," Severus said softly.

"Love you," Harry muttered and Severus's eyes opened flew open in shock. He looked down at the sleeping man and smiled. "I love you as well," he said softly.

Harry grumbled sleepily as his pillow moved. He frowned in annoyance as it kept moving. He opened his eyes and sat up in shock as he realized that his pillow was Severus's chest. He blinked rapidly, wondering how Severus got into his bed.

"Harry?" Severus asked softly, only half awake. Harry's movement on the bed woke him up.

"Uh Severus? Why are you in my bed?" Harry asked in confusion.

Severus looked at him in amusement and said, "Because you asked me to stay."

Harry frowned slightly and asked, "I did?"

"Yes and you also told me that you loved me before you fell asleep," Severus said in a soft voice.

"Oh, I did?" Harry asked again. He stared at Severus a moment before saying, "Well I guess I do."

"You guess?" Severus asked in amusement.

"Well maybe, it could be that I might love you a little," Harry said after biting his bottom lip. He glanced at Severus shyly.

"How long?" Severus asked in curiosity.

"Since my seventh year at Hogwarts," Harry explained.

Severus looked at him in shock. "Since when?" he asked in disbelief.

Harry shrugged before replying, "I knew I loved you then but I also knew that you wouldn't have anything to do with me. I was too young and I was the son of the man you hated. Then there was the war and I had to worry more about learning to kill Voldemort than I had to worry about a love that I knew wouldn't go anywhere. When Voldemort captured you, I went nuts. I had to rescue you because I knew that if he killed you I would've been destroyed. You may not have loved me but I was just happy knowing that you were alive. After your rescue and Voldemort's death I decided that I needed time away so I went on my world tour," Harry explained.

"I can't tell you how happy it made me when Albus wrote me and asked me to teach DADA. I would finally be able to see you after a year. I had hoped that maybe enough time had gone by and with us working together in the war, that we could finally be friends. I figured if we could become friends then maybe that could develop into more. Of course it didn't take me too long to figure out that it was going to be harder to be your friend than I thought," Harry said ruefully.

Severus took his hand and squeezed gently. "I'm sorry for the way that I acted."

"It's alright now. At the time it hurt, hell it hurt a lot but I'm not a Gryffindor for nothing you know," Harry said in amusement. "I was determined to become your friend if it was the last thing I did. I had so much hope for us. I just knew that if I broke through your walls, we could be so much more," Harry said with a smile.

"That is until two months ago," Harry said with remembered pain. "I had gone to Diagon Alley to do some errands. I was going to buy your favorite scotch and invite you to a night of chess and talking. I had just come out of the pet shop when I saw you in the alleyway. You were kissing a brown-haired man and I stopped in shock. I admit it threw me for a loop but it wasn't until you touched his face and looked at him with such emotion that I knew I had no chance with you. My heart was broken and you never even knew it," Harry said tearfully.

"He was an old friend. I had just broken off our relationship because I wanted a chance with you," Severus explained. "I do care for him but I don't love him," Severus explained.

Harry's eyes filled with tears and Severus tightened his grip on Harry's hand. "I tried for two months to get over the fact that I no hope. I tried but it hurt. It hurt knowing that I loved you and you couldn't even stand me. I dreamed about you nightly, sometimes they were nightmares. It was the dreams that dreamt we were together that killed me. I would wake up and cry as I realized it was only a dream. I had to leave. I couldn't stay here anymore. It wasn't your fault you know. I was the one who had held onto what I thought was a stupid hope. I would've never have guessed that you had feelings for me. I have to admit, I thought last night was some cruel joke that you decided to play on me. I thought maybe you knew about my feelings and you wanted to twist the knife as it were," Harry said.

Severus pulled Harry down and rolled over with him on top. "Never! I admit that I could've gone about it better but it was never about revenge. I love you Harry and if it takes the rest of my life to prove it to you then I'll do it," Severus said adamantly.

Harry raised his hand and caressed Severus's face. He trailed his finger down the man's nose and traced the shape of his lips. "Promise Severus? Promise that you'll be with me your whole life? Be with me always?" Harry asked softly.

Severus leaned down and kissed him softly. Their lips clung together in a gentle kiss and Harry sighed in delight. "I promise," Severus said softly.

Harry put his arm around Severus's neck and pulled him in for another kiss. The kiss started out gentle but quickly grew intense. They tasted each other and ravaged each other's mouth.

Severus moved from Harry's mouth to his neck. He stopped often to lick and suck. Severus nibbled on Harry's ear and Harry squirmed in pleasure. The whimpers made by Harry were loud and arousing.

Severus pulled back and gave Harry a wicked grin. He sat up and began to unbutton Harry's pajama top. Harry grinned back at Severus and said, "I don't usually sleep in pajamas. Just to let you know."

Severus's eyes grew hot and lust blazed from them. He grinned and said, "Neither do I," and laughed softly when Harry whimpered at the image of a naked Severus.

Severus pulled apart the pajama top and began to stroke the muscular chest. Harry sighed in pleasure then gasped aloud when Severus pinched a nipple. "Oh again, please. Yesssss," Harry hissed out as Severus pinched the nipple again. Severus bent over and took the nipple in his mouth. He bit down lightly and Harry arched his body with a yell of pleasure.

"Oh please Severus, please more," Harry said with a groan.

Severus began to lick his way down Harry's chest, past his stomach. He kissed Harry's belly button and reached the pajama bottoms. He gently cupped Harry's covered cock in his hand and caressed it. Harry growled, sat up and grabbed Severus. He rolled him over and laid him flat on the bed. He threw himself on top of the startled man and glanced down at him in lust.

"I love you Severus I really do, but I'm afraid that this time around I can't go slow. I've had too many dreams and I want to feel you against me, naked," Harry said with a growl. He watched in satisfaction as Severus's shivered in desire and his eyes widened in lust.

Harry waved his hands and their clothes disappeared. They both gasped as their naked skin touched. Severus grabbed Harry tightly and rolled them over. He looked down at Harry and gave him a feral grin. "I'm on top," he said and Harry moaned.

"Whatever, just touch me. I need to cum so bad," Harry said urgently.

Severus moved and their cocks touched. Harry groaned in delight and keened when Severus began to move, their cocks rubbing against each other. Severus braced himself with one hand and grabbed Harry's hair with another. He bent down and kissed Harry hard. He bit Harry's bottom lip and Harry growled out in lust. He put his hands on Severus's ass and pulled him closer. The pleasure from Severus's cock rubbing against his and Severus's passionate kisses began to build and he started to groan loudly.

"Oh Severus please more! Oh yesss�you feel so good," he said in a voice roughened by desire.

"My Harry," Severus said with a growl. "Mine, only mine." He moved against Harry harder and watched avidly has Harry's eyes rolled up in his head.

"Yours Sev, only yours. Please more�oh�oh�oh Merlin�.YES!" Harry yelled out as he came from the intense pleasure.

Severus began to move frantically and soon after he came with a shout. He collapsed on the bed and gathered a panting Harry close to him. They lay together in the afterglow, trying to calm their breathing. Harry moved and moaned as his sensitive cock brushed against Severus's leg. He moaned in annoyance as Severus grabbed his wand and uttered a cleaning spell. He yawned tiredly and cuddled up to Severus. He placed his head on Severus's chest and listened as Severus's heartbeat began to slow. He sighed in contentment and with a whispered "love you," drifted off.

An hour later there was a knock at the door and Harry woke up. He looked over at his sleeping lover and smiled He leaned down and kissed him softly on the lips. There was another knock and Harry sighed in annoyance. He grabbed his robe from the back of the bedroom door and put it on. He shut the door partway so as not to disturb Severus's rest. He stalked over to the door and threw it open. "What?" he growled out to his startled friends.

"Ah, you just getting out of bed?" Ron asked in confusion. "It's nearly noon."

"I had a late night," Harry said as he stepped back and let his friends in. "Did you need something?" Harry asked.

Hermione looked at him intently and smiled. "No, we just wanted to make sure you were ok. You were pretty sad last night and I thought maybe you would like to go out and do something, you know, to get your mind off things."

"Ah look, I would but�" Harry began but Ron interrupted him.

"Now Harry, it won't do you any good to sit around here and brood," he said.

"But," Harry began.

"No, as your friends its our right to help a depressed friend," Ron said.

"Ron, really I'm�"

Ron raised a hand and said, "As your best friend it is my duty to take you out and make sure you have a good time. There will be eating," he said.

"Ron please�"

"Dancing," Ron said pretending as if Harry didn't say anything.

"Ron," Harry said in exasperation.

"Drinking," Ron trilled out and Harry growled in annoyance.

"Ron for the last time," Harry began

"And dating!" Ron said in triumph. "Now, what were you trying to say?"

"If you would've given him the chance Mr. Weasley, he would've told you that he is busy for the rest of the day," a silky voice came from behind Ron.

Ron squeaked in surprise and whirled around to see Severus Snape leaning against the door frame of Harry's bedroom. He was wearing a green silk robe and his arms were crossed. He was looking at them in amusement. "I believe Harry will be busy shagging me for the rest of the day. You can come by tomorrow if you want. We might be done by then," Severus said with a wicked grin.

"Harry?" Hermione asked in confusion.

Harry grinned sheepishly and said, "After I left your place last night, things happened. He loves me," Harry said, happiness shining from his eyes.

Severus walked up to him and pulled him into his arms. He lifted his hand up and brushed back Harry's hair. He gazed into Harry's eyes and said, "Indeed I do Mr. Potter." He leaned down for a gentle kiss. Pulling back he said, "I'll be in the bedroom waiting for you." He leaned in and whispered, "Naked and hard Harry. So hurry up and get rid of your friends." With a smirk he pulled away and walked back to the bedroom and closed the door.

Harry stared at the bedroom door in a daze. He heard Ron clear his throat and looked at his friends and smiled brightly. "Well, it's been great seeing you. Sorry the visit is so short. I have things to do. Bye now," Harry said as he directed his friends to the door.

"But Harry," Ron said in confusion as Hermione began to laugh knowingly. They stepped out of his room and Harry grinned cheerfully. "I don't really think you want to be around when I shag Severus do you?" Harry asked his best friend, who had turned green at the suggestion. "Talk to you later, bye Mione," he called out.

"Bye Harry," she said in amusement and grabbed her bemused husband and dragged him down the hallway.

Harry shut the door, locked it and rushed over to his bedroom door. He opened it and walked in and stopped at the lovely sight of Severus naked and hard. He whimpered and took a step forward.

"Come to me my Harry," Severus said and held his hand up.

Harry stepped up to the bed and grabbed a hold of his future.

THE END.
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Hopes and Promises

Disclaimer: I do not nor will I ever own the Harry Potter story, characters, villains, heroes and creatures. I also sadly do not make any money off this story. Trust me; my bank account cannot lie about that.

HOPES AND PROMISES

By Betsanne