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Wake me	By : ccino49 Category: Harry Potter > Het - Male/Female Views: 1328 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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After tuning in to the muggle hour on the wizarding wireless network this afternoon, I heard this song and I was forced to once again write something relating to DH. Again. MAJOR SPOILERS. DO NOT read if you have not read book 7 yet.

Song ficlet.

Wake me

The dying moments of Severus Snape

For two years he�d tried to push her aside, refusing to let his feelings come to the fore. He denied what his heart told him, denied it with every fibre of his being. Even when she accepted him for what he was, gave him her all, he took it, oh yes he took all she had. Her love, her heart, her soul, her body. But he gave her nothing in return, other than a rough fuck whenever the mood took him, which was frequently, or he would use her to verbally vent his frustrations and anger. Donna. Where was she now? Was she alive somewhere? Or dead at the hands of some Death Eater. He hoped not, she did not deserve to die. Donna deserved someone who could give her what he could not. He could not love another. It was impossible after �
No, Lily was, is, and always will be my one true love. Yet now, as I lay here looking into her eyes, Lily�s eyes, those sparkling green orbs of hers peering back at me in horror and confusion, and not a little fear. Only they�re not Lily�s. Not really. Potter. Potter has her eyes. Harry Potter is the one who�s robes I barely feel, clutching them in my numbing fingers, my other hand at my neck, feeble fingers trying hopelessly to stem the flow of blood. At least that is where I think it is. Oh my thoughts, hopes, dreams. Where did they go?
�Take � it � Take � it� I croak quietly to Potter, my memories of her drifting from the gaping wound in my neck. I want � need him to look into my eyes, collect my memories and see into my soul. To know that I am not truly bad, although I have done bad things in my life, things I truly regret. I told myself it was because of them, the marauders that I slipped into this life of disorganised hatred, murder and cruelty. But I was lying to myself. It was my own hatred, jealousy and resentment that sent me down that road. Serving the Dark Lord, taking that hideous mark. Then the bastard killed her. He promised me she would live and he murdered her.

So I went to the only person I knew that might help me take my own cowardly, miserable life. Dumbledore. Yet when he appeared before me that cold windy night I knew, I knew beyond anything that I wanted to live, but Lily, my Lily, she was gone, taken from me as she desperately tried to protect her child.
So there I was, left to mourn, holding my grief deep inside of me, unable to allow it to come to the fore and run it�s course. Instead it lay festering in my heart, rotting me from the inside out.

"Look ... at ... me." I rasp, before my thoughts become nothing and I lose sight of the blessed, green orbs above me.

Then Donna appeared like a fresh spring breeze. For five years I looked at the desk in my classroom and saw Lily�s eyes looking at me from behind those round lenses, hateful, confused and fearful, just as they are now as I will him to take what is left of my love for his mother.
Now he is gone, thinking me dead. Am I dead? I do not know, but something, no someone else is in my thoughts now, someone who should not be here. She should be in a safe place, away from all this death and destruction. I could not bare it if Donna was to be just another faceless victim in this mad, bloody war.
A shadow looms over me. Is it Potter again? Or maybe the Dark Lord is returned to finish what Nagini started. Perhaps he wishes to torment my already agonised body even more than it already is. Though the pain is easing now, fading as the darkness nears. Maybe this is death himself come to claim me. Please let it be quick now. Donna, I am sorry for never showing the love you so rightly deserved. Only now as I lay here, struggling to take my last breaths do I realise that yes, I did love you. Do love you. Lily is the past, you should have been my future, our future. Free of tyranny and terror, liberated from the bloodshed that has surrounded our world for so long now.
The shadow covers me now and I force myself to open my eyes and stare death in the face.

�Nooo.� I whisper, barely a breath to carry my word.
�Severus.� Her sweet voice whispers to me. �Severus you must not die. Please do not leave me, I beg you.�
�Donna?� I cannot believe what I am seeing. Hearing. This beautiful, almost spectral being before me. Donna. My Donna. The sweetest woman to ever have graced my presence is here now, her pale blue eyes looking into mine with such sadness, such despair and love. How can she grieve for me this way? �Go.� I breathe. �Safe.�
But she does not move away, instead she cradles my head and presses the gentlest of kisses to my head, whispering words of love in my ear.
Oh Gods Donna why did I never see what love you hold in your heart for me? Why did I not cherish what you offered so openly to me? I no longer want to give in to this numbness that spreads through me like ice. I want � I want � I need you Donna. I need you like flowers need the sun, like a child needs it�s mothers breast, like a man needs the love of a woman.

Make sure you�re online and use this link to play along as you read.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNzVkK3GmbI

artist: Evanescence lyrics

title: Bring Me To Life

*featuring Paul McCoy

how can you see into my eyes like open doors

leading you down into my core

where I�ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold

until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

now that I know what I�m without

you can't just leave me

breathe into me and make me real

bring me to life

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

Bring me to life

(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)

Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see

kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I�ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems

got to open my eyes to everything

without a thought without a voice without a soul

don't let me die here

there must be something more

bring me to life

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

(Bring me to life)

I�ve been living a lie, there�s nothing inside

(Bring me to life)

�Donna.� I rasp one final time.
�Severus take this from me now.� She cries softly. Again I struggle to keep my eyes open as she lowers her head to mine. Our eyes meet and something shines so strangely in hers. It is like a bright light that dazzles and holds me at the same time. I want to close my own eyes against the brilliance, but I cannot as it narrows and floats toward me like a small cloud. It narrows as her nose, that nose I teased her about, like a button in the middle of her face, now rests it's tip against mine as the narrowing tendrils of something I do not recognise flows into my own dim black orbs.

I feel something on my neck, wet, thick like blood, yet cool. It soothes the slight pain I still feel there. The light now pierces my optic nerves and spreads slowly into my head, encasing my thoughts and down, filling me, through my arms and legs. I can feel as the numbness slowly subsides and the tendril of that what she has given me is now wrapping around my heart, causing it to expand. I can feel my soul clinging to every part of me, and love, I feel it now, both given and received, as this wonderful creature stills my imminent demise. My breathing becomes stronger and a warm liquid trickles down my throat. I swallow obediently, expecting whatever it is to bleed forth from the wound on my neck. But it does not, it travels down, down and stays there as fingers trace along my cheek, my jaw.
�Accept your soul Severus. Accept it with my love for all time. I will not abandon you. I have protected your soul without your knowing, held it within my own heart ready for the time you would give your love to me. Now it is yours again.�
My soul. I have it back, and it is no longer cold and black as it once was. Instead it is light, unburdened. Free of what was and ready to accept me, or for me to accept it. Again I ask my Donna.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNzVkK3GmbI

artist: Evanescence lyrics

title: Bring Me To Life

*featuring Paul McCoy

how can you see into my eyes like open doors

leading you down into my core

where I�ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold

until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

now that I know what I�m without

you can't just leave me

breathe into me and make me real

bring me to life

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

Bring me to life

(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)

Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see

kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I�ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems

got to open my eyes to everything

without a thought without a voice without a soul

don't let me die here

there must be something more

bring me to life

(Wake me up)

Wake me up inside

(I can�t wake up)

Wake me up inside

(Save me)

call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)

bid my blood to run

(I can�t wake up)

before I come undone

(Save me)

save me from the nothing I�ve become

(Bring me to life)

I�ve been living a lie, there�s nothing inside

(Bring me to life)

Now I sit on the dusty floor, embraced by a love so true it makes me weep. I turn, I reach out and return the embrace as I breath into her hair. The scent of blood and dust in those normally light brown locks, now lank and dirty from the filth in this fetid room. Yet to me she smells like a summers day as we hold one another. I know now that my life has begun, truly begun.

I have awoken to a new dawn because of the love of one woman whom I can now allow myself to admit that, I love also.

End

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