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From Hell To Heaven	By : Sigrun23 Category: Harry Potter > Het - Male/Female > Snape/Lily Views: 3793 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 1-A Long-awaited Meeting
- 1
It was a warm, sunny July day. Actually, warm couldn’t even describe it properly; hot would be the better word. Lily was wearing only a sleeveless top and a shorts and she was already uncomfortably hot and sweating. The redhead was walking quickly through thicket of trees to a secret spot by a river. In normal circumstances her only dream would be to savour a glass of soda with ice in her cool room or to dive into the refreshing water of the river.
But Lily wasn't thinking about either of those things. She had a meeting, which made her so happy and excited that today's heat almost didn't bother her. She was finally going to see her boyfriend after four long days.
Lily couldn't remember the last time she and Severus had been parted for so long. They met every day at school and spent a lot of days together during holidays. Sometimes, they spent every single minute in each other’s company. But this holidays, after their fifth year, were different. Severus was so busy at home that he couldn't meet her for more than a few hours and sometimes even had to cancel their encounters. But never for four days straight! So when, today morning Lily had received a message that Severus could spend an afternoon with her, she had been overwhelmed with happiness and almost bouncing from joy all day.
Lily and Severus communicated through connected notebooks which they had invented the previous year. Whatever was written in one notebook, instantly appeared in the second, which then started to glow to indicate a new message. Severus did have a telephone but his father didn't allow him to use it and although Lily owned an owl, Severus' father didn't like anything magical, thus, sending letters with an owl wasn't a good idea. So, notebooks was the best, easy and quick way to exchange messages.
Lily reached the edge of a small forest and halted in a clearing by the river. Severus was already there, sitting in a shadow of the trees and looking at spots of light dancing on the surface of the water.
Lily walked quietly to the raven haired boy and covered his eyes with her hands, wanting to surprise him. But it was Severus' reaction that surprised her.
Instead of smiling and kissing her hand, like he had used to do, Severus gasped and sprang to his feet, almost knocking Lily down in the process. As he turned around to face whoever had startled him, Lily saw fear and panic in the boy's black eyes, which almost instantly disappeared as he set eyes on his girlfriend.
“Lily!” exclaimed Severus and this time, Lily saw relief displayed on his face.
“I'm sorry, Sev, I didn't mean to startle you,” the red-haired girl apologised, feeling a bit guilty but also intrigued by Severus' sudden reaction.
“That's all right. I overreacted,” said Severus and indicated to Lily to sit down.
Lily sat at the bank of the river and stretched her legs. Severus sat cross-legged beside her but what astonished Lily was the fact that, instead of sitting right next to her and hugging her like he usually did, Severus kept a distance of a good three feet between them. And he didn't kiss me, thought Lily suspiciously. After four days of not seeing, he should be smothering me with kisses. It was almost as if Severus was afraid of her.
“So, what were you doing these last few days?” asked Severus, looking at her with a little smile on his thin lips.
“I was at the swimming pool with Tuney and yesterday we went with our parents to a cinema to watch ‘The Omen’.”
“Is it really as scary as everyone says?”
“Oh yes, it is. It's one of the best horrors I've ever watched and I have watched a lot of them. I wish you had been there with me. Maybe I wouldn't have been so terrified,” laughed Lily.
“You know I don't like horrors. I would be more terrified than you. I would probably have my eyes closed through half of the film,” replied Severus with a wry smile.
“We can go together to another film. Maybe comedy. Or drama, if you’d prefer that,” offered Lily.
Severus lowered his gaze and took a great interest in his tattered shoes.
“I can't,” he said softly.
“Why?” inquired Lily, though she suspected an answer.
“I don't have any pocket-money left,” said Severus, still not looking at her. “I spent everything on a Potions book I bought in June. And my father won't give me any more money now.”
“I can buy tickets,” suggested Lily with little hope.
As she had expected, Severus denied her offer. “I won't take your money. I've already said it many times before,” Severus' voice sounded a bit angry.
“I know. I'm sorry,” replied Lily. Money, or rather lack of it, was always a touchy subject during her conversations with Severus. She didn't want to argue now.
“Beside my father probably won't let me go,” added her boyfriend.
“Why? Do you really have so much work at home that you can't go out for a few hours?” asked Lily, referring to their many cancelled meetings.
“Yes. I have to help my father.”
“With what?” Severus never wrote what exactly he was doing at home. This time, Lily was determined to learn the truth.
“I- um- lately we've been working in a garden.”
“In a garden?” asked Lily suspiciously. “Severus, I'm sorry but I can't imagine your father planting flowers.”
“Actually, I was taking care of plants and mowing the grass and he was repairing a shed.”
“And it took you four whole days?” she asked skeptically.
“No, we were also repairing a roof and I have to clean and cook while my father is at work,” answered Severus, a bit irritated by her questioning. “Look, Lily, I am really sorry that I haven't been able to meet with you lately. I wanted but I couldn't and it wasn't my fault. I missed you,” he added quietly.
“I missed you too,” replied Lily and touched gently his arm.
The boy flinched violently but quickly stilled himself and let his girlfriend slowly massage his arm. Lily furrowed her brows, worried by his reaction.
“Sev, is everything alright?”
“Yes, why are you asking?” he tried to sound indifferent but at the same moment, he started to pluck grass which he always did when he was angry or nervous.
“You’re acting strangely.”
“Strangely? Why do you think so?” now he was breaking a twig and avoiding her gaze.
“You were badly startled or rather, scared when I came. You didn't kiss or hug me which you always do when we meet. You're keeping a distance between us and flinched when I touched you.”
This time Severus didn't reply. Lily waited a while for his comment but none came.
“And I think you aren't telling me the whole truth about your situation at home,” she continued. “He was beating you again, wasn't he?”
“What? No!” denied Severus hastily.
“Severus, don't take me for a fool. Why are you wearing long slacks and shirt when there is thirty degrees outside?” Lily asked rhetorically. When they were children, Lily quickly discovered that Severus often hid bruises and scraps beneath his clothes.
“Alright, he hit me yesterday,” the boy admitted. “Nothing special, really.”
“Nothing special!” exclaimed Lily. “No father should hit his child! Never!”
“Lily, calm down. I'm used to it. I've had worse. Besides, what can I do?”
“You should report this to a police officer or a social worker,” proposed Lily.
“And what would they do? They'd say that it's normal, that a father has a right to discipline his child. They probably do it themselves.”
“No one has a right to beat another person!” Lily said vehemently. “My parents never hit me or Petunia. Not even once.”
“You're a lucky exception,” replied Severus, with a bit of jealousy and sadness in his voice. “But the environment I come from has a different view on this matter. Almost every child gets a spanking from time to time.”
“Maybe. However, what your father does is more than a spanking. I remember that sometimes you were hurt really badly. He broke your arm once. Luckily, your mother was able to heal you then. But now-”
“Lily, please.” Severus interrupted her tiredly. “I don't want to talk about it. Could we just leave this topic in peace?”
Lily agreed seeing that Severus was greatly upset. But she wasn't giving up on the issue of Severus' abuse. She was resolved to learn more from her boyfriend in the future and ask her parents for advice. She wanted to help Severus but at the same time she understood that he was uncomfortable discussing his home life and too proud to ask for help.
The girl lay down on the soft grass and closed her eyes. She could feel Severus watching her but he remained silent. After a while he lay down next to her and started to play with her hair. She loved it, the action was relaxing but also arousing. This time, she didn't let her mind dwell on fantasies. She had more important things to think about.
When they met, as nine-year-old children, Severus was very shy and a skittish boy. He often flinched when unexpectedly touched and was easily startled by raised voices or sudden movements. Lily quickly discovered the cause of these reactions as it was impossible for Severus to hide bruises every time. But when they went to Hogwarts and Severus grew up, he understood that not every adult person was going to hurt him. He was comfortable when Lily was touching him, as he completely trusted her, and only rarely flinched when touched by another person.
But something had changed in the last few weeks. Lily began to wonder when Severus' odd behaviour had started. She remembered that at school Severus had been behaving normally. The first signs had appeared in the first week of the holidays. So it must have something to do with Severus' father, concluded Lily.
“I wonder when we get our O.W.L. results,” said Severus, still stroking her hair.
“I heard McGonagall saying that we should expect them at the end of July.”
“So only one week more of waiting. By the way, I asked Slughorn if my results could be sent to your home as my father doesn't like owls. He agreed. Is it alright with you?” asked the boy.
“Yeah, no problem. I'm so nervous about my Transfiguration mark. My exam didn't go well,” admitted Lily.
“Nor did mine. I was still thinking about the incident by the lake the day before and couldn't focus. Well, at least we can be sure about our Potion marks. We can't get anything but Outstandings.”
“You're right,” said Lily with a smile. “I'm going to dip my feet in the river. It's horribly hot today. Are you coming?”
“Yeah, why not?”
They went to the river, took off their shoes and sat down on the bank, submerging their feet in the cool water. Lily splashed Severus with water and laughed at his indignant face. But the boy quickly repaid her with the same and soon they abandoned all restraints and went fully into the river, splashing each other with water and shouting joyfully. Later, they lay down in the sun to dry and spent a long time discussing anything and everything. Severus seemed to forget about his awful situation at home which made Lily especially happy.
Lily looked at her watch.
“Merlin's beard, it's six o'clock!” she exclaimed. “The time passed so fast! I have to go, Mum must be waiting with a supper.”
“Six- six o'clock?” asked Severus. Lily looked at him and saw a sheer panic in his eyes. “I was supposed to be at home at five. My father will be angry.”
“It's just an hour,” Lily tried to reassure him.
“You don't understand, Lily. I have to go. Now,” Severus was hastily putting on his socks and shoes.
“Then let me understand, Severus. Talk to me.”
“I can't. Not now. Lily, I'm really sorry but I won't walk you home. I'll write to you later,” he gave her a short kiss on the cheek. “Bye!”
Severus ran into the woods, leaving Lily confused and sad. She put on her shoes and went home, all the time thinking about her boyfriend. She had seen too much to give up on the problem of Severus' abuse. She was going to talk with her parents tonight and was hoping they would be able to help him.
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Severus, still panting from his run, pulled out a key from his pocket. His hands were shaking so much that he had problems with putting the key into a keyhole. He let himself into the house, hoping against hope that his father wasn't at home. Maybe he went with his friends to a pub after work. As quietly as he could, he took off his shoes and headed for the stairs. He placed a foot on the first step when he heard his father's cold voice.
“Where have you been, boy?” he never called his son by his given name.
Severus slowly turned and saw his father leaning against the kitchen's door's frame, a bottle of beer in his hand.
“Where have you been?” Tobias Snape repeated.
“I've been with Lily in the woods by the river,” answered Severus quietly. “You said yesterday that I could go, sir.”
“Yes, I did. But I also said that you were supposed to be at home at five. What time is it now?” Severus' father asked ominously.
“Six ten,” whispered Severus, his throat tight from fear.
“I can't hear you, you miserable brat!” shouted Tobias suddenly, making Severus jump.
“Six ten, sir,” Severus said louder.
“Yes. You're late more than an hour. I had to cook myself,” complained Tobias and took a great gulp from the bottle. Despite his terror, Severus thought that it wouldn't hurt his father if he prepared a meal from time to time. “To the kitchen, boy. Now.”
The frightened boy didn't move.
“To. The. Kitchen.”
With great effort Severus moved his trembling legs and followed his father to the kitchen. Tobias put his bottle on the counter and looked at his son, a sadistic grin on his drunken face.
“Take off your trousers and pants and lean on the table,” he ordered.
Severus breaths and heart rate quickened and he was almost sick from fright. But he didn't dare to disobey his father. He had quickly learned what would happen if he did. He lowered his slacks and briefs and leaned on the wooden table. Then he heard his father pulling out his belt and couldn't help a whimper from escaping his lips.
“Please- sir- please, I'm sorry- I won't do it again-” Severus was begging. Severus hated himself for pleading with his father but he was unable to stop himself. His pride was long gone, anyhow.
“That's right, you won't. And I'll make sure of it,” said Tobias and brought down the belt on his son's scarred buttocks.
At first, Severus felt relief. Today he was going to get only a beating. He had feared for something much worse. Then he felt pain from a belt's buckle hitting his sensitive behind and bit hard his lower lip to prevent himself from crying out. Tobias was hitting his son harder with each strike but Severus still refused to scream even though his lip was bleeding profusely and tears were streaming down his face. But when one blow tore his skin and drew blood, Severus couldn't hold it anymore and screamed. This seemed to satisfy his father. After several more strikes, he stopped the beating and, grasping Severus by his greasy hair, said in his face:
“Go to your room, boy. And forget about supper,” he put his belt back on, took his bottle and left the kitchen.
Severus wiped blood and tears from his face and gingerly pulled up his briefs and trousers, wincing when the cloth scraped over his bleeding buttocks. He knew he would be unable to sit for a few days. Slowly he ascended the stairs and headed to the bathroom. He quickly washed his face and brushed his teeth, avoiding his reflection in the mirror. Having no strength to take a shower, Severus went to his bedroom, feeling gnawing pain in his stomach. He hadn't eaten anything that day, except a sandwich with cheese at breakfast.
The boy entered his room and checked the magical notebook, hidden under a bed. It was glowing slightly, indicating that Lily had sent a message. Severus opened it and read:
You ran so quickly that I didn't have time to ask. Will we meet tomorrow?
I'm sorry but I can't. My father was very angry for me being late. He won't let me go, Severus wrote.
Lily's answer appeared after a few minutes. That's a pity. Let me know when you'll be able to meet. I hope everything is fine. I love you. Goodnight.
I love you too. Sleep well.
Severus hid the notebook and lay down on the bed, not bothering to change into pyjamas. He turned to his stomach and gently covered himself with a blanket. He felt so sad and hopeless that he wanted to cry. However, he managed to control his tears, reminding himself to be strong and never give up and that soon, this hell would be over. Only five weeks more. He had to survive, if not for himself, then for Lily. With this decision in mind, Severus used Occlumency to clean his mind from all emotions and memories and fell asleep almost immediately.
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