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Black Dog	By : Kimmimaru Category: Harry Potter AU/AR > Slash - Male/Male Views: 4222 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Chapter Four: Fool in the Rain

James stood outside the flat, he pushed the buzzer and waited patiently but again no one answered. He huffed and turned to walk away but before he could he heard the familiar roar of a motorbike and stopped. The street curved around a corner to his left, he turned his head in that direction and saw the huge bike roaring into view. He grinned as Sirius skidded to a halt and kicked the stand, he cut the engine with swift, practised movements as he lifted his head and spotted James. He climbed off the bike and ran to his friend, he flung his arms around James’ shoulders. “Jamie…go drinking with me.” He whispered softly, there was a catch in his voice that made James agree.

“Let me use your phone so I can call Lily, we were supposed to go on a date later…”

Sirius pulled away with a small frown. “Oh…then it’s not an issue…we have plenty of time to hang, don’t worry.” He tried to smile but it didn’t feel right on his face so he gave it up as a bad job. “Come in, man.” He unlocked the door and they stepped into the flat.

“Sirius, what happened?”

Sirius stood in the kitchen making some tea, he paused in the act of adding sugar. “My father’s in hospital.” He said slowly. “I went to see him.”

“What?! Why?”

“Because Reg wanted me to, you know I can’t refuse that kid anything.”

“But you hate him…” James paused as Sirius handed him a steaming mug of tea and settled down on one of the cushions. “What did he say?”

Sirius gazed into his mug with a blank face. “The usual lines…” he sighed heavily and put his tea on the floor. “Alphard left me some money.”

James grinned. “That’s brilliant!”

“Not really, Mum and Dad have put their lawyers onto it…I won’t see a penny.” He lay down on his cushions and gazed up at the cracked ceiling. “Jamie…there’s something I should tell you…something I’ve never told anyone before…”

There was a knock at the door, Sirius swore and scrubbed at his face roughly before standing up. He opened it roughly. “What do you want?” He snapped at the person on the other side.

“Is that any way to greet an old friend?”

Sirius felt his mouth drop open as he gazed at his visitor. “No!” He whispered, eyes widening like saucers. “It’s impossible!”

The boy at the door smiled and shook his head. “No, it’s me.”

“Remus John Bloody Lupin!” Sirius laughed as joy filled his heart, he reached out and yanked Remus off the floor in a giant bear hug. “It’s been forever!”

“Ugh…” Remus wriggled free of Sirius’ embrace and took a gulp of air, he laughed softly. “I’m back!” He said with a smile.

“Don’t I know that voice?” James stood and moved to the door, he stood behind Sirius and spotted the guest. Suddenly a bright grin spread across his face and he laughed happily, pushing Sirius aside he grabbed Remus into a tight embrace. “Fuck! It’s little Moony!” He gasped and released Remus enough to hold him at arm’s length and look him up and down. “Wow! I thought we’d lost you for good, mate! This is awesome!”

Remus shrugged slightly, still smiling. “I’m back in the country now…are we going in or will we stand out here forever?”

Sirius pulled James backwards and dragged Remus into the flat. “Welcome home, Moony.”

Remus smiled softly and dropped his rucksack on the floor. “Moony…I haven’t been called that in years.”

“It’s because you were obsessed with werewolves.” Sirius laughed. “Tea?”

“Yes please, I’m gasping!”

James plonked himself inelegantly down onto a cushion and patted the one at his side, Remus joined him and gazed around the place with curiosity. “So, man, how’s Germany?”

“Oh, it’s wonderful! The forests there are stunning and there’s all kinds of fascinating historical places…ah, thank you Sirius.” He took the mug of proffered tea from his friend and took a sip, he pulled a disgusted face. “Ugh…still can’t make tea for yourself then?”

Sirius pouted. “I try…I just can’t get the balance right…Mr. Kreacher was good at it…” He gazed into his own cup mournfully. “Hell, I can’t even use the bloody toaster.” He waved his hand towards the neglected looking device.

Remus laughed, filling the space with sunlight. “I missed you both.”

“We missed you too Moons, it’s been wrong without you here…” James said with a fond smile, he pushed his glasses further up onto his nose.

“So, Sirius…I knew you had moved out of James’ but is this all you can afford?” Remus gazed around the bed-sit with a wrinkled nose. “Even I can afford better…”

“It’s ok, I’m my own man and that’s what counts.” Sirius’ grin held a note of bitterness that told Remus he had missed some important events.

“So, catch me up…what’s the deal?”

James glanced at Sirius before speaking in a slow voice. “Well, Lily and I are dating…”

“Brilliant! I always knew you two would work through your issues.” Remus sipped his tea again, trying not to make a disgusted face.

“Yeah, well, it was hard going there for a while…I thought she’d never look at me with anything but disgust but eventually, through sheer persistence we got together.” He sighed and his eyes softened. “She’s amazing, Remus…”

Sirius looked away from James’ face. “I got a job doing gig’s.” He said to try and distract himself.

Remus smiled at him. “Wow! That’s amazing, Sirius. Where?”

“The Three Moons. It’s small but it’s a nice venue, the boss is alright as well…I get a good crowd.”

“I’m happy for you.”

“What’s new with you Moonikins?” Sirius asked, he leaned back and lit a cigarette before offering them around. Remus refused with a shake of his head.

“Well, I managed to get into a really good university Fachhochschule für Wirtschaft in Berlin…”

“Art?”

Remus smiled. “Of course. My parents are very happy…” His smile became slightly dreamy and he sighed. “There’s this girl…”

Sirius and James smirked at each other. “A girl?” They asked in unison.

“Her names Ada Eichel…She’s beautiful.”

“Ah…lookit him! He’s all growd up!” James sighed.

“We raised him well, Jamie, looks like he’s trying to flee the nest!”

Remus laughed at their words. “I flew the nest when I left for Germany.”

James and Sirius sighed in unison before leaning towards each other and resting their heads together, the move was so reminiscent of their time at school that Remus suffered a moment of intense nostalgia. He smiled. “Our Remus back once again.” They said, as always with impeccable timing, it was as if they were reading each other’s thoughts. This was something unique to them, it had scared many in their classes.

“So, what’s really been happening here? I had the impression you were discussing something serious when I arrived…” Remus watched Sirius’ face fall and he stood up abruptly, keeping his eyes averted he began clearing up their used cups.

“Yeah, what were you going to say Sirius?” James asked, he watched Sirius’ shoulders straighten as he went to Kitchenette. “Something you’ve never told anyone before…?”

Sirius stared down at the dirty plates in the sink, he sighed and closed his eyes. “I might as well say it…” He whispered and turned around to face his best friends. “I…” He swallowed the hard lump in his throat and frowned. “I don’t know how to say it…” He said quietly, his eyes darkening. “I just…I can’t explain at all…I mean…it’s hard. I’ve kept it a secret for so long…” He ran fingers through his hair and leaned against the work top. “Have you ever wondered why I’ve never had a girlfriend?” He spoke in a voice so quiet Remus had to listen hard to catch it.

“Well no not really, I thought you just liked a shag with no strings…” James said and then he frowned. “Wait…wait a minute…” He stood and took a step towards Sirius. “A-Are you trying to tell me that…that you’re…”

Slowly Sirius lifted his head, his heart was beating far too quickly considering the fact that he was standing still. “I’m…I’m g-gay…” His eyes were dark as he awaited his friend’s reactions.

“You mean…you just like men? You don’t like women at all?” James said slowly.

Sirius merely nodded, he pulled his jacket sleeve over his hand and began fiddling with it in an almost childish gesture. Remus sighed from where he still sat on the floor, he smiled a little. “You know not everyone’s as old fashioned nowadays…”

Sirius gazed at him with wide eyes. “You mean…you don’t mind?”

Remus’ laughter was bright and eased the tension in Sirius’ shoulders. “Of course not! Why would I care about that? You’re still my friend.” Sirius fell back against the work top and lowered his head, his fingers dug into the hard stone and his shoulders shook slightly. James stepped forward but as he reached out to touch him he withdrew his hand quickly as Remus stepped to his side, he grabbed Sirius’ shoulder and forced him to look up. “We’ll never stop being friends, Sirius.” He said with a smile.

“I have the best fucking friends anyone could ask for…thanks.” Sirius’ smile was slow but once it was going it burned bright. He grabbed Remus and hugged him tight, his fingers fisting in his shirt. “I love you man…”

James watched Sirius feeling very lost, he had thought he had known all there was to know about him. The revelation that he was Gay wasn’t nearly as shocking as he had expected, it did however make him feel lost. He felt as if Sirius was changing, slowly turning into a man he didn’t know and the thought terrified him in a way he couldn’t explain, as he watched Sirius embracing Remus he had never felt so alone and as if he wasn’t even there. Finally Sirius released Remus and turned to James, their eyes met for an intense moment and Sirius opened his mouth but no words came to him. James took a slow breath. “Your boss said that you were Bi…” He said quietly.

“Yeah, that’s what I told him…at least then I would still be a little more…manly.” Sirius’ mouth twisted bitterly. “Taking it up the arse isn’t very good for the old Masculinity in you straight people’s eyes…”

James winced at the language and Sirius’ face fell. He should have said something encouraging, to assure Sirius that he was ok with his sexuality, to tell him he didn’t care…but he couldn’t form the words, he simply stood there opening and closing his mouth, rooted to the spot by the shock of realising Sirius wasn’t who he pretended to be. That his best friend had been lying to him for years and hadn’t even bothered to let him in on a secret. “We…we were supposed to be brothers…” James croaked slowly.

“James…” Sirius’ eyes lit up in agony. “Jamie…I’m sorry…”

“James, he’s still Sirius…he’s still the boy we hung around with at school…” Remus said but James shook his head quickly.

“No…no he’s not!” He stepped backwards on impulse as Sirius reached for him. “You’ve changed Sirius…I…I don’t know you anymore! All the drugs, all the lies, all…all the sex! Why wouldn’t you tell me?! We’re supposed to be best friends!”

Sirius’ eyes widened but he couldn’t move. “Jamie…”

“You’ve changed!” James gasped, his eyes darting over Sirius’ face as he tried to find the boy he had once known. “I…”

Sirius sank to the floor and sat there with his hands in his hair. “I’m sorry, James. I knew I shouldn’t have said anything…I hope you can forgive me.”

“F-Forgive…?” James paused, confused by those words. “Forgive what?”

“Forgive me for being…what I am.” Sirius muttered and wrapped his arms around his knees, he looked so small and vulnerable that James felt wrong footed. “I’m sorry but I can’t help it! I hate women! I don’t like their squidgy breasts…their bits…they disgust me…If…If I could change I would, I promise you! I’d become anything for you Jamie…”

Remus raised an eyebrow at James, awaiting his reaction. Slowly James shook himself mentally, he dropped to his knees and grabbed Sirius’ head in both hands. “You twat.” He whispered. “That’s not why I’m angry!”

Sirius frowned and opened his mouth to speak but before he could answer James’ lips were against his, his eyes flew open as his best friend pushed him against the cupboard at his back and he felt those wonderfully warm lips against his own. Heat flushed through his body and he let a soft groan escape him, his eyes fell half-closed as he pushed his fingers into James’ messy hair and dragged him away. “J-Jamie…what the fuck…?”

James looked just as confused as he did. Remus stifled a chuckle and turned his back as he fought for control over his emotions. “I…erm…I…I thought…I don’t…Bollocks.” He released Sirius and sat back on his haunches. “Sorry, man…”

Sirius gazed at James through glittering eyes, his hair was messy around his face and he had a pink-ish tinge high on his cheek bones. “James…do you…?”

“No!” James’ eyes widened and he leapt to his feet, he shook his head quickly. “No…It’s not that…I just wanted to show you that I’m cool with it…With you being gay I mean…”

Sirius felt a little disappointment but the fact that he wouldn’t lose James’ friendship buoyed him and he jumped to his feet. “Weird way of showing me but I suppose I am simply irresistible.” He smirked and James flushed, his eyes narrowing irritably.

“Don’t let it go to your head Black, I’ve got a woman.”

That evening James phoned Lily to tell her of Remus’ unexpected visit, she told him they could rearrange their date and she understood his need to be with his friend. He hung up with a smile and a soft sigh. Sirius’ laughter shook him from his day dreams of his girlfriend and he turned to see Sirius and Remus laughing together, his smile widened and he ran to them…with a jump he landed on Sirius. They rolled around as they play fought, James trying to pin Sirius beneath him and Sirius trying to prevent it. Remus grinned at them both, he had dug out some German beer from his rucksack and they were all rather tipsy. Suddenly Sirius gave a loud yelp as James managed to pin his arms above his head, he was trapped beneath him and they locked gazes. For a long moment it was as if the world had condensed to contain just the pair of them, Sirius’ lips parted slightly and James could see several strands of hair trapped between his lips. No one spoke or even moved for a long moment, James’ own lips tingled as he remembered the feel of Sirius’ he found his body moving of its own accord and before he could stop himself he was leaning forward over his friend. Sirius’ eyes widened slightly in surprise but his head moved to the side almost invitingly.

Remus watched while he sipped his beer, he was interested to find out who would snap out of it first and stop what would potentially be a disastrous kiss. He knew that soft, gentle look in Sirius’ eyes, he recognised it as one he had seen on the faces of many lovers before…Sirius was in love with his best friend. Logic told him it was dangerous and stupid, not only could it put them both in jeopardy but it could hurt a great many people. Remus made to move forward to break the moment but before he could he saw Sirius tense and with a quick jerk of his body he threw James off. Slowly Sirius sat upright, he was smirking triumphantly but there was an air of disappointment about him. “I win, Potter.” He said.

James picked himself up off the floor and grinned. “For now…but you wait! I’ll get you back for that little trick.”

They whiled away the hours drinking heavily, smoking and being rather rowdy. They played games of cards, a board game called Pass-out and eventually their games degenerated into a game of truth or dare.

“Remus!” Sirius declared, swaying where he sat leaning heavily on James and grinning drunkenly. “Truth or Dare, sir!”

Remus considered for a moment before smiling. “Truth.”

“You’re boring…” Sirius muttered as he took a swig of his beer. “Alrigh’ then…have you lost your precious flower?”

“Of course I have! I did in our fourth year if you remember…you tried to ruin it for me.”

Sirius considered for a second before giggling. “Oh yeah! That was at Jamie-boy’s sleep over!”

“Ok, my turn…Sirius, truth or dare?” Remus asked.

“Dare, obviously.” Sirius smiled deviously, he had the familiar glitter of mischief in his eyes.

“I dare you to go outside and run once down the street…”

“That’s no fun!”

“Naked.” Remus smirked.

Sirius rolled his eyes. “Like I care about being naked, Remus! Alrigh’ then…” He stood, handing his bottle to James as he stripped off his t-shirt to reveal a chest with a light smattering of dark hair, he undid his jeans and pulled them down but had difficulty kicking them off his feet. He lost his balance and fell on his arse. “Woah!” He muttered and giggled as he finally extracted himself from his jeans, with one swift movement he pulled off his pants. James was surprised by what he saw, he hadn’t seen Sirius naked since they shared a dorm together. He was lightly muscled and slim but not skinny, his treasure trail was a dark, tantalising line down his abdomen. James tried to stop himself from staring at the rather impressive cock that dangled between his legs but it was as if he’d been hypnotised. Sirius planted both hands on his hips and stood there with a drunken smirk. “Like what ya see?” He asked loudly.

Remus rolled his eyes. “Now get out there and do your dare.”

Sirius laughed insanely and went to the door, he yanked it open and dashed out into the night. Remus and James stared at each other for a split second before laughing, they got to their feet and ran after him. They saw a pale form jogging casually down the tarmac road, occasionally waving at windows. Remus was giggling madly, tears spilling down his cheeks as he gripped James’ shoulder to hold himself steady. “Oh…oh I-I missed…I missed this…” He gasped as Sirius came jogging back, each stride as easy as if he was wearing clothes.

James shook his head with a small smile. “Idiot…” He said fondly as Sirius came to a halt before them, he was grinning manically and his eyes glittered.

“I reckon I gave the old lady in number five a heart attack.” He said with a bark of laughter, he pushed past his friends.

As the night wore into early morning it found Sirius singing, he had his guitar in his hands as he played to accompany his lyrics.

Remus joined in, now far past caring he was so intoxicated. James clapped along with them with a silly grin on his face, his glasses lopsided. Sirius’ voice rose above the others as he closed his eyes, he hit every note smoothly and no one would have been able to tell he had been drinking. Finally they ended the song and lay in a heap on Sirius’ cushions, occasionally chuckling but otherwise they were quiet as exhaustion entered their limbs.

Sirius opened his eyes when he was certain his friends were asleep, he turned his head to look at James’ sleeping face. His smile was gentle and sweet as he carefully reached up and removed James’ glasses, he folded them neatly and put them aside so they wouldn’t get broken. Then, before his nerve failed him he leaned forward and pressed his lips lightly to James’, he only held the contact for a second but he could feel those slightly chapped lips against his own and he shivered in delight before pulling away. He ran his tongue over his own lips, savouring the taste of James as he gazed at him through his hair. “Jamie…” He whispered in a voice that wavered slightly, he smiled to himself and closed his eyes.
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